What happens now?
I just sat there in wolf form while I watched the love of my life faint. Why did I say those things to her? I don't feel that way at all. Sure, I didn't want to imprint, but I love Cheri. Rachel and I weren't meant to be and she has found her true soul mate. And what was I thinking phasing with her standing in front of me. I could have killed her. I felt another wolf phase in invading my thoughts.
What the fuck were thinking asshole? You could have killed her - Embry
I know man. I don't know what came over me. I just got so mad at her. Then she spit in my face
I understand that Paul, but if you had never said those stupid things to her she never would have spit in your face. This is entirely your fault. - Embry
I know it is and I don't know what to do to make it better. I wouldn't blame her if she hates me and rejects the imprint. Is she she ok?
She's still unconscious. The first thing before you even worry about the imprint is apologizing for what you said. You need to phase back so you can be there when she comes to. I am going with you just incase you lose your cool again. You will not hurt my cousin. - Embry
We both phased back and walked into my house where I saw my sweet Cheri laying there looking lifeless on the couch. Rachel was sitting next to her. She turned around when I walked into the house and gave me a death glare. She walked over to me and grabbed me by my ear and pulled me over to the side.
"Have you lost your fucking mind?" She whisper yelled at me
"Rachel I cant do this right now. Please let me just go sit by her."
"Why Paul? So you can risk hurting her again? You really could have killed her. And what the fuck were you thinking blaming her for our breakup? Eventually I would have broken up with you anyway once I was imprinted on. You are such a douche!"
"Rachel don't you think I know that already? I fucked up. I just need to be near her. My anger is under control."
"Fine. I guess with Embry here I can go back home. You better find a way to make this right Paul"
She stormed out of the house and left me there just staring at Embry. I didn't know if I should go and lift up her head, sit near her feet, or just pull up a chair. It was like Embry knew what I was thinking and moved a chair over.
I sat there for what seemed like hours even though it was just 30 minutes when she started to move around some. She started blinking her eyes open and finally she opened her eyes and looked at the ceiling. The tears started to roll out of the corner of her eyes and I knew she felt my presence.
"Cheri" I whispered when she looked at me
She stared at me like a deer caught in the headlights. She had pure fear in her eyes and I didn't know to say or do.
"Cheri honey I am so sorry. I know I scared you and said some really horrible things to you. There was no excuse to my actions. I hope you can forgive me. I love you so much"
She looked like she was trying to sit up and I reached to help her but she pulled away. I couldn't blame her. I would have pulled away from me too.
"Where's Embry?" She asked
"I'm right here cuz."
"I want to go home." She said as she started to cry again.
"Cheri I really think you and Paul should talk this out. I swear he wont hurt you and I will be right in the next room."
"Embry I want to go home. I have nothing to say to him. He has made it perfectly clear how he feels about me."
I couldn't believe they were talking about me like I wasn't in the room.
"Paul don't. Haven't you torn my heart out enough for one day? What is there really left to say? I think I understand why you had me come down here. I'm your imprint. Is that right?"
"Yes you are my imprint. Cheri….please let me explain."
"Explain what? That you are forced to love me cause of some magical tribal mating of our souls? That because of me you and Rachel's relationship is over? That you hate imprinting and never wanted it to happen? That I ruined your life?"
"No I don't really feel that way. I was angry and I say stupid things when I am angry. I didn't mean a word of it. Yes I hated imprinting and never wanted it to happen to me, but I don't feel that way anymore. I want you. I want a life with you. Please honey…please"
Was I really begging this girl to stay with me? Goodbye man card! Hello pussy-whipped Paul.
"Paul….we both know that if it wasn't for this tribal shit you never would have given me a second glance. You would have stayed with Rachel. I would have stayed with Kirby. We would have been two strangers walking through a grocery store. You don't know me to love me"
"Cheri. If you let me I will love you like more than anyone has ever loved you. I know I am an asshole. I know I have anger issues. I will work on it. Just please say you will give us a chance."
"Do you want to know what I hate about this the most? We don't have a choice. The whole time we were away from each other my heart ached. I didn't know why. I just knew I missed you and I didn't feel whole without you. I hate that I feel like I have a weight on my chest right now cause of the distance between us. I hate knowing that if I leave here I am going to be in more pain than I am now cause I am away from you. I hate that as mad as I am at you I know I will forgive you because it hurts too much not to. I love you and I don't know you"
"Baby we can change that. We can get to know each other. We can take this as slowly as you want. We can start out as friends and as much as it would hurt I can deal with only being your friend if that is the how I get to keep you in my life"
"I can't…" She said and I felt my heart break all over again.
"Ok Cheri. I understand. I'll go. Stay here as long as you need to. Embry will let me know when you are gone so I can come back home."
The burning in my heart was almost impossible to bear.
"If you would shut the fuck up for more than a second instead of listening to yourself talk you would know what else I was going to say."
I looked at her as she said that and felt a little bit of hope. "sorry go on"
"I can't promise you anything. I am certainly not saying yes to anything right now. I need time to absorb all this and think about what I want. I need to know I can deal with the pain if I decide I don't want this. However, whether it is because of tribal magic or not I do love you. I do want to get to know you better. I want to see if there is anything more to us than just the physical pull I feel towards you. So I am not saying no. I am just saying I need time. You have to promise me something….."
"I don't want you around me until I decide. I will know if you are around because I can feel you. If you can't do that then all bets are off and I will walk away from you tonight and never look back. When I am know what I want you will know."
"Ok" I sighed as a tear rolled down my cheek. I would do whatever she wanted. If it meant she would think about giving us a chance I would do it.
"Alright. I am ready to go home now Embry. My car is in Port Angeles so if you could bring me there and then follow me home I would appreciate it."
"Of course. Paul I will make sure she gets home ok."
I couldn't say anything. Anything I would have said right now would have been unrecognizable because of the tears coming down my cheeks right now. All I could do was nod. I watched as she walked out of my house, possibly for the last time. As soon as Embry closed the door and I heard his car pull away I dropped to my knees and cried like I had never cried before. My whole life just walked away and I may never see or hear from her again. I swore to myself if she gave me a chance to make this right I would never do anything to hurt her again.
It's been six weeks since the last time I saw Paul. The pain was unbearable but I was managing it. I had made my decision. I just didn't know if I was brave enough to act on it. I needed Paul in my life, but I didn't want to love him because the spirits said I had to. I talked to Kirby last week and set up a payment plan with him to pay him back for helping me through school. I had given my notice at work and gave my intent to vacate notice to my landlord. I was leaving Washington the day after tomorrow and I decided I at least owed Paul a proper goodbye.
Embry was going to help move me. I had planned to move to Oregon with my former college roommate and start a new life away from mystical creatures. Embry fought me tooth and nail about leaving, but I want to fall in love because I want to, not cause I am forced to. I was just pulling up to Paul's when I saw them walking out of the house. It was obvious he was handling me being gone. I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw the tall russet goddess kissing him on the cheek. I slammed the car in park and shoved the car door open. I don't know what came over me but all of the sudden everything I had decided had just disappeared. There was no way I could live another day without him in my life. I don't know how I thought I could survive, but I guess he didn't feel the same way. Now I would have to live my life in solid pain knowing I took too long to tell him I wanted to be his. My anger flared though and I had to make him realize what he was missing even though my epiphany just made me realize what I was missing.
"Wow Paul. Didn't take you long to replace me did it. I guess I made the right decision."
"Cheri? Baby?" Was he serious? I just caught him with another woman and he was still gonna call me baby?
"Paul shut up. How dare you call me baby in front of one of your whores!"
"What?" Really was he that dumb?
"You could have at least waited till I came to say goodbye and moved. Embry said you knew I was coming but did you care? Obviously not!"
"Cheri you need to calm down and take back what you said."
"Hell No! This girl doesn't deserve my apology"
"This girl that you just called a whore is my baby sister. She got here a few days ago. She just graduated from school and came here to visit me and keep me sane while you were deciding our future.
I felt like an absolute idiot. This was his sister? Fuck now I was the one that needed to grovel.
"This is your imprint Paulie?"
She knew about the wolves?
"Yeah Monica. This is Cheri. Cheri this is my sister Monica"
"Monica…I am so sorry. I didn't know."
"No you didn't." She said. "The fact that you automatically assumed Paul had forgotten about you and moved on doesn't make me warm and fuzzy inside. However, you are my brother's imprint and I am sure if you get your head out of your ass and decide to give into the imprint we will get along just fine."
Was she for real? I just called her a whore and she was willing to forgive me?
"Thank you." What else was I supposed to say.
"Paulie. I am going to see Brady. It has been too long since I have been away from him. I don't know how she handles being away from you." She sneered at me when she said that. I knew that she had been imprinted on by one of Paul's pack brothers.
"Ok Moni. See you tomorrow."
She got in her car and drove away and Paul and I were just standing there looking at each other.
"I believe you came here to say goodbye Cheri. If you have nothing to say then please excuse me. I have things to do."
He started to walk away from me. I couldn't let him walk out of my life. I was wrong. I couldn't live without him. I couldn't give him up. I wanted him. I wanted a life with him.
"Wait for what? I was so wrong. Please wait!"
"Yeah you were wrong. How you could think I would just take up with someone else to try to make up for you not being here? Calling my sister a whore without finding out who she was? Have you not heard me the times I said I love you?"
He couldn't have been more right.
"Paul. Yes I was wrong for all of that, but what I meant was I wrong about us. I can't lose you. I thought I could live without you but I can't. I need you. I want you. I want the life you talked about. I was all set to run away from you and I know now that is the total opposite of what I want. I should have been running to you all along."
He looked at me like I was speaking a language he didn't know and then he started to cry. Was I too late. Had my thoughtlessness ruined us?
"You have no idea how long I have been waiting to hear you say that Cheri. I have dreamed about it since the night you left here six weeks ago. I love you. I want a life with you, but it kills me to know that you could just think I would replace you. There is no one but you. If you decide to leave then I will be alone for the rest of my life. It will be a lonely existence, but I cant be with anyone but you. It wouldn't be right."
"I don't want to leave Paul. I want to stay."
The next move was totally out of both of our controls. He ran towards me, lifting me in his arms and pressing his lips to mine. I couldn't do anything but kiss him back. I couldn't fight it anymore and I didn't want to. Paul was my home. I was where I belonged.
He carried me into the house never moving his lips from my skin. He was kissing my neck, my ear, going back to my lips, swiping his tongue against my lips asking for entrance. I parted my lips and was presently surprised by the way his tongue felt against mine. I could taste his cinnamon flavored mouth and it was amazing I couldn't get enough.
I wasn't sure of my surroundings but I could feel him laying me down on his bed. Raking over me with his eyes. I had never felt more loved.
"Yes. I want you. Make love to me please. I need you."
That was all I needed to hear. I was still pissed at her for calling my sister a whore but I needed her. I couldn't survive another minute without her. She tasted like vanilla and coconut and I was lost in her just kissing her. I had planned on worshipping her body and showing her what she meant to her.
I licked her from her ear lobe to where her neck met her collarbone. Every lick of skin tasting better than the last.
"Cheri I missed you so much. I love you"
"I missed you too Paul. I love you too."
I ran my fingers down her arms and placed a hand on her stomach above the waistband of her pants and she gasped. She felt so good. I need to feel more of her. I moved my hands up her body and slowly started to unbutton her blouse, kissing and licking every new inch of skin as it was exposed. I removed the rest of her shirt and threw it to the floor as I tore my shirt off and threw it next to hers.
"Paul let me touch you"
"No baby this is about you. Let me pleasure you please."
I managed to take her bra off as she started to lay back down and was in awe as her beautiful breasts fell out towards me. I grabbed one of her enticing pink buds and licked and sucked her into my mouth. Her moan went right to my dick as I started to massage her other breast. I grabbed the breast I was sucking on and started to massage it and I pulled my lips away and moved to her other beautiful pink bud. She arched her back to me as I bit down on her nipple.
I continued kissing down her stomach and unbuttoned her pants and eased them over her luscious ass as the most incredible delicious smell hit my nose. I could smell her and I could wait to taste her and make love to her with my tongue.
"Baby you smell so good. I need to taste you."
I situated myself in between her legs and moved my head back as I looked at her.
"You are so beautiful" I couldn't help but drag my finger down the length of her pussy and then circle my finger around her clit. Loving to hear her appreciation from her moan I pressed my tongue against her clit. The taste was nothing like I could imagine. It was vanilla and coconut and it invaded all my senses.
"Paul. Paul" She screamed as I entered a finger into her wet folds. I couldn't get enough of her. I moved my finger up and inserted my tongue inside her. I moved in and out of her with my tongue sucking her sweet juices with every stroke of my tongue. How I didn't blow my load is amazing to me. I moved back up to her clit and plunged my fingers into her as she screamed my name and clenched around my fingers. I was rewarded with her sweet cream pouring out of her already sweet, moist pussy licking and sucking her until she came down from her high. I was rock hard and if I didn't move inside of her right now I was going to die.
"Let me do the same for you Paul"
"Next time baby. This is all for you"
I kissed my way back up her body and kissed her letting her taste herself on my lips. I moved my cock towards her entrance and slowly pushed into her as I shoved my tongue in her mouth. I could tell it had been a while since she had sex so I was going as slow as I could letting her get used to my size. It was excruciating. I just wanted to pump myself inside her.
"Paul please. I need all of you. Please don't hold back."
That was all I needed. It was like she read my mind. I guess that was the connection of the imprint letting us know what we needed.
I took her hands and raised them up to the headboard with me mine as I shoved all the way into her. Once I was seated deep inside of her I started pounding into her. She grabbed the headboard screaming for me to go harder.
I wrapped my hands above where hers were on the headboard and slammed into her. She was so tight it almost hurt at first.
"Cheri you are so damn tight and wet. You feel so fucking good. I never want to be anywhere but inside you. God I love you"
She moaned my name a few times and she tightened around my cock and let her orgasm take over he body. It was the single most sexiest and beautiful thing I have ever seen. Watching her cum initiated a release of my own.
I don't think she could form words cause she just stared at me with all the love showing in her eyes that she felt for me. I grabbed her lips in mine and bit down on her lower lip and I pumped my cock inside her last time as I spilled my seed into her.
I pulled out of her as we came down from our high and missed being inside her immediately.
"I now know my new favorite thing" She whispered.
"What is that baby?"
"Feeling all of you fill me. I am home Paul. I belong with you."
My heart swelled with pride hearing her say she was home and that we belong together. We had some things to work out, but I couldn't be happier.
"I have waited a life time to hear you say that. I love you"
"I love you too Paul."
With that we snuggled together and fell asleep. I finally had my girl.