The end has come for Waiting for the End, at least part one of it has. So, I hope you read and enjoy and as a parting gift will review to let me know what you thought of this whole story. A new story is on its way so keep an eye out for me :)

Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns these characters and the awesomeness that is Twilight! I'm just subjecting them to my fun little schemes. I do own Jasper Cat. Literally. I have a 17 lb tabby named Jasper Cat. :) *I also don't own the lyrics at the bottom...those definitely do not belong to me...

Previously on Waiting for the End:"I know but think about him. Think about your son. Think about our son. I bet he's scared. His brother is no longer in there with him and he can't get out. I bet he's freaking out a little more than you are," Edward attempted to make a joke.

Chapter 38

Edward sat in the sterile, vinyl chair beside his wife's hospital bed thinking back over the last few hours. When he'd left to show Jacob and Sam the knew building, he'd never expected the call from Bella that it was time. In fact, he had been leaving to go pick up dinner for them, expecting a normal night. Jacob had gone home to pick up Billy and call Charlie, while Sam went to round everyone up at La Push.

To his surprise, his parents made it there right after the second baby was born and Emmett, Rose, Alice, Jasper, and Olivia all made it soon after. They had visited with Bella and the new babies for about a half hour before he got that look from Bella that told him to get everyone out so she could sleep. They'd all gone into town to grab a late dinner and then were going to go over to him and Bella's for the night to get some rest.

Now, Edward sat with swollen eyes and a lump in his throat looking down at his two little sons. William Anthony Cullen was older than his brother by forty-seven minutes. Trevor Anthony Cullen was a lot smaller but just as healthy. Besides the delivery itself, there were no big complications and Edward couldn't believe how relieved he felt. His mom showed him how to swaddle them and a few tricks to calm them down but when she left, the boys had both begun to cry...really, really loudly. He had panicked, not knowing what to do, and his exhausted wife somehow slept through it.

Eventually, he got them to calm down by just talking soothingly to them and that's when it started. For the first time in he couldn't remember how long, he actually began to sob. He cried out of happiness for his little boys, he cried out of happiness for his wife's safe delivery, and he cried for the baby he never had the chance to hear cry. He could remember sitting in the hospital back home holding his lifeless child, wishing to God—or anyone at all that might be up there, to just give him the chance to get to know his child. Today, he was given the gift of two.

With one brother in each arm, he smiled down at them and couldn't believe this was really happening. After everything he and Bella had been through, from the day he'd saved Bella from drowning, to dealing with them being away from each other in college, to their crazy marriage, to the death of their child, to an almost eminent divorce, and even Bella's rape, Edward was finally getting the one thing he wanted more than anything—a family of his own.

"Edward," Bella whispered, trying to get his attention without waking the sleeping babies he was holding.

"Hey, angel. How are you feeling?"

"Really, really sore."

"I'm sorry," he said with a smile.

"No you're not," Bella said, trying to hide a smile and act like she was upset with him.

"I am. I'm happy that I have my boys but I never want to see you hurt. Do you need me to get you anything?"

"Yes. I would like one of my kids."

Edward handed William to her and sat back with Trevor. Both babies stirred but eventually settled down again. "The nurse told me they screamed when they were separated in the nursery."

"I have a feeling separation is going to be a big issue for them. We need to work on that now that they're little."

"There's so much about twins that I know nothing about. It's overwhelming."

"Well, we'll figure it out..." that's when Bella got a good look at her husband's blotchy face. "Honey, are you okay?"

"Yeah, why?"

"You've been crying," Bella said with certainty.

"I'm just having trouble getting the image of Edward Jr. out of my head still. It's nothing to worry about. How about I run down and get us something to eat. I haven't eaten since breakfast and it's night time," he said, walking Trevor over to the little bed on wheels. The second he set the little guy down, Trevor began to cry. Soon, his brother joined him.

"Here, put William in with him," Bella took command and motioned for him to take his other son. As soon as he set the two beside each other, they stopped crying and began cooing.

"Yeah, we're um...definitely going to have to work on that. It's going to be tough."

"Baby, I don't know if you've realized this yet or not but we own dealing with tough situations. If we managed everything else, raising these two is going to be a piece of cake."

Two months later

"Edward, we have to leave! Like now!"

"I can't find Liam's pacifier!"

"Did you check the crib?" Bella asked, shifting the two month old Trevor to her other arm.

Edward shook his head and went back upstairs. "Well, little one, we are going to be late for Auntie Rose and Uncle Emmett's shotgun wedding."

"Who the hell has a shotgun anyway after they're already married?" Edward asked, coming back downstairs with a baby on one arm and a diaper bag hanging from the other.

"Emmett. Enough said. I really think he just wants to have a big party. By the way, when the boys' first word is a swear word, I'm telling everyone it's your fault."

"Haha. You're hilarious. Isn't mommy hilarious, Trev?"

Bella shot him a look and opened the door. After all of the craziness with Emmett and Rosalie, the two had finally agreed to remarry. They wanted to do it before the baby came and they didn't want anything big or fancy. It had been decided that they would redo their vows with a handful of people there and then have a big barbecue at Esme and Carlisle's.

It was a Friday afternoon and traffic wasn't too bad. The whole ride, Bella kept laughing as the boys cooed back and forth at each other. When they were entering Seattle, Bella studied her husband's face. He seemed tense, though he tried not to show it, and she knew why. Whether it happened tonight at the rehearsal dinner, or tomorrow at the wedding, he was eminently going to have to deal with a demon from his past. Bella tried to stop herself from smiling when she realized how much of a demon the person in question truly was but she was unsuccessful.

It had been four months since they'd made the big move and Edward seemed happy enough but she knew him. Being Edward, he always tried to do what would make others happy. Even if he just said something awkwardly and he thought it might have offended someone, he held onto that feeling until he could apologize. He was truly haunted by what he'd said to Tanya that day at the court house. Bella knew he wanted to make things right, or at least apologize. She also knew he wasn't doing so out of respect for herself—and this didn't sit right with her.

Pulling into the familiar driveway of her husband's family's home, she watched Emmett come barreling down the stairs and wrap his brother in a tight hug. As quick as he'd hugged him, he let go and came around to grab Bella. She laughed and said hello while he backed away and pulled the back door open. "My favorite boys!" She heard William begin to babble and Trevor squeal in delight.

While Emmett and Edward got the boys out, Bella went in search of Rosalie and Alice, finding them in Emmett's childhood bedroom, putting the finishing touches on the guys' boutonnieres for the next day. "Bella!" Alice exclaimed as Rosalie waved with a warm smile, her belly stuck out more than when Bella had seen her two weeks ago.

"How are you guys? I'm sorry I couldn't do much to help with everything...the favors are done for tomorrow, they're in the back of our car."

"Don't worry about it, Bells, you and Edward here with the boys is enough to make me happy. Emmett couldn't live without his little brother. You should see how mopey he gets when you two leave to go home."

"Edward's the same way. You'd think they were twins for as much as they hate to be separated."

"How's that going?" Alice asked with a cringe.

"It's alright, I guess. They just still absolutely hate being away from each other. We got them to the point where they are sleeping in different cribs but if they can't hear each other they like panic and cry. It's horrible. If they are with one of us, and the other is with someone too, they're okay. It's just when no one's holding them and they are apart that I think they get scared. William is a little more independent than Trevor though. Trevor's definitely a mommy's boy and Liam won't let daddy go too far."

"You guys are so cute!" Alice cried.

"Yeah, when it comes to twins, better you than me, though," Rose laughed, rubbing her belly.

"Alice, where's Livy?"

"With mom. They're in the backyard setting up tables and she offered to take her so I could help Rose with these. It's hard to hold a toddler and tie bows at the same time. It's hard to hold a toddler and do anything at the same time..."Alice corrected herself.

Rose laughed and asked, "So, is Jake coming in tonight?"

"He said yesterday that he was. Alex is excited about it so I can't see him not showing up. Plus, he already talked to Edward about me and him taking the boys to the park this evening so Edward could help set things up without too much interruption."

"And my brother agreed to this?" Alice asked, raising an eyebrow.

"I honestly didn't expect him to. I mean, he's been great about letting Jake and I out of his sight to go to the mall or go grab lunch once in awhile but he's never been around the boys without Edward there. I think he hesitated a lot but eventually agreed. I mean, Jake has really turned things around and thankfully, we're back to Edward's jealousy issues instead of it being that he's worried Jake will hurt me or the boys. He knows Jake is infatuated with Nat and Alex, so he's getting better with it. Um, Rose, is Tanya going to be here tonight?"

"Yes," Rose sighed, "Bells, I'm sorry but Carmen's in the wedding and I..."

"You don't have to explain. Really. I actually wanted to talk to her..."

"Bella, please don't cause a scene. I know she's a scheming bitch but..."

"No, it's nothing like that. I just need to talk to her for a minute."

"Good luck with that. If you want to talk to her she's probably here now. Maybe you could do it tonight, before the wedding?" Rose asked, hinting that she'd prefer it that way.

"Bella, hey, I can't get Liam to stop crying. I've tried everything, a diaper change and I even gave him a bottle—I hope you don't mind..."

"Not at all," Bella said, putting down the satin ribbon she was working on and taking her son from her mother in law. "They're probably both hungry. I fed them before we left but it's been awhile." Her original intentions had been to breastfeed but soon after trying, she found that the boys were just crying nonstop, obviously hungry even after they would suckle for what seemed like hours. A trip to the doctors confirmed her worries, they were losing weight—she just wasn't able to produce enough for both of them.

"Well, I'm not sure who Trevor ended up with. Carlisle had him the last I saw."

"Yeah, I think this little guy wants his brother," she kissed her sons forehead and stood up, "don't you, Liam? You just want your little brother."

Bella found Trevor out back with Carlisle, who was sitting in the grass, feeding him a bottle. "Hey, Edward got him ready for me."

"That's fine. Esme just fed Liam," Bella smiled, sitting down beside them. Liam was still crying and Bella rolled her eyes. "Can you take the bottle away from him?"

"Huh? He's going to..." Carlisle began pulling the bottle away and sure enough he started to cry. Liam quit crying and Bella gave Carlisle the okay to keep feeding her son. "Wow."

"Yeah. They just want to know that the other is close by."

Edward came up to them and crouched down behind her, kissing her on the top of her head. "Hello, Mrs. Cullen. Do you mind if I got with Em to pick up the kegs for tomorrow?"

"No but can you just hold him for a couple of minutes. I think he wants you, at first I thought it was that he wanted Trev but he's been fussy."

Edward took him and stood up. Liam immediately smiled and snuggled into him. "Why don't I just take him? Trev's about to fall asleep and we won't be long. Besides, you and Jake are taking them to the park soon and I won't see them for most of the evening."

"I don't know..."

"Bella. I can handle my own son. I know you haven't left them yet but we'll be gone twenty minutes at the most."

"I guess it's alright. Just get back before Trevor wakes up."

While he was gone, Carmen and Tanya showed up. At the time, Bella was settling Trevor into the bassinet Esme kept up for them in Edward's room. Once she had the monitor in hand, she headed down to see if anyone needed any help. Walking into the kitchen, she saw Tanya through the window. It was now or never. Gaining courage, she walked outside and headed towards her. "Hey, can we talk for a minute?"

Tanya looked at her in shock. "Me?"

"Yeah. It's kind of important."

"What is it?" Tanya asked, glancing around nervously.

"He didn't mean what he said. You know what I'm talking about and you know he didn't mean it."

"He was pretty convincing, Bella," Tanya said, crossing her arms.

"He's a lawyer. Trust me, he never meant what he said to you. Had he meant it, you wouldn't have almost ruined our marriage. You know him- a hell of a lot more than I'd like-but you know him. He's still upset about what he said. If he wasn't do you really think for ten seconds that I'd be even talking to you about this?"

Tanya sighed, "I get it. Alright? What do you want me to say? It's done and over. You have your perfect husband and your perfect sons and your perfect family and your perfect friends. You know, I'm not proud of what I did to you or to him but I'd do it again in a heartbeat. You can say what you want about me just wanting his money but you don't know me. At all. You know him as well. You know he wouldn't surround himself with someone who would hurt him like that. I love him. I always will. So, for the love of God, could you try not to rub this in my face every damn chance you get?"

Bella was surprised. Not only had Tanya come across as being human, she thought Bella was the one trying to be a bitch. "Tanya, that's not why I'm talking to you about it. I want you to talk to him..."

"Wait. Hold on. You want me to talk to him? Your husband? The same husband you won't even let give me a ride home?"

"Yes. That husband. I'm tired of him being upset about what he said. I'm not giving you the green light to try to get him into bed. I just can't see him upset like this anymore. Please, just talk to him."


"When he gets back with Emmett. I'll be taking the boys to the park for a little bit. Meet me in the living room in fifteen minutes. He won't talk to you if he thinks I don't know about it."

Bella was strapping Trevor into the stroller when Tanya walked in and sat down on the couch. "He's adorable."

"Thank you."

"Bella, hey, Liam survived the whole trip with me and nothing bad happened!" Edward came in, announcing it to her grandly like it was the biggest accomplishment in the world, sarcasm filled the comment. When he turned to put his other son into the stroller as well, he stopped, his jaw almost dropped when he saw Tanya. "What..."

Bella shoved the diaper bag into the bottom and pushed them towards the door. "Make your amends, Edward. It's okay."

Edward watched his wife leave with his sons, leaving him on his own to deal with Tanya. "I...I don't...Bella...left."

"Breathe. I'm not going to try to jump you in your parents living room. I'm not that pathetic."


"Look, your wife assured me that you are upset about what you said. It's done and over and what was said was said. I love you. You don't love me. I completely get it and quite honestly am tired of hearing it. So, if it'll help you sleep at night...I forgive you," she said, after standing up and starting to walk out the door.

Not knowing what else to do, Edward reached out and grabbed her shoulder. "No. That's not good enough. I owe you...a big fucking apology. You have to know I didn't mean what I said!"

"I do, really. I do, Edward."

"I love her," Edward said with tears in his eyes and letting go of her shoulder. "You just wouldn't back down and I couldn't get you to understand that it was really and truly over. I was scared that Mike was going to walk and I was worried about Bella and I didn't know what else to do to make you want to not talk to me anymore..."

"Well, you figured it out. Believe me, it was rather successful. Edward, look at you. You're crying over her. I know I'm going to hate myself for saying this...but I'm happy for you. If you're happy, I'll deal."

"Someday you'll find your guy, Tanya."

"Yeah, how are you so damn sure?"

"You, my dear, are nothing short of determined. You don't give up."

She smiled back at him. "Thanks. Edward, I was going to tell Carlisle to tell you, I thought you should know that...I'm leaving Seattle and heading for New York. I met a girl who works at a photography studio there and she's going to try to get me in. If not, I don't know, maybe I'll enroll at NYU or...I don't know. There's nothing here for me. I only stuck around this long because of you. I'm moving on, Edward."

"Good luck, Tanya. I really mean that. I never wanted to hurt you like I did. If I didn't have feelings for you, what happened between us wouldn't have happened. I love her too fucking much. I won't hurt her again. I can't but I do want you to know that there are feelings and there always will be. She loves Jake and I know that but I also know she loves me more. I think she knows in some way, I love you, too."

He saw her face light up for the first time in ages and a small part of his heart melted. She had been his first love and he'd never truly get over that. He didn't need to though. He had Bella and knew that he would never be happy with anyone else the way he was truly happy with his wife. It was his fault the two girls hated each other so much. He should have set boundaries with Tanya without hurting her, he should have made sure Bella understood and trusted him with his ex. Things would have been so, so different had he just encouraged their friendship instead of feeling the need to hide them from each other.

"I'm really glad we had this talk. Tell Bella I said thank you. Good luck with things, yourself. Oh, and your boys are beautiful."

"Thanks, Tan. If you ever need anything, don't hesitate to call," he said, giving her a hug.

"I won't call. Not anymore. This is it, Edward. I'm really letting you go. I'm finally going to do this."

"Goodbye, Tanya," Edward said, releasing her and watched her walk away.

Bella and Jake were pushing the boys on the baby swings, side by side and talking about how crazy their lives had turned in such a short amount of time. "I'm really glad you found Natalia, Jake. She's great and Alex loves you."

"I'm really glad you have Edward. He's not what I thought he was. I truly wanted to look out for you more than get in your pants. You mean a lot to me. I didn't realize until a few months ago how much of a heart he actually had."

"He's amazing, Jake, and I've seen very few men who were born to be fathers but Edward is one of them. I'm so, so happy."

"We should head back. He's probably starting to worry."

Fifteen minutes later, they were approaching the large canopy covering friends and family. She looked around for Edward and didn't see him. "Where's he at, Em?"

"Edward? Haven't seen him since we got back from the beer distributor..."

Bella began to worry. There weren't that many people there and it was becoming dark. It didn't make sense that Emmett hadn't seen him in an hour and a half. Jake, can you get Trevor? I need to find Edward but really can't carry them both."

With Jake following her, she walked as fast as she could, toting a baby who was half asleep. When he wasn't in the kitchen, she tried the living room, and then headed upstairs. His bedroom door was shut and her stomach lurched. He wouldn't cheat on me. Not now. Not with the boys. Bella took a deep breath and pushed the door open. Her husband was sprawled on his back, by himself, on his bed. She hated herself for assuming what she did. Quietly, she walked in but he heard her and looked up.

Jake helped her put both boys in the bassinet and told them he'd see them in the morning at the wedding, that he was heading off to Natalia's. When the door was closed, Bella walked over and laid down beside him. "You okay?"

"Yeah. Just tired. How are the boys? Did everything go okay?"

"Yeah. It was great. How did things go here?"

"Good. She's um...leaving. For good. To New York."

Bella was trying to read him but couldn't quite seem to. "Are you alright?"

"Yeah. I mean, this is what I've been waiting for I think. Bella, I've always known without a doubt that I was supposed to be with you for the rest of my life. I don't know why I held on to her like I did. All I did was hurt both of you. I'm sorry. I'm really, really sorry." He said with tears in his eyes.

"I love you. You have nothing to be sorry for..." A buzzing in her pocket interrupted her line of thought and she pulled out her phone. It was a text from Jasper. 'Hey, look outside.' She read it to Edward and they sat up, sliding the door open and stepping onto the balcony that overlooked the festivities. In less than thirty seconds, they realized what Jasper was talking about. A loud boom sounded and the sky lit up in white and purple.

Both nervous parents immediately looked back at their twin boys who had their little fists clasped but were somehow sleeping soundly. When that didn't change after the second loud one, Bella and Edward turned back towards the fireworks. While Bella leaned against the railing, Edward took her hair and tucked it behind her ear just before he kissed up and down her neck. "I love you, Bella. We may be in way over our heads but I love you. That's all I know and all that matters. The rest is Life happens but I'm one step ahead of the game. I know what will get me through it."

"What's that?" Bella asked, sighing and feeling just as content as her two little boys.

"You," Edward whispered, "Like they always say, the hardest part of ending is starting again. This is a new start for us, Bells. It's you. It's always been you."

Bella smiled brightly as her face was lit up by the display in the sky. He was right. Over the past two years, they'd gotten two beautiful children—and in her opinion—a second chance after the loss of their first baby, her best friend, her amazing family, but most important...she'd gotten her husband back. If these new beginnings were the hardest part, and she didn't doubt that for ten seconds, she was content to feel this way for the rest of their lives. No matter what life threw at them.

Waiting for the End

This is not the end
This is not the beginning,
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em

We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
That's invisible there,
'Cause we're living at the mercy of
The pain and the fear
Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all disappear.

Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned
It's out of my control...

Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It's hard to let you go...

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,
I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last,
I wish it wasn't so...

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,
I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

What was left when that fire was gone?
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on
And i don't even know what kind of things I've said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin?
The hardest part of ending Is starting again!

All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what i haven't got...

This is not the end
This is not the beginning,
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violet rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em
(Holding on to what i haven't got)

We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
That's invisible there,
'Cause we're living at the mercy of
The pain and the fear
Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all disappear
(Holding on to what i haven't got!)

Linkin Park

So this is it. The end. I didn't realize how hard it would be for me to say that. I hope you all enjoyed this crazy ride I've led you down. Hopefully you will check out my new story which I promise you will contain just as much (if not more) drama. Until then, my dearest readers, lots of love. Yours truly, the Letzig Princess.