Author's Note: Ughhh I'm like, sooo sorry. I don't know what was going on but I accidentally erased My first chapter... so heres a do over.

Disclaimer: I still don't own big time rush. Ughhh... I captured Carlos who is in my closet duct taped to a chair. Ha.. ha ha...HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAA! Okay back on task.

Chapter 1: Big Time Secret


It was a cold, sunny day in Minnesota. All the kids were our playing in the parks, my best friend, Carlos, was playing road hockey, and I was inside with my bestest friend, Lisandra. I couldn't hold it in anymore. "Hey Lisandra. Can I tell you something?" I sighed, and just waited for a response.

She turned her head to look at me and nodded, "Sure, what's up?" She was listening to her Ipod, One still in her ear and the other hanging down.

I looked outside, watching Carlos playing with some kids from the block. "I like someone, and I don't know how that person will react." I looked down after I said that. The thought of Carlos made my head feel heavy.

Lisandra laughed. I looked at her as if saying 'What's so funny?' "I know who you like, and I'm sure he wouldn't mind. You never told me you were gay though, I basically had to figure it out myself." I didn't look at her. Instead I just turned my head to look outside again.

"I doubt he'll ever like me the way I like him... And sorry, I was kinda shy to tell anyone. Is it really that obvious?" She didn't say anything. Instead, she got up and went for my closet. "What are you doing?"

All of a sudden, clothes just started flying out of my closet. I would have went to see what she was doing, but I didn't want to get hit by a hanger. When everything settled down, I went to check on Lisandra. When i see her, shes holding up a gray v-neck with a black jacket/w a hoodie, and a pair of black skinny jeans. "OMG! I'm going to make a perfect couple!" I smile at the thought of me and Carlos being together.

"Yeah, Carlos has been talking about this hill that he wants to sled down tonight. So I'm thinking I should tell him tonight." After I said that, Lisandra awed so long, you could have mistaken her for a blow dryer. We started laughing so hard, our stomachs started hurting.

Flashback Over~

Beep... Beep... Beep... Ugh, stupid alarm. Hey, at least I'm not being yelled at... "LOGAN, GET YOU ASS UP!" Spoke to everyone, you just met my mother,she's been acting like that ever since the divorce with my father.

"I'M UP ALREADY!" 'I swear, I'n going to hit her upside the head with a bat' I laid up and stretched. Well, another day, another Carlos. I got up, grabbed my phone, and headed towards the bathroom. I took a quick shower and put on fresh clothes. When I looked at my phone, I got two text messages from Carlos and Lisandra.

The first text was from Lisandra, "Hey Logie, You ready for me to pick you up? L." I texted her back saying "Yeah, I'll be waiting outside. L.

The other text message was from Carlos, "Hey Logan, When you coming to school? C." I texted Carlos back saying "Right now. L."

It took about five minutes before Lisandra came, I told my mother I would be back. "Just make sure you're home by 5, or you're in big trouble." She looked like she was going to punch me if I didn't.

I said OK and walked to Lisandra's car. Not even three seconds passed and she started going off. "I heard what happened last night, did you tell Carlos you like him?" I felt like I was hit by a train.

I couldn't understand how she could have known so fast. I tell her everything, and I was too tired to text her. "Uhm, how did you know what happened. Who told you?" she started laughing like i told the worlds funniest joke.

"Carlos told me. He couldn't stop blaming himself for what happened. He texted me at like, 5 in the morning, and ironically, he told me what happened." I just lightly smiled at her and looked down.

The rest of the car ride was silent. When we got to school, Carlos was waiting in the parking lot. He looks so sweet when he smiles. He walked up to the car when we parked, and opened my door. I'm telling you, he's the sweetest person on Earth. "Hey Logan. Last night was so fun, but I'm sorry for what happened." I just sighed when he said that.


It was the same day when I told Lisandra that I was gay, and it was about 7:50. "Hey Carlos, I have to start heading home." Carlos looked upset when I told him that.

"Oh, c'mon Logie," I love it when he calls me that. "Can we please go down one more time?" Carlos looked at me with his adorable puppy dog eyes. I smiled and said yes.

Just when we were about to go up the hill, Carlos slipped on a frozen puddle and I caught him. To make the scene even funnier, I slipped and fell on my back. And if you think that was funny, we were sliding back. Me and Carlos just stared into each others eyes. I could have swore he leaned in, but I'm guessing he stopped because he frowned. "Are you OK? You look upset" Carlos didn't say anything, he just got up and held out his hand. I grabbed it and started waking towards my house.

It only took a few minutes before we reached my house, and when we got there, I grabbed Carlos's arm and made him face me, "Carlos, tell me whats wrong, please."

Carlos looked like he was about to break down in tears. "I will, tomorrow... I promise." With that, he hugged me, and I didn't want to let him go. When we parted, Carlos said he wanted to give me a present tomorrow.

"But it's not my birthday, why am I getting a present?" Carlos looked down and smiled.I thought I saw a tear fall down his cheek, but he sighed and said, "It's only if you say yes, which I highly doubt." I laughed a little and checked my phone, and I almost pissed my pants. It was 8:03 (Yeah, my mom's a bit of a control freak, so if I'm home early or even a minute late, I have to hear her mouth... Or her hand), I hugged Carlos one more time and ran inside.

Before i noticed if Carlos left yet, my mom opened the door and smacked me. I really hate when she does that. "WHY ARE YOU HOME LATE!" Was all she ever said. I touched my cheek and walked slowly to my room. By the time I got up the stairs, she yelled, "YOU'RE GROUNDED FOR 2 WEEKS!" The littlest things set this woman off.

I just went in my room and closed the door. And what do you know, Carlos texted me...

"Hey, are you OK? C." I just stared at the text message. I couldn't believe Carlos saw the whole thing.

I texted back, "Yeah, I'm fine. I'm sorry you had to see that :( L." I hated when my mom does that in front of my friends.

Just then, I heard a knocking coming from my window, and guess who it is. "Carlos, what are you doing? You could get in trouble." Carlos just went through the window, and gave me a hug.

After what had just happened, I really needed this, especially from him. "I'm sorry Logie, I didn't mean to keep you out late." Carlos was crying now. I hated seeing Carlos like this, and he blames himself.

"Carlos, it's not your fault," I said wiping away his tears. "It's my fault. I didn't have a better understanding of time." I gave him a smile and wiped away the rest of his tears.

Carlos asked me if he wanted to sleep over, and I asked him if it was OK with his parents. "Don't worry, I got it all under control." Usually, when he says that, he doesn't have it under control, but I'm willing to give it a shot this time.

I just nodded and brought Carlos to my bed. "I'll wake you up at 5 so you can go home. I don't want you getting caught by my mom." With that, we went to bed.

Carlos whispered, "I love you Logan." But when I turned to ask what he said, he was already sleeping. So I cuddled up with him, and closed my eyes.

Flashback Over~

I came back to reality, "Carlos, don't worry. It really wasn't your fault. Anyways, when are you going to give me that present?" Carlos laughed hard when I said that.

He shook his head, "Wow Logie, after what we've been through, your still want that present... OK, but in Gym." He smiled and looked at Lisandra. Something tells me she knows something that I don't. But I didn't bother asking.

The bell rang and Carlos went off to his class while me and Lisandra walked together to our class, Math. Lisandra's least favorite and my favorite. Before I knew it, Math was over and it was time for Gym. I almost jumped out of my seat. Thank god I didn't.

I basically dragged Lisandra with me to Gym. I ran so fast, I could have made skid marks for Lisandra trying to slow me down. When we reached the Gym, I thought to myself 'Finally, Oh my god. I see Carlos. CARLOS! Oh wait, he can't hear me.'

I opened the Gym door and yelled, "CARLOS!" Carlos was already waiting for me with a huge smile on his face. "C'mon, where's my present!" I said jumping up and down.

Carlos had his backpack over his shoulder, "Come with me to the locker room." I followed him into the locker room, and he locked the door, "OK, I want to give you two things. One, is a letter, and the other one is the gift, if you say yes." Carlos handed me the letter...

Hey Logan. Uhm, i wanted to tell you this for a long time,
and I never had the guts to just tell you.
I love you, I have for a long time.
I know your not gay, but I just couldn't hold it in anymore.
So I understand if you don't want to be my friend.
But if you do like me, I have something to give you.

I looked at Carlos, who was now holding a box. "So, do you like me?" I smiled, looking at the letter.

Then i looked at him, "No, I don't like you..." Carlos looked down, "But wait, you didn't let me finish. I love you." Carlos head shot up so fast, it could have snapped off hid head.

Carlos ran to me and gave me a big hug. He gave me the box, I was so excited. When I opened it, my jaw practically fell off. What was inside the box was a Half-Heart on a necklace, On the back it said, 'Love is...' I looked at Carlos confused, "Where's the other half?" Carlos moved his arm up, showing a bracelet with the same Half-Heart. I put them together and it said, "Love is... When I'm with you."

Carlos, this is so beautiful. I don't know what to-" I was trailed off by Carlos' lips "How about saying yes to being my boyfriend?" I smiled and leaned in for another kiss "Yeah, I would love to be your boyfriend."

finally, i re-type chapter 1. And hopefully this one is better. I will be making my next chapter later on. When I'm done with the next chapter, tell me if I should continue with the story. Jay-R is out. PEACE