Hey guys, welcome to my new story. It's really a M-story. Both smut-wise and violence-wise. Consider this a fair warning. I'm not responsible for any nightmares or other dreams. :) Enjoy!

Chapter 1: Memories

He woke up with pain shooting through his whole body. He couldn't remember how long he was in this room or when it was the last time he was painless. There was a small window right beneath the ceiling of the room. It was so dirty that the light almost wasn't able to get through but he could see enough.

He tried to turn around but had to stop immediately. The pain in his leg was excruciating and he tried to remember what happened to it. He already saw dark spots in his vision again and knew that it wouldn't take long until he would pass out another time. But he had to remember what happened. Had to find out where he was and why.

But even if he tried very hard there were only blurry pictures in his head. A dark barn a long ride with a car and beating. Well he could start with an inventory of his injuries. At the moment it felt as if there was no spot on his body that didn't hurt.

While he tried to get into an upright position he had to stifle a groan. He didn't want to alert his kidnappers that he was awake now. He could use a little time to readjust to the situation before he could handle other people.

His head seemed to be twice his normal size and he reached up with his hand to touch a sore spot in the back. He hissed quietly when he touched it because it was burning like hell. When he pulled his hand back he could see the blood smears over his fingers. In the dim light it looked not red but dark grey. He shuddered slightly.

Somehow this whole situation felt unreal. Had it been a pipe that hit his skull?

When he continued to inventory his injuries he had to gulp hard to suppress the screams of pain that wanted to escape his mouth.

They had beaten him pretty good and acknowledging the several injuries made it worse.

One eye was almost swollen shut and his upper lip was chapped. Some teeth were waggling too. He tasted iron in his mouth knowing damn well that it was his own blood. He had also problems to breathe so he might have some broken ribs.

But the worst was his leg. It was throbbing with pain in the rhythm of his heart beat. When he turned his head slightly he got a good look at it and almost vomited at the sight. His shin bone protruded out through his skin and it looked horrible.

It seemed that he was still in a shock state because other than the throbbing he couldn't feel anything.

He was hoping that he would pass out again before his body would sent the pain signals fully to his brain. Before he would feel the full pain of the broken bones he now only saw.

He lend his head back on the wall and closed his eyes. He tried to take a deep breath but his injured ribs protested against it.

"Damn! What had happened?"

He still couldn't remember anything clearly. What was a little odd considering his skills. Maybe the blow to the head was the problem.

But to distract himself from the pain he had to direct his thoughts to another topic than his injured body.

The last thing he could remember clearly was the fight with Juliet in the morning. He wasn't even sure if it was still the same day. Not the best memory but it would probably help with the pain.


"Shawn! Your immaturity and recklessness is on a new high right now." Juliet stood in front of him. Her face contorted with anger.

"I have no idea what you are talking about." Shawn looked up to her with innocent eyes trying to smooth her with one of his famous smiles.

"Don't give me that smile. I'm totally serious."

"It wasn't that bad!" Shawn shrugged his shoulders.

"Are you kidding?" Juliet was furious now. "Not that bad?"

"Come on! Nothing happened!" Shawn strolled over to the fridge. He took out a beer opened it and took a big swig.

"Nothing happened?" Juliet hissed. Her voice extremely high pitched with the effort to control her anger.

"Yes. Nothing happened." Shawn put extreme emphasis on the second sentence.

He clearly didn't understand why Juliet was so upset about the whole thing. He leaned back at the kitchen counter crossing his legs above the ankles and his arms across his chest. Holding the beer in the crook of his arm he tilted his head slightly to the left and sent her a full "Shawn" smile.

Normally Juliet liked this position. She once admitted to him that it aroused her even so she had no idea why. She also told him that she didn't stand a chance when he combined it with this specific smile.

He raised an eyebrow suggestively hoping that it would work this time as well. But no such luck. It made it even worse.

She stomped over to him pinching him in his upper arm with surprisingly extreme force.

"Ouch. That hurts." Shawn stated rubbing his upper arm to ease the pain. "What was that for?"

"For being such an idiot!" It seemed that the pinching had helped her to get rid of most of the anger. Now she looked only worried.

Shawn took a step forward and rubbed his hands up and down her upper arms.

"What is this all about? Where is this coming from, Jules? It was a dumb idea. I admit that. Maybe even a rookie mistake. But nothing worse than I did before." He put an arm around her shoulder and pulled her in his embrace. She looked up at him with furrowed brows.

"That's exactly the point. You should take more care of yourself. No you must. There are people here who care about you very much and even so you seem not to realize the danger you were in today. I am. I'm the cop and the situation was very critical. You could have been killed today. Promise me that you will be more careful in the future."

He had no choice as to promise her because honestly he wouldn't know how he could say no to her even if he tried.

"I promise, Jules. I will be more careful."

She could hear the seriousness in his voice and snuggled deeper in his embrace.

"I don't want to lose you, Shawn. I love you."

"I know. I love you too, Jules."


"I'm so sorry , Jules." Shawn mumbled into the darkness of his prison. "I'm so sorry. I should have listened to you. It seems I wasn't careful enough."

He slid down the wall and laid on his side on the cold concrete floor. His breathing got a little erratic when his broken ribs made contact with it. Finally the blood loss and his pure exhaustion took a toll on him. His vision blurred and while the blackness closed in on him he mumbled one more time.

"I'm so sorry, Jules."


"Damn it, Shawn. Pick up the phone." Juliet muttered under her breath.

She paced up and down in front of her desk. Slowly but steadily she became anxious. It was her fifth try to reach Shawn in just as many hours. It wasn't like him at all to not answer her calls, especially after the one time she got almost hysterically when he came home after she tried to reach him for six hours and really thought something bad had happened. When he entered the door that evening she threw herself into his arms.

He laughed at her at first but when he saw that it really rattled her he promised her to call in the future when he was on a trip with Gus to some of their ridiculous outdoor pursuits. That day they had had a paintball tournament with old school buddies and totally had forgotten the time. Well no surprise when those two were occupied with something they both enjoyed immensely. Sometimes those two were like some nine year old boys. Actually most of the time when they were together.

Juliet smiled softly when she thought of Shawn and Gus together doing something childish. But her smile faded away when she remembered why she had been afraid about Shawn back then.

The week with the paintball incident had been particularly hard for Juliet. They caught a serial killer who had murdered and raped five children in the last six months. Juliet was always more rattled with cases involving children.
But most of all the killer almost shot Shawn when they went after him. It was only a mild flesh wound and he joked already about it one hour later in the emergency room. He said he was glad that he had a scar now which he could show everyone.

She would do anything to get this feeling of relief back. She wouldn't care where he had been but would only be glad that she could see him in the flesh right in front of her. Maybe they could repeat the evening from this particular day.


"Come on, Jules. Let us run you a bubble bath. I think that's exactly the thing you need right now." Her whole body was still pressed against his and she still trembled slightly. He put a finger under her chin and pulled her face upwards until her eyes met his. "Believe me."

She looked into his green eyes and relaxed into his arms when he could see the concern and love shining in his eyes.

"You are right. Maybe I overreacted a little bit. But this case..." Juliet trailed off.

"I know. It was tough. But you have to let go, Jules. He is now behind bars. Nothing more we can do. It's now up to the judge and the jury what will happen with him."

Juliet knew that he was right. But easier said then done. He took her by her arms and moved her away from him a little bit. Reluctantly she let go of his body.

"And I'm fine, Jules. I really am. So stop worrying for now. I will call the next time. Pinky promise?" Shawn tried to lighten the mood and was rewarded with a smile from Juliet even if it was a little shaky.

She stretched out her pinky finger and Shawn linked his pinky finger with hers.

"Pinky promise." Juliet replied softly. Her voice still a little husky.

Shawn brought her hand up to his lips and gave her a peck on her hand. He linked his fingers with hers and pulled her towards the bath room.

"You will see there is nothing better than a warm bath to relax you. And afterwards you will get one of the world-famous full body Shawn massages."

He pushed her slightly so that she was sitting down on the toilet seat and he leaned down to help her pull her shirt over her head. He then turned around and untwisted the water checking with his hand the temperature adjusting it until he was satisfied with it. He took Juliet's favourite bubble bath and poured a generous amount into the running water. When he looked at Juliet the view took his breath away. She was sitting only in her bra and panties on the toilet seat and gave him a sleepy smile.

"You look like you were drunk." Shawn stated.

"Hmmm, well maybe I'm drunk. You can be intoxicating sometimes." Juliet purred. "Will you join me?" She asked him playfully. She looked really exhausted and he wasn't sure what he should say.

"Are you sure?" Shawn asked carefully.

"Yes, I'm sure. I need you, Shawn." Juliet looked up at him with pleading eyes.

"Of course I could need a bubble bath too after this paintball match. I'm sure I will have some major bruises tomorrow." He smiled down at her. "Let me get us a glass of wine. In the meanwhile go ahead and hop in. I'll be with you in a few minutes."

Juliet pulled off her panties and bra and slipped into the bath tub. She involuntarily groaned when the warm water immediately relaxed her tense muscles. She let her head fall back and closed her eyes.

When Shawn stepped into the bath room with two wine glasses in his hands he thought she was already asleep. But when Juliet heard the door she opened her eyes slowly.

"There you are. Come on in. It's amazing." She whispered barely audible and closed her eyes again.

"Let me only enjoy the view for a few more seconds."

Shawn stood in front of the bath tub. His eyes were roaming over Juliet's body and his mouth went dry.

She was so beautiful. Her hair felt in locks around her face. Normally it was straight but with the humidity in the bath room it started to lock itself. Her cheeks were red from the steam that rose from the hot water. The bubbles hindered him to see her whole body. They covered her breasts but he was able to see the top of them and how they rose and fell slowly with her breaths. His jeans got uncomfortable tight all of a sudden.

Juliet chuckled with closed eyes. "Get rid of your clothes, Shawn. I'm sure your jeans are a little tight right now."

"How can you know that? Your eyes are closed." Shawn stated surprised.

"Because I know you, Shawn. And most of all you are a man ..." Juliet started to speak but Shawn interrupted her.

"And we are controlled by our hormones."

"Yes. Exactly." Juliet opened her eyes and let them trail down over his body. She stopped with her inspection in his mid-section and nodded appreciatively. "It looks like there is currently more blood under your belt than in your brain."

"You will regret to tease me like that." Shawn growled.

"Why? Will you tease me back?" Juliet asked hopefully.

"You have no idea. I will get my revenge."

"I sure hope so." She smirked mischievously.

Shawn began to mutter something under his breath while pulling his clothes off.

"You were saying?" Juliet had now a full smile on her face.

"Hadn't thought that it would be so much fun to tease him." she thought.

Juliet robbed forward in the tub a little bit so that Shawn could climb in behind her. When she slid back between his legs she murmured happily while rubbing her back over his erection.

"Very impressive."

"You are such a tease today. What's gotten into you?" Shawn really wanted to know. Normally she wasn't so …. He searched for the right word but could only think of aggressive. Yes she was very aggressive today.

"You. You are entirely sufficient. Can I have my massage now?" She coaxed.

Shawn took in a deep breath to get a grip of himself before she turned him back into a cave man by pushing all the right buttons.

"You are unbelievable. But sure why not."

He pulled her hair over her shoulder and let it fall over her breasts. She sighed when he began to knead her shoulders and the tension there slowly faded away.

"Oh that's amazing." She purred and shifted a little more in his direction. With the change of her position she pressed his cock even deeper into her back and he had to groan involuntarily. "That too." Juliet gave him a grin over her shoulder.

He rolled his eyes and shifted slightly away from her to relieve the pressure again.

"Tsss. Stop that. I have to concentrate here." His voice already lower than usual.

"So I was right." Shawn raised his eyebrows quizzically. "There isn't enough blood in your brain anymore so that you can perform simple actions." She now laughed fully.

"That's it. You started it." With that he began to tickle her and Juliet started to laugh hysterically.

"Shawn, please stop."

"No chance. I told you I'll get my revenge." Juliet squirmed in his embrace to get out of his grip making his situation even worse.

"Shawn, stop! I can't breathe anymore." She was able to get out between the laughter.

Shawn put an arm around her stomach and pulled her back to him.

"Are you satisfied now?" He whispered in her ear. His voice was hoarse with desire he pulled her even closer making her well aware of his erection which was again pressed against her back.

"Not even close." She whispered and licked her lips seductively.

Shawn growled and pulled her even further into him.

"You are unbelievable."

"Am I?"

"Yeah. You are unbelievable, gorgeous and damn sexy." His voice had now almost reached the timbre she loved most and goosebumps were running over her whole body.

"Ah, I did it again."

"What?" Juliet was barely able to articulate.

"Arousing you only with my voice." He let drop his voice even further while he nibbled at her earlobe. As if to prove his point her nipples tighten even more.

"Ahhhh …." Juliet mumbled incoherently.

"And I made you speechless!" Shawn stated with a smug grin on his face. "I told you you would regret teasing me like that."

He trailed his lips along the side of her neck biting her gingerly and soothing his bites with his tongue instantly. Juliet sighed and tilted her head to give him better access.

His hands were now roaming over her stomach. One hand got close to the underside of her breasts while the other one was sliding down her stomach slowly. Shortly before his hands reached the places where she so desperately wanted them he stopped.

"Shawn, please don't stop now."

"I'm not planning to." Shawn whispered over her skin not stopping to kiss his way up and down her neck. But suddenly he pulled his hands back. "Only a little torture first."

"No Shawn." Juliet was now really frustrated and she turned half around to him. "You are evil."

"I know." Shawn chuckled.

"Okay. This game can be played by two." Juliet turned around fully and knelt between his legs.

She supported herself on the tub's edge and lowered her head until her mouth was directly beside his ear. She slapped his hands away when he raised them to touch her breasts.

"No. No touching until I give you the permission." She tucked his earlobe between her teeth. Shawn closed his eyes and shuddered slightly.

"Okay." He dropped his hands into the water again.

"Attaboy." She shifted her weight on one hand and trailed her forefinger along his jawline rubbing over the stubble of his three-day beard. Her finger slid over his lips with almost no pressure and he had to lick his lips because her finger caused a tickling sensation.

Still with only her forefinger she trailed along his neck over his chest following with her mouth the trail of her finger. When her finger reached the water line she kissed her way back to his mouth while her finger continued the journey to his mid-section. Shortly before she came in contact with his erection she changed directions and circumvented the place he wanted her most and continued her exploration on his thighs.

Shawn let his head fall back on the tub's edge and sighed heavily.

"You are killing me here right now."

"And we don't want that." She murmured above his lips while her fingers roamed over his inner thighs. She tucked his bottom lip between her teeth without stopping to tease him. She released his lips and slid her tongue into his mouth.

Shawn growled and interrupted their kiss to look Juliet in the eyes.

"Jules, that is so not fair."

"Do you think?"

"Let me touch you." Shawn pleaded. "Please."

Juliet looked into his eyes which were a deep green now. They always changed to this color when he was highly aroused and a smile tucked at the edge of her mouth. Her hand rested near his cock on his stomach.

"Well. I think it's well deserved."

Shawn sighed in relief. He pulled her head down to crush his lips to hers. The sudden movement surprised Juliet making her lose her balance and she splashed inelegantly onto Shawn's body. Suddenly all of the playfulness was gone. They locked eyes and both saw the pure lust mirrored in each others gaze. They breathed heavily as if it already was their second round. Juliet was only now aware that her hand was already wrapped around his cock. She began to pump him slowly while exploring his mouth with her tongue.

Shawn jerked up a little and slid one hand down her body while he held Juliet's head with the other one so that she was not able to pull away again. Teasing time was over.

When he reached her center he slid one finger into her while rubbing with his thumb over her clit which caused Juliet to whimper into his mouth.

Juliet pumped his cock faster as he added a second finger to increase the pressure. Juliet whimpered again loudly and let her head fall back. She arched her back and thus brought her breasts within reach of Shawn's mouth.

He gladly took the chance and sucked one of her nipples into his mouth and slid his tongue over it.

Juliet's grip around his cock loosened and she raised both hands to push his head further into her body. Shawn pumped his fingers harder into her while tugging carefully with his teeth on her nipple.

Juliet cried out with pleasure and pushed her body further down so that his fingers were even deeper in her.

"Shawn! I need you! Now!" Juliet whimpered. "I want to come with you in me. Please."

Shawn's eyes got even darker when he heard Juliet's pleading. He released her nipple out of his mouth and slid both hands to her hips to lift her. He positioned his cock at her entrance but refused to slid inside.

"Open your eyes, Jules." Shawn's voice was as low as possible and thick with pure desire. "I want to see your eyes."

She opened her eyes slowly. They were hooded with the first signs of her orgasm yet that was already tugging at her. When he pushed inside her with one deep thrust she began to shudder. He pulled his cock out slowly and stopped shortly only the tip inside.

"Shawn, please!" Juliet trembled now violently. "Don't make me beg."

That was all he needed to hear and as he looked in her eyes he almost lost control. He took in a deep breath and slowly entered her and slid out again.

"Shawn!" She sounded angry. "Now! And faster!"

He tightened his grip around her hips and plunged himself deep into her.

"Yes, Shawn. More." Juliet's eyes fell shut again and he could feel that she was as close as he to an orgasm.

He made some more deep and hard thrusts until Juliet exploded and her walls clamped around his cock. One more thrust and he followed her over the edge.

It took a long time until they both returned to the earth again. Juliet was lying half over him, the surrounding water nothing but lukewarm. Shawn trailed his hands up and down her spine. Juliet sighed happily and opened her eyes sleepily, looking up at Shawn.

"That was ..." Juliet licked her lips.

"Awesome?" Shawn asked with a big grin on his face.

"Yes. That was awesome!" Juliet smiled up at him. "Can we do this again sometime?"

Shawn laughed out loud.

"Sure. At your service, Miss. Anytime!"


"O'Hara! What are you doing?"

Lassiter's voice cut through her memory. She blushed involuntarily, glad that he wasn't able to read her thoughts. It took her a few seconds to realize that she was still holding the phone to her ear. It was still ringing. She looked up to Lassiter with a worried expression on her face.

"Damn it, Shawn! Where the hell are you?"

Okay that was the first chapter. I hope you enjoyed it.

At first as always a big thanks to my beta-reader FearTheSpork who is actually to blame for this M-story. Because her stories were my inspiration. :D

I have to warn you beforehand. I'm an instinctive writer. That means I know where I want to start a story and how the end should look like. But everything in between is pretty much open. So it could take me a while between the updates. But I will try my best.

Oh and reviews are very appreciated. :)