A/N: This is for Neurotic-Idealist..i know..it's late...I'm sorry, i didn't give myself enough time, i changed the song a million times, was busy and...well, enough excuses!

The oneshot is here! I own nothing. Holly belongs to Neurotic-Idealist!

that is all, mahalo & enjoy!

xoxoxo

Angel


Breakeven

by The Script

For Neurotic-Idealist


I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven

Mike ran a hand through his hair as he walked down the hallway. His other hand gripped the strap of his duffel bag as he walked. He felt bored, and lonely. Mostly lonely.

His heart was heavy as he walked into another arena, alone, without Holly by his side. He had been so stupid, and pushed her too far. Why couldn't he just trust her? He sighed heavily, he didn't have an answer.

Holly was now free, without Mike and his insecurities to hold her back.

Just like every other day, he found himself praying she would come back to him.

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

Mike turned into catering, searching for his best friend John Hennigan, but instead he was met with the sight of Randy and Holly. The Viper had his arms around Holly from behind as she talked animatedly with a group of Superstars and Divas. She looked so happy, smiling and laughing.

Holly's smile just made Mike's stomach twist uncomfortably, knowing he was the reason she had never smiled around him. But now she had Randy, someone who would take care of her and put her first.

It made Mike sick to think about how at night she would crawl into bed next to Randy and fall asleep with her head on his chest. While, on the opposite side of the spectrum, Mike would sit on the edge of the bed before sliding into a supine position. Then he would close his eyes and sleep with resist. He's blink his eyes open and stare at the ceiling for hours just thinking about his broken heart.

What am I suppose to do
When the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces

He looked back at the happy couple, who were now sharing a soft kiss aside from their coworkers gazes. A lump formed in Mike's throat and he looked away, the regret washing over him. He was stupid to not realize it before.

Holly was the best part of him and now, he'd lost that and his life, and heart, were falling to pieces.

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

Mike slid into a seat beside John. The Shaman of Sexy studied his best friend, knowing he wasn't doing well. He searched his brain for something to say.

"You'll bounce back man, don't worry about it." The words were hollow.

They both new wise words wouldn't stop the pain. Mike couldn't even stop the pain, though he wished he could.

His heartache wouldn't end because Holly had moved on while Mike just wasn't ready to let go.
What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)

Mike leaned back in his seat, staring at the wall across from him. His appetite was gone, so he just sat. He didn't have any words, or a voice to speak them.

As he watched Holly and Randy talk and smile and laugh, Mike realized there was nothing in his life that brought him happiness anymore. His world was covered in a haze of gloom. He was depressed, melancholy and unable to fix any of it.

It was like a neverendin nightmare, and it was as if he could see his heart crumbling and falling right in front of his eyes.

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh
'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name

The world around Mike seemed to fade as his blue eyes focused on Randy holding Holly. She held the hearts of both men, but seemed oblivious to it. No pain or heartache damaged her everyday functioning. If it did, she would have Randy to lean on.

Mike had no one. She had left,taken everything she had in one suitcase, leaving the blame to him. Mike couldn't make sense of the whole situation. It was insane, it was heartbreaking, it was unfair.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break

No it don't break, no it don't breakeven, no

Mike sat up, gasping for breath, blue eyes stretching wide open.

It was a dream.

"Mike? What's wrong?" Holly asked, rubbing her eyes and sitting up.

Mike turned to her, smiling at the beautiful woman that was his. The nightmare was over and he had awoken to reality. His reality consisted of Holly, loving Holly, and making the best of life.

He cupped her cheek in his hand and kissed her softly. "Nothing's wrong."

"Oh," her eyebrows furrowed, "okay."

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I supposed to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

He tilted his head to the side, "Holly, do you know that you're the best part of me?"

The Boston native rolled her eyes, "go back to sleep." She told him before laying back down.

Mike laid down beside her, wrapping her up in his arms. "I love you," he whispered.

"I love you too."

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)