Another very short oneshot. Based off of the song She's like the wind by Patrick Swayze.
Warning: Incest (But nothing graphic, just mentioned or implied.)
I used to have a perfect life. Awesome parents, wonderful brothers, good grades in school, football, and was on my way to a bright future …
But, my perfect life shattered into pieces when my parents died.
I had a huge weight thrown across my shoulders, it felt so heavy it felt like I would break. I went from being eighteen to forty-five. I had to give up my dreams, give up my bright future, to take care of my two teenage brothers.
I had to get two jobs to pay all the bills, got responsibilities that people my age shouldn't have yet, and had the state constantly on my back, waiting for me to make one small mistake, so they could take my brothers away.
Me and my youngest brother fought constantly, while he was so close to Soda, they left me out most of the time.
Pony had thought I hated and wanted to throw him in some boys home.
I was growing too many gray hairs for my age.
I felt like giving up sometimes, but I pushed myself, because my brothers needed me and I couldn't let them down.
But, my crappy life seemed to brighten when someone totally unexpected stole my heart … my baby brother Ponyboy.
Don't ask me how it happened, because I don't know.
We had just gotten closer and closer after Dally and Johnny died, and we kept on getting closer, until we crossed the line.
I know it's wrong, but I don't give a shit. He brightens up my shitty life … makes life worth living.
It's nice to love and be loved in return, to hold someone close, and feel their warm breath on your face.
It's an amazing feeling.
But, I feel so overwhelmed with guilt sometimes that I can't take it … so guilty I can't even bring myself to look at him.
I don't deserve him. He's smart, he doesn't use his head most of the time, but he's smart. He has a chance to go places and I don't want anything to ruin that chance … not like fate did to me.
I want him to live the life I didn't get to live.
He's special …
I'm afraid I'm going to ruin his life.
Not only am I six years older than him … him only being fifteen and me being twenty-one, but I was also his older brother … which only made it much worst.
It all seems like dream … it's too good to be real. He takes all my pain away, makes me forget. I couldn't go on without him.
I've been everybody's rock for as long as I can remember, but with Pony I could just be myself, let my tough, guard down and let all my feelings pour out, and he doesn't feel any less about me.
He's my rock, my life support.
Feel her breath on my face
Her body close to me
Can't look in her eyes
She's out of my league
Just a fool to believe
I have anything she needs
She's like the wind