Sirius scowled deeply at Jill and Wood. Apparently she fell for him. She fell for him hard. Seriously, they were engaged now. Their parents caught wind of their relationship, talked, then drew up a contract that all parties agreed to. Now, they couldn't be separated. Jill had completely forgotten about Sirius. That's the part that hurt the most. Sirius felt as if he was dying without his or Jill's heart. Jill was faring more then fine.

It was then Sirius realized that they were never meant to be. But it was also then that Sirius never wanted to love again if he couldn't love her.

So Sirius never would love another.

Of course, Sirius was highly smashed at the Gryffindor party at the moment. So he really shouldn't make such life altering decisions at the moment. It didn't really matter though. He had already made up his mind and if there was something Sirius was, it was stubborn. He couldn't help but glare darkly at any happy couple who happened upon his line of sight. The worst was Lily and James. That was supposed to be him and Jill. He stared off sullenly into the fire, ignoring the entire hubbub around him. He took another swig of his Firewhiskey.

"James! Oh you must stop! You are so drunk!" Lily swatted at James who kept trying to grope his rather irate girlfriend.

"I swear to drunk I'm not god!" James smiled and ceased his actions slightly.

"Good, I know that, but I was starting to think other people didn't…OH MY GOD! JAMES!" She screeched as he started tracing figures on her legs, she smacked him on the head hard.

"I told you I could make Lily scream my name!" He yelled at Remus who was hiding behind his hand smothering the laughter threatening to erupt. James got smacked upside the head by Lily again. He fell off the couch, and found he couldn't really stand up.

"Gosh, you are so, DRUNK!" Lily laughed at him. James grinned cheekily at her.

"I'm not drunk! I am just so intoxicated by you! Lily, don't you know that you're toxic?" James grinned at her a bit before swaying around some more.

"Please. You aren't intoxicated by me. You are intoxicated by shit." Lily replied, James grin, If possible, managed to get bigger.

"Yea, that stuff to." Remus snorted loudly, even peter laughed at James.

"Sooo Lily…. Wanna go up to my room?" James waggled his eyebrows suggestively, and Lily found herself yet again, smacking him upside the head.

"Well, I don't know. Will two people fit under a rock?" She snapped at him. James held his hands over his heart.

"Ah Lily, my love, you wound me." He grinned coyly up at her, from his resting position with his head in her lap.

Sirius walked up to another girl at the makeshift bar in the common room. She drank her drink slowly, and appeared to be drifting away with thought.

"Hey, come on, we are both at this bar for the same reason, let's just get right to the point." Sirius said in a suave tone, suave as one can be when plastered beyond Hell.

"Yea! Come on! Let's go pick up some chicks! Be my wingman?" It was all Adiala could do to keep a straight face. Sirius's jaw hit the ground in surprise and shock. "Relax, I'm kidding. Nah, I'm not at this bar to get laid. Sorry. I am here to ponder life in a depressing fashion…." She mumbled off sadly, "Wanna join!" She gave him a big grin and became suddenly perky again.

"Sure." He grabbed his glass and held it up for a toast, "To drowning sorrows" She clinked her glass to his, and the brown haired girl met his eyes in the toast, hazel meeting grey.

"Aye, to drowning sorrows"

All the sorrows were to be drowned by tomorrow.

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Lucius smiled lamely at Narcissa, "Please, let me have your hand in marriage. I'd go through anything with you, my love." Narcissa couldn't help but grin at this statement.

"Good, go through your bank account, then through the door." Lucius grimaced, but sat down and wrote a wizarding check and emptied out his entire fortune right there. He handed her the check, then walked exited through the door.

To say Narcissa had been shocked, would be a gross understatement. She really didn't think Lucius was so serious about her.

"Lucius! Wait!" She yelled after him and relaxed when she heard his footsteps stop. "Take your check back. I will marry you." She thrust the check back into his hands.

He gave an audible sigh. "Good! I thought I was going to lose at least half of my account."

"Wait a minute! You only put half the bank on here?" Narcissa cried outraged.

"Well of course, it was only the Slytherin thing to do." He said with a smirk. Narcissa's anger disappeared right then.

"I believe I will enjoy marriage to you, dear." They both grinned stony, cold grins.

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Sirius for the first time was happy. He didn't need his friends anymore. James would be a brother to him, but he was with Lily more, and Sirius found that it didn't really bother him that much. Remus and Peter were always good friends, never really needed Sirius. They always spent their time studying.

Apparently a man can survive on happiness alone.

Jill and Connor didn't bother him anymore; it was obvious they were meant for each other. While he and Jill would've worked well, it just wasn't the same. It was the difference between a cat and cat, and a cat and a catfish. Similar, but different.

Sirius just spent his time studying nowadays. He also spent a lot of his time building a secret magical motorbike. He'd decided that since he had more then enough money in investments and in inheritance, he'd just travel the world as long as Voldemort reigned. No need to get himself in a fight.

All he'd take would be his Magical muggle credit card, and the clothes on his back. He'd wander the world. He had plenty of times. After all, wizards and witches can live to be close to two hundred years old.

He was glad someone listened to his problems. It really helped him mentally. It didn't matter that they were both drunk out of their minds. It help get rid of woes. He will always be grateful to the girl who goes by Adiala.

He grinned as the lasso landed on the plastic bull head. He loved the Room of Requirement. How else would he be able to practice roping.

He really wanted to be a ranching gunslinger.

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Sirius was just wandering around the castle aimlessly. Of course, he happened to wander into the dungeons.

"Well, if it isn't the traitor Black." He heard a voice sneer. It was Regulus, and then he heard Bella cackling like the mad woman she is.

"Yes, it is I. What do you want Reggie?" Sirius asked quietly, just wanting to be left alone.

"We couldn't help but notice you haven't been hanging with your 'Gang' as much lately. What happened? Find them out to be the losing side?" Rookwood questioned.

"Nothing happened, I have just felt like being alone lately. I am sure you understand." Sirius answered rather diplomatically.

"What a bummer! And here I was thinking you were ready to own up to your heritage! You sicken me!" Bella sneered at him, then decided to spit on his face. Wiping a sleeve to his face, Sirius glared at her.

"I want no part in this war. I do not wish to be aligned with Dumbledore, nor Voldemort, nor the Auror Corps." Sirius pointed out, diplomatically, and truthfully.

"How do we know you aren't lying to protect yourself now?" Dolohov questioned, and Sirius hadn't any proof. Surprisingly, the person to jump to Sirius's defense was Snape.

"He isn't lying," Snape stated. Everyone nodded their heads and backed down.

"Is it alright if I speak with my brother privately for a moment?" Sirius asked the rest of the Jr. Death eaters. Regulus nodded his head, and they all left the corridor.

"While I wish you wouldn't join them, I'm not here to convince you to leave. I am here because I love you, and I think you will be the proper head of our house." Regulus gasped in surprise. "While I think you have no power to make your own decisions, you are a shrewd negotiator, and know a good investment when you see one. So, you can tell mom that you are the heir of the Blacks when you return home. All I ask is that I don't get dragged into this war, and I have an unlimited credit card."

Regulus looked his brother in the eye, and gave a short nod of respect.

"It's a deal brother, it is a deal." Regulus watched forlornly as his brother left. Sirius was right, as he always was. Voldemort was no fun to bow down to.

Regulus couldn't help but think that maybe, it wasn't too late for him.

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A few days later, found Sirius proudly standing over his bike. It was complete. He was of age. He had his card. He had no reason to stay in school, none but his friends. Wrapping the black bomber jacket around him tighter, he sat down to write a note to James.

My dear brother, my dear friend,

It is time for me to leave. I have no reason stay at school. Maybe you will see me in a few years, maybe not. But I can guarantee I will always think of you when playing a prank on some one. You are the greatest friend one can ask for. I am just ready to move on.

Farewell my brother

Sirius didn't see a need to sign it furthermore. So he just tied it to the owl's foot and sent it away. Then he hopped onto his bike and flew off to the America's.

Nobody had ever seen James Potter laugh so hard. Ever.

James thought it was the greatest thing Sirius had ever done.

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Sirius jammed another post into the ground for Mr. Catarx then he Strung another row of fence. He enjoyed his cowhand job immensely. He really didn't have to think about the work he was doing as he did it. All he had to do was, do it. Of course, he often used magic to wipe the smug grins off the old cowhands who thought he'd be out working all night with some of the jobs they'd assigned him. But more oft then not, he was completely satisfied to work the Montana's ranch by muggle means. It was such a beautiful place.

Sirius couldn't help but think he was given the call of the wild. He loved nothing more then playing his new guitar under the starry western skies. He had decided that he'd change his name, cut his hair, and become like his role models Garth Brooks and George Strait.

He wanted to be a country music star.

Yes, Sirius did quite enjoy his wandering life, his ever changing careers.

In the weeks that had passed since his departure, Sirius found that he hadn't regretted his decision a bit.

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James and Remus had just charmed all the Jell-O to try to eat the people before the people ate the jelly, and it was quite hilarious. Everyone was screaming, but the three Marauders were laughing their tails off as the Jell-O was trying to eat them.

It was unspoken, but everyone knew that the moment was nice, but definitely not perfect.

They were missing their Padfoot.

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Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Can you help me remember how to smile?
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded?
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just a-drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Runaway Train- Soul Asylum

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Ha! Haha! I updated! Take that Miss Kayleigh! :P