A New Life
There are some things in this world I can say for sure that I'm ready for .Others, I can't.
I had no idea where my life would take me; the changes I'd face and the people I would met. Nor that everything would have such an impact on who I am and what I do.
I've always been cautious, with everything. Every life I took, I did it because it was right; no one else would do it and bad things would keep on happening .It's how I do things.
And then, Kozik came into my life and change it all.
I didn't expect to go out of control; I've never did it. But, when I felt that my lover's life was threatened, I had to.
"What is that on your back?" I screamed after seeing the trail of blood streaming from his jacket.
"Nothing Gilly, it was just a misunderstanding .Nothing I haven't had before" He winked at me. Was he trying to calm me with that stunt?
"Jacket off. Now" I didn't know who took over, the blood or the nurse one. All I knew is that I had to fix him.
"Well, if you wanted to take my clothes of, all you needed was ask" But I didn't laugh, now it wasn't the time.
"What were you thinking? We've been here for a week and you already had a knife on your back?" It wasn't severe, but that didn't mean that I wouldn't be concerned.
"Let it go babe, it was nothing" I was already working and wasn't looking into his gorgeous eyes. If I had, I'd loose my focus.
"Who did this?"
"Gilly, come o…"
" .It?"I had a plan in my head and no blond bike would stop me.
"Just the…competition" It was all he said .Enough to me.
"Honey, you're not going to do anything" He was serious. The bandage was done and my man needed other type of attention.
"Me? Of course not" I reply as swiftly as I could, sitting on his lap, afraid I might hurt him "Now, let's go lie down and get some rest, ok?" I guided him to our bed, letting a trail of butterfly kisses on his chest.
It took me 12 hours to find out the responsible .Koz was out; turns out it wasn't anyone from the rival motor clubs, but from his past. I was intrigued, but, nevertheless, my message was sent: no one messes with my man!
Koz, on the other hand
"YOU DID WHAT?" He caught me as I finished showering, taking all the blood out.
"I was out for groceries and someone tried to rob me Ii had to defend myself" What I didn't know is that, there is, after all, one person in this world than can see trough my façade.
"You're lying" He crossed his arms, and I'll admit, I was intimidated. "Don't do that" No reason would be good enough to explain how I was feeling right now.
"What really happened?" He wasn't so agitated, but he wasn't going to let this one go either.
"I just wanted to protect you" he let out a laugh .Was this funny? "To keep you safe" His laugh died when he saw that I was being serious.
"Gilly, love" He came closer and wrapped me in his arms "I can take care of myself. It's my job to keep you safe .remember?" I hugged him, tighter than before. I only wanted to care for him, and he wanted to do the same.
"Koz, Koz, what am I going to do with you?"
After that we established…a healthy way for our safety and our mental health as well. Because worrying over someone 24/7 can be stressful.
Which was also on the same day I got my tattoo. And it was one of the most precious things I could ask for.
"Are you sure that this is what you want?" He asked me as I lay on the bed, naked, ready for what we were about to do.
"Im sure Ii want you to be the one to do this to me" I decided to let Kozik himself to give me my crow .After all ,it was only suitable for my future husband to mark me as his own in such an intimate act for us .No one else needed to be present to be official. And that was what it was.
"It'll hurt for a bit" He already had the needless and ink, gift from Happy.
"I know, I can take it" I sent him a reassuring smile, being rewarded with one of his own.
"I love you babe"
"I love you too"
And that's how I got my heart tattoo, below my hip. And he got my name on his chest.
I wish I could say we got married after that, but we didn't. There had been a few…complications.
Kozik isn't that close to the club anymore. All he told me was that things weren't like they used to be, and he wanted out.
So I went with him
Once you manage to leave the club, you're dead to them .I never speak them anymore. And I miss them, but I understand .And I'll be forever thankful for giving me a glimpse of how wonderful my life would be.
We moved to San Francisco, and I've met Koz's brother, Noah. Turns out he is a good guy, not as much as his brother, but a nice man. After some "exchange of pleasantries", we see him very often .Much for both of their delight, even if they don't say it out loud. Especially after they opened their own business.
If that wasn't "family" enough for him, the best was yet to come.
"Ugh, can we stay in bed, today?" I've been so tired these past few days, and now these sick nauseous feeling every morning was driving me nuts!
"You can love, but I'll be back before lunch to stay with you, ok?" When he got down to kiss me, his aftershave smelt so horrible that I dashed straight to the bathroom.
"Babe, you better get some rest. I'll call Noah and tell him you're not feeling very well" All I could muffled was a yes before I started to puke again.
"Maybe it's something I ate" It was the only plausible explanation.
"It could be .I mean, I feel like I was ran over by a truck, I feel so bad right now, baby" he kissed my forehead as I lay my head on his lap. We were watching "The Crow" marathon, and so far, our opinion was the same: Brandon Lee was THE Crow. The others were okay.
"Gilly, don't you think we should set a doctor's appointment?" I laughed. Me, seeing a doctor? Why would I?
"You know how I feel about those" Not having to take my eyes of the screen, I could feel his eyes rolling.
"I think this would be a good time to make an exception" I dismissed him with my hand, but turns out, that wasn't enough.
"I can't believe you talked me into this!" Where did it go wrong? I specifically told Kozik NO DOCTORS .Did he listened to me? No.
And now here we were, waiting for the doctors results of food poisoning.
"you don't know that" He was perfectly calm .Ever since we moved to San Francisco ,he looked so much lighter, like a weight has been lifted from his shoulders .How did I get so lucky?
"But it is food poisoning!" I almost shouted at him .Poor man; he doesn't deserve my mood swings "What else could it be?" When he was about to answer me, it was as if he knew something I didn't .But the doctor came in, and I didn't have the chance to hear him.
"Well doctor, is everything alright?" I just wanted to hear from him that I was right and throw in my man's face .that's all.
"It seems, , that your suspicious were right" He squeezed my hand. Wait, Koz had talked to the doctor before? Oh no, how sick was I?
I can't believe it! Now that I was actually happy in my life, for once, I wanted that things stayed as they were. And now, it's going to change for the…
"Congratulations you two, you're going to be parents!"
My heart stopped.
The next minutes were a blur of shouting's, cry of relieve and more tears than I imagined.
I'm going to be a mother.
"We're going to have a great time, kiddo" Koz was talking to my belly, again. It was such an tender and intimate moment that if I could, I'd leave; but I can't ,at this point ,moving was a difficult thing to achieve.
"Is daddy Kozik going to teach him or her to fix a bike?" I was afraid if I did more than a whisper ,the scene unfolding before my eyes would break, so I kept it to myself; that and the fact that I might start crying at any point. Thank God Koz was used to it by now.
"Damn right!" the smile on his face has been permanent, ever since we found out. Our little miracle.
"What if it's a girl?" I had my suspicious, but I wanted to hear from him "What if she wants to learn ballet?"
"Then I'm going to put my badass rocker tutu and teach my daughter" His voice and looks of authority held no place for argument.
"Damn right you will" I smiled and kissed him, one more time, with our hands intertwined on my huge belly.
I can't believe how far my life has come.
Today was the day .Most women would be nervous at this hour ,holding their breath and asking herself if this is truly the right thing to do .But ,I had no place for doubts in my mind; this is what I want ,and I can't wait to become .
"Are you ready, Henry?"I whispered to other reason of my happiness; little Henry Kozik was born four months ago, healthy and looking like an exact copy of his dad .I don't know who cried more when he came; himself or his father.
His response was the happy noise he's always making; it's as if he knows something big is about to happen.
"Well then, let's go" I picked him up, holding a small bouquet that mixed camellias and gardenia, courtesy of my soon-to-be-husband. He said they represent perfect beauty, purity and sincerity; in his words just like our love.
Seriously, how could I not want to marry this man?
As I made my way to the small garage on our house, simply decorate by my future brother-in-law and his family, I couldn't help but to wonder how far we've gone and the road ahead of us.
I know it won't be easy; we both have a lot of baggage and things might come to backfire on the ones we love.
But, more important, we have our little family, and, as long as we stay together, we can do anything.
I'd like to thank Venetiangrl92, wrestlenascargirl , Mizue-chan, Lady Kato, Navala and savanna .Thank you for reading this story ,this chapter is dedicated to you!