The next morning when Janet woke up she opened her eyes and saw Eddie sleeping soundly next to her. He was on his side of the bed on his side facing her. Normally when he sleeps he looks so peaceful but this morning he looked like he aged overnight. The peaceful look was gone only to be replaced sorrow. She had no idea when he came to bed. She never heard him come in nor did she feel him kiss her or wrap an arm around her like he always does. They may have slept in the same bed but they may have well of been in different rooms; they couldn't be any further apart than they were right now.
Janet was surprised when she glanced at the alarm clock and saw that it was almost ten. She hadn't slept that late in a long time. She realized how exhausted she had been both mentally and physically. Lying in bed, she thought about the events of the last two days. She couldn't believe how much her life had changed in a matter of days. Two days ago, she was happy; so very happy. She and Eddie were happy. She was looking good and looking forward to a night out with her husband and now all of that was gone and it was because of Matt. She couldn't let him get away with it. The detectives wanted evidence so Janet came up with a plan to get evidence. If she could get evidence then Matt will be punished, hopefully for a long time, and then they could put this behind them and maybe, just maybe they can salvage their marriage. Quietly, so she wouldn't wake Eddie, she slipped out of bed, a plan already forming in her mind.
Janet stood in the park, coffee in hand, looking for a place to sit. She wanted something that was away from plain view of everyone but at the same time she wanted something somewhat isolated. Since Matt had been stalking her, she expected him to approach her; especially considering she was without Eddie but she knew he wouldn't approach her if she was in view of a lot of people. She saw a bench that would be perfect and headed over.
Eddie was still sleeping when Janet left. She had showered and dried her hair in the bathroom that was connected to their bedroom and he never woke which surprised her but when she got to the kitchen she understood why he was still sleeping. Their recycle bin was full of empty beer bottles. He had probably drunk so much that he passed out. It was probably a good thing. She knew Eddie was going to be furious with her when he realized that she had left without him. She left him a note, telling him she needed some fresh air which would probably tick him off more but it had to be like this. She had to be alone.
Janet formed what she considered a very good plan to get a confession out of Matt. Knowing that Marr was the kind of guy who liked to brag and a man who liked to stick it to Eddie at every possible turn she knew he would be itching to tell her and recount what he did to her. She was counting on it. She had a fancy phone that had an amazing recording capacity and she was going to record his confession. She pulled out her phone and started to surf the net. When Matt showed up, she didn't want to be obvious when she hit the record button. It took about twenty minutes for Matt to show up, just as she knew he would.
"Well, well, well fancy running into you here Mrs. Latekka." Matt said. Janet closed out of the internet, hit record and slipped her phone into jacket pocket.
"What are you doing here Matt?" Janet saw that there was a scratch on his face and neck and right then she knew she wasn't a willing participant in her rape. She fought back.
"I was out taking a stroll and I happened to see you sitting here all by your lonesome. You looked like you needed some company."
"Did I need company on Friday night?"
"I wouldn't know what you are referring to." He sat down next to her and Janet scooted away. "Come on darling, don't back away from me. You like being near me."
"What makes you think that?"
"After what we have shared…I know how you feel about me."
"What did we share Matt because I have no memory of sharing anything with you."
"My feelings are hurt sweetheart. I can't believe that you have forgotten already." Janet glanced at him and saw he was smirking and she had to fight the urge to slap it off of his smug face.
"You drugged me Matt. You gave me a drug to make me forget and don't call me sweetheart. I am not your sweetheart."
"You liked it on Friday night." It was working. Since Matt's favorite topic was himself Janet was counting on Matt's narcissistic personality to lead him to confess and if that didn't work she could use his vendetta against Eddie to coax a confession out of him.
"I guess I will have to take your word for it since I CANNOT remember what you did to me."
"Oh Janet, what we did…we did well." Janet sighed in irritation.
"I am so tired of your games Matt." Janet snapped, losing her cool. That couldn't happen. If she got angry he would never tell her what she needed to hear. "Please Matt, just tell me what happened."
"I should probably go. It was really nice to see you again even though I prefer seeing you like I did on Friday night." She had to swallow back the bile that had risen in her throat. Matt reached out to touch her and she pulled away, repulsed. Matt shrugged and stood. "Goodbye Janet. I look forward to our next encounter." Janet had to think fast. Matt was leaving and she still hadn't obtained his confession.
"Well good. Now I can go home and tell Eddie that nothing happened." Matt froze and turned back to Janet.
"No you can't."
"It's been driving Eddie crazy thinking that someone else…you had sex with me." Janet saw a flicker of a smirk. "See when I went to the hospital, they checked me but they couldn't be sure that anything happened because Eddie and I have lots of sex. In fact we had sex before we went out so the tests at the hospital were inconclusive." She lied. The smirk on his face was gone and replaced by anger. "We know that I was drugged but that's all we know for sure. When you came over here I was hoping to find out what exactly happened but you won't tell me anything so obviously nothing happened so thanks Matt. Eddie will be very happy to know that he has been the only one to touch me." Janet began to walk away from Matt.
"We had sex Janet." Matt exclaimed. Janet turned back to him.
"I'm sorry but I just don't believe that. You have given me nothing to make me believe that. Thank you for setting me straight." Matt reached out and grabbed her arm and pulled her to him. "Let go of me."
"What do you want details?"
"Fine. I will give you details." Janet thought that she wanted details but as Matt launched into the details about what he did to her, she felt sick to her stomach and wished she didn't have any but she knew that she needed these details if she was ever going to put this behind her and get the justice she deserved.
"You raped me." She accused when he finished his smug tale.
"I did not."
"I was in no condition to consent and I would never ever consent to have sex with you. You knew that and that's why you drugged me."
"At first you didn't cooperate. I had to hold your arms and legs down but when it was over you were crying because you were so happy." Learning that he had to hold her down, explained the bruises that formed overnight on her forearms and inner thighs that she noticed in the shower this morning.
"Did I…" She had to take a deep breath to keep from crying. She refused to give him the satisfaction of seeing her cry. "Did I cry for Eddie?" She managed to ask.
"You were crying so much, I couldn't take it so I shoved my shirt in your mouth." The image of herself gagged on a bed, made a couple of tears fall. Quickly she wiped her face with the back of her hand. She wasn't done with him yet. She got what she needed to send him to jail but there was one more thing she needed to know.
"Why Matt? You have never shown any interest in me. Why would you rape me?"
"How cute is that? Oh Janet, I have never been interested in you but that didn't stop me from having fun. I enjoy rough sex and you kitten like it rough so thanks for that. I haven't been laid in awhile."
"I wanted to take from Eddie what he took from me."
"What are you talking about?"
"Five years ago, I was going to propose to Ellie Sullivan."
"You and Ellie Sullivan dated?" During her years as the bartender she kept pretty good tabs on who was dating who and she never knew that Matt dated Ellie Sullivan let alone, dated her seriously enough to propose.
"Don't look so surprised. Yeah we dated."
"Did she know that?" Matt glared at her. "I'm not trying to be mean. Ellie was at the bar all of the time, never with you and flirting with anything that had a penis and actually a few without."
"Shut your stupid mouth." He shouted and Janet quickly complied. "Ellie was in love with me." Matt continued. "I bought a ring and asked her to meet me at Sully's where I was going to propose. I had just got out of my truck when I saw them."
"Eddie and Ellie?" Janet dared whispered.
"Yes. I watched them go to his truck and I followed them back to her place. They went into together and he didn't leave until the sun was up and I know because I sat outside all night waiting and watching."
"Maybe they didn't sleep together."
"They did. I saw them through her bedroom window." Janet wondered how many times Matt had watched her and Eddie through her window.
"I'm sorry Matt. Maybe Eddie didn't know Ellie was dating you and obviously Ellie didn't tell Eddie."
"She told him. I know he told her. He played mind games with her and probably convinced her that sleeping with him was the right thing to do so I got even. He slept with the one woman I loved so I slept with the one woman he loved; an eye for an eye and now we are even."
"Even? You think you are even?" Now that Janet had everything she needed she could get mad. "You RAPED me. Do you understand that? What you and Ellie had was probably in your stupid mind. She probably didn't know that you even existed and even if she did then she slept with Eddie willingly. Eddie would never rape someone. You raped me. There is a big difference so you are not even." Before Janet realized what was happening Matt's hand landed across her face with a hard slap and immediately, she tasted blood. "Don't you ever raise your hand and hit me again. That is your one warning." She calmly told him.
"I said shut your mouth. Don't talk about her like that."
"Ellie is a tramp. She would sleep with anything that moved." Janet taunted. Matt raised his hand to slap her again but this time she was ready and moved out of the way. "You are one sick bastard Matt. To think what you did to me was acceptable because Eddie slept with "your girl" as payback is beyond comprehension."
"He deserved it. He deserves as much pain as I had." He shouted.
"What about me? What about what I deserve? Did I deserve to be raped by you?"
"You're nothing Janet. You don't matter. You were a means to an end. You were just a tool for my revenge."
"You are one insane dumb bastard."
"Don't talk to me like that." He yelled, reaching out and grabbing her arm, pulling him to his chest. Now, Janet let her self defense training kick in. She slammed her foot down on top of his. He yelped out in surprise and loosened his grip on her arm. She elbowed him in the ribs; spun around clenching her fist as she did and planted it on his nose as hard as she could. Matt cried out in pain and tried to grab her other arm. Before he could make contact, Janet lifted her knee and sent it into his groin; twice. Matt howled out in pain and agony and fell to the ground, cradling his family jewels.
"I hate you." She cried feeling angrier than she had ever felt before and she wanted Matt to know it. She lifted her foot to kick him.
"Janet…NO." She froze when she heard her dad's voice. Patrick ran over and took her hand, pulling her away from Matt.
"I want to hurt him."
"I think you did."
"Daddy…" Janet burst into tears. "He…he…raped me." She sobbed.
"I know Angel. I know." Patrick wrapped his arms around Janet. She clung to her father and sobbed. After a few minutes Janet pulled away from her dad.
"We need to call the cops." She sniffed pulling her cell phone out of her pocket and stopped the recording. "He confessed everything and I recorded it."
Eddie groaned and buried his head deeper under his pillow as the phone rang; again. He couldn't understand why Janet was not answering the phone. "Thank God." He mumbled when it stopped ringing. He had a hell of a hangover and just wanted to sleep it off.
"What in the hell?" He snapped as the phone began to ring again sixty seconds later. Realizing Janet was not going to answer the phone and whoever was on the other end of the phone was not going to give up he threw the blankets off of him, rolled over and grabbed the phone. "What?" He barked into the receiver.
"Latekka, you may want to get down to the police station." Patrick said.
"Because your wife is here."
"Is Janet okay?"
"Just get your ass down here." Janet's father ordered and promptly hung up the phone.
Now Eddie was worried. He had a sick feeling that Matt had gotten to Janet again and if that was the case he really would lose his mind. He jumped out of bed, threw on some clothes and rushed down to the police station.
"Patrick." Eddie called when he saw Janet's dad. "Where is she?"
"Down the hall in an interview room."
"Is she okay? Did Matt get to her again?"
"Let's just say that she got to Matt."
"What in the hell is going on?"
"Go and find out. She is in the first room on the left." Eddie took off and burst into the first room on the left.
"Excuse me but this is…" Detective Swan began.
"Janet are you okay? What happened?" Eddie asked.
"Thank God. I was so worried." He noticed her fat lip. "What happened? Did Matt do this?" He reached out to touch her lip but she pulled away from him.
"Mr. Latekka why don't you have a seat and we will explain everything." Watching Janet and wondering why she pulled away from him, he sat.
"What happened?" He repeated.
"Your wife decided to play cop and get a confession from Matt." Detective Carrey explained.
"The only way to end this was to get a confession so I got a confession. I taped it on my phone."
"Are you kidding?"
"I knew he was stalking me so I went for a walk to the park and he showed up and I was able to get him to tell me what happened. It was no big deal."
"No big deal? Have you seen your fat lip?" Eddie snapped. "Did that bastard hit you?"
"He did but I hit him back."
"Where is he? Tell me he is locked up."
"Right now, Mr. Lausch is in the hospital being treated for bruised ribs and a broken nose."
"Well is he going to jail? Is what Janet taped enough to put him away?" Eddie asked anxiously.
"We were just getting ready to listen to the recording when you barged in here."
"Yeah. Sorry about that."
"No problem. I understand that you were anxious." Detective Swan said. "Let's have a listen, shall we?"
By the time the recording was done playing, Eddie was physically sick and he wished he never heard what he just listened to. He had so many thoughts about what had happened to Janet in his mind but now he knew exactly what had happened to her and he wished he didn't. He knew that Matt held her down. He knew Matt shoved his shirt in her mouth to keep her from crying. He knew that she cried. He knew that she cried for him. He knew that he didn't come and save her and now, thanks to Matt's own words he knew his wife, his precious wife's rape was his fault and he had no idea how to deal with that fact.
"Did I get everything you needed?" Janet asked.
"Yes you did. We will take this recording to the D.A. and charges will be brought against Matt.
"What charges will be filed?" Eddie asked.
"That's up to the D.A. but from my experience I can see kidnapping, drug and rape charges will be filed. I'm sure that whoever is assigned to your case will be in touch with you on Monday to go over the exact charges." Detective Carrey explained.
"So that's it? It's done?" Janet asked.
"For the most part, yes it's done and it probably wouldn't be if not for you thinking you were a cop." Detective Swan chastised.
"Sorry." She mumbled.
"You took a risk but honestly, I am glad that you did because ninety-five percent of the rapes with roofies involved never get solved because the victim has no memory and no idea who would rape them and it's hell for them so I am very happy that you got closure and we are able to bring a rapist to justice."
"That's why I did it." She whispered, hugging the detectives. "Thank you for all you did."
"It's our job." Detective Swan smiled softly at the woman in front of her. "Now as soon as we get a copy of the recording off of your phone, you can get out of here and try to enjoy your Sunday. " Janet handed her phone to the detective. "It should just be a few minutes." The detectives left the room, leaving Eddie and Janet alone.
"Sweetheart, do you…" Eddie began but Janet interrupted him.
"I'm fine and I don't want to talk right now."
"Please Eddie. Not now. I need to see my dad."
"Really? You want to see your dad right now instead of talking to me?"
"Yes I do because he was here for me today when I needed him."
"I would have been had you told me about your asinine plan." Janet sighed in irritation.
"I am not arguing about this now and I am not arguing about this here."
"So does that mean that you will argue with me about it when we get home?"
"Yes it does."
"Fine." The two took another minute to glare at the other and then Janet left Eddie standing in the interview room alone.
The drive home was short but miserable. The only sound in the cab of Eddie's truck was the radio. They both were angry. Eddie was angry with himself, with Janet for risking herself this morning and of course, he was angry at Matt. Like Eddie, Janet was angry at Matt and the fact that he would be locked up didn't ease the anger; she was angry at Eddie and she was angry at herself for being angry at Eddie but she couldn't help the way she was feeling.
"Janet what in the hell were you thinking?" Eddie snapped as soon as they were in the privacy of their home.
"I knew that the cops would never be able to catch him." Janet threw her purse on the table. "Matt is too smart to get caught and I couldn't live with that. I needed closure. I needed to be the one who caught him."
"You have let the cops do their job. They would have broken him eventually."
"Eventually? Are you kidding me? There was no guarantee that Matt would have been caught and hell, for that to happen, he would have to slip up; make a mistake. You think I should have waited five or ten years for Matt to be brought to justice? No way. I couldn't live like that and neither could you."
"He could have…"
"He could have what Eddie? Rape me?" Janet shouted. "Wait, he already did that. What else could he possibly do to me?"
"He could have hurt you." Eddie mumbled.
"He already did and this time, I was the one who did the hurting."
"YOU should have told me what you were planning. I should have been with you."
"No you shouldn't have. If you were there Matt wouldn't have admitted to anything."
"I would have made him admit what he did to you."
"Yeah because that really would have worked." Janet said sarcastically.
"Your dad was there."
"Not because I called him. Every Sunday morning, he walks to the coffee shop to get coffee and Danish for him and mom and he just happened to be walking through the park at the right time."
"Right time for what?"
"To stop me from beating the living crap out of Matt."
"He deserved it."
"I won't argue that."
"It should have been me. I should have been the one to stop you."
"Guess what Eddie? This is not about you. It's about me. I was the one who was raped. Not you."
"I don't need you to keep telling me that. I know that you were raped."
"You should know since it was your fault." Janet never planned on saying those words out loud and didn't even realize that she was going to say them until they were out of her mouth. Logically, she knew Eddie wasn't to blame for her rape; that was on Matt but right now she wasn't thinking logically and she needed to blame someone. Like he had been hit, Eddie jerked back. No other words had ever cut deeper or hurt more and that was because they were true and Eddie would never be able to forgive himself. Because of his actions, his wife had been hurt. There is no forgiveness for that.
"I always knew my past would come back to bite me in the ass but never…"
"BITE YOU?" She screamed. "Bite you? Because YOU couldn't keep it in your pants and YOU slept with another guy's girl I got raped. I think I was the one who got bit. Not you."
"Baby, I'm so sorry." Eddie cried. "It never should have come down on you. It should have been me. Matt should have taken it out on me." The tears rolling down his face had no effect on Janet.
"He did take it out on you. He did it through me." Eddie reached out for his wife but she pulled away. "Please, don't touch me. I can't handle being touched right now."
"I won't touch you." Janet turned away from him and grabbed her purse. "You're leaving?" She nodded. "Where are you going?"
"I don't know. I just need to go. I need space."
"Yes." Eddie understood that. He couldn't stand himself right now so it was no wonder that she couldn't stand him as well. "Be careful." He requested.
"I will." The second the door closed behind Janet, Eddie crumpled to the floor and sobbed.
Janet got into her jeep and turned the car north. She drove with no destination in mind and two hours later found herself at the cemetery in Rhode Island where her grandparents were buried. More than anything, she wished her Grams were with her. Together she and Grams would be able to sort out the jumbled feelings and thoughts running amuck through her head but since Grams was no longer here, Janet did the only thing she could do. She sat on the ground in front of the cold stone that bore her Grandmother's name and broke down, hoping that maybe from somewhere beyond the grave, Grams would still be there for her.
I know that this was rough. Please hang in there with me. I promise to make it better SOON