CHAPTER 14

Taylor's Office

Telephone rings

Taylor: Yes Carole?

Carole: Dr. Hayes, Mr. Marone is here to see you.

Taylor: Let him in please.

Nick opens the door to Taylor's office.

Taylor: Hey! Is everything okay?

Nick walks in and closes the door behind him

Nick: Everything is fine. Shouldn't I be asking you that question?

Taylor: What do you mean? Why wouldn't I be okay?

Nick: The little encounter you had with Brooke the other day?

Taylor: How do you know about that? OH WAIT... Brooke ran to you to tell you her version of big bad Taylor.

Nick: Actually no. I had to hear it from Stephanie of all people. Why didn't you tell me?

Taylor: I didn't think it was that important.

Nick: Come on Taylor. You didn't think it was important to tell me that Brooke was threatening you?

Taylor raises her eyebrows at him; surprised that Nick cares enough to be mad at Brooke.

Nick: Don't look at me like that. I love you Taylor. I am not onboard with anyone hurting you. Not even Brooke.

Taylor invites Nick to sit in the chair opposite her.

Taylor: Why did you wait so long to come to see me about it?

Nick: I wanted to put out some fires first and give you time to calm down.

Taylor: I didn't realize I wasn't calm.

Nick: You know what I mean.

Nick leans over Taylor's desk & look her in the face.

Nick: I handled it Taylor. Brooke won't bother you and Jack anymore.

Taylor: Didn't I hear that before?

Nick: She won't. I made it very clear to her that if she steps over the line again, she might as well as kiss the chance of knowing Jack goodbye.

Taylor: AH! She gets another chance. Why am I not surprised.

Taylor stands up and walks to her huge bay window overlooking the city. All Nick could think about at this moment is how beautiful she is; and how he wished they could be together again. However, he know he needs to put the ghost of Brooke to rest for her. He walks up to her and put his hands on her shoulders.

Nick: Taylor, Brooke won't bother you again; I promise. I made it very clear to her that she has no say in Jack's life and she doesn't get to mess with your relationship with him.

Taylor turns to Nick with a sad expression on her face.

Taylor: Let me ask you an honest question. I would like an honest answer. If the positions were reversed and I was the one interefering in Jack's relationship with Brooke, would you still be giving me another chance to screw up?

Nick: Shaking his head. Taylor.

Taylor: No, seriously. I remember when I was forced to testify in her custody trial how angry you were at me because my testimony cost her Hope and RJ. You walked away from me; leaving me alone at the mansion for two days while I was pregnant. Anything could have happened, but that didn't matter because you were so angry on Brooke's behalf.

Nick: It's not the same thing.

Taylor: Why not?

Nick: She lost her kids Taylor. You didn't lose Jack.

Taylor: But she's threatening that.

Nick: That won't happen Taylor. I won't let it. Brooke is all talk. She has no rights to Jack and she has no power to disturb your relationship with our son.

Taylor: Brooke has a lot of power. The one you keep on giving her by letting her get away with everything she does. Things you would never let me or anyone else get away with. Brooke can commit murder and you will find an excuse for her.

Nick: And you think I wouldn't do that for you?

Taylor: I KNOW you wouldn't do that for me.

Nick: Shaking his head. That's not true. There's nothing I wouldn't do for you.

Taylor laughs a skeptical laugh.

Nick: It's true, I would. I know you don't trust in my love for you; and I guess I can't blame you. I screwed up big time; but I do love you Taylor. I would do anything for you. This isn't about my feelings for Brooke.

Taylor: Off course it is.

Nick: No it's not. It's about your lack of trust in regard to anything Brooke.

Taylor: Can you blame me?

Nick: No, I guess not; but Taylor eventually you're going to have to let go of that inferiority complex you have were Brooke is concerned. You're an amazing woman and you're loved. BY ME!

Taylor: Angrily First of all, I don't have an inferiority complex.

Nick tries to interrupt her, but she stops him.

Taylor: No. Let me talk. This is NOT about an inferiority complex. This is about years of experience with Brooke. When you look at Brooke, you see the woman you love. No matter how many times she hurt you or screw up, you find an excuse for her, and give her a free pass.

I get it Nick. It's easier to forgive and forget when it comes to the people you love. You see pass their faults. I know the feeling. There isn't anything my children can do that I wouldn't forgive them for. Brooke is like that for you. However, I don't have warm and fuzzy feelings toward Brooke. So my threshold of tolerance for the things she do is very low. I don't see Brooke as the poor put upon damself in distress that you see her as. I see through her pretty blonde, eye batting, sexpot face due to years of experience. I've lived through Hurricane Brooke many times.

I thought you and I could have a new beginning together. We were hurt by the people we love; and we thought we could find what were were looking for in each other. The only thing is, you were not ready to move on as you think. You never really let go of the life you dreamed of with Brooke.

Nick: That's not true.

Taylor: Yes it is. You wanted to, but you didn't. That's why you were sneaking behind my back with her to form a bond between her and Jack.

Nick: I'm sorry about that Taylor. I really am. I was wrong, and I'm willing to do anything to make it up to you.

Taylor: Nick, I don't want you to make up anything to me. Your feeling are yours. You have the right to them; and I have the right not to keep putting myself in the position to have my heart trampled on by men who can't stop been in love with Brooke Logan.

So Once again, this not about an inferiority complex. This is me not wanting to keep hitting my head against the proverbial brick wall. Brooke Logan is the irresistable siren you nor Ridge can't stop loving and wanting. I'm just accepting what is. It will be good if you accept that our marriage is over and sign our divorce paper so we can both move on with our lives. Lets focus on giving our son a good life without the interruption of others.

Nick: You want so badly to move on. Whereas, I can't see beyond you, me and Jack as the family that were were supposed to be. But I can't change your mind it seems. Not anytime soon anyway. I do love you Taylor. Heck, i'm in love with you. I'm not going to pretend there isn't residual feelings for Brooke, because there is. I do love her, and i will always care about her. Just like you will always love Ridge and have residual feelings for him. But I don't want a life with Brooke anymore.

I let go of that the moment I asked you to marry me. From then on, all I imagined was the amazing life we could have with our baby. I didn't cause Brooke's eggs to be implanted in you. I would have never want that. I handled the situation wrong. I know that. I should have never let myself get caught up in Brooke been Jack's bio donor. I let myself get sweeped in by the past, and it cost me you. I guess I have to live with that.

Is there any chance at all we can work this out Taylor?

Taylor shakes her head NO.

Nick: Sighing. Ok then. Fine. I will sign the divorce papers. I don't want to, but I will. I can't hold you hostage to something you don't want. It doesn't mean I stop loving you and wanting a life with you. However, if this is what you need to feel safe and secured again, then this is what I have to do. But I will always be waiting Taylor. If you ever change your mind; no matter when; I will be waiting.

Nick walks to the door and open. Turning to Taylor.

Nick: I'm sorry Taylor. I'm sorry for all the pain and hurt I caused you. I didn't mean to. I guess I just wanted my cake and to eat it too. I wanted it all, and in the end, I've lost it all. But you know what? You're right. Jack deserves the both of us at our best, and that's what he will get. NO ONE, not Brooke, not anyone, will stand between you and Jack. I won't ever let that happen.

I love you Taylor. Don't ever forget that.

With that Nick walks out the door leaving Taylor sad, lonely, and still in love with him.

Taylor: Whispering with tears running down her face. I love you too Nick.