A/N: It's Rose's turn to wax poetic. For some reason, she turned out to have a bit more to say. But well, she is epic, so let's leave her to it:
Fortitude of Love
I think you catch me, sometimes,
Staring out of our window
Of our little flat
In our little street
With the noisy, nosy neighbours,
And the streetlamps outside, which would
Light up curtains, if we had them.
And there's that Starbucks on the corner,
Where in your first week here, I took you
To taste the delights
Of Pete's World hot chocolate
(you remarked how much it tasted like
That stuff we had on Denvaak Two,
And I thought to myself:
I knew I wasn't going mad.
Or if I am, I'm taking you with me, now.
So that's not so bad.)
It's so strange,
Having you here with me
To share hot chocolate with
And watch the telly with
And adventure and run and laugh with,
And yet knowing you – well, no, he -
Is still so far away.
But know this:
You are mine,
And I do love you,
Could never stop
I stood by you when you
Changed before; remember?
When you changed into a
Whole new man.
I think I can manage this.
This little change in species.
You're still you, after all,
Just like you were still you
And I love you, just like I
Still loved you,
It may take time to get used to this.
And that's why I'm scared –
We don't, it seems, have much of time
Left, anymore. You're part-human, now,
And what if I lose you? Well?
Mortality is something you have to face,
Now you're here, and for the first time,
I truly, truly know what fear feels like –
The fear of losing the one you love.
I thought I knew that before. But then,
I knew you'd never leave me by choice
And I knew you had a back-up life or three.
Having no control over life and death...
And how can I live in ease, knowing that
Your carelessness, your strength, your courage,
May take you from me through sacrifice?
It's not quite my right, but blimey,
I hope to the stars that you've lost that need
To put yourself last, and everyone else in front.
Because I need you, Doctor.
I lived without you just fine, yeah; but I have no,
Desire to do so again.
I want to grow old with you.
You've made a promise to me that I can.
Please don't break it.
And when I'm staring out of our window,
You may think that I am betraying you,
By wishing I was somewhere else.
Or perhaps you don't condemn me;
Perhaps you think I've every right
To feel let down, and lost, and lonely.
But I've got no right to.
And I don't.
I'm not staring up into the sky awaiting his return
(even if I knew he would come,
I would not stand and stare.)
And I'm not wishing on a star to get back up there.
And I'm not watching the rainy day move on
In misery, or despair,
I'm not looking at the traffic jam and dreaming
Of spaceships, and planets, and unimaginable colours
That do not consist of red, amber, green.
I'm not lamenting over times gone by, or
Regretting things we never said, never did –
Did say, did do.
I'm seeing our reflection.
Our reflection, in the glass.
I tilt my head and watch your eyes –
They follow the movement, and I almost cry.
We look beautiful, I've decided.
Come moonlight or daylight,
Rain or shine –
Our reflections, they are beautiful.
But also, bittersweet.
Because you look at me like you love me,
And I know that you do.
And yet you are nervous, frightened,
So scared of what I'm thinking.
As if you think, if you move towards me,
Or let your arms engulf me,
Or let your lips brush my hair aside and
Kiss my neck,
I will flinch from your touch.
How could you think that, of all things?
As if I could ever not want you to hold me.
As if I could ever not want you to kiss me.
As if I could ever not love you.
We've been waiting far too long for this –
This chance to be together.
We have it now, but we're dancing around it,
Our love; just like we've always done.
It's time to make the leap of faith.
It's time to jump. It's time to fall.
Because I know that we will catch each other:
So, next time you see me standing by
The window of our tiny flat,
Check to see where my eyes are gazing,
And realise that it's you.
And that I need you to reassure me.
And that I need you to just ask me
How I am; what I'm thinking.
Because then I can tell you – turn,
And look into your eyes for real – and
That the reason that I'm crying,
Is that I'm happy here with you.
And that I really, really want you
To be happy here with me.
Just hold me close.
And never, ever let go.
And never, ever leave.
I love you.