Chapter 3 : James worries
While Harry was at the Malfoy's James had been else where.
James drove towards a old church. While Lily had been alive James, Lily and Harry had gone to church on Sunday mornings but, after Lily had died James hadn't had the heart to go to church anymore and even when Sirius had that little speech of his James had wanted to go but he was always busy or thought he was too busy in going. But now after all these years he was finally going.
The church session was over however there was still a couple of people there sitting quitely. James sat down towards the center of the left side and laid his head down on his folded hands.
'Lily I'm sorry that I haven't come to talk to you in a while but I was afraid to come to church again. Afraid that people would look at me sympathetically and say I'm so sorry about what happened to your wife. And you know ae well as I did thatI didn't need that espicially not Harry.'
'I thought I was going to lose him. When he confronted Tom Riddle after he had kidnapped Draco Malfoy I seriously thought I was going to lose him.'
'For the longest time I was afraid that I was losing him just not in the dying sense of the world. Harry's a great kid he is, it's just that he used to get in a bunch of trouble at school and out of school. I was at my wits end with him I really was.' 'And I'm happy that he meant someone like Draco Malfoy he's a good kid. Happy that he got out of that disaster ok.'
'Sirius is dating a Professor by the name of Remus Lupin, they had dated years before but obviously broke up. They just saw each other rather recently and are dating again. I'm glad Sirius deserves someone that would put up with him.' James thought smiling a little.
'Harry and Draco have been dating for a good while now. And I'm happy for the both of them I am it's just that I feel sort of lonely. I don't mean to be but when I see all of the happy couples I get jealous.'
Maybe It's time to start dating I don't know. I mean I tried dating a couple years or so after you died it just didn't feel right. And I know you'd want me to be happy but I don't know if I could be happy with someone else I really don't.'
'Maybe I'll wait for the opputunity to arise and then see what happens? I know you wouldn't be mad if I started dating but I don't know if I really want to even if I do feel jealous of other couples.'
'I'm so confused I don't know what to do.' 'I wish I didn't have to worry about dating but it would be nice to at least try the dating game once more. Maybe you could help by giving me a sign or something? You know like what woman you think would make me happy, just don't make her out to be a fifty year old something lady please.' James thought almost laughing but remembering where he was.
'I don't know what to do about dating maybe I'll think about it. Well I should probably leave Harry will probably want him to pick him up. I love you and I miss you Lily," James said sighing slightly and getting off of the seat.
As James walks out of the church his cell phone rings. 'I forgot to put the cell phone on viberate!' James thought to himself happy that it hadn't gone off while he had been in church.
James got out his cell phone and answered it. "Hello?"
"Yeah James? Harry wants to know if he can stay for dinner at the Malfoy's." Sirius said.
A/N Please review, Since we know what the answer will be there's no point in saying the rest lol.