Hooray for father/son outing day...means mommy gets another chapter written.
So here is the next chapter...and I must prefae this chapter by saying I have never actually written one like it. I've read tons of romance novels from Catherine Anderson to Lora Leigh (this has given me different ideas on how to write this chapter) but never actually attempted it on my own. I hope you enjoy this and aren't disappointend.
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After what felt like a mile walk I made it to the bed and gently laid Bella down in the middle of it without breaking our kiss. She felt so good wrapped around me and this was with all her clothes on, I can't imagine what she would feel like with no barrier between us. She was ready and so was I.
It was honestly like I couldn't get enough…enough of her lips, her tongue, touching her soft skin and feeling her reaction to everything I was doing. Finally I decided that she had taken the iniative on everything so far and that I wanted to take charge now so I made a move to take off her shirt and once she figured out what I was doing she sat straight up and ripped it off.
"Bella, patience beautiful girl. I don't want to rush this; I want to take in every inch of you." I leaned down and started kissing her chest and then started to trail down from there.
"Uhhhhhhhh, Edward. Can we please go slow next time? Please." She was wiggling around underneath me so I figured she must be enjoying all that I was doing.
I started making my way back to her mouth and when I reached my intended target I reached around Bella's back and removed her bra and then her hands immediately went to my shirt and pulled it off. I pulled back and just looked…she was gorgeous.
"Stop looking at me like that Edward." She ducked her head and went to put her hands over her breasts but I stopped her.
"Baby, you are so beautiful. Don't be shy with me, you have no reason to be."
Bella took a deep breath before relaxing her arms and looking up to me. "Edward, I've been waiting for this for a while and we have all night, can we please go a little faster this time?"
"Baby, we can do whatever you want but I want to make sure you're ready for me."
"Oh, I'm ready." Bella's hands moved to the button on her jeans and undid it and pulled them down and I just watched. There is nothing sexier than watching a beautiful woman undress for you.
Finally, she had removed all her clothes and then looked at me as if to say 'ok, you're turn' so I did just that. While I was undressing I noticed she wiggled to the top of the bed and pulled down the sheets. When I was done I climbed in with her and turned to face her and pulled her close.
"Bella, I'm not going to ask you but I just want you to know that if you need to stop all you have to do is tell me. No questions asked, ok?" She nodded and I leaned in to kiss her. I was the luckiest man alive with the woman of my dreams in my arm and she was about to give herself to me.
After a few minutes I rolled on top of her and kissed her behind her ear, down her neck and finally reached her right breast. At the same time I reached down to make sure she was physically ready for me and when I touched her she immediately jerked her hips toward me. I got my answer. I moved to spread her legs and I settled in between them, slowly moving towards her entrance.
"Edward, wait." I abruptly pulled back and looked at her. "I'm fine and I don't want you to stop." She was whispering now so I knew whatever she was about to say was serious. "I haven't done this since I had LJ…obviously. I just don't know how it's going to feel for you. I just want you to know."
"Bella, sweetheart. There is nothing that won't feel good about this, I promise. If it didn't feel good then people would never have more than one child. I promise, you're going to be perfect." I gave her a quick kiss on the tip of her nose and then moved to her lips. Once I felt her relax in my arms I moved my lower half towards her entrance and pushed forward.
Yeah, she had nothing to worry about…she was perfect…and I was home.
"Bella, damn you feel good baby." I heard Edward say and if I hadn't been caught in the moment by how right he was I'm sure I would've giggled a bit. Edward hardly ever swore. "Do you feel it, baby?"
"Yeah." What a great answer, Bella. "Please don't stop."
Edward and I kept up our dance going and before I knew it I was flying high and when I felt him speed up and then let out a soft moan I knew he was right with me. Always with me. Edward immediately lost his hold on his weight and ended up pretty much lying on top of me while his lips were resting on my neck. I reached my arms around him and just rubbed my hands up and down his sweaty back. I didn't care about the sweat…what we had just done was beautiful and I didn't want to let go of him. A moment later Edward started to move and I let him because he was a little heavy.
"I'm sorry, baby. I didn't mean to fall on you." Edward rolled off of me and onto his side but pulled me close and slung his leg over my hip. I felt safe and secure and just relished in the moment.
"I liked it, Edward. It's nice to feel your whole body on me."
I nodded and rested my head near his chest and started rubbing my hands through his light dusting of chest hair.
"Bella, that was awesome. You are gorgeous and you felt so good baby. Don't ever worry about that again, there is definitely not a problem there." I started giggling because I was sure when Edward thought about what he'd just said he'd try to back track. "I didn't mean that the way it sounded. I sound like an ass." My giggle turned into a laugh.
"Edward, you're too cute. You were perfect, too. And you felt so good." I looked him in the eye after that and he leaned down to kiss me and had we not been exhausted I would've gone for round two but I felt myself drifting so I pulled back a little.
"I love you, Edward. I'm so glad you're here with me and have been with me for a while. I'm so lucky."
"No, Bella. I'm the lucky one. And, before you drift off because I can see that's what is about to happen I want to ask you something." I just continued to look at him so he'd keep talking. "Well, two things actually. First, I'm a jackass because I didn't even ask about using a condom. I'm clean, I promise. And, I'm sorry that I didn't bring it up." I immediately held my finger up to his lips.
"Edward, I'm on the pill and have been since LJ was about six months old. I have an irregular period so usually stay on the pill. And I didn't want anything between us so I'm not sorry…and I hope you aren't either."
"No, I'm not. You felt wonderful. Ok, now for number two." He stopped talking for a moment and took a deep breath. "I want you and LJ to move in with me. Actually, I'd like to look for a bigger apartment in our building so LJ can have his own room and then can have a playroom too. I know it's fast and I want you to think about it but I also know my lease is up soon so it'd be the perfect time."
I kept rubbing circles on Edward's chest and felt him pull me closer to him. Was I ready to live with him? Would it be awkward with Esme and Carlisle…no, I decided. Was I ready to make that commitment…yes. Would LJ like it…definitely. Finally I looked up at him and he gave me a soft smile. Yes, I wanted to live with this man but I had one condition.
"Edward, I do want to live with you but not how you want it." His huge grin slowly turned into a frown.
"What do you mean? Do you want to wait?"
"No, I've been thinking about this a lot recently because I have James's life insurance and have talked to Esme and Carlisle a lot and they agree." I stopped for a moment and the look on Edward's face was pure worry so I put my finger on the little 'V' between his eyebrows. "I want to buy a house, Edward. And, I want you to do it with you. I've always dreamt that LJ would be in a home with a big backyard where he could play. I want him to be somewhere long term and not move around a lot like I had when I grew up."
He sat there…stunned, I'm sure. I think I probably said the last thing he ever thought. After just looking at each other for a bit he finally must've had that light bulb go off in his mind because he started talking…a lot.
"Yes, I want to buy a home with you and LJ. I want it all, Bella…everything you can give me. Where do you want to look? I think a four bedroom home would be perfect for us now and for anything that comes in the future. I think Brentwood is a nice area or Green Hills, I hear they have great schools. Have you called any realtors?" I put a stop to that pretty fast.
"Edward…stop." He quit talking. "I have thought about it and that's all. I love all the ideas you have and tomorrow I think we should sit down and talk about it but for right now I want you to keep your word."
"What do you mean?"
"I want you to take your time." I didn't say another word because I wanted it to click with him…and I realized when he formed a huge grin that he got it.
"You want me to take my time? Well, your wish is my command, my dear. Do you have any particular place you'd like me to start?" I decided to take back control by grabbing his hand and putting it where I was thinking about him kissing me. He nodded and said, "Then let's go slow, baby."
And we did….go slow. Multiple times.