Chapter 41 - Agito's Reality


'Why not go with Kazuma-san Agito?' Akito asked the shark suddenly.

'He needs to talk with his sister by himself. I don't need to butt in. Besides... I need some time to relax, somewhat...' he answered with a sigh.

'So you're still irritated.'

'Maybe a little.…'

Akito draped his arms around the shark's neck playfully. 'My poor Agito-kun.'

'Don't start with me Akito.'

'Nani?' The boy tilted his head curiously. 'Start what?'

'Oh, never mind...'

'Hmn? You're so grumpy. How am I supposed to help you when you won't let me?'

'Fuck I don't know...' he mumbled, crossing his arms.

Akito sighed and stepped in front of the shark, kneeling down to meet his eye level, as Agito was currently sitting on the mental floor. 'You're silly.'

'And you like the word 'silly'.'

'Only because it describes you so well,' Akito replied with a giggle.

Agito shook his head at the boy. 'Only you...'

He smiled and lifted the shark's head to look at him, a hand on each side of his jaw. 'Cheer up a little. Your sulking is only going to stress you out.'

'Maybe, I'll think about it,' Agito replied rolling his eyes.

Akito rolled the other boy's head from side to side with a light giggle. 'Maybe you should try and smile,' he stated cheerfully as he pulled the sides of Agito's mouth up with his thumbs.

'..Akito... Can you let go of my face?'

The boy giggled again and let go, now resting his hands on top of his knees as he continued to smile at the shark.

Agito sighed and gave into the cheery one's demand, giving him a weak smirk in reply.

'Well...that's a start. Feel better?'

'I guess...'

'Good.'

Kazu arrived back at the hotel and headed up to where the room was. Though, he felt a little awkward being a barely middle class kid in a luxurious hotel. The blond sighed and knocked on the door to the room, not having a key.

Agito looked toward the door and cursed as he realized he hadn't given the blond a spare. He walked over and opened the door with a smirk. "Is this what you call room service?"

"Oh, shut up," the blond replied with a smile.

The boy stepped to the side to let him in and walked back to the table, sitting down in his previous spot. "How'd it go?"

Kazu sighed and sat across from the shark. "Well...she was in a better mood then I expected...I think she was just worried because I didn't come home. You know she's actually been dating your brother for almost two months?"

"The fuck? Two months?"

"Yeah...I know. Shock to me too. I don't know what she sees in him but it seems I don't have much say in the matter. It'd be like arguing with the wall."

Agito laughed. "Well, you guys must be part insane. I mean you love me and your sister loves my brother."

"Hmn...we must be. And apparently we Mikura's are just irresistible to the Wanjima's aren't we?" Kazu replied with a smirk.

"Apparently so... The thing that scares me is that my brother and I have similar taste."

"Well, it can't be helped when you're of the same blood I guess. Damn siblings huh?" he laughed.

"Fuck, you're telling me." Agito stood and walked over to the Mikura, pulling him down into a kiss.

Kazu smiled against his lips. "So...any plans for today?"

"Not much. Relax a bit... Fuck you can do whatever the hell you want; spa, Jacuzzi, relax at the hotel. If need be I'll book another night." Agito smirked at the suggestion. Despite the less-then-pleasant wake up this morning, he would happily repeat the previous night's endeavours.

"Uh...no."

"Fuck, fine. The pool's on the top floor, there's a spa, masseuse, whatever you want. My treat Kazu." Agito replied, smiling at the blond.

"You don't need to treat me to any of this." Kazu returned his smile and wrapped his arms around the shark, resting his chin on the boy's shoulder.

"Why not? I want to..." he insisted as he lay a hand on the blond's head.

He laughed lightly. "Why?"

"Cause I wanna take care of you."

"Take care of me?" The blond laughed and hugged him tighter. "You're adorable. When did you get so sentimental?"

"Fuck, who knows…" Agito gave him a small smile, his eyes somewhat sad. He wouldn't be around forever and the thought was more then unsettling.

"I appreciate the gesture Agito, but I don't need any of this, really. Someone could come and strip away everything I have and I feel like I'd be fine as long as I have your company."

Agito laughed. "Yeah well, fuck... I don't know. I guess I just want you to be comfortable. You know what I mean... I think," he mumbled, feeling somewhat embarrassed.

"Yeah, I know..." Kazu smiled and lay down on the floor, pulling the boy with him. "But I'm comfortable just like this."

"Well, fuck..." The shark laughed as he was pulled onto the floor. "The carpet is pretty comfortable."

"Yes, yes it is."

Agito leaned over and kissed the blond gently as one hand weaved through Kazu's, earning a warm smile from the boy.

"Agito...let's stay like this forever..."

"I'll stay like this as long as I can..." he replied softly, kissing Kazu on the forehead. Inside, the shark looked at Akito sadly, feeling somewhat guilty at the knowledge still unknown to his lover.

Akito smiled sympathetically and embraced him as if to ease the pain.

Kazu wrapped an arm around the boy and pulled him close, taking comfort in his company. "I love you Agito..."

The boy slid his arms around Kazu, closing his eyes in regret. "... Same for me." 'Fuck, I should tell him, I have to... But I don't know how to... Akito...'

'I...can't help you Agito. This is something you have to place into words yourself,' the boy replied softly.

'Yeah... I know... Fuck...' The shark took a deep breath and tried to ignore the uncomfortable knotting in his stomach."Kazu... What- what would you do if I was gone for a while?" he mumbled, unsure how to word what he was trying to say.

"Hmn...? What do you mean?" he asked curiously.

"Kazu. You understand that... that when Akito doesn't need me anymore… his mind will... I won't be around anymore... Right?"

"Huh?" Kazu stared at the shark, his eyes looking half worried, though mostly confused. "What do you mean you won't be around anymore?"

"Fuck... It means, that….once I'm not needed anymore, Akito's mind will consciously or unconsciously eradicate me."

"What?" The blond paused as he took a moment to process what he'd just heard. "That's...no. Why are you telling me this all of a sudden?" He looked worriedly toward the shark, not wanting to believe what he was hearing.

"Because you have to know Kazu. Because I fucking care about you... Fuck, I don't know when it's going to be, just... One day, Akito's going to wake up and I won't be there anymore..." The words cut as he spoke them. The thought of leaving him behind was painful. They had barely just started enjoying each other and it was ending so soon. In the back of his mind, a part of him regretted kissing him that first night on the bench outside.

Kazu shut his eyes and pulled Agito tightly against his chest. "What are you talking about Agito? Don't say that. You can't just disappear on me. I won't let you. Don't you dare."

"Kazu, if I had the choice I would never fucking leave you but this is something that I have no control over... Kazu..." His voice was quiet as he buried his face into the fabric of the blond's shirt. He could feel the boy's arms tighten around him as if that could keep him there. "How can you just accept that Agito? I won't believe it. You can't just disappear. You aren't going anywhere."

"What can I do about it Kazu? It's God taking away your life. How the fuck are you going to avoid death?" he answered a bit bitterly, his voice somewhat muffled due to his face still buried in the blond's chest.

"I don't know..." Kazu replied quietly. "But this is...beyond unfair. I just met you Agito… I'm just starting to know you I…You can't just leave now…"

"Fuck, who the hell said life was fair Kazuma?" Agito looked up at the blond with a sad expression. "Even though I told you this, don't worry about when. I don't know; Akito doesn't know. Fuck, he says he'll always need me but I know that's not fuckin' true."

"What if I need you? Doesn't that account for anything?"

"It accounts for fucking everything Kazuma. It's not Akito I'm worried about." He reached up and brushed a hair away from the boy's face "I worry about you so goddamn much."

"Then why do you have to go?"

"Because I want to stay," he answered, closing his eye.

"That's...what the hell kind of fucked up logic is that?"

"Fuck, Kazu. I'm here for one reason and one reason only. Originally... to protect Akito... Once my job is done, I'm gone. Personally, I have two. Protect Akito… Akito and you," Agito replied, leaning up to softly kiss the blond.

"Why can't that reason change?"

"Because... I'm... I'm not 'real.' " The words seemed to echo through the room, despite the low volume of his voice. It was true. What more was he but a fragmented piece of Akito's subconscious? It was a painful realization for both of them as a brief silence filled the room.

Kazu frowned and lightly smacked Agito on the side of his head. "Don't talk like that," he scolded. "I understand that you're a part of Akito but that doesn't mean you aren't real. You exist. You have your own thoughts and your own actions. Don't give me that shit."

The shark mock winced at the blond's hit, though he couldn't help but offer a faint smile. "Fuck, I guess."

The blond smiled slightly. "You better not leave me Agito. I'll kick your ass."

"Hai, hai." The shark laughed and leaned up for another kiss.

Kazu returned his kiss, still feeling a bit sombre about what Agito had just told him. He still didn't want to believe it. He didn't want to think about it. He consoled himself that this was just Agito being absurd and melodramatic, though inside, the fear of loosing him refused to subside.

The boy smiled sadly at the blond and whispered in his ear, "I love you so fucking much Mikura, Kazuma."

The blond smiled. "I know, Agito. I love you too."

Agito lay back down and, noticing Luffy's tail hanging off the edge of the bed, yanked it with a mischievous smile as the stuffed shark fell onto Kazu's face. Agito snickered and hugged the blond. "Now you've got both sharks all over you."

"Ah!" he laughed at the unexpected assault. As he lifted the animal from his face, he lightly tapped it on the boy's head. "Dork."

Agito smirked. "Feeding frenzy."

"Eh?" Kazu raised a curious eyebrow before laughing again. "You're ridiculous."

The shark leaned in and began to nibble at Kazu's neck. "Am I?"

"Yeah," the blond snickered. "You are."

"Then what does that make you for loving someone ridiculous?"

"Uh...I dunno...insane?"

"Maybe," the shark replied with a laugh.

"Probably."

The boy grabbed Luffy and placed him between Kazu and himself, now sitting on top of their close bodies.

Kazu chuckled and leaned in to kiss his forehead. Agito was being playful and he found himself very much enjoying this side of the usually not-so-gentle shark. "You're cute."

Agito accepted his complement quietly and lay there, completely comfortable. He could feel the blond's fingers gently playing with his hair. A comfort that made his body relax and shut down. "Fuck... Damn it Kazu..." he cursed, as a yawn escaped his lips.

"Hmn?" the blond questioned, wondering what he was cursing him for this time.

"You being this comfortable should be fucking illegal," Agito replied, his sentence split by another yawn.

"Aww...you're tired Agito?" Kazu asked with a semi-sly smile.

"Fuck... No... You're just too... Fuck..." he mumbled, trailing off as yawned for the third time.

Kazu chuckled and continued to tangle his fingers in the boy's hair.

"Fuck..." Agito mumbled, feeling his eyelids getting heavier. "Never thought... That'd I'd fall asleep like... This." His sentences became more and more staggered as he slipped in and out consciousness.

"If you're tired, just let yourself fall asleep Agito," Kazu replied as he closed his eyes restfully, though he wasn't really tired- just comfortable. He smiled as he held the sleeping Agito that was now cuddling into his chest. He stayed still as he lay on the carpet of their hotel suite, where he would stay until the boy woke up. The blond pulled the boy a bit closer as a peaceful sigh escaped the shark in his sleep, wishing that this wouldn't end. 'Agito, you can't leave me okay? I love you too much… '


Author's notes:

*sniff sniff* Agi~! ;-;
Hope you enjoyed yet another chapter. Yes, this reality is starting to become a lot more apparent. Is so sad.

Umn... yeah... not much to say bout this one haha.

For Your Amusement- In this chapter: Runi as Agito. Zuku as Kazuma.

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