Beauty Queen of only Eighteen,
She had some trouble with herself,
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else.
Ok I hope you guys enjoy! This story has been in my head for a while and I thought I would give it a go. Please let me know what you think this is gonna be a short story so maybe 3-4 chapters. Please please please review! I really really really want feed back if I should continue with this.
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I don't own twilight or the lyrics.
All I know is that you're so nice.
You're the nicest thing I've seen.
I wish that we could give it a go.
See if we could be something.
Moving here with Charlie for my senior year was the greatest idea with everything that had been happening, but now that I look back at it, I can't decide whether that decision was still the best... At least, not at the moment. Sitting in my mom's old car with tears streaming down my face wasn't really how I wanted to spend my Saturday morning. For some reason my life had always been a magnet for something whether it be danger, injury, heartbreak, or drama. I wish my life were a little more normal but when life gives you lemons... Bombay Bicycle Club played quietly through the car while I was parked in a secluded parking lot of a nature trail my mother took me on as a child before we moved to Sunny Arizona.
I closed my eyes and began to murmur the soothing lyrics to myself, "Can you wake me up, can you wake me up? Is it late enough, is it late enough? There's a story in which my eyes are shut."
I sat back in my worn leather seat of my beat up Mini Cooper just thinking, remembering...watching the events to lead me to this shitty situation.
It was really only a week after we moved into our cozy little house that I met Edward. His dad Carlisle Cullen, the rich famous doctor in the town of Forks, happens to be known worldwide for his work. Edward, along with his mother Esme, was in the library as I was attempting to apply for a job. Everyone was staring at me since the moment I walked in there but only the Cullens were nice enough to actually introduce themselves, that's how this small town worked-everyone knew each other. They were sweet and helpful, I really appreciated how human they made feel verses the five other people in there staring at me like an animal behind thick glass.
Soon Edward's trips to the library became more frequent and we began to really get to know each other. He was the star quarterback of the football team and set to be valedictorian of this year's graduating class. We discussed my move to Forks and my home in Arizona and my dad's new job, how I was liking it in Forks. When he finally got the nerve to ask me on a date I happily agreed, he was perfect. He made my heart race and took my breath away, his gorgeous face was pretty nice too. It helped that he looked at me like I was one of the most beautiful girls he had ever seen. I was only ever looked at that way once before him...
We had a great summer together and grew close, I was looking forward to starting school with not only a friend but a boyfriend. My problems though started my first day of school, when I saw him... That's when everything started. My mind began to drift back to him more and more frequently as school progressed especially sharing an art class together. Edward began to notice a change in me, and I think because he didn't realize, he thought it was because of my mother. Although I wish she were here to comfort me, I was drowning in guilt with unfinished business.
Someone come and, someone come and save my life
Maybe I'll sleep when I am dead
But now it's like the night is taking sides
With all the worries that occupy the back of my mind
Could it be this misery will suffice?
With my eyes closed, I thought back to my first day of school which wasn't hard since it was only two weeks ago.
Edward and I walked hand in hand into the cafeteria and I smiled as we sat down with Emmett and his girlfriend Rose.
"So Bella what brings you to Forks?"
"My dad is the new police chief," I giggled.
"Bella Swan" Emmett asked wide eyed. "Way to go Eddie now we can't have wild parties!" he teased.
Edward just smiled wrapping his arms around me. "That's fine by me."
We all laughed and started eating. I looked around the cafeteria and I saw someone I hadn't seen in almost two years. His blond hair still fell messily over his face while his dark blue eyes shined. He still wore that old wallet chain and had the same tattoo across the side of his hand... Edward twirled my hair bringing me back to reality. He looked at me.
"Are you ok?"
I smiled and nodded. "Yeah I just dazed off for a second."
Edward kissed my forehead and as I looked across the room I watched every muscle tense in his body. He nodded to the blonde next to him kissing her cheek before getting up and walking out of the cafeteria.
I smiled at Edward and told him I was going to go to bathroom. I walked out of the cafeteria, with no clue to what I was doing and ran a hand through my hair as I started to walk down the hallway.
"That was always my favorite thing to do," I heard him tease behind me.
I turned around quickly staring up at his 6'5" height. I smiled softy.
"Of course it was."
He smiled and twirled a lock of hair between his fingers before tucking it behind my ear. I blushed and he smiled slightly before he went serious.
"I know I don't deserve it, but can't I get a hug? It's been too long Belly."
I laughed, despite our situation and our history, standing my toes as his arms wrapped around my waist picking me up. My arms locked around his neck, holding him close longer than a friendly hug should go for. He sighed as he set me down but pulled me close to his chest. His scent was still calming and my memory did it no justice. I began to pull away slowly when we heard a voice behind us.
I looked behind Jasper and Edward's voice pulled me back out of our own little word. Jasper cleared his throat before turning around to face Edward.
"Hey..." he trailed before glancing down at me with a knowing look.
"Um Edward..." I started.
"Hey Bells I'll see you later okay? We need to catch up..."
I nodded as I watched him walk away leaving the awkward air between my boyfriend and I. Looking at Edward, I bit my lip before he started talking.
"That was interesting."
"Jasper used to be my best friend before he moved to apparently here. We lost contact when he left."
Edward nodded shoving his hands in his pockets. I sighed and walked closer to him wrapping my arms around his neck. Slowly his hands wrapped around me holding me close kissing my forehead.
"I'm sorry I'm off," he murmured. "but I can't stand the thought of another guy's arms around you, especially someone... Especially someone I'm not sure what kind of relationship you've had."
I hugged him close. "There is nothing to worry about."
When I told him that I was telling the truth, to be honest I was mad at Jasper. He had hurt me when he left. Now though, what I said has no meaning. I took a deep breath as I got out of the car with my iPod in hand and headed toward the pathway. The air was chilly and smelled so fresh after the rain. The green grass glistened around me as the now shining sun beamed down. I only wish I knew how long that would last.
"No, I'm not color blind. I know the world is black and white. Try to keep an open mind, but I just can't sleep on us tonight. Stop this train, I wanna get off and go home again. I can't take the speed it's moving in." I sang looking up at the trees.
I walked until I got to a secluded spot under the trees, away from everyone; not that anyone was here though. I sat on an old fall tree trunk and just let the music absorb around me. My black worn Docs kicked at the leaves, making them crunch underneath them. I wanted this second to just last a life time. Just me to my thoughts with my fully charged iPod. Soon Eminem came on, rapping Love the Way You Lie and I hummed to the beat. The breeze began to chill me through my black leggings and bright blue worn hoodie. I brought my legs to my chest and sobbed quietly. I missed mom so much. I wish she were here just to hold me. It wasn't fair, she died before she could even see me graduate, or help me get ready for prom.
Then I felt two warm arms wrap around me. I would've jumped but these arms were so familiar that I moved closer into them, embracing their warmth and gentleness. His hand just stroked my hair softly, murmuring sweet nothings to me until I stopped crying. His cold lip ring off set his warm lips that kissed my forehead before he let go of me.
"Bella," Jasper murmured, looking down at me.
"I'm sorry," I whispered. "I just have a lot on my mind."
"I guess I'm not helping," he said looking at the ground, his worn Converse were sharpied and mud-stained.
I stood up and turned, I couldn't face him. "Jazz, it hurts. Its hurts seeing you every day now... When I see you, all I think of is that night you left. It hurts seeing you because I fought so hard to get over you and be brave while Mom was dying."
I heard him sigh as he stood up.
"Bella... I'm so sorry. I... What I did was horrible and I regret it every day. That week was the worst week of my life, I just couldn't face you. You deserved so much better."
"Jasper..." I started.
"But what did you expect me to do Bella?" he asked looking down at me, "Charlie hates me. He can't find one thing to like about me."
I bit my lip and just stared into his blue eyes.
"A proper good bye would've been nice at least. Not you telling me you're leaving until the day you had to go."
He sighed and ran a hand through his messy blonde hair.
"How could I face you? How could I tell you it wasn't gonna work?"
I shook my head and wrapped my arms around myself.
"At least you're happy now. With Maria..."
I looked toward the wet grass. How long had it been just me and him? It's been two years... The trees around us were our only company with the birds. He surprised me when he wrapped his hands around me. Pulling me close. I couldn't help but hug him back.
"I loved you Bella. I really did. When I left I left my heart with you. I'm not happy. I haven't been happy since I left. When I see your smile in the hallway that is what makes me happy. To know that you are finally back here with me. But it pains me to know your with... Him. Him of all people. The perfect guy. Everyone knows it. He's rich, well brought up, the football star...how could I compete with that? But you deserve it Bella. You deserve him and so much more."
I kept shaking my head. "I deserved you. I wanted you."
"Bella you can do so much better than me. You're doing so much better than me."
I hugged him closer to me, nuzzling my face into his chest. His hand stroked my hair softly.
"I love you," I murmured.
He pulled back slowly looking into my eyes and his hand caressed my cheek gently. Slowly he moved closer and I reached up on my toes so our lips met. I missed his sweet lips and cold lip ring against mine. I missed how he knew what he wanted and went for it and how even though he was dominant he was soft and loving. He pulled away slowly leaving small kisses one at a time. He left his forehead against mine and smiled slightly before he pulled completely away leading me back to my car in a silent walk. I knew it was coming but I didn't want it to.
Getting into my car he leaned down and kissed me once more.
"Good Bye Bella,"
"Good Bye Jasper."
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Songs (In Order) : She will be loved by Maroon 5, Nicest Thing by Kate Nash, How can you swallow so much sleep by Bombay Bicycle Club, Sleeping Sickness by Colour and City, Stop this train by John Mayer.