"Kiss, Kiss" – part 3

Summary and additional notes in part 1.

Author's Note: Last part!

Disclaimer: Do NOT own Degrassi! (I'm not even Canadian!)


Adam held in his pain as he travelled home. He occasionally wiped his eyes while he was on the tram. When he got home and saw Drew watching TV in the living room, he finally broke.

"Adam?" Drew said alarmed as he rushed to his brother. He wrapped his arms around him as his brother sobbed openly.

It was a long time before Adam was composed enough to speak. Drew watched him cautiously, wondering if there was someone he needed to beat up.

"I'm sorry," Adam said in a hoarse voice.

"Don't be," Drew told him. "What happened?"

Adam's lip trembled as he struggled not to cry. "Fiona. Broke up."

"WHAT?" Drew yelled. Immediately he felt bad because his brother looked even sadder. "I'm sorry. Didn't mean to yell… why did you guys break up?"

Adam felt like he was going to be sick. "Bianca."

Drew stared at him for several seconds. Part him wanted to yell at him for being so stupid. However, his more compassionate side had won out. He remembered how bad he felt for cheating on Alli. He hated himself for doing that and it got worse when everyone knew. He knew what it was like to be in Adam's shoes. Though, it was slightly icky that both incidents involved the same girl.

"I'm sorry to hear that, but things will get better," Drew said earnestly.

Adam gave him a look. "How? Fiona hates me," he said pointedly. He added softly, "Not that I can blame her."

Drew nodded in agreement. "You screwed up, but Adam you're human. She loves you. She can't turn it off in one day," he pointed out.

"You didn't see her. She was hurt and angry. I think it's really over," Adam said sadly. He wanted this all to be a dream. He wanted to wake up and find out none of this had happened. He couldn't imagine not being with Fiona. He loved her with all his heart.

Drew shook his head. "I've seen you guys. You have a genuine connection. Always have. It's not like what happened between me and Alli. We weren't in love—"

"But don't you see that makes what I did a thousand times worse? That makes it harder to forgive… if not impossible," Adam fired back.

Drew was quiet for a long moment. "How far did you go with Bianca?"

Adam scratched his head. He didn't want to think about it again, but if Drew could help him it was worth it. "She kissed me."

Drew gave his brother an appraising look. "Just a kiss?"

Adam faltered under his scrutiny. "We made out for several minutes."

Drew nodded, grateful that Adam went nowhere as far as he had with Bianca. Still there were more questions. "How far did you go when making out?"

Adam looked at him confused.

Drew sighed impatiently. "What were you doing with your hands?"

Adam grew uncomfortable. "Does it really matter?"

"A kiss has different ramifications than a series of kisses. Just like making out with only mouth to mouth action is different from full on groping," Drew explained as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. "It's all about determining when you stopped the train. Were you on route or were you almost pulling into the station?"

Adam inwardly groaned at Drew's crude analogy. "Fine," he relented. "Our hands wandered but I stopped her before she took off her shirt."

"You're screwed," Drew blurted out.

"Hey! I thought you were supposed to be helping me?" Adam complained.

"Fiona's not going to appreciate you reached clothing removal stage before stopping. All I can advise is that you give her space and let her work out how she feels about you. Pushing to get back together when there are unresolved feelings is a recipe for disaster," Drew told him.

He was crestfallen. "So there's no hope?"

"There is!" Drew assured him. "But it's going to take time," he warned.

"So what do I do now?" Adam said feeling very lost. Talking with his brother made him feel a small margin better. It distracted slightly from the feeling of his heart shattering in a million pieces – and knowing it was his fault.

Drew looked at him grimly. "We're going to get up, go into the kitchen, and eat some sandwiches."

Adam raised an eyebrow. "That's your big plan?"

Drew shrugged. "It's the only one I've got."



A/N: I know, I broke up Fadam… *Dodges the pitchforks*

Please go easy on the hate mail! Adam's not perfect and these kinds of things do happen.

Let me know what you think!

Update: The sequel to this story has been published. It's called "Radiate".