After last night, I woke up the next morning feeling completely like shit. I unpacked my bags, and cleaned up my room a little bit. It felt weird being home. Liss stopped by to see me, but didn't stay long. She and Christian were going out on a date. We still had two days off, so I was stuck, alone, in my room, which was right where I wanted to be. Company wasn't something I wanted right now. I lounged around my room all day, not really sure what I was supposed to do. Dimitri was off with Tasha, erased of most of his memory, and Sebastian was gone to take care of his sick mother, and I'd never see him again. I just sat in my bed, and stared at the ceiling. I missed both Dimitri and Sebastian, but I missed them in two completely different ways. Was it wrong to say I wanted both of them? God, I was turning into a whore. I wanted two men at the same time. I wasn't sure what to do with myself. Liss & Christian were off on their date, doing only God knows what, Sebastian was gone, Adrian was here, but there was no telling where, and I was alone. I was willing to bet money, that even standing in a crowded room, I would still feel just as alone as I did right now. A few tears slid down my cheek, but I refused to fully cry. I did most of that last night anyway. I was honestly surprised that my tear ducts could create anymore tears after the assault they had last night. I sat around, doing absolutely nothing, letting my imagination assault me with memories, and good time's I'd had with Sebastian and Dimitri. I was horrible, so horrible. I laid in my bed, tossing and turning, trying to get comfortable when someone knocked on my door. I was extremely tempted to yell go away, but instead, I got up and opened the door. Honestly, I was expecting a guardian, telling me Alberta wanted me, or Adrian just finding out Sebastian left, and was coming to comfort me. The person standing there, was no who I was expecting. When I opened the door, I gazed up into the deep, chocolate brown eyes of the one and only, Dimitri Belikov.

"Dim.. Dimitri. What are you doing here?" I stuttered. He gave me one of his looks.

"I came here to talk to you about erasing my memory." He said, tilting his head sideways, like a puppy.

"What are you-" I cut myself off. "Lissa." I muttered. He chuckled.

"Yes, its true. She ratted on you. Now, are you going to invite me in… or not. You have some explaining to do." He had a very serious look in his eyes. I wasn't sure I really wanted to let him in. I was sort of afraid. Regardless, I stepped out of his way, and he walked inside. He walked over to my desk chair, and sat down.

"We're you sleeping?" He asked, looking at me, and motioning to my bed. He probably noticed my bed looked like a dog rolled around in it.

"I was trying, without prevail." I said. He nodded. He met my eyes, and his guardian mask slipped onto his face. I knew he meant business.

"Why'd you erase my memory?" He asked. I smirked.

"You came all this way to ask that?"

"Don't change the subject." He snapped.

"You and I fought so much, you were in so much pain. God, you don't understand the pain you were in. I could see it, day in and day out. In your eyes, not even your guardian mask could cover up the pain. Dimitri, you don't understand how hard it was to watch you hurt like that over me. I couldn't leave you like that." I murmured.

"That was my problem to deal with. Not yours." He said.

"I know, but… I just couldn't leave you that way. I refused."

"So, you thought taking away my memory was the best way-" I cut him off.

"It was the only way. I tried talking to you. You kissed me, and got caught. I yelled at you, and you isolated yourself from everyone, and wouldn't leave your room. Its was my only choice." I explained.

"I'm a big boy. I can take care of myself." He said.

"Oh yeah, because you were doing such a fine job before, weren't you?" I snapped. He narrowed his eyes at me.

"I don't remember anything. Any of the fights, any of the pain, I don't remember any of it. All I remember is loving you so much. Everything else is dull, and blurry." He said.

"That's what I wanted. Them to be dulled out so you wouldn't focus on the pain, and would get on with your life." I said.

"I'm pretty sure I didn't want to get on with my life without you."

"That's why I did it. You wouldn't. You'd sit around and mourn me being gone." I said.

"Where is he?" He asked.

"Who?"

"Sebastian?" My face must have changed, because he gave me a strange look. "That was his name, right?" He asked. I nodded.

"He's… he's gone."

"Where'd he go?" He asked. I looked away.

"His mom was sick… and he had to go to Italy to take care of her." He watched my face for a second, and sighed.

"He isn't coming back… is he?" He asked, still watching my face.

"No. He isn't."

"Because of me? Right?" He asked. I sighed, and nodded.

"Roza.. I'm sorry." He started. I shook my head.

"Don't be. He made the choice to leave… not you. You didn't run him off. He left, and I let him go." I whispered. He nodded.

"That's all you could do."

"I know. He could find someone better." I said. He shook his head.

"That's a lie, and you know it." He told me, staring into my eyes.

"Even though I can't really fully remember why, I still feel empty, alone. Taking away my memory wont fix it. It wont make it go away. The fact that I love you will always be there, whether the bad stuff is dulled out or not." He said. He stood up.

"I didn't know that. I thought-" He cut me off.

"I know what you thought… but I am in love with you, Roza. No moroi magic is going to make that go away." He took a few steps towards me.

"I told you awhile back that I found peace with you, and my heart was with you. My leaving never changed that." He said. He was standing right in front of my now.

"I've never felt more at peace.. Than I do right now." He murmured. He didn't free me from his gaze. He moved in closer, only a few inches away.

"I love you Roza. I always have, and I always will." He said. He started in for the kiss, but I scrunched my face up, and shook my head.

"Please, don't." I whispered. He gave me a strange look.

"You'll be gone again, leaving to go back to Tasha's soon. I can't take it all over again. Just… Just go." I said. He took my face in his hands, and before I could react, brushed his lips against mine. The moment his lips touched mine, this fire shot through the rest of my body, and I was begging for more. I couldn't force myself away this time. I reached up, and wrapped my arms around his neck, bringing his body closer to mine. He wrapped his arms around my waist, only pulling my body into the perfect arch of his. When I was finally able to pry my mouth away, I left our faces only a few feet apart.

"I'm not going anywhere. I am where you are. Tasha had me replaced. I'm here. I'm yours. Forever."

"I love you Dimitri. God, I love you so much." I murmured. wrapping my arms around him, and holding him. He smiled.

"It's taken me this long, and I've had to go through all of this, just to hear you say that, just to make you see that you still loved me."

"I'm sorry I'm such trouble Comrade." I said.

"You've always been that way, Roza and I hope you never change." He said. I giggled.

"I'm sorry for leaving. I'm sorry I left you. I wont ever go anywhere, ever again." He murmured. I smiled, gazing up into his beautiful brown eyes.

"Don't apologize. You're here now. That's what matters." I told him, before pressing my lips back to his.

"And I'm always going to be here." He said. In this moment, everything was perfect. Well…as close as it got for me. I lost one amazing man, but gained another one back. I was still aching over the loss of Sebastian, yes, but as for things now, they were as good as they got for Rose Hathaway, what can I say?

A/N: I hope you guys enjoyed. This is as far as I'm going with this story. I know there was so much I could have done with this story, but instead of continuing Dimitri and Rose's life, I decided to cut it off here. I have new projects to work on, and they will be posted up shortly. Keep an eye out for those. (: Thank you guys for reading. I really hope you enjoyed the twists and turns of "What Can I Say".