As Hawkes turned the corner in the lab Mac dropped to the floor.

Hawkes is at Mac's side in an instant. Turning him onto his back, fingers to throat and eyes to neck. Clear red marks stand out against the pale, too god damn pale. One quick glance and Hawkes can already see; no rise of the chest, and no inhale or exhale from the lips - Mac's not breathing.

Moving with calm he did not feel, Hawkes tilted Mac's head back and exhaled two long breaths, lips sealed over lips. Now, fingers tangled, he twisted across to face Mac's chest. Levering himself high up onto his knees he then leant all his strength onto Mac's sternum, applying quick, heavy pressure to ribs and counting out loud: terrified of missing a beat. He returned, pinched Mac's nose closed, and exhaled again, twice.

He switched back to chest compressions; concentration solely on counting and praying. After a few rounds of each, Hawkes pulled back from Mac's lips and stared at the inanimate face, irrational anger building in his body. Anger at Mac, beautiful, amazing bloody wonderful Mac who was just lying there, and dying on Hawkes - just when he needs him most. Just when he - and Hawkes can feel his heart break, the first crack that released the dam, the tirade of emotion this is flaying in him. Damn it if Mac is dying now, before Hawkes even got the chanceā€¦

no god damn it please!

Hawkes's leaning forward again, inhale/exhale/chest compressions, but with so much more worth behind them before, full of emotion, longing. Eyes blinded by unshed tears, profanity uttered under his breath, hoping, praying.


And he missed the flicker of eyelids; the breathy inhales from Mac as he sucked back in air and began to return to hazy consciousness, but then Hawkes had switched and leant down to press his open lips solidly against the older man's. Startled, Mac widened his eyes but could only see the unfocused outline of the Doctor, his doctor. Mac coughed and gasped. Hawkes jumped back.

"Mac, Are you okay?" Hawkes asked.

"Y-yes, Thank you," Mac stammered.

Mac smiled as he looked at his friend, he had just saved his life.