The big white house, in the living room the entire front part of the house is glass. The living room was a soft beige with a black grand piano in the center of the room. There is a plasma TV on in the background, but no one is watching it. The aroma in the room smells of honey suckles roses and a slight musky smell. The aroma is one of a kind, something you would never forget. The aroma is coming from the skin of all the overly beautiful people in the room, its not perfume or body spray, it is just the natural smell of these gorgeous people standing in the house. To match the walls, were white couches that no one seemed to sit on.
There was Jasper and Emmet waiting to greet Edward and I as we walked in the door to his house, just past them was Alice and Carlisle with huge smiles on there faces! It was always chilly in the Cullen's house because they never needed heat, and yet there ice cold and rock hard skin was always soothing to me. Everyone was making me dinner; they were always so exited when I would agree to let them cook for me. I noticed that Emmet suddenly disappeared from the kitchen; I turned to look for him and found him waiting at the bottom of the Cullen's grand stair case for his Rosalie to descend. She looked very graceful as she walked down the stairs at a very human pace. She gave me a very smug looked as she walked out of the house with Emmet knowing that she had just taken one of my favorite people with her.
Carlisle had just finished making me a feast of all my favorite foods pizza, pasta, and French fries. He was for all intense of purposes the "dad" of the Cullen family with his wife Esme. Edward was standing behind me just watching as I'm about ready to start eating, making me feel slightly uncomfortable. Jasper no doubt feeling what I was feeling fixed my emotions' for me as he often did. It was something I was grateful that he could do because I need a lot of calming down when I was in the Cullen house. I shoot him a glance and he responds with a smile. Edward no doubt reading Jazzes mind turns to Carlisle to compliment him on his cooking skills.
When I finish my feast Jazz goes to get the desert, much to full to eat I politely excuse myself from the table and ask Edward to play me my lullaby on the piano. He agreed with a smile as he walked me over to the piano. I took my usual seat next to him as he began to play. It always amazed me at how just two hands could play the beautiful music that he did. When he was done I took notice to the time, it was much later that I had expected. I hadn't driven to the Cullen's house, Edward had picked me up in his Volvo. I was tired but I didn't want to go home, unfortunately Jazz was always one step ahead of my emotions. He informed Edward of how tired I was and Edward insisted on taking me home immediately. I was always grateful that Edward couldn't read my mind though I knew he wished he could. Instead of having Edward drive me I asked
"Jazz would you be willing to run me home?"
"I don't think that's a good idea" Edward interjected.
"I don't mind Edward it would be no inconvenience to myself" Jasper replied
"I'm only worried that the adrenaline rush would keep Bella from sleeping" Edward replied with an edge in his voice.
"I promise I will go straight to bed, I wont even turn on my bed room light I'll just hop in bed and go to sleep" I said with a pleading smile.
"Straight to bed" Edward commanded shooting Jasper a deadly stair.
"Oh, thank you so much Edward" I said running to give him a goodbye kiss.
"It's not fair that you have that effect on me" he said sarcastically
"Yes well I'm just trying to even out the playing field" I said as I walked toward Jasper
"Ready?" he asked, holding out his arms for me to jump up into.
I jumped up into his arms and he was off. Vampires were so fast and strong I sometimes felt like a soap bubble in there presence slow and easy to break. Running with the Cullen family was one of my favorite ways to travel. After I was sure we were a safe distance from the house I asked Jasper to stop running. He gave me a puzzled look but slowed into a casual walking pace.
"Are you ok?" he asked
"I'm feeling a little sick" I replied
"No your not, in case you forgot I feel what you feel."
"Oh well in that case I just want to talk" I replied my face breaking out into a blush, embarrassed that I was caught in my lie.
"Edwards going to kill me when he finds out I didn't run you straight home"
"Well don't tell him" I smiled smugly knowing that was impossible, because Edward would just read Jaspers mind when he got around to it.
"I have a feeling that he will find out, especially if he goes to your room to check that your safe and he finds that your not there" he replied with a sigh.
"Well why don't you stay with me tonight?" I asked slightly embarrassed by the thought.
"That would hurt Edwards feelings and I'm not sure he trusts me around you yet" he replied.
"Well I trust you and that's all that matters when it comes to my safety."
"NO!" he replied
I knew that Jasper was picking up on my annoyance.
"Oh come on please" I begged
"Absolutely not" he replied with his serious voice. In the same second he stopped walking and gave me his serious look before he asked
"Are you ready?"
"NO!" I said trying to copy his serious tone. I could tell that Jazz looked a little stunned by my response.
"I want you to put me down right now Jasper Cullen" I commanded. He did as I said.
"Bella I need to get you home" He said putting out his arms for me to jump into. Instead I turned and walked away.
"And were exactly do you think you're going?" Jazz asked
"I'm going home" I replied
"Well you're going the wrong direction" he said with a laugh
"Jasper I think that I would really like for you to leave"
"Bella I'm sorry"
"If you're really sorry then will you stay with me tonight?" I asked pleadingly
"You know I can't do that" he replied.
Suddenly Jasper was standing two inches away from me with his arms out,
"Please" he said with a grin.
I looked into his eyes knowing that wasn't the best idea, I couldn't help but smile, but I knew if I wanted to get my way I would have to stay on the ground and refuse the temptation he was offering. I did the only thing I could think of
"Edward!" I screamed as loud as possible. I knew we were deep enough into the forest that no one else would be able to hear me, but I also knew that vampires had super human hearing so Edward would be able to hear my scream. Jasper stood looking at me stunned, because he couldn't believe what I had just done.
"Do you have any idea what you just did?" he asked sternly.
"I told you that I'm not letting you carry me home." Edward was there in less than a minute.
"Bella what's wrong, Jasper what happened?" he asked before I had a chance to even greet him.
"Nothing Edward; Jasper you can leave now Edward will take me home."
"I'm sorry you felt you had to do this but it doesn't change anything." Japer replied with a frown. He was gone before I could answer him.
Edward looked at my expression which I can only guess looked sad and angry. I felt horrible as soon as I realized what I had let happen. Yet I was still slightly angry that I didn't get my way. Now I had to deal with what I had brought on myself. I turned to look at Edwards face finding it looking all to compassionate.
"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked
"No, will you please take me back to your house so we can get your car I don't really want to run all the way to my house?" I asked glumly
"Ok but we have to run to my house." He answered with a slight smirk. I knew how much he loved to run with me but I really didn't feel like it anymore I just wanted to go slow human pace.
"Can't we just walk?" I asked already knowing the answer.
"It won't be a long run and I can take it slow if you wish." He replied his smirk turning into a slight frown.
"No run at full speed I just want to get there" Even though Edward was a good foot away from me I jumped straight up into the air and Edward caught me like I was a feather. He took off running at full speed as per my request. We reached the Cullen's garage within a minute or so.
"Thank you." I said still in his arms I reached up to give him a quick kiss. He smiled and opened the door of his Volvo and placed me gently inside. He got in the drivers seat started the car and we were on our way, I watched as the big white house disappeared into the blackness.
"What are you thinking?" he asked after a minute of silence.
"I'm thinking how wonderful you are and how grateful I am that you heard me tonight and that you cared enough to come see what happened." I replied as nonchalant as possible.
"Well of course I came. Why wouldn't I?" he asked
"You must have known I was safe with Jasper and that if I was in danger he would have run me to you."
"Love, any time you call for me I will be there." He replied taking my hand.
"So would it upset you if I read Jaspers mind about what happened tonight?" he asked in a whisper.
"I would prefer if you did, so I don't have to explain it to you." We pulled up to my house, Edward was at my door before I realized that the engine was off, he walked me to my front door and gave me a kiss goodbye.
"See you in my room." I said with a smile.
"I'll race you there." He replied and then he was gone.
"Oh that's fair." I whispered into the blackness of night. I walked into my house to find my dad on the couch half asleep.
"Hi, dad sorry I'm late won't happen again; night" I said not bothering to stop as I started up the stairs.
"Yea, yea I've heard that before." He replied. I made it up my stairs and to my door; I took a breath before opening it. I found Edward on my bed.
"I win" he said as he got up to pull me into his arms back onto my bed.
"I like it when you win." I answered in response to his actions. I noticed that he took a slightly uncomfortable pause before he started talking.
"So do you want me to go get Jasper so he can stay with you?" he asked.
"What are you talking about?" I asked too shocked to come up with anything else. I should have known he would read Jaspers mind but I was thrown off at how quickly he had done it.
"I read Japers mind as soon as I heard you yell." He replied with a guilty smile.
"Oh! Well aren't you mad at me?" I asked sheepishly.
"Of course not Jasper is my brother and I'm glad you enjoy spending time with him.
"I just like that he can keep me calm."
"Oh and I don't keep you calm?" he asked jokingly.
"Please, every time you touch me my heart just about gives out." Edward gently pushed me away from him. "What are you doing?"
"Well, I don't want your heart to give out." He laughed. I wiggled my way back into his arms and inhaled his amazing aroma.
"I think I'll survive!" I said as I closed my eyes and drifted into sleep.
I woke up feeling extremely hot. I was sweating under my covers which only happened when Edward wasn't there to keep me cool at night. I rolled over to read the clock and it read 1:45. I sat up to see where Edward had gone and found something I wasn't expecting. I saw Jasper sitting in a chair about ten feet away from me.
"Did I wake you?" he asked.
"No, the heat did. I usually turn the heat up at night because Edward always lies next to me to keep me cooled down."
"Oh well do you want me to keep you cool?" he asked shyly.
"I think that's a good idea. I mean I would hate to think about what Edward would do to you if he found out you were letting me over heat." I responded sarcastically. I got up dizzily, trying to make my way to him but instead I found myself tripping over something, only to find myself in Jaspers arms. "Thanks." I said blushing.
"Your welcome." He replied smoothly.
"So did Edward make you come here?" I asked apologetically.
"No, he told me that whatever makes you happy makes him happy and that if I wanted to stay with you that it would only pleas him so here I am."
"Whatever makes me happy?" I repeated with a laugh. "I'll be sure to remember that one."
"Am I keeping you cool?" he asked.
"Yes you're a natural at it. So Jazz why…" he cut me off.
"I see our fight is over."
"What?" I asked confused.
"You called me Jazz" he replied
"Well of course I did that's what I always call you." I laughed
"No, when you're upset at me you call me Jasper."
"Oh really I never noticed." I replied embarrassed.
"Everyone knows that's when you're upset at me." He laughed
"Do I do stuff like that when I'm upset at other members of your family?" I asked.
"Well the only people you get mad at are me and Edward."
"Yes, well you know what they say you only hate the ones you love." I replied.
"I never knew that." He said surprised.
"Well of course I love everyone in your family but you had to know that you and Edward were always my two favorites."
"That's not what I meant, I knew I was always special to you but I never thought you… loved me." He choked out.
"Oh well of course I love you." I replied as I snuggled up into his arms and slowly drifted toward unconsciousness, I heard him whisper in my ear…
"I love you too."
I woke up surprised to find myself in my bed which is not where I remember falling asleep. I turned to roll over and found Jasper next to me.
"Oh hello Jazz did you sleep well?" I asked poking fun at the fact that Vampires can't sleep.
"Well I imagine that you slept better than I did. Are you cold?" he asked pulling slightly away from me.
"NO! I'm hot." I replied snuggling up to him.
"I agree" he snickered.
I turned to take a look at the clock this time it read 5:30. It was still much too early to be awake but I knew there was no way I could fall back asleep especially with my company.
"What's wrong? Jazz asked.
"What do you mean what's wrong, I'm fine."
"Then why are you feeling anxious?"
"Oh it's just the time; I was hoping it was later." I reassured him.
"Are you hungry? Do you want me to step out so you can get dressed? What do you need me to do? Are you thirsty?"
"What's with all the concern?" I asked in response to all his questions.
"Edward told me to make sure that I remember your human needs even if you don't."
"Ah I see, well then I guess it's time for breakfast." I got out of bed and walked to my door, down my stairs and into the kitchen. I sat at my usual chair, waiting for breakfast; I looked up to see Jasper with a confused look on his face. "Oh, I forgot it's been a while since you've made breakfast, don't worry about it I had to show Edward too." I got up and garbed a pop tart from the pantry, and then stuck it in the toaster. "See easy." I said with a smile. "I'm really glad you came to stay with me last night Jazz I know you didn't really want to but…"
"Bella don't even start the only concern I had about staying over was that it would hurt Edwards feelings and I would hate to do that."
"So what you said last night…" I let my sentence trail off to embarrassed to continue.
"You said it too." He said with a grin.
"Yes but I really meant what I said; and I just don't want you to have to feel like you had to say it back.
"Don't feel embarrassed." He said.
"I'm not!" I lied.
"I can feel that you are, plus you're blushing. You don't need to worry I would never say anything I didn't feel."
"Good I'm glad." My pop tarts timer went off, I was about to get up and get them but before I could move there was a plate with my pop tarts on it right in front of me. "Thanks" I said taking a bite of the pop tart.
"Do you want me to get anything else for you?"
"Jazz… all I want you to do is sit right next to me" I pulled out the chair next to me.
"What time is Edward coming over?" I asked.
"Whenever you call him" he responded.
"Well, when are you leaving?"
"I'm meeting Alice in half an hour to go hunting."
"Ok." I said with a sigh. I looked at the clock it was 6 a.m. "Can I barrow your cell phone so I can call Edward?" I asked
"Whatever makes you happy" he said with a grin to remind me of what Edward had told him. Jasper handed me his small silver phone, I opened it and dialed Edwards's number, and he answered on the first ring.
"Hi Edward, will you come and pick me up at 7:30?" I asked.
"Yes of course but would you mind telling me where we are going?
"How about we drive through the forest?" I heard a slight sigh. "It would make me happy" I said shooting a glance at Jasper. I knew Edward didn't really like to drive, he preferred to run, as did I but I wanted a chance to talk and there was no chance to talk while running.
"If your happy then that's what we will do I will pick you up then. I love you."
"Love you too, goodbye." I closed the phone and handed it back to Japer.
"Why 7:30?"he asked
"It will give me a chance to get ready."
"Do you want me to leave so you can start getting ready?"
"NO!" I nearly screamed. My response seemed to please him. I took one big bite of my pop tart and then took his and pulled him up the stairs only to find myself tripping over the third stair. I found myself in Jaspers arms. Instead of putting me back on my feet he kept me in his arms and started walking us up the stairs. "I can walk up my own stairs"
"I don't think you can." He replied "I like it better this way anyways." He laughed.
"Yea, it's not so bad." We got to my room and he dropped me on my bed as he went to go sit in my desk chair. I laughed and said "You're not doing a very good job at keeping me cool." I grinned. He came and scooped me up and sat back in the chair me on his lap.
"Better?" he asked with a smile.
"Perfect." Minutes past as I enjoyed my surroundings, when I could suddenly feel Jaspers body go rigid.
"Umm Bella I need to be going." He said in a whisper.
"Oh, ok." I responded with a sigh. Jasper got up still holding me in a cradle, before he put me on my feet.
"I'm sorry." He replied to my sigh.
"I understand you have to eat too." I said trying to smile but couldn't manage a very believable one. He walked to my window ready to leave; he turned to give me one last simile. "Jazz" I said in a whisper "I love you." He suddenly got off the window came and gave me a quick but very passionate kiss.
"I love you too." And then he was gone. I felt a smile spread across my suddenly hot face, before I realized what had just happened and that it was not good. I started to think of Edward what would he think? Will he be mad? Should I tell him? I suddenly started searching through my room looking for my phone as soon as I found it I dialed Edwards number. He answered on the first ring again.
"I see were not very patient this morning, can't even wait two minutes of begin alone." He joked.
"Can you come over right now? And please hurry." I could tell he heard the distress in my voice.
"Is everything alright? Did you and Jasper get in another fight?" he asked.
"I'll explain when you get here just hurry please."
"I'm on my way I'll be there soon." Then the line went dead. As soon as it did my mind drifted to Alice. She must have seen what happened between me and Jasper. She was always looking out for my future and I'm sure she did the same for Jaspers. Why wasn't she here ripping my head off? Was she mad? Would Japer tell her what happened? My train of thought was interrupted by Edwards's sudden appearance in my room. I ran over to him and just started apologizing,
"I'm sorry Edward, I'm so, so sorry. I'm a terrible person; I did the worst thing possible." I said my voice hysterical. He grabbed my waist and pulled me into his lap as he sat in the rolling chair by my desk. He started to comfort me. "Don't you even want to know what I did?" I asked surprised he didn't really seem to care.
"Only if you want to tell me," he replied in a soothing voice.
I buried my head in his chest before I could reply "I kissed Jasper." I couldn't feel a response in his body language and I was to chicken to look at his face, a long minute passed before he spoke.
"I'm not mad at you love." Is all he said?
"Really you should be." I replied stunned.
"If you don't mind telling me why did you do it?"
"Well last night I was telling Jasper how much I loved you and him and he told me that he loved me too, so this morning when he was about to leave I told him again…"
"That you loved him?" Edward asked.
"Yes, so he told me he loved me back and then he kissed me before he left." I finished trying to calm my voice down.
"So it would seem that Jasper kissed you." He replied with a slight amount of shock in his voice.
"Oh I guess that's kind of true, but…" he cut me off with his laughter. "What's so funny?" I asked completely confused.
"Your getting all worked up over nothing, a small goodbye kiss means about as much as a goodbye hug does especially to a vampire." He replied. All I could do was nod because I knew it meant much more that he thought but I was too embarrassed and to chicken to tell him what the kiss really meant.
"Ok so are you ready to go?" he asked.
"Can I have a human minute so I can get ready?" I asked glancing up at him.
"Of course I'll wait here." He said releasing his iron grip around me.
I went to take a shower, the hot water helped relax my tense muscles, I stayed in the shower until the hot water ran out. I was too nervous to go back to my room so I decided to blow dry my hair which is something I never did. When I ran out of things to do in the bathroom I walked to my closed door took a deep breath before opining it. To my surprise I found nothing or I should say I found no one. Edward was nowhere to be seen, I noticed a piece of paper on the chair that Edward had been sitting in. The paper had my name on it I unfolded the paper and it read in the most beautiful writing
Went to see Jasper be back soon stay safe I love you.
My mouth dropped open in response to the paper I suddenly felt really dizzy, I went to fall on my bed before I could crash into my floor. Worry overwhelmed me, I had nothing to do but wait. I changed my cloths half a dozen times just trying to find thinks to keep me busy. 20 minutes after I had found my empty room Edward suddenly appeared in my room, before I could say anything I was locked in Edwards's arms his lips smashed against mine. I felt the tension in his jaw but didn't care because there was no better feeling than Edwards lips on mine. I had to break away for air and regretted that I did because it gave my mouth a chance to talk.
"Why did you go see Jasper?" I asked breathlessly.
"Well he really came to see me." He turned to go sit in my rolling chair; he didn't break his grip on me so I ended up in his lap which was a place I enjoyed. "It's a long story, and it's not really mine to tell, but don't worry I know Jasper plans to come and tell you himself." He said tightening his jaw in the end. "Would you like me to go get him so he may explain himself?"
"No, I don't want to move I'm much too comfortable for that." Even though I was dying to know what happened I didn't want to upset Edward and just knowing that Jasper was planning on telling me was enough to keep me waiting. Eventually we made it out of the house; Edward took me for a drive in the forest in his Volvo. It was one of my favorite things to do but I knew he didn't really enjoy it he would rather run everywhere. I also enjoyed running but driving was more relaxing and that's exactly what I needed right now.
"I'm going to have to take you home early tonight. I'm going hunting with Rosalie and Emmet" He said breaking the silence, as he turned onto the main road. I looked into his eyes to see how dark they were. His eyes were black with a slight gold tint in them.
"Oh yea your eyes are getting dark."
"Yes and this will give you a chance to talk to Jasper. I will only be going 20 minutes away to hunt so don't worry I'll be close by."
"Oh, ok when will Jasper be coming by?" I asked.
"As soon as I drop you off," he replied in a detached voice.
"Your not fighting with Jasper are you?" I asked feeling guilty.
"No don't be absurd I just want to give you to some… privacy so he can tell you everything he has to say." He said ending in a growl.
"Are you uncomfortable with me being alone with Jazz?"
"No, you'll be safe I trust Jasper with you."
"I know I'll be safe but will it upset you if I'm alone with him? If you're happy I'm happy." I said trying to lighten the mood.
"If your fine with it then so am I." he finished, as we pulled up to my house. It had just started raining I turned to give Edward a goodbye kiss.
"Don't be gone too long." I said as I opened the door to leave.
"I love you."
"I love you too." I said as I started to run through the rain. I didn't stop running till I was inside my kitchen, my dad was gone for the weekend he went to visit an old friend and wouldn't be back for three days. I was walking toward the living room when I tripped over the rug in the hallway, instead of finding myself on the floor I found myself in a pair of ice cold arms. I looked up to see Jasper.
"You really need to be more careful." He said.
"I kind of like finding myself in this position." I smiled. Jasper set me on my feet but didn't let go of my hand as he led me to the couch in the living room. I sat right next to him and he released my hand. "So I guess you have something to tell me." I said in a serious tone.
"Yes but I'm not sure how to start." He replied
"Well the beginning would make things a lot less complicated." I joked
"Well Bella, Alice has decided to leave, and I'm not going to be going with her. She has found someone else."
"What do you mean she's found someone else I thought you two were soul mates, and by leaving to do mean leaving the Cullen's? And is it permanently?" I asked stunned
"Yes, she will be leaving permanently but she is not the only one who has moved on." He said taking my hand. "Bella I love Alice dearly but I am crazy in love with you."
"Jazz…" was all I could think to say. "What about Edward?"
"I have spoken to him and we have come to a decision, if you would like to stay with Edward then I will leave with no hard feeling towards you or Edward. If you want to be with me then we will disappear together the Cullen's are Edwards proper family and I can't stay after what I'm doing to him and what I'm asking of you." I was too shocked to speak. A thousand different emotions were running through me all at the same time.
"I can't…" was all I could get out.
"Please take your time in deciding, me and Edward can wait and please follow what you truly want. I took a moment to compose myself before speaking again.
"Where's Edward? Is he going to come over? Are you going to leave?" I asked everything in the most rational voice I could manage.
"I will be leaving to let Alice come over and speak with you and Edward will come over if you call him as will I."
"When will Alice be here?"
"She will be arriving any moment so I will be leaving." He said standing up to leave. He made it to the door before he left I turned back toward me. "Bella I love you." I was speechless not knowing the right thing to say, but I knew I couldn't let him leave without telling him how I really felt.
"Jazz I love you too." I said with a small smile on my face and this was a real smile. Then he was gone, before I could even start to comprehend what had just happened I heard a knock on the door.
The new beginning
"Can I come in?" I heard Alice's small voice ask.
"Oh Alice of course," I replied automatically standing up to greet her even though I wasn't sure I was strong enough to stand. Alice came dancing in, she had to be the most graceful vampire of them all she would put any ballerina to shame. Her short black pixie hair was fluttering next to her cheek.
"Oh Bella you look dreadful, I see I just missed Jasper."
"So it's true then, you're really leaving?"
"I'm afraid so, but don't worry I'm leaving to be happy, I've found my other half; so to speak."
"How did you find him?" I asked
"Well I haven't yet, but our futures our set." She said tapping her forehead.
"Why do you have to leave? Why can't you stay with the Cullen's?"
"Well, Zachery isn't like the Cullen's Bella, he's not a vegetarian he drinks the blood of humans and I don't want him anywhere near Forks while he leans to control his thirst."
"So you'll turn him into a vegetarian? Does that mean once he's controlled his thirst you will come back?
"Yes but it will take decades for that to happen."
"Now let's talk about you. I've seen everything that's been happening to you and I have to say that I'm quite surprised how all the vampire boys seem to be crazy about you." Alice joked.
"You and me both," I responded.
"Well you really couldn't have two better people to choose from Edward and Jasper are the two most wonderful people in this whole world. You really can't choose badly. And I am confident in telling you that they both love you unconditionally."
"I'm not worried about who I end up with, I'm worried about who I don't. I know I don't really deserve either of them but I don't know if I can break one of their hearts." I said honestly. "Because I love them both too."
"Then answer me this, who can you not live without?" she asked thoughtfully.
I couldn't come up with an answer, I looked at her puzzled. I had never really thought about it like that, and honestly it did put things in a new perspective. I wasn't sure if It was going to help but it was defiantly something to consider. Who could I not live without? I repeated in my head.
"Once you can answer that you'll have your decision." She said with a smile. "I have to be going Bella I still need to say goodbye to the rest of my family." She said giving me a hug.
"Alice can you answer me a question about the future?" I asked.
"I can try."
"Do you still see me becoming a vampire?" I asked
"Oh, most definitely that part of your future never changes the person doing it and the place seems to change but you always become a vampire." She said honestly.
"Will you promise me, that you'll be there when I wake up from the venom?"
"Yes I promise I will be there, goodbye Bella."
Then she was gone I could feel the tears in my eyes starting to well, but I didn't want to start balling all alone in my house so I decided it was time to make the hard choice. I went to my room to start thinking over the decision I had to make. It took me hours to even begin to factor in all the different problems and such with choosing either Edward or Jasper. My senior year had just ended so I could always leave with Jasper with an explanation of going away to college but if I stayed with Edward then I could stay close to home. After going round and round I thought back to what Alice had said "Who can you not live without?" she had asked me. After I thought of that for another few hours I had my decision now I just needed to tell him. I went to the phone dreading the call I had to make. I dialed his number and he answered on the first ring.
"Hello." He answered.
"Hi, Edward do you think you can come over?" I asked my voice in a whisper.
"Of course I'll be right over." He responded his voice as cold as his skin. I knew I didn't have much time before he would be over; I tried to stay calm while I waited. He was suddenly in my room standing at the edge of my room. I got up to give him a hug and a kiss.
"Hi, I'm glad you came." I said after a moment of silence.
"Do we have to go over this again any time you call I will come." He responded with a slight laugh. I pulled him over to my bed so I could sit down my legs were a little unsteady and I didn't want to pass out. He sat down next to me and I turned to look at him.
"Edward I love you so much and I can't even believe I was lucky enough to have found someone like you."
"I love you too Bella and I'm the lucky one." He said flashing my favorite grin.
"You're the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I never thought I could ever love someone as much as I love you, but Edward I can't." I said as I started balling. "I just can't see myself without Jazz, this might be the biggest mistake I ever make but I have to take the chance. I know I never deserved you but…" he cut me off.
"You deserve everything in the world and more, and if you think that he can give it to you then I understand and I want you to be happy." He started getting up he kissed me on my forehead. I knew he was about to leave and I was so torn to just take it all back and be with him forever but I knew I could never really know if I could be happier with Jazz then if I tried for myself.
"I'm so sorry I do truly love you." I said in a blubber of tears.
"I believe you, and I'll never stop loving you." He said.
"Will you come see me when I become a vampire?" I asked knowing I didn't deserve it but I had to ask.
"If you want me there then I will come and see you, but I can't promise I will stay long but I promise I will come and see you after you've changed. I love you Bella, goodbye." Then he was gone.
I heard his last words in my head over and over again "I love you, goodbye." Every time I played it over and over the goodbye sounded like it was forever and I was so scared that I would never see him again. I sat in a ball on my bed for hours crying. I felt empty like I was hollow, half a day must have passed before I ran out of tears, I decided to look at the time and when I rolled over to look I realized I wasn't alone. Jasper was sitting in my desk chair just staring at me. He must have known what happened between me and Edward, but he didn't say anything. I was frozen for a second before I could think of what to do.
"Are you alright?" he asked caringly.
"I don't know, are you okay?"
"I'm a lot better seeing you," he responded. He got up slowly and walked toward me. He sat next to me and took my hand.
"Can I tell you something?" I asked in whispers.
"Please do," he insisted.
I straightened up, brushed my hair back and looked right into Jaspers butterscotch eyes. "I love you, and I want to be with you forever."
Jasper leaned forward until his face was only inches from mine, he whispered "I love you too." Then he gently put his lips on mine. They were ice cold and rock hard, the best feeling there was to me.
I broke away to ask Jasper the one question I had to know. "Jazz when Edward left me last year I almost died and when he came back I made him promise that he would never leave me again and now I have to ask…"
"Bella, I would never ever leave you. I love you more than my own life. You couldn't push me away."
"That's the best thing you could have said to me right now." I said with a smile.
"So let me ask you this, what do we do now?"
"This…" I leaned forward and our lips met again this time for a very long period of time. When we finally got around to talking again the hard questions started coming up.
"What are we going to tell your father, where do you want to live, are you going to tell your mother?" Jasper had asked me.
The only thing I wanted to know was "When are you going to turn me into a vampire?"
"Is that all your pretty little head can think about?" Jazz asked
"You know Jazz all I think about is being with you. My dad should be home soon do you want to go down stairs and wait, or would you like to just make a run for it now?" I asked pleadingly.
"Lets wait down stairs," he replied pulling me off my bed and leading me down the stairs. "Now I'm not a mind reader but I will control the atmosphere so things don't get out of control. Not that anything is going to happen. Don't be nervous."
"Can you help me not be nervous?"
Calmness fell over me, I was suddenly very relaxed and thinking clearly. "Dam I love you!" I turned and gave Jasper a kiss and skipped down the stairs.
"I hear your fathers car, he is just around the block. Lets sit down and get ready.
Jazz and I sat there for a minute in quite, adrenaline was running through me Jazz set a hand on my shoulder and a fresh blanket of calm fell over me.
"Don't I want to have control of my emotions, I need to feel what I feel."
"I understand but can you at least try and calm down your emotional atmosphere it is driving me crazy.
I felt the calmness disappear and my nerves and worries replaced them. I heard my dads car pull into the drive way then I heard him walk to the door and finally walk in. I stood up and welcomed him home.
"Hi dad, how was your trip?" I asked with a cheesy smile.
"It was good but I'm glad to be home kid, how was your time home alone? I noticed Edwards car is not out front, or is that skyline his?"
"No dad that's Jasper's car."
"Jasper? Edwards brother? What's he doing here?" He asked looking past me into the living room where Jasper was sitting.
"Well dad that's what I wanted to talk to you about."
"Oh geez Bella, what have you done now?"
"Nothing I just want to talk to you about what you have missed the past couple of days."
"Okay lets talk," he replied flatly.
"Bella I think I should be going I have to get home for dinner, but I will call you later." Jasper said coming into the hallway where me and my dad were standing.
"Jazz are you sure you cant stay?" I said leaning into him.
"No I really have to be going. Bye Bella"
"Bye Jazz," I sighed as I gave him a stair that was suppose to communicate to him WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!
"Ok Bella let me sit down before you start with your girl drama." my dad moaned.
"It's really not that bad dad."
He sat down in his reclining chair let out a loud sigh, "alright lay it on me."
"Okay well me and Edward broke up, and now I'm dating Jazz… I mean Jasper."
"I thought you loved Edward? Now all of a sudden you to are broken up and your dating his OLDER brother!"
"Yea that's pretty much it, and he is only one year older than Edward, so you really shouldn't be upset because you didn't like me dating Edward anyways, so really you should be happy if nothing else."
"Well I suppose I am happy Edward is gone but I don't know about this whole Jazz thing." he said suspiciously.
"Dad please don't call him Jazz only I call him that his name is Jasper."
"Alright alright, Jasper then. Tell you what I will do I will give you three weeks before I decide how I feel about your new boyfriend. Fair enough?"
"Yes that's great thank you dad!" I said relieved.
"Yea yea, are you making dinner tonight or are we going out?"
"I already ordered a pizza for you, but I am actually having dinner at the Cullen's tonight, Jazz is waiting outside for me." I lied but I had to talk to him.
"Oh well if Jazz is waiting then by all means…"
"Dad don't call him that! Bye!" I stormed out to find Jasper leaning against his car.
"I though privacy would be the way to go but I knew you would never let me leave without sneaking out. So can I ask you why you told you father you were having dinner at the Cullen's?"
"Well… I was wondering if you loved me enough to do me a favor?"
"I love you enough to do anything," he said leaning forward to kiss me.
I turned my cheek and whispered, "Even facing the Cullen's?"
"Bella I would face an army of new born vampires for you… oh wait I already did. I will take you to the Cullen's."
He picked me up and placed me in his shiny car. He strode to the drivers seat, started the car with a roar, and put the car in drive.
"Before we go can I just tell you that your car is way hot!"
I grabbed his face with both my hands and smashed our lips together, letting him feel all the passion I had built up. "This car is definitely a keeper then," and we were off with a shot forward.
FACING THE CULLEN'S
We pulled up to the Cullen's house in what seemed like less than a second, I was starting to regret my decision as soon as the large white house came into view.
"Maybe this was a bad idea, you know I don't think I want to do this anymore, will you turn around." I said after the silent ride to the house.
"You wanted to do this remember, and besides they already know we are here, you can do this Bella I know you can." Jazz replied smoothly
"Alright then can I ask you for one more favor?" I asked slightly.
"You can ask me…"
"Will you wait outside while I go and talk to them?"
"Mm mm okay if you would like I will wait here for you, but I cant promise I wont ease drop on what your saying."
"Thank you Jazz I love you so much your amazing!" I squealed
"Alright go on ahead, I will wait for you here. I also love you," he said with a quick kiss.
I walked away holding onto his hand for as long as possible before we broke apart. Walking towards this huge mansion like house had never been so intimidating. It was worse than the first time I had ever come to this house to meet the Cullen's. I tapped lightly on the door, and waited a full two seconds before Dr Carlisle Cullen answered the door.
"Hello Bella it's nice to see you, please come in." he said offering me into the house. "Jasper you are welcome to join us in here," he said slightly colder.
"I'm fine here Carlisle but please be kind to my Bella," Jazz sneered back.
"Of course, Bella everyone is exited to see you they are in the living room you know your way around. Please go ahead I wish to speak with Jasper for a brief moment." Carlisle opened the door wider and I walked past him as he walked out closing the door behind him. I glided into the living room where Esme and Emmet were waiting.
"Bella! It's good to see you; I thought I would never see your scarlet face again." Emmet roared getting up in a flash and wrapping his iron grip around me.
"Oh Emmet I… can't… breathe," I whispered.
"Oh sorry I thought I was containing my strength, how's this?" he asked loosening his grip so I could breathe.
"Better and it is great to see you to." I replied nervously.
"Bella I'm glad you came to visit us, I feel just dreadful about what's happened between you, Edward and Jasper. You cant let that stop you from coming to visit us," Esme said in a gentle and warming voice.
"Of course not Esme I will be sure to keep visiting until we move away," I said my voice still in a whisper.
"Well please come have a seat I do want to talk to you about something while you're here," Esme said with a smile.
I took a seat next to her while Emmet excused himself to go and look for Rosalie. I couldn't help but start fidgeting I was still so nervous about being here and I was regretting asking Jasper to wait outside.
"Well Bella you know I love you like a daughter, and I'm glad to see you happy with Jasper. I have to ask you if not beg you to please not move away. I don't want Jasper to move away from us, I know he is only doing it because he thinks he has to. But please don't move away with Jasper it would just break my… well you know."
"Esme I don't want to move Jazz just feels like he would be putting unnecessary pain on Edward, and after everything that has happened he does not want that to happen." I replied my voice growing stronger.
"Well if you talk to Edward he will tell you that he also wishes you both to stay," Esme begged.
"I doubt that, I think Edward wants to be as far as possible from me right now," I sigh.
"No, no he really wants you to stay please go and talk to him," Esme said standing up and pulling me with her. She pushed me in the direction of the stair case. "Please go talk to him I know he wants to talk to you," she said with an encouraging smile.
I slowly walked up the stairs and down the long hallway where Edwards room waited for me. I walked past Jasper's room and I couldn't help but to look because I had never seen his room before. I creaked the door open and when I looked inside there was nothing. The room was beige with absolutely nothing inside.
"He's a quick mover," Edwards voice said from behind me.
I jumped ten feet in the air and found myself in Edwards arms.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you, I thought I made enough noise when I was walking down here but apparently not," he laughed.
"I don't mean to be rude but can you please put me down."
"Are you sure that's what you really want, Jasper is outside and based on the conversation he is having with Carlisle he will be to busy to hear us," Edward said still laughing.
I pushed away from him, and he placed me on my feet, he held onto my hand and led me to his room. I was feeling really uncomfortable, but I did want to talk with Edward, when I walked into his room I barley recognized it. There was no longer a large bed, his book shelf's were empty, and there was cluttered note books every where.
"This is different," I commented.
"Yes well I have had a lot of free time on my hands, so I thought I would read through some of my old notebooks. I just never realized how many I had," he responded.
"Edward I wanted to talk to you about what has…"
He pulled me onto his lap on his couch, it made me very uncomfortable but I let it go. "So let's talk," he sighs.
"Well Edward I just wanted to make sure you was okay, because you know after what I did…"
"Don't feel guilty, you know Bella I have been thinking about you a lot lately and I don't want you to move away. I think it would make me happier if you would stay close and I know it would make your father happy if you didn't move."
"Edward, I don't want to move I just think Jazz feels that it would be easier for everyone if we got a clean…"
Edward smashed his lips to mine, my initial instinct was to pull away but Edward had an iron grip around me, after a second I couldn't help but kiss back. Edward had never kissed me so passionately before and I like the feeling. Jazz and I hadn't reached this stage so it was nice to be kissed like this but I knew it was wrong. I tried to push away but couldn't break his grip. I grabbed a lamp that was on this desk besides me and smashed it into his head. He released with a laugh.
"Was that suppose to hurt?" he asked with a giggle.
"What the hell was that Edward? What were you thinking?" I asked standing up in a puff of anger. "We are not together Edward you cant just kiss me!"
"Actually I can, I mean who's going to stop me. Not you, and don't act like you didn't enjoy that." he snickered.
"What's happened to you, why are you acting like this your being a total jerk?"
Edward stood up, and slowly walked towards me, I backed away at the same pace he walked toward me.
"You're right I'm sorry," He said as he gently wrapped his arms around me. "I just cant help myself when I'm around you Bella you should know that by now."
"Let go I'm leaving Edward I can't talk to you when your acting like this." I tried to leave but he didn't release his grip around me and I was no match for his vampire strength. "Don't be such a goober," I sneered with a smile. Within seconds Jasper was in Edward's room.
"Let go Edward, it's time for us to leave," Jasper commanded.
A second later Carlisle was at the door. "Son let go of her, your scaring her. I know this is hard for you but don't scare Bella you won't forgive yourself if you hurt her," Carlisle said placing a hand on Edward.
"I have never hurt her, and she knows I never would. I love her," Edward sigh releasing me.
Jasper gently grabbed me and placed me carefully behind him. "Yes you do, but she doesn't love you." Jasper said.
"Jazz… please don't," I pleaded.
"Carlisle please move Bella," Edward asked right as he said it he jumped at Jasper. Carlisle had already moved me out of the way, which was good because Edward sent Jasper flying through the wall. They went flying outside towards the forest. Emmet and Carlisle went flying after them to try and break them up. I ran down stairs and out the front door to where Edward and Jasper were fighting.
"Stop it Edward, just stop it!" I screamed.
Emmet was trying to wrestle Jasper away from Edward while Edward was being held back by Carlisle. Emmet was trying hard not to hurt Jasper so he kept losing his grip around Japer so the fight got worse and worse.
"Jazz your scaring me, please stop," I pleaded.
Jazz stopped fighting, and let Emmet hold him back, that however did not stop Edward from attacking Jasper and Emmet. Rosalie didn't stand for that she and Carlisle got on top of Edward and pinned him to the ground.
"You ruined everything! How could you steel the love of my life away from me! What kind of brother are you." Edward hissed from the ground.
Emmet let go of Jasper and he walked toward Edward slowly. "I didn't steal anything from you she loves me. But I am sorry for your loss, you lost yourself and now look at you… pathetic." Jasper was by my side in a flash.
"Are you ok, look at your arm!" His arm was covered in bite marks.
"I'm sorry I scared you, lets get out of here." He said picking me up into a cradle.
"Jazz, I am so sorry I asked you to come here I just never thought Edward would react like this please I'm so…"
"Shh Bella please relax, this is not your fault."
Jasper placed me in his skyline, and then we were off. I was so scared, confused, and feeling horrible. I couldn't help but cry all the way home. When we reached my house Jasper kept driving I looked up at him with confusion.
"I don't want to drop you off looking like this Bella, we can drive for a little bit, I have got nothing but time for you." He whispered gently tracing his fingers along my cheek bones.
"Jazz, I'm really sorry about making you take me to that horrible house; I just wanted to talk to Edward about… ahh I don't know what I was thinking."
"Bella it's alright, I understand why you did it, and I want to talk to you about us and about Edward." Jasper pulled off the road by the beach and got out of the car; I copied him and walked over towards him. I intertwined our hands, and we started walking towards the beach. We walked along time without talking but finally the silence was broken.
"I don't want you to be unhappy, and I don't want you to regret your choice when you chose…" Jasper let his sentence trail off but it was clear where he was going.
"When I chose you."
"Yes, Bella if you want to go back to Edward I would…"
"Jazz don't even think that I would never go back to Edward, especially after today. How he acted just made me happier that I'm with you." I responded honestly.
Jazz stopped walking and turned so we were facing each other, he was a good three or four inches taller than me, but he was staring deep into my eyes. "I cant say that I would have acted any different. His rage was well deserved against me."
"Yes, you are right his rage was well deserved but the fact that he acted on it makes me happy that I'm not with him. You know he has rage it's never been towards me but you have never exploded on anyone."
"It's because my gift makes my emotions easier to control, you of all people should know that. Bella I'm scared that one day you're not going to love me-"
"Jazz that is never ever going to happen I love you," I insisted.
"I know you do but if that changes one day what if I can't handle it and I make you feel like you still love me, then you will only be with me because I'm making you feel like you love me."
"Okay to show you that I love you no matter what I want you to make me hate you, twist my emotions so that I am mad at you and ask me if I still want to be with you," I hissed.
"Bella, I don't want to manipulate your emotions," he sigh.
"You know Jasper! I tell you I love you over and over again and you just won't believe me, when I was with Edward he believed me even when we went through the whole Jacob thing. That was just like this! Ahh I'm so mad why can't you just believe that I want to be with you and no one else! You're so dense sometimes!" I screamed through all my rage.
"Well maybe you should just be with Edward then, so he can make you happy," Jasper sneered back.
"Jasper I don't want to be with him, I don't want to be with anyone but you!" I stormed off walking alone on the beach for about ten steps and when I was a good distance away from Jasper I felt my anger disappear. When I was thinking clearly it hit me that Jasper had given me exactly what I had asked from him. I turned around to see that he had not moved an inch he looked like a statue frozen in time. I smiled to myself and tried to remember the code word that Jasper had told me to say when ever I needed him to come running.
"Goober," I whispered under my breath, so that it was barley heard. Jaspers head snapped up, but he didn't move forward. "Come here you goober," I yelled and he came running. He was there in a flash of speed.
"You always give me what I want, you know I think that is a very good part of our relationship. So now instead of asking I think I'm just going to start taking what I want."
"I don't understand," he said puzzling.
I leaned forward and kissed him, then rocked back onto my heels. " do you understand that?"
"I think I missed it can you show me again?"
I leaned forward and kissed him a little longer, and molded my body to his, he scooped me up so we were on the same level. I started to kick his leg, but he did not understand what I was trying to do. I could feel the questions under his lips.
"I'm trying to knock you down, so we can lay on the beach together," I whispered.
I kicked his leg again and he fell to the grown, we gently landed on the sand, I was on the cold sand while we was on top of me. I could tell that he made sure that there was no weight placed on me. A shiver sent down my spine because of the cold sand and the even colder body on top of me. Jasper didn't let the shiver go, our lips parted and he rolled over onto his side. "Time to get you home and warm you up."
"I'm not cold, and I don't want to be away from you right now, in fact the space between us now is not really working for me," I said as I rolled onto his chest, another shiver went through me as I felt his ice cold skin on mine.
"I will wear a jacket next time so there is no skin contact," he said getting up and pulling me with him.
"Well there will be some skin contact," I said reaching up for a kiss.
"Oh well I think I can handle that," he grabbed me and threw me over his shoulder. "Now lets get you home."
Going home was a fun ride with Jasper, everything was so effortless with him, we laughed the whole time and life had never been greater than right now. Jasper had promised me that he would bite me and turn me into a vampire when ever I was ready. So I was getting things in order. I told my father I had been accepted at Alaska University and that I was going to attend college there.
In the back of my mind there was one more thing I wanted to do, one more person I wanted to see before I was changed. Jasper had bought a small home for us to live in while we got prepared to leave for Alaska. I had to tell Jasper about my one last thing I wanted to do before we left and I was changed. He was sitting in the kitchen working on his cooking skills.
"How is dinner coming?" I asked playfully.
"I think your going to like it, just keep an open mind before, you judge it."
"Okay what ever you say. Look I wanted to talk to you about something kind of important."
He put the cooking utensils down and gave me one of his looks. "Alright talk."
"I wanted to go and say goodbye to the Cullen's before we leave."
"Bella if that is something you want to do then we can do it," he replied casually.
"Well actually I was hoping I could go alone,"
"No absolutely not. I am not going to let you walk into that house with Edward there and me not."
"Jazz, please it is just something I have to do, please, please try to understand," I begged.
"Bella what if Edward gets all over you again like last time, what are you going to do? You are too fragile to be alone with no one on your side."
"Jazz listen to me," I pleaded grabbing both his hands. "The worse thing that can happen is that he kisses me. You know he would die before hurting me, I will be safe in that house."
"I'm just not comfortable with it, my instincts are telling me that this is a bad idea," he answered his eyes softening.
"Trust me Jazz nothing is going to happen."
"Bella I love you and I trust you, but I get to drive you to the house and pick you up. I am also going to call Emmet and Carlisle and tell them to watch out for you. Deal?" he offered, I was fine with all his conditions except for one.
"I don't want you to drive me home, I will have Emmet do it, it cant get safer than Emmet so you have no reason to say no."
He took a pause and then dropped my hands. Terror ran through me like a bolt of lightning. I was relived instantly when he wrapped his hands around my waist.
"Okay, deal I will call over there now and you can go over tonight."
I went to my bedroom and got dressed in a nicer pair of jeans and a dark blue top that Esme had given me for my last birthday. I walked into the living room and Jasper had just closed his cell phone.
"You look nice, are you ready to go?" he asked.
"Yes, and thank you."
It was a silent ride to the Cullen's, I could feel Jaspers nerves, but I wasn't nervous I knew what I had to do and I wanted to do it so I could start my life with Jasper. We pulled up to the house I turned to Jasper gave him a kiss and got out of the car.
He drove away as soon as I was at the front step, watching him drive away broke my heart. I tapped lightly on the door, and was greeted by Emmet only one moment later.
"Come to say goodbye, little sis?" he asked looking disappointed.
"Yes, I am afraid I am Emmet. Do you think you can give me a ride home later?" I asked already knowing Jasper would have spoken to him.
"Yes of course I will," he smiled. For the first time Emmet looked serious. "I'm really sad to see you go Bella, but don't worry," he said perking up "Me and Rose will be sure to visit you in Alaska."
"That sounds great Emmet I cant wait. Where is Rose I wanted to say goodbye."
"She is in the living room with Esme and Carlisle," he said offering me his arm. I took it and followed him into the living room.
"Esme thank you so much for everything, you have been kinder than I deserve and I am sorry that I have to leave with Jasper," I said automatically starting to blubber.
"Oh Bella it is alright, the joy you have brought to Edward in the short time you were together, was a very blissful time for me. Now that you are with Jasper… well I see you make him exceptionally happy. I will miss you both dearly," she said giving me a hug. "Will you please tell Jasper to come and say goodbye otherwise I will have to run all the way to Alaska for him," she laughed halfheartedly.
"I will make sure he comes and says goodbye to you. Carlisle you have been better to me than I have deserved. All the injuries you have helped me with. I don't know where I would be without you so thank you. I am going to miss you so much."
"Bella, it has been wonderful having you in our family for this short time, and I hope you know that I will always consider you family," Carlisle said taking his turn to hug me.
"Rose goodbye and I will miss you," I said pathetically not expecting her to respond much at all.
"This is not goodbye Emmet and myself will come and visit you for Christmas, if you will excuse me I think I left the curling iron on up stairs," she said dashing away in a flash.
"Where is Edward?" I asked taking in a deep breath.
"He is in Jaspers room," Carlisle answered. "Bella just say my name and I will come and help you.
"I'm sure that wont be necessary, but thank you Carlisle-" Emmet nudged me slightly, "Oh and Emmet thank you also for helping me but I'm sure nothing will go wrong."
I walked up the stairs of the Cullen house for the last time in my human life. I walked to Jaspers room, knocked and then let myself in. Edward was sitting against the wall in the empty room.
"I'm sure I look pathetic to you right now, but I couldn't think of a better place to talk to you," he said jumping to his feet. I took a hesitant step back. "Don't worry Bella I wont be so… aggressive. I apologize for our last meeting the way I acted was unforgivable," he sigh.
"Your right it is unforgivable, but I didn't come here for an apology. I need to talk to you about us."
"I thought us was over," he said taking my hands. "Are you rethinking us?" he asked hopefully.
"Edward I've been thinking about us a lot since yesterday… and the way you kissed me. You have to know that I love you, and just because I didn't choose to stay with you doesn't mean I just stopped loving you."
"I love you too, but you know that."
"Yes I do and that's why I have to ask you for this favor," I responded nervously.
"Anything for you Bella," he promised.
"I want you to stay away from me when I leave, don't visit, don't call, just stay away until I ask you to come, and I'm not sure I ever will. Being in this room with you right now is so hard. I feel attached to you and I don't want to leave, I don't trust myself around you, and I'm afraid that I wont be able to leave you if I keep seeing you."
"Bella if you feel that way, then maybe you shouldn't fight it. Just try to be with me one more time, and see if you still want to leave all your friends and family. Your giving up a lot for not knowing that you are one hundred percent sure you want to be with Jasper," he said dropping my hands and pulling me down on the floor next to him.
"I am giving up a lot but I am getting so much more, and I know that I could be happy if I stayed here with you… I mean you have already made me so happy, but I will never be as happy as I am when I'm with Jasper. He honestly completes me."
"You used to say that about me, how can you be sure that you are right this time?" he asked.
"I guess I cant be sure I won't change my mind but I know as of now I am the happiest I have ever been," I smiled.
"I understand, but I cant not promise I will stay away, I don't want to lie to you. I will do my best to keep my distance but I don't know if I can promise I will never come see you."
"At least promise that you will stay away for the rest of my human days," I begged.
"Alright I promise, please call though I want you to want to see me," he smiled.
I frowned because he didn't understand what I was trying to tell him. "I know you do but my point is that I don't want to want to see you. I want you to be forgettable. You are not right now but I'm hoping with time… that you will be," I said sure of my words. I got up to leave but Edward grabbed my arm.
"Bella please don't go, I cant lose you again."
"I need to lose you, please let go," I insisted holding the tears back.
"I cant let you go," his grip tightened.
"You have no choice," I sigh. "Emmet," I whispered.
Emmet was in the room in a flash. "Bro let go of her," Emmet said grabbing Edward's arm. Edward released me, and I turned to walk out with Emmet.
"I love you Bella, please remember that."
"Goodbye Edward," I said with two tears rolling down my eyes.
I made it out the door and my knees just about gave out, Emmet grabbed me before I collapsed onto the floor. Tears were now streaming down my face.
"Cradle or piggy back?" Emmet asked.
"Piggy back please." I was to embarrassed to have him see me crying. Emmet had never really seen me in pain. I knew it was hard for him to see me like this but I was grateful that Jasper wasn't here to see me reacting to Edward like this. Emmet threw me onto his back, and I started to cry into the back of his shirt. "Wait Emmet I don't want anyone in your family to see me like this," I choked out as we were about to walk down the stairs.
"Don't worry Bella only Carlisle is downstairs, and he just wants to say goodbye one more time," Emmet reassured me.
"Okay." I brushed away the tears and got ready to talk to Carlisle for the last time.
We got down stairs and Carlisle was waiting by the front door, I asked Emmet to put me down, he complied and I turned to face Carlisle.
"Bella I know you have been through a lot tonight, and I'm sorry this has been so hard on you. I heard your conversation with Edward and I must say I am proud of you for how you handled it. I would like to ask you that you never call Edward never come back to visit him. Your hurting him badly now and it will only get worse if you come to see him," Carlisle sigh.
"I understand, and I'm sorry for everything I have done to your family. Please know though that I honestly never meant for any of this to happen and I did truly love Edward."
"I know you did, but I need to do what is best for him. I understand why your doing what you are doing. You are a part of this family and so is Jasper, please know that. And please know that I love you as though you were my daughter," he gave me a hug and a kiss goodbye.
I turned to leave, but had to ask. "Carlisle is this the last time I will ever see you?"
"Of course not Bella I will visit you, not soon for Edwards sake but I will come and see you. I will be sure to send Esme with Emmet and Rosalie for there Christmas visit," he promised.
"Thank you Carlisle, I look forward to your visit, I will miss you dearly."
"Goodbye Bella, immortality will suite you well, I am sure of it," he smiled and I walked out of the Cullen house with Emmet supporting me.
"I'm going to go get my jeep then I will take you home, can you sit here for a minute while I get it out of the garage," he asked with a smile spread across his face.
"Yes Emmet I think I can sit on the ground and wait one minute for you," I joked back. He turned to walk around to the garage in the back. The second he was gone Edward was standing in front of me.
"Take my hand Bella," he said his hand stretched towards me.
"Do you trust me?" he asked with the look I knew. Edward had asked me that the very first time we met.
"Yes," and I took his hand. He threw me on his back and took off running.
One bad decision
"Where are we going?" I asked as the tress blurred past me.
"We are running away together," he said and I could hear the joy in his voice.
"Wait Edward, stop I think this is wrong."
"If I stop then Emmet will catch us,"
"I know Edward, I don't want to runway with you."
Edward didn't stop running, "Why did you take my hand."
"You asked me if I trusted you. What was I suppose to say, Edward I trust you but please stop running and let Emmet take me home."
"What would you say if I told you I was kidnapping you?" he asked.
"I would tell you to stop, and take me home, to my husband."
Edward stopped dead in his tracks, "husband, when did you marry Jasper?" He asked gently removing me from his back.
"Yesterday, we went and got a marriage license," I responded shyly.
"You married him but you wouldn't-"
"Bella!" Emmet roared. He snatched me up and didn't stop running. We ran straight back to the Cullen's. Emmet didn't speak until we were in the Cullen garage. "Are you alright Bella, did Edward hurt you? Emmet asked after safely seat belting me into his jeep.
"Yes I'm fine, and no he didn't hurt me. Does Jasper know what happened?"
"What did happen?" He asked intensely
"Well…Edward kidnapped me, and he only stopped because I told him that I married Jazz."
"You married Jazz? Well thanks for inviting me to the wedding, little sis," Emmet laughed.
"Well I actually haven't married him, I just told Edward that because I knew it would get him to stop. Now will you please take me home."
"Sure alright, anything for my baby sister," he laugh rustling my hair. It was a quite ride home. Emmet and I did talk a little about where me and Jasper were planning to live in Alaska, and when he was going to change me. When we had just about reached my house Emmet spoke again.
"Why did you ask me to drive you home, why didn't you have Jasper come and pick you up, or have Carlisle or Esme drive you?" He asked seriously.
"Emmet being with you is the most relaxed way to travel, if I don't want to talk about something you change the subject. You make everything a joke so I'm never stressed out. Your just an amazing big brother." I smiled lovingly.
We had reached mine and Jasper's house, Emmet walked around and unbuckled all the elaborate seat buckles. He walked me to the house and I invited him in, he respectfully declined.
"I have to get home to Rosalie, after all your drama it makes me happy that she loves me and I love her." He smiled gave me a peck on the cheek and walked back toward his jeep.
"See you at Christmas!" I yelled as he was driving away, he honked as he rounded the corner and disappeared.
I walked into the house and ran straight for Jazz. He was sitting on the couch, I ran and jumped onto his lap. There was a thud from me hitting his rock body. There would be a bruise but I didn't care.
"Hi honey!" I said cheerfully.
"You seem unusually perky considering what you just went through," he said confused.
"Well Emmet just dropped me off as I'm sure you know, and he told me how happy he was that he got to go home and be with Rosalie. And I'm just happy that I get to come home be with you."
"I glad that makes you so happy, do you want some dinner there are left over's in the refrigerator."
"No thanks I just want to sit here with you and enjoy the moment."
Jasper got up holding me in a cradle position and walked me into the kitchen, he placed me on the kitchen counter, opened the fridge and pulled out a small chocolate box.
"Oh yum I love chocolate, thank you Jazz." I opened the box and in it was a large diamond ring. It was beautiful, had to be at least three carrots, with a gold band which was embedded in smaller diamonds. On the inside of the ring there was a small engraving that said, Jazz's one true love.
"Oh Jazz it is beautiful," I choked out trying to fight off tears.
"Bella you are the love of my life, will you marry me?" he asked getting down on one knee.
"Jasper, why are you doing this now? Is it because of what happened with Edward?"
"I am asking you because I love you, I was going to wait until we moved to Alaska but after today I couldn't wait, especially after what you just said." He smiled.
I looked at the beautiful ring, and then at Jazz's face. I never thought about marriage before but with Jasper right in front of me I couldn't resist the joy I felt. Edward had asked me if I wanted to marry him and I had told him no, that I didn't understand the purpose of it all. I felt different about this proposal though.
"Yes, I will marry you," I squealed my whole body overjoyed with happiness. I jumped off the counter and landed in Jasper's arms.
He put the ring on my finger, I held it up into the air just to look at it. A tear fell from my cheek, I had never been so happy before in my life. Me and Jasper went down and got a marriage license the next day and we were officially Mr. and Mrs. Jasper Hale. I got a call from Alice the next day congratulating me. We spoke for hours about how her new life had been going and then we talked about all my drama. I called Emmet and told him that Jazz had proposed and that we were married. He and Rose came over later that evening, and I called and told Esme the good news. She was overjoyed for the both of us.
By the end of the week all of our stuff was packed up and we were getting ready to head to Alaska.
"I'm so exited to go to Alaska, I am dieing to see the house! It's not to big right Jazz?" I asked putting the last of my luggage in the back of the car.
"No it's not to big, I know you like things simple," he promised.
He didn't seem as happy, as I was. I could not think of a single thing that could put him in a bad mood. We had been up and packing for most of the time what could possibly have happened. I stopped what I was doing and leaned casually against the car until Jazz stopped in front of me.
"Is something wrong?" he asked.
I wrapped my arms around his neck, he took a step closer so he was right up next to me. "That's what I want to know," I whispered.
He sigh and took a long pause. I could tell he was deciding if he wanted to tell me the truth or lie to me. "Your not a very good liar," I laughed.
"No, your not a good liar, I happen to be a professional at it, but I don't want to lie to you."
He took another long pause, "I don't want you to lie to me either." I encouraged.
"I got a call from Edward this morning while you were sleeping, and he asked if it would be alright if he came over this morning to say goodbye one more time. I told him that I would talk to you about it, and call him later." he took a step back, breaking my grip from around him.
"Well lets talk about it then. If you don't think it is a good idea than you can call him and say no." I smiled hesitantly.
"Do you want to see him before we leave?" he asked leaning against the car next to me.
"Makes no difference to me," I replied honestly.
"Are you sure?"
"Positive!" I reassured him.
"Okay then I will call him and tell him to come on over," he sigh.
"Wait, didn't we just decide that I don't want to see him." but it was too late he was already on his cell. He took a few steps away from me so that I couldn't hear him. He clicked the phone closed, and walked back over to me.
"He should be here momentarily," Jasper whispered as he put my arms around his neck, and stepped closer towards me.
"Why did you do that? We decided that I did not want to see him," I asked.
"No we decided that it didn't matter that if you saw him so I figured that if you didn't want to see him then it was probably safe for him to come over here. But I'm going to stay with you so he can stay in check."
I leaned forward and kissed him, "whatever you think is best."
Someone cleared there voice in the background, Jasper smiled slightly and turned so that my arms were no longer around him. He took my hand giving it a gentle squeeze.
"Hi Edward," I smiled tentatively.
"Hi Bella, Jasper. I just wanted to say goodbye before I lost my chance. I know you told me to stay away but I told you that I didn't think I could."
"It's alright, I understand. I do appreciate that you called first it was very mature, instead of just showing up."
Edward turned so he was facing towards Jasper more than me. "Take care of her. don't let her out of your sight, cause she will hurt her self," he laughed half heartedly.
"No need to worry she will be safe with me, I might not be able to read peoples minds but I am capable of stopping any danger that comes her way." Jasper growled, but in an understandable tone.
"Even from your self? When you changer her don't go to far, cause I will kill you if you hurt her."
"Edward! Please don't go there, Jazz let you come here as a favor to me," I piped in.
"I'm sorry I'm just letting you husband know the future. Congratulations by the way. You were very convincing when you lied to me about that. Just because you lied about it doesn't mean you had to marry him," Edward smiled.
"I married him because I love him," I sneered.
"You loved me but you would not marry me, are you sure that your one true love didn't just manipulate your emotions?" he asked crudely.
"He would never do that," I replied.
"Well Bella either way, I wanted to ask you one more time…" he took my free hand and gave Jasper a sharp look. "He is controlling your emotions right now, did you ask him to do that?"
I looked at Jasper but he didn't look back at me, I couldn't believe that he was manipulating my emotions at a time like this.
"Bella, he is lying to you, you know I would never do that to you," Jasper said barley loud enough for me to hear.
"Are you really going to believe that? Why do you think he is holding your hand, makes you emotions easier to control," Edward gestured towards mine and Jaspers interlocked hands.
Jasper let go of my hand and slowly started to walk away, I grabbed his hand before he took three steps.
"I trust him, and I know he would not lie to me, unlike you. Just say what you came here to say," I insisted.
"Well I wanted to come and ask you if your sure this is what you want, are you sure you want to leave your father and your friends, your vampire family. Are you sure you want to leave me?" He asked his tone going soft and sweet.
"It does hurt to leave my family, all of my family but I will see them again. But I have never been more sure of anything in my life," I replied sure of my response. I couldn't help the tear that fell down my cheek.
"I understand but please be sure to remember that, I will be here for you when you change your mind." he said squeezing my hand.
"I wont change my mind and I want you to move on, cause I will not change how I feel about Jazz."
"I am sure you will, when you to fight and you get out of control, he is going to manipulate your emotions and your going to get tired of being around his lying emotions."
"Well if that ever happens I will be sure to call you, but don't hold your breath," I smiled.
"Holding my breath will be the easiest thing I could do, but I understand."
"It is time for you to leave, we have to be going it is a long drive," Jasper interjected.
I had almost forgotten that he was standing next to me, holding my hand.
"Yes of course, thanks for being so understanding, and letting me come to say my final goodbye," Edward said politely.
"Take care Bella and don't forget that I love you more than myself, and more than my existence," he smiled leaning in for a kiss.
I turned my cheek so his lips grazed the side of my right cheek. "And please try to remember that I love Jazz," I whispered.
Edward leaned back, he tipped his head to Jasper and smiled at me. "Take care of her Jasper, and try to take care of yourself Bella. Don't go falling into the Alaska water. You think my skin is cold the water is worse," he smirked, my favorite smirk and then he was gone.
I took a minute to collect myself, no matter how many times I said goodbye to Edward it was always painful and sad, but it did get easier. I turned and put my hand in Jaspers. "Are you ready to get going?" I asked with a smile.
"Definitely, I need to get out of this small town before I go crazy," he smiled picking me up in a cradle. He opened the car door and placed me gently in side.
"Alright lets go then," I smiled leaning up to kiss him. He smiled and was in the drivers seat before I could blink. "Are you ready for this," he asked revving the engine of his race car.
"Oh I think I can handle that," I smiled. Jasper turned to face me.
"Well alright then," he said giving me a wink and we were speeding down the road in no time.
"So tell me, exactly how long is the ride to Alaska?" I asked after five minutes of silence after the excitement of speeding away had warn off.
"Oh no, don't tell me your going to complain the whole way there, it is a six hour drive till we get to the airport in Oregon,"
"I was just curious, I am so exited to be getting out of here and starting a new life with you."
"Do you think your father will ever forgive me?" he asked.
When we had told my father that I was moving into a house with Jasper he almost had a heart attack. He promised to never forgive me. Of course that didn't work, when I had come over to get the rest of my things we talked about it, and I just explained that I knew it was crazy but that I knew it was for the best. He of course blamed Jasper and refused to see or talk to him. So naturally when I told him two weeks later that I was going to Alaska he just about died. He called the Cullen's and demanded that Carlisle talk some sense into Jazz before my dad beat it into him.