"I don't intend on falling in love," she says,
as she he watching him fall
a little bit more
in love with her.
And she doesn't want to feel
(she never wants to feel,
she doesn't want to remember how to be
that foreign feeling of guilt
when she sees the barely masked pain in his eyes,
because she thought she'd stopped
feeling such silly emotions
a long, long time ago
and since when do his sad grey eyes
make her heart ache?
"Oh, you don't?" he says,
hiding the heaviness in his eyes,
his voice vibrating in her ears
and maybe a little bit in
She's the type that incessantly plans
Every single aspect of her life must be
planned for && mapped out
because if she doesn't have control
what does she have?
But that boy with those grey eyes
- Lorcan -
has always been the
unplanned factor in everything.
And she can't decide if she loves it or hates it.
Because he makes her take risks and
do crazystupid things
and he makes her
He kisses her first,
and suddenly all her plans just...
(she said she'd never fall in love...)
"No... you can't..."
and she pulls away
because she's didn't plan on this
and he deserves so much
than her anyways.
She waits, for his eyes to say
well why the hell not
and for him demand that she love him too.
"Oh my god, Molly, get a fucking clue.
I don't want better than you."
He tells her that it doesn't matter if
she intended to fall in love,
she'll always fall
head over heels anyways.
(Oh, god, she hates it when he's right.)
She still says he only thinks
he loves her,
but somehow she knows he wouldn't still be here
if he didn't actually love her.
Because loving her was always a desperate affair.
But maybe she's just worth it,
is what he always says.
HEY I DID NOT DIE JUST RETURNED. I AM SORRY FOR BEING GONE SO LONG I STILL LOVE YOU DO LOVE MEEE? Okay, this Molly/Lorcan if you couldn't tell and it's kinda short BUT I LIKE IT.
OKAY XOXO I WILL UPDATE SOON THIS TIME,