Chapter 1 – My boy's

"Come on boys it's time to get up." I told my two sons, Blake and Zack.

Zack pushed himself up off the mattress and smiled at me. I picked my three year old up and kissed his forehead. He closed his deep blue eyes and lay his head on my shoulder, yawning. I kissed his cheek and set him on the ground, his little body stretched itself and he let out a groan. He looked at me one more time before running out of the room, I giggled as I heard his little feet make their way down the hallway. I could hear the TV, he was watching Handy Many.

Turning to my other son, Blake, I sighed. I shook his back lightly, trying to get him awake. He groaned and patted my hand, shoving it away from him. He was stubborn like me, never doing anything he didn't want to do.

I lifted the comforter off his body and he let out an angry groan. "I want to sleep." He told me.

"Well i have plans with Aunt Alice and you have to get ready for football and soccer camp." I told him – Alice wasn't really their aunt, she was my best friend that I had since college and she has helped me through a lot and the boys love her.

Blake got up and stomped out of my room, he slammed my door and I sighed sadly, as I sat on the edge of the bed I let a tear escape. Sometimes, I got overwhelmed with the whole single mother thing. It was hard without Mike, my ex-husband.

Mike and I divorced when I had just given birth to Zack. While I was in labour, he was on a business trip in California; I soon found out that he was cheating on me with a model from Paris. He got up and left, leaving me an emotional wreck and to take care of a newborn baby and a two year old Blake. It was hard but I had support from my family and friends.

When Mike and I were in the middle of getting the divorce, he signed all his rights to be a parent to me, and the day we signed the divorce papers, he told me I was a no good slut and that I should rot in hell, I never saw him after that.

I was brought out of my thoughts when I felt a tug on my arm.

"Mommy I am hungry." Zack whispered.

I smiled, looking into his blue eyes.

"I will make breakfast but first you need to get dressed, as well as Blake." He nodded and ran towards his and Blake's room.

I got up off of my bed and into the bathroom; i combed my hair and got into jeans and a light blue jumper. I put a light make-up on my face and went to start another day with my boys.

I went down the hall and saw that Blake had dressed himself; he was wearing white shorts and a dark blue t-shirt. His soccer and football, by the front door called out, along with his shoes.

Zack came down the hall in black skinny jeans and a white t-shirt; i guess he was excited about his dance camp. I smiled and started on their pancakes, before i had to go to Alice's and work on our report for fashion.

I flipped the pancakes onto plates and brought them to the table, along with a glass of orange juice.

"Blake, Zack breakfast." I called out.

Zack came running in and I smiled, someone was eager to get going. Blake looked at me when he came in, he looked as if he wanted to say something but didn't, I sighed . . . I wished he would open up to me, ever since Mike left he has just been closed off.

I ate my breakfast quickly and then went to the dishwasher and loaded everything up. Blake was next to being done and I smiled at him, he smiled weakly back at me and then went to put on his runners. I looked at Blake and he was done, just drinking the last of his orange juice.

I put all of the dishes and cups in the dishwasher, I grabbed my keys off the hook and then got my purse, I walked over to Zach and helped him put on his dance shoes, he looked so cute in what he was wearing, I smiled and then looked at Blake, who was putting on his shoes and had his balls in his hands.

I smiled and then went to the door, the boys behind me. I opened it and they both ran to the car. I made sure they were buckled in before driving out of the housing estate and onto the highway.

I soon came to the turn off where I was suppose to drop Blake off, I parked in the lot and both boys got out, I walked to the desk and signed Blake in, he put his stuff in the locker he was given and then he ran out to the group of boys in the field, I noticed that he was with some boys from school. I smiled and saw the coaches coming onto the field, telling them to listen up.

I took Zach's hand and brought him back to the car. Soon we were in front of the dance studio, I signed him in and looked around the room, and there were teenagers mostly and about six kids his age. I sighed and hugged him, he looked a little nervous and I smiled.

"You will do great, they love the way you break dance." I told him, "I love you, Emmett will collect you today, as well as Blake, okay?" I asked him.

He nodded smiled, "Love you." With that he ran off to the dance director and told him his name.

I walked out of the room and went to my car, I got in and there was that eerie silence, I hated the silence, I was so used to the boys ranting in the backseat.

I was meeting Alice at a small coffee shop in town; I soon got there and waited in a booth for her to come.

I looked through my phone and saw that Blake had a party to go to this Friday. "Hello, Bella." Alice's voice brought me out of my own thinking, I jumped a little and she giggled, "Sorry didn't mean to scare you." She said.

"Hey, its fine, I am in a world of my own today. How are you?" I said, sitting back down and smiling at her.

"Good you?" She asked.

"I'm okay . . ." I said. "So we have a lot to go through with the Abercrombie modelling session coming up." I told her.

She nodded, "Before we get into that, I have to ask, do you want to come to my mom and dad's barbeque tonight, they're asking for you." She told me.

I smiled, "I would love to, but Emmett is collecting the boys so I have to go home first."

She smirked, "No you don't, I already rang him, he is coming to mom and dad's after he collects them." She whispered.

And with that, we spent the next four hours discussing which models should go first and who wears what. It was long and hard but we did it.