Baubles, Bitches, & Blood

A HariPo freeverse piece

by mew-tsubaki

Note: The Harry Potter characters belong to J.K. Rowling, not me. Unusual and a little different for me, this is a slight rant… Author's Note at the end, so please read that, as well. Thank you. Read, review, and enjoy!

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"Come inside from the cold, Victoire"

NO

I'm standing out here, in nothing but my crepe-thin sweater, in the

b-l-i-s-t-e-r-i-n-g cold

to prove a

point

Father, dear Father—

you won't ever get it

A girl's heart and soul

are much more than /s/i/l/l/y/ things

that will be broken&&repaired

over 'n over 'n over

again

"Come eenside from ze cold, Victoire"

Mother, dear Mother—

you should know best how I feel…

Shouldn't you?

Because—last I checked—I wasn't the only part-Veela who everyone thought was

S*H*A*L*L*O*W

So please, give me a

break

I can't be what you once dreamed

YOU

could've

been

"Come in to the house, Vic"

Sister, dear Sister

Fuck. You.

You eyed Teddy all along

(and no, I could care less that you took him&used him&now he's all Lily's)

—but—

what gets me the most

is that you'll never change

some

Hufflepuff

you are

What, you thought I got into Ravenclaw because I screwed the Sorting Hat?

Nope

This girl knows her *shit*

&&…

she knows where all the skeletons are

B-u-R-i-E-d

so I dare you to go behind my back again,

think you got the upper hand over me again,

think you can sweet-talk me into

Taking

The

Fall

again.

Because you can't just cuddle your way back into my good graces.

Try Hexing me instead.

"Come inside from the cold, Vic"

Brother, dear Brother

You are nearly as innocent as you

ACT

(and really, I was once proud of the façades I taught you to build up)

But now…

Everything's different

I smile, you see,

to cover up the shards of

broken p e r s o n a l i t y

with which you all have left me

Can you do that, too?

Has the apprentice

s u r p a s s e d

the master?

Louis, when you reach that point,

then

come back to me.

Only then could you

POSSIBLY

begin to understand the enigma that is your

*oldest* sister

"Victoire!"

Ah…

Aunties & Uncles

Bugger off

I have nothing to say to you

You're like Mum&Dad

prettylittleVictoire

is not some

damn DOLLY

for you all to "coddle" and "adore"

Must I remind you that

I.

Am.

HUMAN?

"Vic…"

Cousins, scores of cousins

I have the least to say to you

I think I'll make myself

s-c-a-r-c-e

when you

Each

need me

M o s t

"Victoire."

Chorused as usual, boys

Ickle ones, Malfoy, Scamander, & Scamander

Go comfort Rose, Scor

Go find Roxanne, Lorcan

Go buy half a brain, L y s a n d e r

Some friend you are

Full of myself, you so honestly pointed out?

I need to say something when I'm upset?

WHY

isn't it e n o u g h

for my "mates" to just…

read what's on my face?

Ignore the tears on my cheeks now

They're just silly little things that will dry up soon enough (according to Dad)

After all, I'm the strong one

*the g l u e*

I'll keep all of our friends, our little group

t o g e t h e r

Glue never fails, does it?

"Luv"

Bollocks.

Get away from me, Neville.

I won't romantically

C

O

L

L

A

P

S

E

into your "big, strong" a r m s

as you might so desire

so that this will all

goaway

I'm allowed to C R Y, damn it

I'm allowed to feel V U L N E R A B L E

I'm allowed to think that this is D E S P A I R I feel, at the cost of others

I'm allowed to

Just—

BE—

A

g

i

r

l

.

I'm allowed to hurt,

so if you can't see it, then you go back inside, and warm up

—but—

If…by some chance…you DO see me…really hear me…

then come closer

Envelope me in your big, strong arms (ha, no, really, they aren't that skinny)

Look at me with your dark, boring-holes-into-me eyes (and brush that lock of hair away, you know I've always loved your eyes)

K i s s me with your pillow-like lips

&maybe, just maybe

I'll stop drawing everyone's b-l-o-o-d

Because there's more to me than

baubles & bitchiness

I have a p r o u d heart, too,

that I use to lead a p r o u d life

so…please

Stand up to all the others for me, with me

&& make me a proud

W I F E

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Well. I think Victoire has said a mouthful. Understandable, though. I was in a bit of a mood and I scratched this out…on my phone's notepad. When I finally wrote it in my freeverse notebook, this turned out to be seven pages long. Well, we all know that doesn't really equate to 7 pages typed, but…it just goes to show that from dark comes light. From the negative emotions has come something I consider to be amongst my best work.

Yes, there are plenty of pairings dropped in there. The only one I ought to mention is Victoire/Neville, the very first M&MWP (Mew and Mor's Weird Pairing[s], for anyone who doesn't know), which was discovered by me, so I'd appreciate a small mention if you used them. ;)

So, some of my best work dedicated to some of the best buddies ever: Mango—one of the best friends a mew could ever ask for; Mor—Vicnev wouldn't be here without that Lilted (and thanks for beta'ing!); Aimy—Vicnev enjoys your constant support; Kimmy—here's something AWESOME to read after such a long break from FFN; Claire—the M&MWP forum wouldn't be complete without your drop-bys; & Jo & Kylie & Beth, who always keep me delighted and entertained.

Final say: Interpret the last few lines as you wish. Is Victoire actually hitched to Neville here? Or is she just implying that he ought to stand by (& up for) her if they're ever going to reach that point? Hmm… Who knows…? ;3

Thanks for reading and please review!

-mew-tsubaki :]