Falling in love
Callen knows when it has happened. He knows the exact moment he has fallen in love with the woman who is currently asleep curled to him, with her head resting on his chest and a soft smile on her face. Many people say that we can never be completely sure of the exact moment you fall in love with someone. They even say it's something that happens with time and not in a second.
He doesn't agree with that thought. He knows when he fell in love with her, he remembers the first time his heart skipped a beat just because he looked at her. It's one of those things he can never forget. It's one of those things that make him realize just how lucky he is. He remembers not only the moment he fell in love with her but also the events that lead to it.
Callen is sitting on his desk with a frown on his face. He is trying hard to fill out all the paperwork needed after the day of work but there are some things that he can't even bring himself to write. The simple act of thinking about the day he had causes his stomach to twist and gives him the urge to just grab his car keys and leave the building.
He can't, though. He knows that Hetty will want that paperwork on her desk by the morning.
He has almost lost her today. Callen knows that this is not the first time it has happened and it's probably not going to be the last time either. She's not the only member of the team that has faced a situation like this one but it feels so different this time.
They used her. The Russians had used her to get to him. They had somehow figured out that hitting her would strike a nerve in every single member of the team. They probably didn't know that every member of the team had a different reason to be upset with her kidnapping but it didn't matter because their plan had worked.
They didn't know that Sam would do anything for her because she is like a sister to him. They didn't know this but Sam is one of the few people in this world who would never judge her decisions, even though he doesn't understand them half of the times. They didn't know that Sam had already killed for her more than once, to protect her and to make sure she wasn't hurt by anyone.
They didn't know that Renko would take a bullet for her any day. She is his partner and everyone knows he would die before he let anyone hurt her in any way. They didn't know this but after he had failed during and operation she had gotten shot and he had promised himself that he would never allow her to lie on a hospital bed for two weeks.
They didn't know he would do anything for her because she's different. He doesn't know if there's a better explanation than that one. She's just different. Her smile makes him smile too, even when he's down. The way she acts so strong even when she's breaking inside makes him want to hold her in his arms until he's sure she's okay. The spontaneous sweet gestures she shares with him make him melt. They didn't know this but the only thing he wanted when he saw them with guns pointed at her was kill them with a bullet straight in their heads.
Callen sighs for what feels like the millionth time in just a few short minutes. He doesn't know what do about this situation. He knows he would do anything for her, has known it for quite some time, but the way his stomach twisted when he saw their guns pointed at her was a clear sign something was changing.
His thoughts are interrupted when Kensi walks in and sits on the chair across from his. They stay in silence for a few seconds, just staring at each other without saying a word. They understand each other better than anyone else on this world and that's something that scares them both beyond comprehension. He knows she can read the emotions he can't hide on his eyes but it doesn't seem to bother her. Instead, she offers him a very light smile and grabs his hand.
"I'm okay, G!" Callen sighs and squeezes her hand.
"I know you are but I can't stop thinking about what could have happened today." Kensi actually laughs a bit this time but he knows she doesn't miss the honesty in his words.
"Callen, it's not exactly the first time I've been in danger and I'm sure it won't be the last one either. It's part of our jobs. We've learned to deal with this a long time ago. However, it's good to know that someone would do anything to take me out of there."
"If you've only realized that now you're not as smart as I thought you were." Kensi smiles at him once again and lets go of his hand. They both know there's so much more to say and that his words have a deeper meaning than this but they don't talk about it. It's like a taboo between them. The only thing they can't talk about is the only thing they really want and need to talk about. It's ironic, really, but it's the awful truth.
Callen tries to get back to his paperwork but Kensi has other plans. She gets up from her chair and goes to his side. She grabs his hand and takes the pen away from him. He looks at her questioningly but she merely smiles and grabs his other hand to pull him up. Callen gets up and she grabs his things from his desk.
"I'm in the mood for pizza. Keep me company?" Callen looks at the paperwork once again. He knows Hetty will be pissed at him. He looks at Kensi then and the decision is made for him. What he sees in her eyes makes his heart skip a beat. He sees just how much she needs him tonight. It's not just about keeping her company during her meal. She needs him more than that. He sees it in her eyes. She's scared because she knows things could have gone terribly wrong today.
Callen nods and follows her out of the door. He knows that he will be staying with her tonight. It has become a habit for them. Whenever they have a bad and difficult case they seek comfort in each other. It's something that has become comfortable for both of them.
Callen knows this time is different, though. He can't ignore his feelings any longer. He's in love with her and this realization hits him like a ton of bricks. He's in love with Kensi Blye.
End of Flashback
Yes, he remembers the exact moment in which he fell in love with her. Of course, by then he could have never guessed that only three years later they would be married and with a baby on the way. Now, looking back on every single thing on his life, he can't bring himself to regret a thing. He can't even bring himself to wish something had gone differently. Callen can't regret anything because all the things he has done in his life made him the man he is today.
If someone had asked him a few years ago who he really was, G Callen wouldn't have an answer. Today, he knows exactly who he is. He is G Callen, husband of Kensi Marie Callen and soon-to-be father of Sophia Callen. He wouldn't change a thing.
This is the life he had never dreamed to have and he's loving every second of it.
Yes, I'm an amazing brother!
People, this is the last chapter of Alive. I know that Sarah had originally planned a lot more chapters but she feels like this is enough for now. She will keep writing the missing items of the list, though, and she'll publish them here but not with updates as often as now.
She wants you all to know that she will start working on something new really soon and that she is still working on Handle With Care.
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