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It was never mine and never will be, sadly.

A/N: Oh, I'm excited! My first chapter of GITM! Are you happy? This should tie you all over until I get chapter 30 of Stay done. Remember, I don't do prologues or making the first chapter part of the middle of the story. I start out where I want to and we go from there. It's time for Seductiveward and SlightlyStubbornella! :)

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GITM Playlist Ch 1- Candyman by Christina Aguilera

- - - G I T M - - -

Sweet sugar candy man
He's a one stop, gotcha hot, making all the panties drop
Sweet sugar candy man
He's a one stop, got me hot, making my uh pop
Sweet sugar candy man
He's a one stop, get it while it's hot, baby don't stop
Sweet sugar

- - - G I T M - - -


Here I am, sitting in another store, watching my two best friends try on more clothes. As if they don't have enough already. Their closets are huge, nearly exploding with shoes and clothes. Sure, I like clothes as much as the next person but I don't go shopping every time I get my pay check. I save half of it.

I've known Rose and Alice since their family moved from Alaska two weeks before Senior year at Forks High School in the little town of Forks, Washington. I stayed with my dad, Charlie in Forks while my mother, Renee, packed up and ran off with a rich man to live the high life. Phil Dwyer was his name.

I hated her for what she did to my dad and stopped taking her calls or answering her texts and e-mails. My parents were separated for about a year until my mom realized that life wasn't about being rich and having the best designer brands. It was about having love and having someone to come home to at the end of the day. She wasn't happy. She said she still loved my father more than anything and left Arizona and Phil behind, came knocking at our door in the middle of the night crying, begging for our forgiveness, saying she wanted her family back.

And of course, my dad, being the loving man that he is, let her come back but he didn't make it easy. He made her work for it. She had to sleep on the sofa, get a job, her own car and win his trust back. With me, it took longer to forgive, like six months longer. Charlie decided not to let her off the hook until I forgave her as well.

But he gave in early because three months later, a month before I would start my last year of high school, I came home one afternoon and was met with the most horrifying sight of any teenager's eyes. My parents kissing on the kitchen floor, wrapped in an afghan, post sexual intercourse. I screamed bloody murder and sprinted up to my room and didn't come out until the next day.

My mom stopped me before I could bolt out the front door to work, blocked the door, sat me down, and pleaded with me to forgive her.


"Renee, I need to go to work. Please get out of the way."

"Sweetheart, please talk to me. You're my baby girl and I miss you! I can't stand that you hate me."

"I don't have time for this," I snapped and tried to go out the door.

"Isabella Swan, stop right there," my father's voice growled. "Do not talk to your mother that way and stop calling her Renee. Sit down and listen."

I broke. Everything, every bit of anger, hurt, pain, betrayal I was feeling for the last three months just spilled out of me.

"Dad, I know you forgave her, God knows why, but she left both of us to screw another man and live in the land of money and socialites. How can you forgive something like that so quick? She left us without a care in the world meaning she didn't care how we felt. She didn't care how unimportant we thought we were, how little we thought we meant to her, what leaving her husband and daughter behind would do to us! Nothing! It hurts and it...she didn't care, Daddy. She made me feel like I wasn't good enough, like she didn't love me enough to stay f-for..." I couldn't finish; a lump formed in my throat and tears filled my eyes.

My dad features softened at the sight of my tears and gathered me into his arms, talking to me softly, "Bella, your mom loves you. Just as much as I love you. That won't change and I know that what she did hurt you but she's trying so hard to make up for that. Don't cry, baby, it breaks my heart to see you cry."

"I love you, sweetie, I do and I promise to prove it to you for as long as I live," my mom sobbed from the couch.

End Flashback

From that day on, she never went back on her word and our relationship healed. They both scrubbed the kitchen floor with bleach and Comet, promising to never do anything other than cook and eat in there ever again and they were still together to this day, happy and in love. I met Alice and Rosalie the first day of my Senior year and we were inseparable ever since.

Rosalie Hale was Alice Cullen's next door neighbor and moved with her family when Rose's parents were killed in a head on collision. Alice's parents, Esme and Carlisle Cullen, took her in with open arms and treated her like one of their own. Carlisle was offered a job as Chief of Medicine at Forks' hospital so they packed up and left Alaska. Alice had two older brothers, the oldest one was named Emmett and the other was Edward. The both of them were in college in California so I didn't get to meet them.

But Rose filled me in on what Emmett was like, seeing as she was smitten with him. Emmett had curly, dark brown hair, smiling blue eyes like his dad and was a big teddy bear of a guy. He may look mean and scary but really he's a like a little boy inside. Energetic, easy to get along with, and loved hugs. Rose was the epitome of a super model; tall, long blond hair, hazel eyes, legs for days, slender with full red lips. She walked gracefully and wore heels like a pro. All the guys drooled over her and all the girls wanted to be her but all she wanted was Emmett.

They seemed like complete opposites on the outside, but they weren't. Like I said, Em looked mean and fierce but he's not and Rose may look bitchy and prudish, but she's far from. I mean she can get like that when someone she cared about is hurt but she's loving and sweet. And when Rose wanted something, she got it. The week after Emmett came to visit for the summer, she pounced. They've been attached at the mouth ever since, to put it lightly.

Now Alice, she's a whole different story. Mary Alice Cullen is her real name but she hates being called Mary so she is Alice, Al, or Ali to friends and family. She's four foot nine inches, with big light green eyes, and shoulder length, dyed black hair. She was born with blond hair like her father but says she feels like it should be black so it's black. She has a full bottom lip and a thinner top lip but she loves how she looks and so does her boyfriend, my best guy friend, Jasper Whitlock.

Jasper has riotous curly blond hair, kind, slate gray eyes, nice lips and stands at six feet; more than a foot taller than Alice. He's smart, charming and can melt a girl's heart with his Texas accent. That's one of the traits that attracted Ali to him. I've known him all my life and he's like my big brother. The first words Alice said to him were "you've kept me waiting" and his response was "I'm sorry, darlin'" with a grin and he kissed her knuckles. They've been in love to this day.

My full name is Isabella Marie Swan. I prefer Bella and I was born on September 13, 1988 in Forks, Washington. I currently reside in Seattle and live in a one story white house with red shutters on the outskirts of town. I drive a black 2008 Volkswagen Jetta and I own a bookstore and I am working on my first novel. My editor's name is Irina and she's married with two little boys. I graduated from college last May at Seattle University with a degree in Journalism.

I have had sex three times since I was nineteen and that was with my ex-boyfriend, Paul. He cheated on me with a girl from the reservation he lived at and from then on I don't date because I'll only end up being cheated on again. I have long brown hair and brown eyes. I weigh 138 pounds-the last time I checked-and stand at five feet, five inches. I guess I like my body except my butt, it's a little too big for my liking. I was blessed with my dad's thick hair and eyes, my mom's long hair, lips, and height. My ass is from my dad's mom. She had a big rump but mine is smaller than hers, according to my mother.

A sudden kick to my ankle brought me out of my thoughts. I smiled as Rose checked herself out in the full length mirror and spoke to Ali.

"Do these shorts make my ass look fat, Alice?"

"Nope, you look hot. If I was a lesbian, I would totally bone you."

"You're not even looking!"

"Rosalie, you already know you look hot in just about anything, why do you need my approval?"

"Because you're the fashion psycho."

"Rose, honey, your ass doesn't look fat in those shorts. You have a very nice rump."

"Thank you, Ali!"

"My ass would look massive in those shorts," I muttered.

"Bella, I would kill to have your ass," Rose snapped, "hell, Emmett even talks about your ass. You're beautiful, girlie. Embrace it."

"Listen to Rose, Bell. It's true, you are beautiful."

"I'm plain. A Plain Jane, you guys."

"Hey, baby!" We all turned at the racket of Emmett's booming voice. He and Jasper were jogging over to us from the front door of the store. Rose and Alice waved at their boyfriends, jumping into their arms. I rolled my eyes and looked down at my phone. They act like they've been without them for ages.

Now don't get me wrong, I have nothing against love and Jasper and Em would never cheat on Ali and Rose but for some reason, I always find the pigs. Every guy I tried dating were either married or dating someone. My dad is a cop and he goes background check crazy with everyone I date so I gave up on dating about a year ago. It's not worth the heartache.

"Hey, Belly, what's crackin'?"

"Just a normal, boring Bella day," I shrugged and smiled.

"We are not boring, Isabella Marie!" Alice screeched.

"Of course you're not, Al. You're the most exciting part of my life. The only exciting part of my life."

"I can change that, you know?"

"Oh, good God of America," Jasper groaned, "here we go with the I-wanna-eat-Bella-alive stare. Why did you ask him to come, Em? You knew this was gonna happen."

"Fuck you, Jazz," Em punched his arm, "he's my bro and he's welcome to go anywhere with me."

The minute, no the second I heard his voice, my entire body went on full alert. My skin began to tingle, my breathing picked up, and my face heated. Yes, I gave up on dating and yes, all men eventually cheat, and yes I vowed never to let anyone in my heart but...

He's my weakness.

I try so hard to stay away from him or whenever he's where I am, I leave but there's sometimes when there's no escaping him and right now, I can't escape him. I've known Edward Cullen for two years and I have been trying to fight how attracted I am to him for just as long. I know he wants me and he never tries to hide it. You wanna know how I know he wants me? He's admitted it in front of everyone; my parents and anyone else that happened to be around. When he looks at me, it's like I'm the last drop of liquid on earth and he hasn't had a drink in weeks.

He is the sexiest man I have ever seen. Gorgeous, piercing, emerald green eyes, wild, bronze hair, a sharp, angular jaw, straight nose, full dark pink lips, a perfect, white set of teeth, long piano playing fingers on warm, strong hands, and a body to die for. I won't even go into detail about it. It's enough to...God, you can't imagine. He's kissed me twice but only because I was caught off guard but both times made me weak in the knees.

"H-hi, Edward," I stuttered as I peeked at him through my hair, studying him. He stood there, leaning against the wall, wearing a tight, black t-shirt that hugged him like a second skin, worn blue jeans and black, thong sandals. His hair was it's usual disarray, wind blown and tugged at by his fingers.

"Hey, gorgeous."

"What are you doing here?"

"Oh, you know, walking around enjoying the...sights." His eyes traveled up and down my body as he said it.


"Eddie, are you comin'?"

"Emmett, what have I told you about calling me Eddie?"

"Shut up. We're meeting the girls in like ten minutes."

"Girls?" I perked up at the word.

"Yeah, Al and Rosie."

"Man, he's wantin' ta know if Bells'll be with them," Jasper pointed out.

"Oh, hell, Edward. Hold on. I'll text Rose." Emmett pulled out his phone and typed a quick message to his girlfriend. Thirty seconds later, his phone beeped. "Yeah, she's with 'em."

"Sure. I'll go," I grinned. They shook their heads and turned to the door.

Isabella Marie Swan is my drug. I have never wanted anyone in my entire life as much as I want her. I've known her for two years and have been chasing her ever since. She's a stubborn girl; she believes all men will cheat and stays single, but if she would just...God, if she would just let me have her, I'd never let her go. That girl is everything I could ever want.

She's smart, funny, caring, warm, loving, understanding, strong, independent, confident yet shy and drop dead fucking gorgeous. She's five feet, five inches; the perfect height for me, big chestnut eyes, a heart shaped face, pink pouty lips, a long, thick curtain of chocolate brown hair that falls in waves and curls past her shoulders and down her back. It feels like silk between your fingers and begs to be touched. Her body...Jesus, her body is like heaven for me. She's got curves in all the right places; a perfect bust, slender waist, rounded hips, long legs, small, dainty feet. She's got creamy, soft pale skin and she smells like strawberries and jasmine.

God, I want her so fucking bad and I don't hide it. Bella's beautiful and I want her to be mine. If only she'd just give in to me, I would show her how much she means to me. I've kissed that girl twice already and both times took the breath out of me. Our chemistry sizzles and I can only imagine how hot it would burn if she'd let it take its course.

I know everything about her; her favorite food is grilled cheese sandwiches, her favorite colors are blue and purple, she bites her bottom lip when she's nervous or sad, she likes to run her fingers through her hair, like me, she has a degree in Journalism, she owns her own bookstore and is writing a novel. Her parent's names are Renee and Charlie Swan, her name means Beautiful Swan, she wants to go to Rome, she used to have a Blue Russian cat named Felix but he died from infection in his throat when she was thirteen.

She lived in Forks, Washington all her life up until she moved to Seattle, she caught her parents having sex on the kitchen floor when she was seventeen, she knows I'm afraid of her father even though I have never met him and there's so much more...

If she would just let me in.

I'd never hurt her and if I ever did, I'd have Emmett kick my ass.

"Ed-ward?" Em waved his hands in my face. "Are you listening to me?"

"Sorry, what?"

"I come you're chasing a girl who obviously wants nothing to do with men?"

"She's gonna be mine, Em. Why are you even worrying about it? You already have Rosalie."

"I just...I don't want to see it blow up in your face and get hurt."

"Awww, Em, are you turning soft on me?" I chuckled.

Shut up, dick," he punched me.

The three of us walked down the sidewalk and filed in to the clothing store and Em got loud, "Hey, baby!" he waved at Rose. She turned and smiled, waving just as hysterically. Alice giggled and shook her head.

"Hey, Belly, what's crackin'?"

"Just a normal, boring Bella day," Bella's sweet voice answered.

Ah, baby, you have no idea how un-boring I can make your days if you'll let me.

"We are not boring, Isabella Marie!" Ali screeched.

"Of course you're not, Al. You're the most exciting part of my life. The only exciting part of my life."

"I can change that, you know?" I interrupted. A gorgeous blush spread across her face before she hid it behind her hair.

"Oh, good God of America," Jazz groaned, "here we go with the I-wanna-eat-Bella-alive stare. Why did you ask him to come, Em? You knew this was gonna happen."

"Fuck you, Jazz," Em punched him in the arm, "he's my bro and he's welcome to go anywhere with me."

"H-hi, Edward," Bella squeaked.

"Hey gorgeous."

"What are you doing here?"

"Oh, you know, walking around, enjoying the...sights," I grinned as my eyes took in her beauty. She was wearing a blue top tucked into high waisted, cinched, silk black shorts and black, open toed flats with a strap around her ankle.

Beautiful as always.

"Are you guys finished?" I asked the others, taking my eyes away from Bella.

"Yup," Rose nodded. "You wanna get something to eat?"

"Fuck yeah!"

"Only you, Emmett," Bella giggled.

"Always hungry," Jasper and Alice retorted together.

"Let's go," I chuckled. Bella stood, stretched and ran her hands through her hair. I looked at her, sending everything I felt for her in my gaze.

I'm in love with you...I wonder if you know that.

I tucked a hair behind her ear and touched her cheek, lingering there for a moment. She blushed and looked away.

So stubborn.

I leaned towards her and whispered in her ear the words I've been wanting to say to her all week.

"I want to be with you."

"Oh, Edward," she sighed.

Please give in, sweet girl, it would be so simple.

I pulled her into me and hugged her.

"I just want you, Bella."

"I know."

"Let me in."

A/N: Don't you just love him? Hope I didn't disappoint. Let me know what you think. Do you like how sweet E is about Bella? He has many sides...

This is what E looks like. Of course it's Rob- http : / / www . p-c . cz / newmoon / obrazky /edvadr7452 . jpg

Emmett- http : / / www . eclipsemovie . org/ images / kellan-lutz-9119-4 . jpg

Rose- http : / / letterstotwilight . files . wordpress . com / 2009 / 05 / rosalie . jpg

Everyone else is the same. :)

I wanted Bella's figure to resemble Whitney Thompson's from America's Next Top Model- http : / / www . ockhamstyle . com / sv / women / Whitney _ Thompson . jpg

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Jacob-20 (he'll be in later chaps, along with other characters)