A/N...Hey there! So this is the first of a few outtakes I have planned for this little story. This is more of the past – high school, the story of how Bella got the name Coffee Bean. So enjoy.

It's sort of fluffy...with a squeeze of citrus, but as always the characters belong to SM...but the idea is all mine.

I Shall Believe

Outtake #1: "Coffee Bean"




June 2005...

I watched Lauren pull her shirt back on, stepping around the bed to crawl up next to me.

"Kiss me again, Edward," she begged with a sexy smirk, straddling my bare stomach. "I'm leaving for a month. My parents want to spend the summer at our lake house."

I kissed her, knowing exactly what she was going to say next, because she'd been alluding to it ever since school let out for the summer. This was the last time I would get laid for some time.

She licked her lips, staring at my mouth. "Come with me. My parents know about us. My mother totally is cool about it. We're both eighteen, Edward... Please?"

I cringed internally. A month away from home, Alice, Emmett, and...God, Bella. A month with Lauren away from home. No thank you. She was already grating on my nerves, and we'd only been seeing each other since the beginning of the year.

Though the sex was good, she was so shallow. She was so worried about what people thought, how we looked together, what I wore in public. She hated my sister and friends.

I sighed, shaking my head. "You know I can't, Lauren," I told her, shifting her off of my lap.

I stood up, pulled on my boxers, and turned to see her unbelievably immature pout as she snapped, "Can't? Or don't want to?"

I fought my frustration, shrugging. "My parents wouldn't let me," I lied to her smoothly, because in all reality, my parents knew nothing about it. I hadn't even mentioned it. "Emmett and I have plans to go camping, Alice wants to hit Seattle for that concert. We have the tickets already. I can't, babe. I'm sorry."

"Is she going?"

"Who?" I asked stupidly, knowing her jealousy of Bella was intense.

"Bella, you ass! You know who I'm talking about!"

"She's my sister's best friend. Of course she's going," I scoffed, waving a hand at her.

"You would rather spend the summer in Forks with the dork patrol and that Neanderthal, Emmett, than spend four weeks on a lake, swimming, cookouts, and July Fourth fireworks," she scoffed, rolling her eyes and hopping off the bed to quickly pull her jeans on.

"What have I told you about calling my sister and Bella names, Lauren?" I snapped, my temper on a short leash as I grabbed her arm. Emmett acted like a Neanderthal most of the time, so he wouldn't have even been offended at her remark.

"Whatever," she growled, yanking out of my grasp. "You need to pick, Edward. You're too good for them. You spend way too much time with that brainiac, Bella!"

I laughed, really laughed, because Bella and I had almost the same grade point average. In fact, we were just about in every advanced class coming up our senior year, which I was totally looking forward to.

"We're friends, and be careful what you say. I mean it," I told her, my voice sounding more menacing than I intended.

"It's me or them, Edward. I can't do this anymore. Bella Swan sees you more than I do. You won't invite me to your house, and she fucking spends the night! I swear there's more to that than you're telling me," she said, pointing her finger at me.

I sighed, reaching for my jeans, tugging them on, and pulling my shirt over my head. I needed to get out of there. Lauren's irrational jealousy over Bella was driving me crazy, and it had only gotten worse the longer we stayed together.

"I'm outta here," I growled, grabbing my sneakers. "She spends the night with Alice, babe. And we can't exactly do this at my house, because my mother is always home! Seriously...it's like you don't trust me."

I was just about to her door, when she stopped me. "I mean it, Edward. You either pick me or Bella."

"She's one of my best friends, Lauren. There's nothing to worry about," I told her, but my heart completely constricted at the thought of having to pick. "I'm not choosing, because it's a ridiculous request."

"It's not ridiculous. I'm not stupid, Edward. I see how you laugh with her. The way you fucking look at her. Pick, damn it!" Lauren's eyes filled with tears.

"Please, don't do this, babe. Please?" I begged her, rubbing my hands up and down her arms, but she wouldn't uncross them from over her chest. She just waited for my answer. "I'm not choosing. I mean, I can't. Alice is my fucking twin, Lauren. Don't you get it?"

"And Bella?" she sobbed, looking at my chest and not my eyes.

I flinched, thinking I'd hidden my attraction of Bella better than that, but I must have been wrong. Bella was smart and beautiful and made me laugh. I looked forward to hanging out with her, laughing with her, studying with her, watching TV with her. And the thought of not seeing that everyday, of trading it in for Lauren...I couldn't do it. I couldn't shun her that way. Though she knew how Lauren felt about her and wouldn't be surprised, I couldn't hurt Bella in any way.

"She's my friend," I sighed, taking a step back. "I'm sorry." I shrugged, not knowing what else to say, because I couldn't lose my friends or my sister...sex life be damned.

"Get out," she whispered, her tears finally spilling down over her cheeks. "Get out, Edward!"




July 2005...

"What time do we need to get to the show?" I asked as we walked around the little shopping area in Seattle.

"Not for another hour or so," Alice said, looping her arm through mine as we walked behind Edward and Emmett, who were talking about sports or cars or girls or some nonsense that we tried to ignore.

"Good," I sighed, pulling her closer. "Then can we get coffee or something? This rain is freezing. Edward? Em?"

"Yeah, Bella," he said, stopping and turning to us. "You're cold?"

"A little, so can we stop at Starbucks?"

"Sure, Bells," Emmett grinned, his dimples shining sweetly on the big boy's face.

"Here, you wuss," Edward teased, shirking out of his hoodie. "Put this on until we get you something, okay?"

"Thanks," I chuckled, pulling on the most divine smelling article of clothing ever made. "You warmed it up for me..."

He rolled his eyes, tugging the hood up over my head. "I do what I can to make your life easier, Bella."

We passed a few more shops, before we finally came to Starbucks. The entire time, I was relishing the smell of that sweatshirt. It smelled just like Edward, like cologne and sandalwood and leather and just him. It smelled like his room and his car, and I wanted to bathe in it.

"Come on," Edward chuckled, holding the door open. "Let's get you warmed up."

"Thanks," I said again, pushing the hood off of my head and my heart skipping a beat when he gave me that crooked, sweet smile of his.

"Yeah, sure. What do you want? I'll get it. You two can grab a table," he said, waving my money away when I told him what I wanted.

Alice and I found a spot in the corner and sat down. We talked about the concert we were seeing that night, what songs we hoped to hear, and how hot the lead singer was.

"Is Lauren meeting us?" I asked Alice, who just shrugged.

"I don't think so," she giggled, shaking her head. "She's with her parents at the lake house for another two weeks. I think they extended their stay until just before school starts."

"Okay," I said, dragging out the word. "Well, Edward hasn't mentioned her at all."

Alice just shrugged one tiny shoulder, playing with her phone.

When the boys finally joined us, they were laughing their asses off.

"Damn, Bells," Emmett guffawed, shaking his head. "I couldn't find you. Wanna know why?"

"Why, dork? We've been sitting here the whole time," I snorted, looking between them.

"Because your hair is the same color as the poster of coffee beans right behind you. When your head was turned, I couldn't see you at all!" he laughed, handing me my latte.

I snorted, looking behind me. There was a huge poster advertising bags of coffee, and the bottom was a spilled bag. Alice picked up a strand and held it up to the poster.

"Damn," I sighed, rolling my eyes.

"Matches your eyes, too," Edward chuckled, shaking his head, and when I looked up at him, he quickly found his coffee much more interesting.

"Bells looks like coffee beans," Emmett sang, doing some strange dance in his seat, like the idiot that I'd come to love.

"Shut it, Em," I sighed, turning to Edward. "Here, Edward. You can have this back."

I started to remove the sweatshirt, even though it killed me to do so.

He just held up a hand. "Just...keep it. It suits you," he mumbled, his brow furrowing for just a moment. "Coffee Bean," he snorted, which sent Emmett into another rendition of his song.

"Don't call me that!" I growled, unable not to laugh when it caused him to smile the way he was.

There was nothing as beautiful as Edward's smile – maybe his laugh, but it was a close call.

"Sorry, Bella," he laughed, holding his hand out for me. "Let's get to the arena, Bean."

I rolled my eyes at their laughter, but let him help me up. "Thanks, Eddie," I growled, knowing he hated that nickname.

He chuckled, shaking his head, and threw his arm around my shoulder. "Anytime, Coffee Bean."




July 2005...

"Where the hell are they?" Emmett sighed, looking around at all the tables.

If it hadn't been for Bella's sweet laugh, I wouldn't have spotted her either. "Right over there," I said, pointing to the booth in the corner.

"Damn, Bells," Emmett laughed, drawing attention from everyone around us. "I couldn't find you. Wanna know why?"

"Why, dork? We've been sitting here the whole time," she snorted, narrowing her eyes at him. They argued like siblings sometimes.

"Because your hair is the same color as the poster of coffee beans right behind you. When your head was turned, I couldn't see you at all!" he laughed, setting her drink in front of her.

My head snapped up when my sister giggled and held a lock of Bella's hair up to the poster behind her. The entire thing was filled with coffee beans, a sign showing that you could buy beans to grind at home. Proof that the addiction to coffee knew no bounds.

Addiction. I sighed to myself, taking a sip of my cappuccino.

My relationship with Lauren was completely over. She'd called several times while at her parents' lake house, the last time being the worst. She was so upset – her parents had decided to stay longer.


A few days before the concert...

"Come on, Bella. We can beat them," I told her, tossing the football to her as Emmett pass rushed me. She caught the ball beautifully, dodging Alice's outstretched hands and dancing to the end of the yard. "Yes!" I cheered, pumping a fist into the air.

My phone rang, and I pulled it out of my pocket, groaning when I saw the name pop up on the screen. Bella ran to me, an amazing smile brightening her face, just as I answered. "That's my girl," I chuckled, giving her a high five. "Hello?" I said into the phone.


"Yeah, Lauren," I sighed, walking away from the rest of them as Emmett showed Bella and Alice proper endzone scoring dances.

"Who's your girl?" she growled into the phone.

"We're playing football, Lauren," I groaned, rolling my eyes. "Bella just got a touchdown."

"Whatever. You really are an asshole, you know that? Did you cheat on me with her?"

"What? No! Babe, calm down. I'd never cheat. What are you calling me for? You kicked me to the curb, remember?"

"I thought we could talk this over, but I see now it's useless. Is it worth it, Edward?" she sobbed, her voice muffling just a bit. "Tell me."

I looked down the yard, watching Bella and Alice bump hips with Emmett, all of them laughing and smiling. I couldn't help but snort, shaking my head. Bella's head shot up, and our eyes met for just a moment. She waved me to her, tossing the ball in the air and catching it. She was so beautiful, and my heart constricted as I realized that I wanted more than friendship from her, but I knew I had to wait a bit. I needed to ease Alice into it...but I wasn't sure if I could fight my feelings for much longer.

"Yeah..." I sighed, turning away from Bella for just a moment. "Yeah...it's over Lauren. If you could tell me what friends I can and can't have, then we shouldn't be together."

"Fuck you, Edward!" she snapped, and the line went dead.


"Damn," Bella sighed, rolling her eyes at just how close a match those beans were to her hair, but I saw something else.

"Matches your eyes, too," I blurted out without thinking, because that shit was close, but I truly realized was the analogy was more for the addiction that I had for her.

She looked up at me, and I forced my gaze away from her, because suddenly, I felt hot and uncomfortable at just how much I needed Bella in my life. Lauren had just made me see it more clearly.

She started to hand me back my hoodie, and I stopped her, because just for one moment, for one damn night, I wanted her to wear something of mine. I wanted to stake my claim to her, even if it was just in my head.

"Keep it...it suits you," I mumbled, thinking I needed to snap out of it soon. I needed to turn the whole thing around, or Alice would be upset, and I couldn't have that, either. I smiled, thinking Bella needed a new nickname. "Coffee Bean," I teased, tugging her by the hand as they all laughed.

"Don't call me that," she said, but I could see the smile, the gleam in her eye. Somehow, I wasn't quite sure she minded it.


April 2006...

"Dammit!" I growled, tossing my backpack onto my bed after kicking my door closed. I fell down next to it onto my back, groaning in frustration.

Lauren was still picking fights; now her friends were picking on my friends. My attraction to Bella was at an all time high, and Emmett had just basically threatened to rip my nuts off if I even thought about asking Bella to the prom. I was so fucked, because Alice wouldn't even hear of me asking Bella to prom, either.

Emmett had called me a whore, because he totally believed all that shit that Lauren and her bitchy friends were spewing. God, I was far from that.

Yeah, I took Jessica out once or twice, and yeah, we fooled around a bit, but I couldn't do more than that. I didn't really like her like that, but I'd needed to feel normal, needed to feel wanted for just one damn second.

I closed my eyes, exhausted from the day and my feelings and just every damn thing, falling asleep almost instantly.

There was a soft knock on my door as I lifted my tired ass up from my bed. "Come in," I said with a yawn, my heart stopping when Bella walked in.

I wanted to groan. She was wearing one of my track t-shirts and a pair of sleep shorts. Her hair was down and tucked behind her ears, her legs were long and smooth, and her eyes were dark, like the sweetest of chocolates.

"Hey, Bean," I said, smiling as she closed the door behind her. "Where's Alice?"

"Sleeping," she whispered, walking to me.

I looked at the clock, seeing it was one in the morning. I must've been exhausted, because I'd slept for hours.

"We missed you at dinner, but you didn't answer your door, Edward," she said, standing right in front of me.

"Damn," I sighed. "Was Mom pissed?" She shook her head slowly. "What's the matter, Coffee Bean? You look upset."

"I'm not," she said, stepping between my legs. "And don't call me that," she said with a smirk as she pushed me back down onto my back.

"Bella..." I gasped as she crawled up my body, straddling my now very interested dick.

"I want you, Edward," she pleaded, bracing her arms on each side of my head.

"You do?"

"God, yes," she whispered, "and I know you want me. I see how you watch me. How you stare at me, Edward. What do you stare at?"

"Everything, Bean," I sighed, almost in relief that she knew, and suddenly, my hands were out of my control. I gripped her waist, turning us over so that she was under me, her hair spilling out around her on my comforter. "You're so fucking beautiful, Bella, and you don't even know it," I groaned, brushing her hair out of her face.

"Show me."

Two simple words, and I snapped, kissing her with all that I had. We were a frenzy of lost control. My shirt, her shirt, my jeans, and her shorts all flew around my bedroom. I cupped her breasts, my thumbs brushing over her rosy nipples. Leaning down, I took one of them into my mouth, and she tasted as sweet as she looked.

"I stare at these," I whispered, blowing my breath across them, smirking when they perked up even more. "I stare at this," I growled, cupping her ass with one hand and lifting her just enough to grind against her heated core. And fuck, the heat! I could feel her wetness coating my dick, and I twitched against her. "I want to know what you feel like, Bean..."

I found myself on my back, looking up at a sight I thought I'd never see.

"Fuck, Bean," I moaned when she ground her hips down onto my now throbbing cock. "I want you, too. I've wanted you forever...it's why I'm not with Lauren anymore, Bella."

She smiled, leaning down over me and kissing me softly. "I know," she said against my lips, shifting just right that my dick slipped just inside of her.

As she sat up to take me completely in, a loud pounding sounded at my door.

I snapped awake, wincing at the throbbing hard on I had. I looked over at the clock and saw that it was on six in the evening. Fuck, it had been just a dream!

"Yeah?" I rasped, adjusting my dick, but it wouldn't be tamed – it wanted to finish my dream. It wanted Bella, damn it.

"Edward?" Bella called, cracking the door, and I grabbed my pillow and pulled it to my lap. "Your mom sent me up to call you for dinner. And Alice and I want to know if you wanna hit the movies. It's Friday..."

Friday was the night she always spent with Alice. Bella's father, Charlie, worked the over night shift at the station on the weekends, so my Bean practically lived here.

I took a deep breath, looking up at her. She looked so sweet, so expectant. She had no idea that I'd just molested the hell out of her in my dream.

"Um, yeah...sure. Let me grab a shower, Coffee Bean. Okay? Tell Mom I'll be down in a sec."

"Okay," she sang, smiling. "And don't call me that!"

I chuckled as she shut the door, loving that joke between us, but knowing it represented more than just the color of her eyes and hair.

Coffee was addicting. My Coffee Bean – she was my ultimate addiction. So much so, that I was following her to UW. And I couldn't fucking wait.




June 2006...Graduation from Forks High...

"So...Edward and Emmett are gonna live on campus, and we move into our apartment in August!" Alice's excitement was almost electrical as she bounced around on the way out of the school gym.

We'd just gotten our diplomas, walked down the aisle, and thrown our caps in the air. There were people everywhere, and we'd lost sight of Edward, Emmett, and our parents.

"Come on, Ali," I chuckled, taking her hand. "Let's get outside by Edward's car. They'll be out soon enough."

"You're totally laughing at me," she pouted, leaning against Edward's Volvo.

"No," I laughed, holding my hands up. "I'm not. I swear. It's just...surreal that we've graduated."

"Oh, I know..." she gushed, blathering on and on in my ear, but I suddenly couldn't hear her.

Edward and Emmett were strolling out of the gym, with all parents in tow. Edward's robe was open, flowing behind him like a cloak, his hair was sticking up everywhere as usual, but it was the laughing smile that made my breath catch. What made it even more breathtaking was that it was aimed my way.

"Bean! We did it!" Emmett gushing rushing toward me, but I squeaked, dodging his huge arms.

I bolted around the car with him hot on my trail, only to fly behind Edward for protection.

"Don't break her, Em," Edward growled, pushing him away. "You're safe, Coffee Bean. The giant troll only wanted a hug, though."

"Whatever. The last time he did that, I think he fractured my rib," I sighed, peeking from around him. "And don't call me that."

Edward snorted, "It was merely separated, Bean."

"Come on, kids," Esme chuckled. "Humor your parents for dinner, and then you can all party in ways we don't want to hear about."

"No kidding," my dad, Charlie, chuckled. "This is the worst night for me, Bells. So give us dinner, and then you guys can increase our gray hair percentage."

I laughed, shaking my head. "Gray hair can be distinguished, Dad."

"Hmph," he growled, rolling his eyes at me.

"Besides, Charlie, we're not partying all that much. Like one or two," Alice beamed, linking her arm with his. "And then back to our house."

"Best news I've heard all day," Carlisle sighed.

They were afraid we'd go out and get trashed, but we just weren't like that. We enjoyed each other more than anyone else. Including Lauren, who just happened to sashay by at that very moment, giving Edward another unusual look.

I couldn't quite tell if she still liked him, or if she hated him. The things she'd said about me didn't phase me one bit, but she picked on Emmett and Alice something awful. That I couldn't have. And she'd been doing it since senior year started.

"Don't forget, party at Tyler's, Edward," she said, making sure the invitation extended just to Edward.

He snorted and looked away, shaking his head. "No thanks," he sighed under his breath, letting us into his car. "Come on, Coffee Bean. We'll do this right, huh?" he said, holding the passenger side door for me.

"Don't call me that," I laughed, but I was laughing at Lauren's face. She looked like he'd just slapped her.


We didn't go to Tyler's party, but that wasn't our last run in with Lauren and her bitch patrol. We pulled into Eric Yorkie's driveway, and I groaned, seeing them cross the yard.

"Are you fucking kidding me?" Alice growled from the backseat.

"Relax, everyone," Emmett chuckled. "I got this. Come on."

He grabbed Alice's hand and tugged her out of the back. But I just couldn't find the courage to deal with them.

"Last party, Bean, I promise," Edward sighed, looking over at me from behind the wheel. "I'm...sorry they treat you the way they do."

"It's not your fault, Edward," I told him, turning my head to look at him, but from the look on his face, he didn't believe me. "I know they hate me. It goes way back, you know. Before you and Alice moved here."

"Yeah, but..." he started, his frown marring his beautiful face. "...she's still mad about our break up, Bean."

"It's almost over," I said, trying to smile encouragingly at him. "She's off to California next year."

"Thank God," he sighed with utter relief, and his hand went straight to his hair, messing it up deliciously.

I giggled at him, loving the sweet crooked smile he gave me. "We have to do this."

"I know." He swallowed thickly. "How 'bout this... Why don't we go in together. That way, no one bugs us."

"You mean...together together? Like a date?"

"A fake date, but it will keep everyone away. I won't let go of your hand all night, Coffee Bean. I won't let them get to you."

I studied his face and nodded. I couldn't be safer than I was when I was with him, and he was right. They didn't bother me when he was around.

"'Kay," I breathed, and he was out of the car in a instant. He opened my door for me, holding out his hand. "Just tell me there's ice cream at your house."

"Just for you, Bean," Edward laughed, linking our fingers together. "Mom bought it today...um, Cookie Dough, or some shit."

"Perfect," I sighed, letting him guide me to the front door of the house.

I didn't date. It was a known fact among my peers before Edward and Alice moved to Forks. It was worse when they arrived, because I couldn't see myself with anyone but Edward, but I tried. I didn't dare date anyone from school, so I went on one date with a son of one of my dad's deputies.

Sam had been kind, but we both knew that we were being set up, and we both knew that it wasn't ever going to amount to anything other than what it was – one date.

But my fake date with Edward was amazing. He was so sweet, so kind, making sure that I wasn't harassed or hit on or offered a drink with something in it. He sat with me, laughing and drinking, and he held my hand the entire time.

I allowed my one fantasy to come out for one night. I melted into him when he asked me to dance, and I let him bring me food. I leaned into him when we sat down and his arm snaked around me. And I laughed when he and Emmett talked incessantly about UW and all the things the four of us were going to do.

I lost myself, wishing more than anything that he'd kiss me when the night was over. Just walked up to me, pressing me into his car and assaulting my mouth with his. God, the things I would do to him – run my fingers through his hair, hitch my leg around his waist, taste him. Damn, what I wouldn't give to taste him, because if he tasted as good as he smelled, I would never stop.

"Coffee Bean," Edward whispered, kneeling in the car doorway. "We're home. Let's get you to bed, huh?"

"'Kay," I yawned, letting him pick me up and carry me in to Alice's room. "We were gonna eat ice cream."

His sweet chuckle met my ear. "We'll eat ice cream tomorrow, Bella."

"Promise?" I mumbled into his neck, delirious from being woken up so harshly.

"I will always eat ice cream with you, Coffee Bean. Always," he whispered, and I swore just before I fell into the deep abyss of sleep, that his lips met my forehead.

A/N... Like I said...a little fluffy, but this little story is pretty fluffy anyway. Their love has always been there, they just...avoided it, had obstacles thrown in their path, and didn't want to lose a good thing...

Ah...the ice cream... So you can see the start of things to come...filling in as dates, ice cream, Bella wearing Edward's shirts. And of course, Coffee Bean. It all kind of fell into place for Edward at that moment, but Lauren made life fairly difficult for everyone, causing Emmett to be protective.

Okay...so most of you gave your opinion the on the last chapter as to what outtakes you'd like to see, and I kinda kept a tally of them. I'd already told you this was first, but those of you that are kinda perverted like me...and God I love you for it...wanted some lemony outtakes from the 7 months that they were friends with benefits. And I totally agree, so that will most likely be the next outtake on this story. After that, you wanted a bit of future takes...honeymoon...maybe kids... My pre-reader, Reeny, begs for babies every time I write an AH story, so it didn't come as a shock that she did it this time...her favorite being Charles Garrett from Nature of Love.

Anyway...I digress...

Outtakes...there will be a few more, but the next one will be lemony...just FYI. SOME of you were curious as to how the two of them dated when the person they loved lived right across the damn living room, so yeah, I'll be exploring that in the future as well.

I have no schedule for posting on this...because my Angel series readers would have my HEAD if I even thought about putting that on hold. Especially now, since we're so close to the end of An Angel's Promise. LOL I hear you...don't start with me! O_o

Come play with us on Twitter...you can look me up under Drotuno. I give update notices and usually answer just about any question thrown my way...

Thanks to JenRar for beta'ing this for me on the fly... Love you with HUGE smooches! :D

Okay, review for me...I'd like to know if this answered any questions or filled in some blanks for you...or just damn well wanted more from these two...cuz they are kind of addicting. Okay...review...and until next time, Later...