I Was Late. Too Late.
I remembered; I remembered everything. He confessed his love for me even though it pained him to do so.
"I love you Elena" I could see the love shinning through his crystal blue eyes; but the pain was evident.
He didn't want to be selfish; couldn't be selfish.
"And it's because I love you that. I can't be selfish with you" I could see the tears that were staring to form.
He didn't want me to know; needed me not to know.
"Why you can't know this." I could hear his voice crack with so much emotion.
He believed he didn't deserve me; that his brother did.
"I don't deserve you…. But my brother does" I could hear the sacrifice that he was making.
He wished I didn't have to forget; he wanted me not to have to forget.
"God, I wish you didn't have to forget this." I could hear the pain.
But he knew I had to.
"But you do." I saw the stray tear fall from his eye; that's when I realized. I loved him too.
It's only now, when I'm sat here on my bed. Thinking about everything. Thinking about how he killed Elijah, how he saved my life yet again. That I realize I have been blind for so long. That maybe on that painful night, when he nearly killed Jeremy; did kill Jeremy. That maybe he was right. No he was right. Something has been going on between the two off us. I have been lying to him; to Stefan and to myself. When I told him I love Stefan; it's always going to be Stefan. I was lying; I knew I felt something for him, something more that I what I'm suppose to feel for my boyfriends brother. But I still felt it; but was too scared to acknowledge the feelings; the love I felt. Now I know, I have to tell him. He has to know; needs to know. There's no reason stopping me; no excuse. Stefan and me are on a break; broken up. However you want to interpret it. No reason for me to lie to him; or myself anymore.
It's now; I'm going to tell him. I'm stood at his doorstep, finding the courage to knock on his door. I reach up and lift the knocker and tap it twice. I'm waiting; but there's no answer. I lean on the door slightly and it opens. I smile slightly, and walk in. I look around and there's no sign of him, I call out his name quietly. "Damon!" There's no answer. He should hear; he is a vampire after all.
I decide to check by the bar, that is where he spends all of his time after all.
I turn the corner and that's when I hear it.
The moans of pleasure. My heart drops. I feel sick.
I hear her moaning his name in ecstasy "Damon…. Fuck….Damon….God."
I can feel tears rolling down my cheek as I finally turn the corner; I see them.
Fucking. Having sex. Making love.
I clutch my vervain necklace. I feel dizzy. I feel numb.
I watch them through my tears, she's led on the sofa and he's on top.
I let out a sob, as I feel my heart shatter.
He must have heard me; he turns his head slightly over his shoulder.
Our eyes lock, and his face drops. I see the emotions flash across his face.
I give him a sad smile, through my tears.
Rose pulls him back to her, and I see him give me a last glance before he continues what their doing.
Fucking. Having sex. Making love.
I back away, and walk back towards the main door, clutching my side as I go.
It's when I open the door and the cold night's air hits me that I finally crumble.
My sides are shaking, my legs tremble. I sit on the step sobbing. I pull my legs up to my chest.
I let the tears fall.
That's when I know.
I was late. Too late.
A/N: So i wrote this today because i was bored, i would like to thank you for reading it. Please Review and let me know what you think :)
This is only my second time writing for Vampire Diaries. I hope i was ok?