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Fang and I drove around for a while; it used to make my mom feel better so I wanted to try with Fang. We were mostly silent, but occasionally we filled the empty space with light talk. I was still just as nervous as Fang was about this whole situation.
I cared more about Fang than I ever thought possible and that scared the crap out of me. My summer of hooking up with guys was vanishing. Even if I wanted to leave Fang, even though I don't, I couldn't. It would kill him, literally.
It's not that I wasn't happy with Fang. That wasn't the case at all. I was happier than I had been in years, despite the cancer spreading through Fang's body. After an hour or so we ended up back at the house. Fang was still exhausted and pale so we snuck in the back door. Fang didn't want his family to see him so weak. I helped him up the stairs and into bed, but as I went to leave, he grabbed my handed and whispered, "Don't leave me just yet."
The idea of someone wanting me so badly was scary. I'd never been anyone that special. To Fang, I was everything. I could see it in his eyes. Sometimes a girl just knows. I curled up against Fang's chest and listened to his slow breathing. "You okay?"
"Yeah, I'm fantastic," Fang said as he gave me a glare. I couldn't help but chuckle. Even with Fang sick he was still a sarcastic butt head.
I heard Iggy and Gazzy yelling and I remembered the shed. Oh shoot. I kissed Fang quickly and jumped out of bed. "Iggy and Gazzy get your pyro-maniac butts up here!"
"Shit! Who told her?" I heard Iggy say.
"Language Iggy!" I waited for them to come walking up the stairs so I could yell at those butt heads for blowing up the shed. Iggy and Gazzy slowly came around the corner and before they could say anything I started talking. "Iggy, I cannot believe you blew up the shed! And Gazzy, you are smart enough to know not to blow up the shed. I mean seriously guys? You two are going to spend every day rebuilding that shed until it's done. Are we clear?"
Iggy and Gazzy just nodded. Yeah, I could be a real bitch sometimes. Iggy and Gazzy ran down the stairs and started laughing and goofing off again. Fang came walking out of his bedroom with his classic smirk on his face. His face was no longer as pale as it had been and his eyes seemed to have a some sort of emotion in them again.
Fang grabbed my hand and kissed my neck. "You are so attractive when you get all motherly," Fang whispered into my neck. Oh man, cue Goosebumps on my entire body. I turned to look at Fang and his eyes were so full of emotion that I was captivated by them.
Fang pulled me into his room and gently kissed me. His gentle kiss sent shivers through my body. This was not going to end well, or it was going to end really well. Wait, I don't even know. All I know, is I have an extremely attractive man kissing me. Who cares about the rest?
Fang pushed me up against the wall and deepened the kiss. Oh man, he tasted so good. He tasted like mint. Perfectly minty.
Fang lifted my black tank top over my head and threw it on the floor. I was almost perfectly okay with this. I was perfectly okay with this once I took Fang's shirt off. I ran my hands up his hard chest and relished this moment. Fang kissed my neck and slowly made his way to my shoulder. I felt him gently bite down. Oh shoot. He was going to give me a hickey. I didn't want a hickey, but I didn't want this moment to end. So I let him go. When Fang's lips found mine again I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him as close as I could. There was no way I was letting him go.
Fang broke the kiss first. He pulled away, slightly out of breath and kissed my forehead. "Max…"
"Don't ruin it with words," I said silently. There was something about silence that I loved. Some people hated silence, but sometimes, silence spoke louder than words. Sometimes, silence was the loudest thing.
Fang still had me pinned up against the wall, neither of us wearing shirts. Fang ran his hand through my messy hair and just stared into my eyes. Fang's eyes held more secrets than anyone I've ever seen. I wondered how many girls had noticed the eyes that I was mesmerized by. I wondered how many girls he'd been with. Well, hello jealousy.
Without thinking, "Have you slept with anyone before?"
Fang chuckled, "Well, there goes that moment," I just shrugged. "And yes, I have."
"Jealous?" Fang said as if he could read my mind.
"Perhaps a tiny bit…"
"And I'm jealous of every guy that has ever held your hand, touched your hair, and kissed your lips."
I didn't know what to say to Fang. His voice was low and unnaturally attractive. It just isn't fair for anyone to be this attractive. I waited for Fang to kiss me again, but he didn't. What a butt-head.
If I could explain how terrible I feel, I would. My body just ached. I've never felt so terrible in my life. I thought I could be strong through the whole thing, but I just don't think I can. I'm so exhausted all the time and I just don't feel the same anymore.
Max and I finally left my room to go help out with dinner. I wasn't really hungry, but I didn't want to give Ma any reason to worry. Iggy was standing behind the stove, Gazzy was sitting at the table building something, and the girls were playing on the floor with some toys or whatever.
"Gazzy, what is that?" Max asked.
"Uh, it's a….a…."
"Not another bomb!" Max yelled angrily. Max was soon going to learn that Iggy and Gazzy were always building bombs. Gazzy just smiled that guilty smile.
Max and I were sitting on the couch, just relaxing. "I have to leave for a couple days. I have to go up to our barn…"
"Your family has a barn?"
"My family is rich, and my mom loved horses. So we got a barn. I just haven't been there in a while."
"Well, there's always a surprise with Maximum Ride."
"Oh yes, I'm just so full of surprises," Max said with a smile. Man, I loved that smile.
"When are you leaving?"
"Ella is picking me up tomorrow."
I hadn't slept without Max since I told her about the cancer. I didn't know if I could stand her leaving, even if it was only for a couple days.
pretty boring chapter i know, but hey, there was some Fax! hehe until next time