A.N: OK, so I am writing this while my sister MAKES me watch Doctor who so if I like right a word wrong or twice you can blame this third world crap distracting me from writing...

Not that there's anything wrong with that...

Hi Martha...

I watched special education and I'm still getting over the shock of it all – did anyone else cry? I'm writing this as if they are still together, kind of missing out special education...

Maybe it's because I'm still healing.

Dear diary,

Ok, so I don't know when to tell Finn. After talking to Mrs. Pilsberry today I and Finn went to lunch. We sat and talked about Glee and what I missed in history but I didn't mention anything about me and Mrs. Pilsberry, I expect after I said that it was a girl thing he got worried that I would talk to him about my period or something. He gets nervous about those things I guess...

Mrs. Pilsberry said that I need to tell him, but it worries me – he might dump me and I really need him. With all my heart I need him. I think I will tell him tomorrow, my dads are both going to be at work and then are going out for dinner, they invited me to come but it's there day – not mine. I think that it is sweet for them to be together on their own some time and also it seems like a good time for me to tell Finn.

I have planed what I am going to say, how I am going to say it and what I will be warring at the time. We will be sitting on my bed and that is when I will tell him... everything...

Today when Finn told me that 'he felt really good about us' I got worried. I know I sound stereo typical but I swear that that is what dudes say when they really mean 'I feel like we are close enough now that it's not UN reasonable for me to try to get sex out of you'. I understand that this sounds weird, but like I said a couple of days ago diary- an 11 years old and a whole internet of inappropriate things. Well on those sites there are people and that's what they said.

It like 12:00 whilst I write this, it's in the dark of my bedroom, I know, I need to sleep but how can I when I know tomorrow I might lose the one thing that is worth wakening up for. Finn.

I think I'm gunna go now. It is important that when the truth comes out, I am fully awake – but how is that going to happen, I normally go to sleep around 9:00 so that I am as bright as I normally am.

XX Rachel

A.N: ok so what I think I'm going to do is that one entry will be story and one will be diary. This took me like 3 hours of Doctor who to right because it so distracting... the angels have the phone box!

Sorry that's a really obscure reference you probably have no idea what I'm talking about. I'm watching the episode blink... No fans... wow... It's not big in America though. Ok, I'm seriously going on aren't I...?

I love you all!

Review please, you guys are amazing for reading but if you review then you are like almost as cool as Santana. Not Rachel though she is cooler that like... Jesus (other religious leaders are available)

Xx Diana.