Finding Heaven



I never thought I'd enjoy life as an inferior being, and at times, I didn't….

"Mr. Masen, I'd like you to recite the last line of the movie, just to prove you were paying attention."

"Yes, Mr. Birdy. 'Will I set up my everlasting rest, and shake the yoke of inauspicious stars from this world-wearied flesh. Eyes, look your last; arms, take your last embrace, and, lips, O you the doors of breath, seal with a righteous kiss a dateless bargain to engrossing death.'"

The teacher stuttered, thinking I wouldn't have the proper answer for him and was surprised that I did. I read that play and had it memorized, long before Mr. Birdy was even born. Stupid predictable human.

"Eyes forward people," the teacher said bitterly.

But every time I'd get annoyed by the slow ramblings of humans, Bella always seemed to know and she'd grab my hand and squeeze it securely; just a subtle reminder of how truly amazing my life really was.

Being around humans was easy, and even though I was pressured into posing as a brainless high school student against my will, I learned to just go with it and try to make the best of the situation.

"You know, I haven't had human blood in seven years, but I'd be willing to make an exception for him," I told Bella as we walked to the cafeteria after class.

"Oh, Mr. Birdy's not so bad."

"Not so bad? That gluttonous pig is a daft moron. I have shoes older than him and he just thinks…"

"You do not have shoes older than him," Alice said insulted as she danced up behind us.

"Whatever, you know what I mean. And tell me again why I'm a junior?"

"Someone had to be the younger brother," EJ said cockily as he sat at our usual table. He picked up his soggy school made hamburger, and took a huge bite while the ketchup dripped on his plate. "Oh, that's so good."

"You're disgusting," I said as I stared at my slob of a son who was pretending to be my older brother.

"Oh Eddie, it's not my fault that you can't fathom the wonders of a hamburger," EJ said with a mouth full of food.

"I really don't want you hanging out with Jacob anymore," I told him.

"You're the one who lets him tag along with us everywhere we go," he rebutted.

EJ and Carlie had slowly become more accustomed to human food. Carlie still preferred animal blood, but EJ was equally hungry for both. He and Jake would often have eating contests to see who could eat the most, and that was the only time Emmett ever wished he ate human food.

"Hi daddy," Carlie said quietly as she kissed me on the cheek.

"What do you want?" I asked suspiciously. She only ever called me 'daddy' in school, when she was trying to sweetly ask me for something.

"A couple of my friends are having a get together-party thing, and I was hoping I could go?"

"Is your shadow attending?" I asked her, but looked up at Jake for an answer.

"Won't let her out of my sight," Jake said quickly.

"Yeah, if any of the big bad humans try anything, Jake will be sure to phase and scare the shit out of them," EJ laughed from where he was sitting.

"Daddy please?" Carlie asked again.

"Bella?" I asked her. It had been far too long since I was a human teenager in school, so I left a lot of those types of decisions up to Bella.

"I think it's Ok, as long as Jake stays with you," Bella said while winking at Wolfboy.

"I wouldn't have it any other way," Carlie said and then grabbed Jake's shirt and pulled him in for a kiss.

"AHHH! Stop!" I said disturbed. Carlie and Jake had officially started dating a few months prior, but as annoying as it was, I was actually somewhat supportive of the relationship. If Carlie was going to date anyone, then I was happy that he could protect her if necessary, and the fact that I could hear his every thought, and he knew I could, was definitely a bonus and kept him in line.

It was our second year at that high school in Minnesota, and after a Cullen family vote, it was decided that I would play the younger role. The story was that Carlisle and Esme were a young couple who adopted and fostered for a bunch of teens. Rose and Jasper were the Hale twins and were currently seniors. Emmett and Bella were Cullens; Emmett was a senior and Bella was a junior. Alice, Carlie, EJ and I were all Masens. EJ and Carlie were twins and seniors, Alice and I were both juniors, but Alice was supposed to be the youngest, but we claimed that she just skipped a grade.

And then there was Jacob. Emmett suggested that he stay in wolf form and we tell everyone that he was just an overgrown family pet, like Clifford the big red dog. But then we explained to Emmett that Clifford was a cartoon, and no human would believe that story, so we finally decided to make Jake a foreign exchange student living with our family. No one could stomach the idea of him actually being an official member of the Cullen family.

"Well, I better be going to the library to check out a book before lunch is over," EJ said casually, and patted me on the back while touching the skin on my neck subtly.

"Uh ah! Bella?" I said quickly, so she grabbed EJ's hand and released it.

"That's not fair," EJ said quickly.

"You don't need to be reading anyone's minds while at school," Bella said to him.

"I just want to hear what this girl in my Spanish class thinks about me."

We decided when we started going to school, that it was better if EJ had to go through school and learn like everyone else, though he already knew more than all the teachers combined. He was already stronger and faster than humans, reading minds would have been an additional unnecessary advantage. We couldn't stop him from reading his sister's mind, but we could stop him from reading his teachers'.

"Well, now you can keep her protected under your shield," I teased him. Of all the abilities EJ has had, his mother's was his least favorite. He thought it was awesome when she saved us from the Volturi, but since no one was after us anymore, he thought hers was boring. Although he did like that I couldn't read his mind with it.

"On second thought, Jasper?" I said with a smile, and he grinned and grabbed EJ's arm.

You suck dad – EJ thought bitterly to me, before a wave of resentment washed over me.

"Oh, the woes of being a teenager," I said mockingly.

EJ didn't really have any desire to go to the library, so he sat back down and sulked.

We all mostly kept to ourselves, except the half human twins who relished the social aspects of high school. Carlie was friendly to everyone, much like Alice, but Carlie actually spent time with humans outside of school, of course she never actually brought kids over to our house. She said it because she didn't want anyone to see our lavish lifestyle, but being a mind reader, I knew she secretly worried about one of us losing control and killing them.

EJ was a little more withdrawn from humans like the rest of us, but he was a little girl crazy, and he was always willing to flirt with a pretty face.

Bella had learned her shield better over the years, and she was actually able to lift it away from herself so I could hear her mind.

Maybe we should skip the rest of the day and take advantage of the empty house- she thought seductively. I smiled in anticipation as she started showing me images of the things we could do. Bella and I rarely made it a full day of school without meeting somewhere to have sex. Of course, sex in a school bathroom or empty hall was less desirable because I hated having to use so much restraint in order not to bust the walls down.

"Or, we could find an obscure location outside, and not worry about turning the house into rubble," I said quietly, but of course everyone at our table could hear it.

"Ah, that's disgusting," EJ said.

Emmett smirked at EJ's discomfort "You only think that my little padawan learner, because you have yet to feel the amazing electrical bliss of making sweet hard…"

"Ugh, shut up!" EJ said to him irritated, Emmett just laughed.

"Who are they?" I heard an unfamiliar voice say from across the cafeteria. I usually was able to tune out most of the clatter of human's voices and thoughts, but for some reason, the new teen girl's conversation caught my attention.

"The Cullens. They're Doctor and Mrs. Cullen's foster kids, they mostly keep to themselves," Angel Webster explained.

"Yeah and they're really weird, because they're all together: like together, together," Jennifer Sternly, the school gossip queen told the new girl.

"Jen, they're not actually related," Angel said.

"But they live together, it's creepy," Jennifer told her, and then proceeded to tell the new girl each of our names, followed by our couplings.

EJ abruptly got up, and I heard in his mind that he was going to the library anyway, because Emmett was annoying him. When EJ walked past the girls, their attention turned to him.

"Who's that?" the new girl asked.

"That's EJ Mason. He's with the Cullen's of course, and he's totally hot. But you should stay away from him, he goes on a lot of dates, but never has relationships," Jennifer explained.

I listened harder, and fought through all the other noises in the room, to try to hear what the new girl was thinking.

I've seen him somewhere- she thought curiously, and then her mind drifted to a time when she was younger on vacation. She was ten, and her sister was getting married in…Brazil. SHIT!

But that kid was younger than me, so he couldn't be the same…even though that kid's name was EJ…wasn't it? – She started replaying her meeting with EJ who was absolutely smitten with her at that time. It took years for EJ to stop talking about Alex, and when I finally thought he got over her, she shows up at our school.

I wondered how long it would take for EJ to realize that his first crush was currently attending school with us, but he was in the dawn of his life, and he had plenty of time to figure out everything.

Bella and I left school early, and busted down a few trees. No matter how much time passes, we can never seem to get enough of each other, and I know we never will. Whenever I look back on my life, I think of it as memories from two different people. The first century of my life was lived by a vampire who didn't really care about anything. I snubbed my nose at my sister who chose a different path for herself, but only in falling in love with someone completely wrong for me, did I find the right journey for my life.

I have become a completely different person, and my life went in a completely different direction then I ever would have considered. And though the old me would have been disgusted with how my forever has turned out, I can't imagine a more heavenly existence….


*I hope you enjoyed the ending. As of now, I have no plans to write a sequel involving EJ and his love; I figured you could come up with your own conclusions. But if anyone has a desire to use my characters and write a sequel yourself, PM me and I'd be more than happy to promote it with this one. I've read many great plot ideas in some of your reviews, and I'm sure any of you could come up with a great story.

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