In this fanfic, Tomoyo and Sakura have reached the parting of ways. Sakura decides to go to a college far from Tomoyo. What does Tomoyo think about it? My deepest thanks to CLAMP for creating such characters. This is dedicated to Hikaru-chan. Standard disclaimers apply.

"Tomoyo-chan, matte!"

I stop at my tracks. Nande, Sakura-chan? To hurt me again? My heart can't take it anymore, don't you see? But I would do anything for you, Sakura-chan...

"I wanted to say goodbye to you personally."

I turn around to face her.

Sayonara...

(Tomoyo's POV)

"You're saying goodbye..."

Just as simple as that,

Not even a wave or tip off the hat.

I smile softly at myself...

Never even thought I could say it.

But, am I just wearing a mask?

Trying to keep a perfect smiling facade?

It's hard... very hard...

Living a lie.

The news that we were going

On separate ways

Didn't seem to hit me hard.

For I knew that it would happen someday.

And that 'someday' was NOW...

Did I think that you'll never leave me?

No... I never thought that you'd always stay.

Well... maybe I did...

But I was wrong...

You'd laugh at me now, I know.

Daidouji Tomoyo... your number one fan...

Your bestfriend...

... wrong?

I'm not perfect, y'know.

I wonder what you're thinking

While telling me all this ...

Did you think that I'd miss you?

Did you think that I may not see you again soon?

But I guess, you're still happy.

Considering that Syaoran-kun

And Meiling-san's school is near yours.

Eriol-kun's going to be near mine...

Eriol-kun and I never really got that close...

Maybe it's time we did.

I remember how you told it to us...

Touya-kun was happy, Yukito-kun was beaming at you...

Meiling-san, Syaoran-kun and yourself made plans

On how to meet each other.

Your father and my mother were proud of you...

Naoko-san and Chiharu-san were elated...

Heck, even Eriol-kun was really happy...

Especially Kero-chan...

A small smile escapes my lips.

Kero-chan is happy because he knows ...

He knows that you wouldn't dare leave him alone.

And I envy him for that.

Me?

I'm happy for you, yes I am.

But after leaving me...

Will I still be the Daidouji Tomoyo you know?

Will I still be the same?

Guess not...

Perhaps I'd sit on the swings,

And swing alone.

No one to push the swing...

No one to say hello.

I'll be the same probably...

With that smile on my porcelain cheeks...

Never fading...

Always there...

Perhaps I'd be paler...

Maybe even sadder...

Maybe I won't even

Recognize myself?

Maybe I'd change...

Sakura-chan... was I ever special to you?

Woud you even change if I left you?

Would you even miss me?

I shake my head... No...

You're strong... I'm weak...

Tears... It's not your fault...

I'm making myslf miserable...

Not you...

But there are tears in my eyes...

I'm just happy that you won't see me...

Me turning cold... emotionless...

Me trying to talk to you through the moon...

Me... as a freak...

Maybe I'd stick to my dreams...

Wherein you'll never leave me...

Alone... without a friend...

You pull me out of my daze.

"Tomoyo-chan, you're very special...

To me... I love you...

Friends Forever?"

You stick your pinky out and take mine.

"Friends Forever..." I say.

It silently kills me...

Breaking my heart in two...

'Coz I know that forever's a fake...

A big, fat lie...

Like me...

It's too late, Sakura-chan...

There are too many scars...

And saying 'Sayonara' and

'Friends Forever' in one conversation

Is ridiculous...

Utterly ridiculous... ironic even...

But I need to place a facade...

A baricade for my tears...

So that you won't worry...

And you'll go on with your life...

Sayonara, Sakura-chan...

Good luck...

Ai shiteru, Sakura-chan...

Yumehime Yana Hossuru√£