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Five Years Later…
I remember the moment I opened my eyes on the day Junior brought me home to Raintree after my release from the hospital. I remember how excited he was, the hopeful, childish joy emanating from his eyes was magically to say the least. It made me forget how confused and frustrated I had been in the days before. It made realize how blessed I really was to be surround by his love. More than anything though it made me hopeful for the future to begin, for the darkened days and puzzling thoughts to disappear and for the sunlight and laughter to brighten my every moment for the first time in my life.
I was hopeful about making my dreams come true, but not the delusional dream I had been thinking of since I awoke from my coma. I was hopeful of my new dreams, for a family with Junior, a sister in Dani and a continuous support system that Ritter's had offered from the moment I first met them so many years ago. I remember it all so perfectly, those thoughts and feelings floating in my head making me distracted from the plans that had been set in place before my release.
Oh Junior had been so busy planning, both our wedding and our life together. He planned it for the wrong reasons, and I know that now, but I will never forget stepping back onto Raintree ranch and noticing my delusion set up in perfect order in the meadow beyond the main gate.
"What did you do, Junior?" I questioned from the passenger seat, staring anxiously at my fiancée.
"I did this for you, for us. I want to make your dreams come true – I want marry you Kris. I want to build my life with you like we should have done so many weeks ago, like you saw in your dream."
Junior giddiness almost convinced me to rush into the house and change into Jean's wedding dress before he changed his mind, or I woke up.
"I don't think that is a good idea Junior. I just got out of the hospital. I suffered a concussion that caused me to believe a lie, and now you want me to go through with it, to marry you in the setting of my dream because you think that is good idea!"
"No Kris – that is not it at all! I want you to marry me because you love me and I love you. I wanted to make the setting something you dreamed about, and I know this is what you saw. If this isn't what you want, if you don't want me, just say so. We don't have to get married. We do not have to do this. I just love you – you and me, that's all I need." His eyes were so worried in that moment looking at me. He was worried I would say I didn't love him, when all I wanted to say was that I couldn't live without him. He was worried that I would run, as I had done in the past when something had caused stress or confusion. He started to open the door of the car and get out when I reached over to touch his arm.
He told me after we were married that the look in my eyes told him all he needed to know – that he could see that I wasn't leaving him this time, that I truly loved him with all of my heart. How true that was. We were married that day I came home from the hospital and it was just like a dream, my dream of course but also Juniors. I worried that I took something away from his wedding, but he told me not to worry, it was everything he had ever dreamed of.
Now five years later, with our child in my arms, I know it was all worth it. I have the most wonderful, loving husband, a beautiful two year old son and a secret I have been keeping from my husband for a day now – another bundle of joy will soon be joining our family. I am not perfect; I still remember the fantasy I had while in coma, I still wish I could ride Wildfire like I use to without fear creeping into my heart. But some things couldn't be fixed. I will never be a jockey again, but I am a hell of good wife, mother and trainer – just ask my brother in law Matt! My jockey and I give him a run for his money every race day.
Sorry – This is the last chapter and I know it is not as perfect as it could have been. I kept thinking in the last few months about how to describe the wedding, what would happen, how would I change it from the show or make it better. When I started getting really sick of the same questions popping up every time I opened my computer I realized that I could not write the wedding scene and make it a worthwhile chapter. Plus, I wanted to know Kris' feelings, not how the wedding looked… after all that was shown quite well in her dream sequence in the original ending to the show, right? So I decided to write a five year later ending, showing that she married Junior, that it was perfect not because it was her dream but because it was Junior. I wanted you to see that not everything came true – for instance she is not a jockey anymore – but that new dreams were discovered and were able to come true. I think Kris will be a perfect mother, and with Junior by her side how could she do wrong. Hope you liked my story – please review and let me know what you think!