Author's Note: I own none of this. I only like to borrow Stephenie Meyer's creations and play with them. I only wish I could have the creative mind like that. Oh well…
Chapter 4: My Bella
Bella finally cracked. With her mind, she threw a lamp at my head and blew up my computer. Finally, some rational reaction to what she was dealing with. I was concerned with the intensity of her reaction, but she insisted that she was fine. She told Carlisle that she didn't want medication. I almost forced Carlisle to get the anxiety medication, but she calmed her heart and stood up. She looked ruffled, but in control. My family left the room and I stayed behind, not able to leave her. I walked toward her and kept my voice quiet. "I'm so sorry, Bella."
"It's not your fault, Edward. You're trying to help me and I completely flip my lid," she said. "I'm sorry about blowing up your computer."
That's sweet that she can do that, Eddie! Emmett thought. I growled, imperceptibly to human ears and he laughed. "It's no big deal, Bella. You're getting more control over your powers. That's a good thing."
"I felt completely out of control," she said, looking into my eyes. She fell onto the bed, cradling her head in her arms. I moved to her spot on the bed and cocked my head, listening to her heartbeat.
"Your heart rate has returned to normal, but you must be worn out."
"That's an understatement. Where's the bathroom?" she asked, looking up at me. I pointed to the door in my bedroom, furthest from the bed. She got up gracefully and walked into the bathroom, closing the door. I shook my head and got up to begin cleaning the remnants of my computer up. It was completely obliterated. I should be incredibly pissed, but I couldn't be. She was dealing with a situation that no human should have to deal with. Computers can be replaced, Bella can't. I picked up the burnt plastic and began tossing it into the garbage can. I half listened to what Bella was doing in the bathroom. It sounded like she was washing her face and trying to calm herself down.
Bella came out of the bathroom and said she'd pay to replace my computer. I insisted that it was fine. However, her facial expression indicated she was still feeling remorseful for her outburst. I wanted to kiss that pout away, but it was too soon. I held out my hand instead and she reached for it. The feeling of energy and power between us had intensified and she gasped. She looked up at me, blinking in disbelief. "You feel it, too?" I asked.
"Is that normal?" she asked, wiggling her fingers.
"Not usually. However, we appear to be connected," I answered. "I think that's the reason why I'm not affected by your powers."
She looked at me skeptically. "Oh, I thought it was something more," she said glumly.
It is, my Bella. You're my mate and I will never be away from you.
"It is something more, but I don't want to freak you out anymore than you have been in the past twenty-four hours. I promise I'll explain everything," I said, caressing my hand over her cheek. She leaned into my touch, not bothered by the difference in temperature of our skin. The warmth of her cheek felt so good against my cold hand. I laced my fingers with hers and we went downstairs to the family room. My family was seated in the room, anxious to be introduced to Bella.
I went through the introductions and she was polite and kind to my family. She felt quite contrite over her jumpiness at freezing them. Emmett was like a big kid with his shiny new toy about her powers. Rosalie, per her usual finesse, put him in his place. She asked Bella to freeze him any time she wanted.
He's driving me nuts. I love the big oaf, but jeez! Rosalie thought.
I chuckled and finished the introductions. Bella thought that Alice and I were a couple. When she mentioned it, Alice made gagging noises in my head. Edward, you're an awesome brother, but GROSS! I rolled my eyes and smiled.
Carlisle asked Bella some questions and she told what happened between her and the demon. I was shocked that he was her ex-boyfriend. She was with him for a long time and never knew it. Carlisle showed me that the young man that was brought in with the unique injuries was indeed her ex-boyfriend. She didn't destroy him, just seriously injured him. Carlisle continued his investigation, asking Bella what else she could do. She said that she could move things with her mind and proceeded to demonstrate that talent with a pillow. He suggested that she try to move me off the couch, but I had my theories.
"I don't think she can. I appear to be unaffected by her gift. Each time she's frozen time, I've been able to move," I hypothesized.
Is it because she's your mate, Edward? Carlisle asked. I nodded and smiled at Bella. She knew that Carlisle was talking to me in my head and she blinked a few times. Bella regained her composure and asked about her friend, Jacob. Carlisle explained to her that Jacob was a vampire. Good job on getting her out of there, Edward. It would have been horrible if he phased in front of her and attacked. She wouldn't have survived.
Bella tried to understand what she was hearing, but I could see she was struggling. I laid my hand on the small of her back, rubbing soothing circles. She took a deep breath and asked about the future of our existence. Alice said she needed to show her for her to understand. Alice said she wanted to try this with Bella. Alice and I were able to connect our gifts to show the future to others in our family. We had never done it on a human. Nor a human witch. I was hesitant. I wasn't sure what the side effects were going to be. I didn't want to harm Bella in anyway.
She's going to be fine, Edward. Trust me, please? Alice asked.
She held out her hands and Bella took them. I placed my hands on her shoulders and I could the influx of power between the three of us. Alice closed her eyes, as did I. My mind went completely blank and I focused my power to Bella. Her mind opened up to me and I could see what Alice was showing her. It was too fast for her human brain to comprehend. Bella was confused and disoriented. Too fast, Alice. Slow down, I thought to my sister.
I can hear you, Edward, Bella thought. I smiled, but refocused. Alice slowed down her vision and it made more sense to Bella. She fixated on herself. She was thinking she looked like Alice and me. She was going to be a vampire. She gasped and her mind pushed both Alice and I out. I cried out and grasped my head at the intense pain she thrust upon me. Alice was thrown across the room, like a rag doll, into the china hutch.
The pain in my head subsided and I saw Bella having a seizure on the floor. Edward! Get the anti-seizure medication from my office! Now! Carlisle commanded in my head. I shook it off and darted to his office. I filled a syringe and returned to the family room. Bella was still moving uncontrollably and I gently grabbed her arm, rolling up her sleeve. I plunged the syringe into her vein, forcing the medication through her system. Within a few seconds, her movements ceased and she fell unconscious. I gently picked her up, cradling her in my arms. Carlisle followed me and whirled around, hissing at him.
"Edward, she needs to be monitored," he said quietly.
"I can do it," I growled. He nodded and let me go up to my room. I laid Bella on my bed, brushing her hair off her face. I covered her with the duvet and lay down next to her. I listened to the steady thrum of her heart and her even breathing. I laced my fingers with hers, watching her closely. "Please, be okay. You're my life now, Bella."
She lay on the bed, unmoving for several hours. Her face a peaceful mask of tranquility and slumber. Alice came into my room and I snarled at her. Edward, I never thought she'd react that way. My guess was sensory overload. I'm sorry. Please forgive me.
"I'll forgive you if you can tell me she's going to be alright," I agonized.
"She will, Edward. Her mind is healing," Alice whispered. "Are you okay?"
"Fine," I answered tersely.
"You're lying, Edward. I can see the pain in your eyes. You're blaming yourself for what happened. She made the decision. No one forced her," Alice explained.
"I know," I whispered. "When, Alice?"
"Less than a month," Alice responded. "James never died. He will attack in less than a month, citing revenge. Carlisle will be unable to save her. The only thing that will prevent her demise is changing her into a vampire."
"Out of everything she focused on, it was that," I mumbled dejectedly.
"However, the three of us will defeat the Volturi. You felt the power when we were connected, didn't you?"
I nodded and sighed. "And she's just human. It'll be more intense when she's one of us."
"She'll be fine, Edward. However, you need to let her know about your feelings. She's confused by your behavior and what she's feeling toward you," Alice explained.
"I know. I will. When she wakes up," I said quietly. "How long until she wakes up?"
"Day after tomorrow," Alice replied. "I already called her boss saying she had a family emergency and will be out of town for the next few days. I'm going to run to her apartment and get her some clothes."
"Thanks, Alice," I said, giving her a tight smile. "Love you, Tink."
"Love you, too, Eddie," she teased. I growled. I hated the name 'Eddie.' I hate the name 'Tink.'
Alice giggled and danced out of the room. I put my head down on the pillow, staring at Bella. She hadn't moved, save for her breathing, since I administered the anti-seizure medication. Her heartbeat was strong and I knew she was okay, physically. I was more concerned about the damage to her mind. Unable to stand it anymore, I pulled her to my chest and held her tightly. She relaxed further and nestled in my body. I could feel our connection; the power between us was palpable.
We lay like that until midday. I had my eyes closed and I heard a whisper in my mind. Edward?
My eyes flew open and looked down at Bella. She was still cuddled against my ice cold chest, breathing evenly. I shook it off and figured it was a fluke.
Carlisle came in an hour later to check on her before he left for the hospital. He really wanted to take her in to get an MRI done of her brain, but I refused him. I would not let anyone touch her, human or otherwise. I told him what Alice told me about her waking up by tomorrow and he nodded his assent. He left and gave me a sad smile before heading to the hospital. I held onto Bella like my life depended on it. Our connection growing stronger with each passing second. I knew that after these few days, I could not be separated from her. I pressed a kiss to her forehead and she sighed quietly. Edward, I feel you.
"Bella?" I whispered.
I know you are with me. Protecting me. Thank you, Edward, Bella thought in my head.
"How? Your mind is closed to me?" I mumbled.
I'm not sure, Edward. However, I can hear your thoughts, as well. I'm fine. Just resting.
"Thank God, you're alright," I said, holding her to my chest. "I have so much to say to you. However, you need to keep resting. Your mind is still healing."
I know, Edward.
And like that, she was gone. Her mind disappeared from me and she nestled closer to my chest, tightening her hold around my waist. I smiled and relaxed into her embrace. We stayed tangled together for the rest of the night and into the next morning. Bella did not move from my arms and every so often she would pipe in saying that she was fine. By noon the next day, Bella's heart rate increased and her face scrunched up. She was waking up. Esme must have heard her change in her heartbeat and came upstairs with a tray of food for Bella. She placed it on the floor near my bed, giving me a loving smile.
Bella's eyes fluttered open and she stretched her body. She was stiff from not moving for nearly two days. She looked up at me and her brown eyes captured mine, giving me a lazy smile. "I'm okay, Edward. You can stop perseverating," she teased.
"How did you know?" I asked in disbelief.
She poked her finger between my eyes, "I heard you. I think that thing we did with Alice connected our minds together. I've heard everything you thought. We have much to talk about, but I honestly feel icky."
"Alice took that into account. She brought over a bag with clothing from your apartment. Feel free to use the bathroom," I said as I caressed her cheek. She nodded and got up slowly, unsteady on her feet. I picked up her bag and followed her into my bathroom. She arched a brow. You're not showering with me, Edward.
I quirked my own brow. I know, Bella. I'm just helping. Relax. She rolled her eyes and rummaged through her bag. I turned on my heel and exited the bathroom. I walked to my closet and grabbed some clothes and darted to Alice's room to shower myself. I wasn't 'icky,' but I wanted to clean up from laying in my bed for two days. I, hastily, washed my body and threw on my clothes: a pair of jeans and gray sweater. I walked back into my bedroom and I could hear Bella still in the shower. I walked to my desk and pulled out my laptop. I sent Carlisle a quick email saying that Bella was awake. His response was immediate. He was pleased and he wanted to talk with us about what happened. I promised him that Bella would not leave until after meeting with him.
I heard a squeak from the bathroom. Using our connection, What's wrong?
Is your sister on crack? These are SOOOOOOOOOOOOO not my clothes, Bella replied. I don't own anything this tight or revealing.
"Mary Alice Brandon Cullen," I called.
I heard her dance-like steps through the house and she skipped into my room. "You rang, brother dearest?" she asked, sitting on my lap.
"What did you do?" I asked, arching my brow.
"I gave Bella's wardrobe a little update," Alice replied, innocently.
Ha! I look like a ho! Bella screamed.
"She doesn't like it," I said seriously.
"How do you know? You haven't seen her," Alice reasoned.
I saw what she looked like through Bella's mind. I saw her scowling at her reflection in the bathroom. Do I look like a ho, Edward?
No, you don't. However, I can see why you're not happy, I answered.
I'm not leaving this bathroom until I get my OWN clothes.
"Alice, she's not going to get out of the bathroom until you bring her own clothes," I said.
"Wait, what?" Alice chirped. "How are you able to know what she wants? Holy shit, you're connected. Your minds are one." Alice screamed and danced around the room. She darted to the bathroom door and pulled it open. She picked up Bella and spun her around. "This is amazing."
"Alice!" Bella barked. "I'm going to puke if you don't stop. I have nothing in my stomach, so it's going be nasty."
"Sorry," Alice said as she gently put Bella down. Bella wavered and I was immediately at her side. She relaxed into me and blew out a breath. Alice gave a look over Bella's appearance and she smiled. "Bella, you look hot. Please keep the clothes?"
"I feel like a hooker," she mumbled. Her hands went to her breasts and she grabbed them. "This bra is insane. I never knew I had so much cleavage. It's not my style. Give me jeans and a t-shirt and I'm happy."
I closed my eyes and tried to calm my imagination. Bella looked at me and she gave me a seductive smile. I guess Edward is a boob man.
Emmett in a dress. Emmett in a dress. Emmett in a dress, I thought frantically.
"I'll keep the clothes, Alice. Please tell me that at home, the rest of my attire is intact?" Bella snickered.
"Unfortunately yes," Alice sighed. "You will be a fashionista when I'm done with you."
If I get this response from you, Edward. She will.
BELLA! I'm trying to act like a gentleman here. Stop flirting, I snapped in my mind.
I know you're hot for me, Edward. Don't deny it. I can feel it against my back, she purred.
I stepped back and gave her a warning look as I distanced myself from her. I subtly adjusted the bulge in my pants and tried to quell the erotic thoughts invading my mind. As I moved back, Bella's stomach snarled and she blushed. "Time to feed you, Bella. My mother prepared a meal for you. Alice, I think we're good."
Sure you are, Edward. Nice erection. You so need to get laid, Alice snickered.
I growled at her and she gave me a kiss on the cheek, skipping out of the room. I led Bella back to the bed and she sat back on the pillows. I put the tray of food over her legs and she gasped. "Christ almighty, there's enough food here to feed an army."
"You keep forgetting, we don't eat. We're not sure how much a human needs," I said sheepishly. "Eat what you can, but you've been out for a while. You need to regain your strength."
"How long?" she asked as she tucked into some eggs.
"Two and half days," I muttered.
The fork dropped and clattered on the tray. "TWO AND HALF DAYS?! What about work? Eric is going to be so pissed," she cried frantically.
"Alice took care of it. She said that you had a family emergency," I answered. Relax, Bella. Everything is going to be alright, I crooned.
She buried her head in her hands. I could smell her tears and I felt so badly for her. I sat closer to her, running my fingers through her damp hair. Bella, it's okay. I'm here. I won't let anything happen to you.
She pulled her hands away from her face and looked into my eyes. I know. I trust you, Edward. She took a deep breath and grabbed the cup of tea on the tray. She took a sip and calmed her mind. Explain this mind-talking thing.
"I'm not sure how it happened, Bella. However, like I've said before, we're connected in ways other than our minds," I sighed. "My kind doesn't change. At least not easily. Our physical appearance is frozen at the time we experience the change. Our minds, while able to calculate and move faster than any human brain, doesn't change either. It takes a great deal to change something in our existence. There's only one thing that can do that."
"What's that, Edward?" Bella asked.
"Finding our mate," I said, barely above a whisper. Her hearing was less acute than mine, but I knew she could hear what I said.
"Are you saying…?" she trailed off.
"Yes," I answered, searching in her brown eyes. You're my mate. That energy that flows through us. Our connection between our minds. The feelings I have for you, solidify that you are my mate.
Do you love me? Bella asked, gazing into my golden eyes.
Yes. Irrevocably, I answered. "I know that you are not ready, but I'll wait for you. As long as it takes. We are very patient. We have to be."
"How can I be your mate? I'm human," she muttered.
"We can't choose our mates. We're destined from our creation. When you were born, the fates knew we would find each other," I whispered, caressing her cheek.
She tentatively reached up and grabbed my face. She looked into my topaz eyes and I could feel them darken. I heard her heartbeat quicken and she leaned forward, her eyes fluttering shut. I moved my face closer to hers and our lips brushed. Her warm mouth moved with mine and it ignited a fire deep within my belly. I had never felt this way about a girl before. She was my other half. My soul mate. My love. Her tongue traced my lower lip and I partially opened my mouth. Her warm tongue entered my mouth and I purred. Her hands moved to my damp hair and fisted the tousled tresses. She smiled against my mouth and pulled away. "Wow," she muttered.
"Wow, indeed," I smirked.
"Does this mean…?" Bella asked.
"While you are my mate, I won't foist myself on you. We'll take this at the speed you want to," I said honestly. "I know you just got out of relationship and aren't ready to jump into another one."
"I never felt this way about anybody in my life, Edward," she murmured. "I can't believe that we met less than three days ago. I should be freaking out, having a major panic attack, but I'm okay with it. I want to be with you."
I smiled and moved the tray of food off her lap. I gathered her in my arms and buried my nose in her fragrant hair. She straddled my waist and clung to my neck like her life depended on it. She pulled away and looked into my eyes. She brought her finger tips to my face and traced the contours of my cheeks, jaw and nose. As her fingers glided over my skin, I purred at her soft caress. Are you purring, Edward?
We do it when we're happy and content. I'm so happy with you, Bella, I answered. My hands moved to her face a mirrored her actions. Her eyes fluttered shut and she moaned quietly. I moved closer to her and ran my nose along her jaw. I pressed a kiss to her pulse point, feeling the warm blood move through her body. It was so erotic to feel that move beneath my lips and my purr morphed to a quiet growl. The feelings went straight to my crotch and I could feel it grow hard. I moved away and gave Bella a sheepish grin. Sorry for my lack of control.
"Edward, you're fine," she answered. "I don't mind."
"I do," I said. "There's something else you need to know about me. Something that I'm not comfortable sharing with very many people."
I've never been with a woman, intimately. I've kissed other vampires, but never had sex, I said mentally
Fuck me. You're a virgin? Bella said, her eyes wide.
I lowered my eyes and nodded. She reached for my face and forced me to look at her. Don't be ashamed, Edward. Never be ashamed. If we do make love, I will be your first and I'm honored.
You will be my first and my only, my Bella, I answered sincerely. I pulled her closer to me and caressed her lips with mine. She threaded her hands into my hair and swiveled her hips. Not helping, Bella.
"I'm old fashioned, Bella. I was raised at a time where I would never had kissed a girl, unless we were engaged. It was taboo to even think about sex. Also, there are complications with my being a vampire and you being human," I said.
"Like what?" she asked, climbing off my lap. I laid back down and she put her head on my chest.
"I'm incredibly strong and I've been told that making love brings out the animal instincts in my kind. I could easily lose control and hurt you. Possibly even kill you," I said sadly.
"Oh. So we could never…" she trailed off.
"I'm not sure about 'never,' but I'd have to take precautions. I don't want to hurt you," I whispered.
"I don't think you can, Edward," she whispered.
"Not consciously, no. However, in throes of passion, that might be a different story," I smirked. "What did you make of what Alice showed you?"
"The three of us are bad ass," she giggled.
"Yes, we are. What else?" I asked.
"I'm going to be one of you, aren't I?" she asked. Her eyes grew sad and contemplative.
"Yes. Watch," I said as I remembered Alice's vision of James' attack on her in the future. She whimpered and held her hand to her chest. That was where the fireball penetrated her body, causing her injuries. I ended the vision and hummed quietly in her ear.
"You're going to be the one to change me, aren't you?" she whispered.
"Yes. However, after your change we'll need to go. As a newborn, you'll be too volatile around humans," I said.
"I'm glad it's going to be you," she muttered. "When will that happen?"
"Alice thinks in less than a month. James needs to heal before he can attack you. You really put him through the ringer," I said.
"I only wish I could have really destroyed him. Bastard," she grumbled. "Low life, lazy ass bum."
"Why don't you tell me how you really feel?" I teased.
"Don't tempt me. I probably should go home. Angela is probably having a heart attack," Bella said sadly. "I don't want to leave you, though."
"I don't want to be away from you either, Bella," I said, kissing her forehead. "I can stay with you tonight, if you like?"
"Very much," Bella smiled. Can you stay with me forever?
For all eternity, my Bella. "We do have to wait until it's dark out. It's a sunny day and I can't go out in the daylight when it's sunny."
"Why? Will you burst into flames?" she teased.
"No," I smirked. I got up off the bed and drew back the curtains. The sun filled the room and I removed my sweater. I stepped into the sunlight and a million facets of light filled the room. I turned and faced Bella. Her eyes were glued to me and her mouth was open slightly.
You're beautiful, Edward, she mused. Not just the sparkle either. She got up and walked toward me. She ran her hands over my cold, smooth chest. She watched as the light danced on her skin. My eyes drifted shut and I reveled in her tender touch across my torso. Will I look like this?
You'll be the most beautiful creature on the planet, Bella. You already are. "I love you, Bella. You are my life, my reason for existing. I promise with everything that I am, I will protect you and keep you from harm."
Bella looked up at me and her eyes filled with tears. She jumped into my arms, wrapping her legs around my waist. She covered my face with kisses and held me tightly. "I love you, too, Edward. I never thought I could feel this complete."
I smiled and held her to my body, enjoying the warmth of embrace. She pulled away and gave me a frown. Sorry about jumping you. I didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable.
Never, my Bella. I'm happy to hold you in my arms for the rest of my life, I smiled.
"So, what does this make us?" Bella asked. "Are you my boyfriend? My husband? My fiancé?"
"Let's go with boyfriend for now," I chuckled. "But, you will be my wife very soon."
She smiled and kissed me passionately. I eagerly returned the kiss and held her tightly. I could hear Alice, Rose and Esme squealing downstairs. They were genuinely happy for me. Esme especially. I'd traveled this world alone for too long and now I had my soul mate to complete my life.
A/N: So? What do you think? Reviews make me happy like realizing Edward's my soul mate and stuff. Suggestions? Leave them too! Hugs! xoxox