DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT

A/N: I've had this idea for a while now, but I kept thinking of how I wanted the story to go, and I couldn't help but start to write it...

Alright so this starts our in New Moon, around the Volterra chapters.


Was it only an hour ago Alice and me were racing through Volterra, only to now be waiting in some lobby looking area?

"Edward! Don't!" I screamed as I ran towards him, slamming into him.

Was it only a six months since that fateful night I cut my finger?

Two men came walking towards us.

Was it only a few months ago that Edward left me?

We walked into a grand room, with only vampires in it.

Was it only a year ago that I nearly died by a masochistic vampire?

Edward never let go of me. I thought he didn't love me anymore, why would he stay by my side?

Was it only a a year and of half ago that I fell in love with Edward Cullen. Who is now in that big room, with the Volturi, contemplating whether or not to kill him? I closed my eyes and rested my head on Alice's shoulder, who was frozen in her seat. A few moments later, Gianna - the human receptionist - shook me gently.

"You can go in." She murmured. I looked over at Alice who yelped. She knew something bad was about to happen. My eyes questioned her as we stood up and went through the big doors. She turned away. I started to shake with fear. When we entered I noticed that the only vampire in the room was Edward, and he was sitting on the few steps in front of the three thrones, with his head in his hands.

I hurried over to him and sat down. He looked up at me, and his eyes were all red as if he wanted to cry.

Then he wrapped his hands around me, tightly may I add. "No matter what happens, stay strong." He whispered. "I'll make sure everything falls into place in the end." I pulled away quickly, and stared into his black eyes.

"Edward," I breathed. "What is going on?"

"You'll find out soon." I squinted at him.

He put his hands on my shoulders. "But I need to tell you something." Then he leaned in, and whispered again. "I lied that day in the forest. I did love you." He paused. "I still do."

I shook my head in disbelief. "No, no, no. Edward you don't love me-" Then he smashed his lips to mine. This kiss was different than any one we've ever had. It just screamed, "This is the last kiss we'll ever have."

He rested his forehead against mine. "Don't give up Bella." He said sternly. "Think of Charlie." He was confusing me. I didn't know what is going to happen that make me want to give up on something...

We stood up and he gave me a hug, and then picked Alice up when he hugged her. I noticed him whispering something really fast in her ear, she was dry sobbing. I had a sense something bad was about to happen, and I couldn't help the tears form in my eyes. I ran over and hugged both of them.

Two vampires and a human.

Then I felt cold hands pyre me off. I shivered and looked up to see Felix towing me and Demitri towing Alice out of the doors. I took one look at Edward and knew this was the last time I would ever see him.

I screamed. "No!" I realized they were going to kill him. "NO! Edward!" We went through the doors, and Edward stared at me, telling me with his eyes he was sorry. They deposited us off at the reception area. They started to speak to us but i didn't listen. I just sat there, my heart racing, slowly falling apart. I wrapped my arms around my knees, rocking back and forth.

He's dead. He's dead. He's dead.

Then we left, and Alice dragged me to a different car this time. I didn't cry on the way home. I didn't scream. But I wanted to. I was speechless. I had so many emotions running through me. And I litterly couldn't talk. I tried to, but no words came out.

He's Dead. He's dead. He's dead.

I closed my eyes, not quite falling asleep, afraid of the nightmares to come.

He's Dead. He's Dead. He's Dead.

I don't know how or when we finally got to my house, but I was finally out of my daze. I stumbled out of the black mercedes that i have no idea how I got in. I ignored Alice, and ran into the house. I swung open the door. "Dad?" I yelled. The tears finally started to fall down my cheeks. "Dad!" I fell down in the little hallway. I heard a bunch of voices.

He's Dead. He's Dead. He's Dead.

I shut my eyes, ignoring my Dad's shouts about where I was and what happened. I heard the front door open, and then Alice's high pitched voice chime through. I started to yell. I didn't want her here. Then I felt hands pull me up. But these weren't any normal pair of hands. They were scorching hot. I squinted, and looked up at who enveloped me in their arms.

He's Dead. He's dead. He's Dead.

"Jacob!" I sobbed. I pushed my head into his chest, my tears staining his shirt. "I'm so sorry!"

He's Dead. He's Dead. He's Dead.

"For what?" He asked.

He's Dead. He's Dead. He's Dead.

"I shouldn't have gone!" I cried even harder. He looked at me with concern.

He's Dead. He's Dead. He's Dead.

He rested his head on top of mine. "Shh. It's okay Bells." I shook my head.

He's dead. He's dead. He's Dead.

"No it's not okay." I protested.

He's Dead. He's dead. He's Dead.

I don't know how long I wailed into Jake's chest, but eventually I heard Charlie ask him to take me to my room. He lifted my up bridal style, and I continued to hide my face while the tears fell.

He's Dead. He's Dead. He's Dead.

My sobs became hiccups as I focused on the sound of his heavy steps up the stairs and the creak of my door as he opened it. He set me on my bed, and I curled up into a ball. I opened my eyes in time to see him walk towards the door. I jumped up and grabbed his hand.

He's Dead. He's Dead. He's Dead.

"Don't leave me." I pleaded. He nodded, and wrapped his arms around me.

He's Dead. He's Dead. He's Dead.

I fell asleep in his arms, as silent tears rolled down my now red cheeks.

He's Dead. He's Dead. He's Dead.

A couple of hours later, I bolted upright in my bed. I wasn't in Jacob's arms anymore. Could I have been dreaming about all of this? No, that pain I experienced felt too real. I heard voices downstairs and recognized Charlie, Jacob, and Alice's voices. I stared around my room, my thoughts choking me, drowning me.

He's Dead. He's Dead. He's Dead.

Why is he dead?

I can't live without him.

I started screaming uncontrollably, a gush of tears rushed out of my swollen eyes.

Now I knew what he didn't want me to give up on...

Life.


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