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Chapter 1 - Complications
We had returned to the place where our lives changed for the better. Yes we had bad memories but this small town would always be the place where I met Isabella Swan, my mate. We have been back for a year now, I could not bear to be away from her for a moment longer. Yes my family and I left for her safety but a small part knew how selfish I could be and being away from her was a slow torture.
I gave in and we all returned. My family could not be happier to have their sister and daughter back, even Rosalie smiled more.
I was of course thrilled to have the love of my life beside me once again. She had not forgiven me for leaving her and causing her all that unnecessary pain but by some miracle she took me back and I would not question her for it. She used the word betrayal often in the beginning of our return but I did believe she was starting to trust me once more.
Chief Swan was another story all together he was not happy with my family and I and was always trying to convince Bella that I would hurt her again but I was going to prove him wrong.
I would never leave my love again.
I now knew what it's like to be without her and I couldn't go through that ever again.
Graduation was two months ago, we have been together for a little over a year now I wanted to take the next step in our relationship but Bella said she wasn't ready.
"It's been over a year now Bella, my control is not something to worry about anymore."
Holding her tightly and safe against me was something I did often now. I held back before but now all I wanted was to have her close and lose myself in her.
"Edward that's not true you know I still have to keep away from you for those four days…you can't control it then."
"Edward I'm just not ready, a year ago I wanted this more than anything but it's a little different for me now. I'm not ready so please…can you accept that?"
She was scared me, deep down I knew she didn't trust me. I would have to wait even though I fought the urge to make her mine every second of the day.
"Of course I'm sorry I won't bring it up again."
I leaned in and kissed her savoring her taste.
It was the same discussion almost every weekend. I yearned for her desperately, many times I feared that the monster in me would slip. I've tasted her before when the ordeal with James happened and I almost couldn't stop myself. I wouldn't have stopped if Carlisle hadn't been there.
Alice raised up the stairs toward Edward's room with every intention of convincing Bella to go out with them the following night.
"Bella! Have you decided where you want to go tomorrow night?"
"Alice I told you I can't go out tomorrow night, its Jacob's birthday and I'm heading down to La Push for his party."
"I still don't want you to go Bella, it's dangerous." Edward said looking at her. He knew Jacob could more than protect her but the fact that she was risking her safety to be with that dog bothered him.
"Edward, we talked about this and I'm going. Jacob is my best friend."
"I thought I was your best friend Bella?" said a hurt Alice
"Alice you know you are, but Jacob is very different he is special to me."
In the past Bella would not have spoken so freely about Jacob in Edward's presence but it was one of the many things that had changed about her. Edward felt rage whenever she defended him but knew he could do nothing about it. He knew Jacob was there when he wasn't, when he broke her heart and maybe even her. He looked at Bella and noticed how much she had in fact changed. She argued more, she fought back and her stubbornness revealed itself on more than one occasion. In a way Edward felt like he couldn't dazzle her anymore.
"Bella, I agree with Edward, it could be dangerous and you know I won't be able to see you when you're down there."
"I'll be fine guys. It's just a couple of friends hanging out having a good time. I'll stay one hour, two, max and then I'll go home."
"No, you'll come back here." Edward said holding her close and throwing her one of his most charming smiles.
"Fine, I'll come back here then… but I'm still going."
"Well then let's go out tonight! I'll go tell Rose and we can have a girls night out." Alice jumped up and down and left heading toward her room.
"Save me?" Bella said looking at Edward pleadingly.
"I'll see what I can do love."
"Bella come on…we need to change your outfit!" Alice came rushing in and dragged her out by her arm.
"Alice, if we go out tonight then everyone goes and we will go to the movies."
"You are no fun but fine Eddie, no problem!"
"Don't call me that!"
"Why are you screaming Eddie?" Emmett asked as he entered the room.
"Don't call me Eddie!"
"Dude, you need Jasper to calm you down and mellow out…its girls night! We will have, do you know the kind of things they do on girls night?"
"Shut up Emmett!" Came the shout out of every vampire in the house.
Emmett walked away with a smile on his face.
"Edward, I need to speak with you, can you come to my office?"
"Something the matter Carlisle?" Edward asked noticing the worried look in the older vampire's eyes.
"Edward I'm afraid we can't put this out any longer." He said with a look of regret on his face.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, I just got off the phone with the Volturi. Aro gives us one week Edward, to take her to him if not, he will come himself."
"Why is he so interested in her? Why does he want to meet her?" Edward began to pace in front of Carlisle desk. He didn't like that Aro had such an interest in Bella.
"I'm not sure but maybe the fact that she's human and we are all so attached to her intrigues him." Said Carlisle
"I'm not taking her Carlisle, it's too dangerous. She can get hurt."
"You aren't going alone son, we would all be going. Aro expects us and it's not wise to go against him or his wishes."
"No Carlisle you know we are not the same. The Volturi is vicious, what if it's a trap? What if they kill her? No dad I don't want her to have to experience the Volturi. If he wants to meet her then let him come to Forks, I'm not taking her."
"Please? Would you allow Esme to be at risk?"
Carlisle looked at him with understanding; he would never want Esme to be in harm's way especially with vampires like the Volturi.
He agreed with his son.
They would wait for Aro to come to Forks.
I knew I had surprised them with my sudden attitude change but it was something that had grown in me since they left. Jacob helped me more than anyone, I would even dare say that I owed him my life.
I didn't let Alice play Bella Barbie as much as I use to let her. I agreed to let her and now Rosalie to do my makeup very lightly and I chose what to wear. I stood my ground and for that I think I earned a little of Rosalie's respect, though Alice was devastated that her popular pout did not work on me anymore.
After finishing our mini makeover I went downstairs to wait for everyone. I stood by the window and looked out at the beautiful moon. I still remembered the many times Jacob and I would sit out in my backyard and look up at the sky at the moon and stars. He and I became very close, we kissed once but we both agreed that it was too weird and we laughed it off. He helped me get through the pain when Edward left and I will always thank him for that.
A little over a year Edward and his family returned claiming they were sorry for leaving, I took him back because, come on let's face it I still love him but it didn't mean I forgave him. His words really hurt me and I would never forget them.
"It's better this way Bella."
"Edward, please don't do this… we love each other and we can make it work."
"You can't make something work when the other person does not wish it Bella."
Tears ran down her cheeks she couldn't believe what Edward was saying to her. She felt a knot in her chest and she was almost finding it hard to breath.
"Edward what the hell does that mean?" She asked in an angry whisper.
"I don't want to be with you Bella. I don't want us to work out anymore. I don't know what I was thinking getting involved with a human. To be honest your kind only complicate things."
"Edward you don't mean that…"
"Forget me Bella because I already have."
He walked away…..
He left? He left me? No! This is a dream.
God please let me wake up!
Edward would never do this to me!
~End Of Flashback~
I brought my fingers to my face and brushed the tears away.
It hurt, the knot in my chest was still there. Would it ever go away? I hoped so.
I know it was not smart of me to take him back but it hurt even more to be without him and I hated that. I still can't forgive him and now he wants our relationship to move further.
I'm not ready.
I'm not ready to give him my body. I gave him my heart and he broke it, shattering it into a million pieces.
It may sound stupid if I said it to anyone else but my body was all I had left.
He took my heart.
My dignity abandoned me the moment I didn't slam my door in his face when he returned. All respect I had for myself as a woman was lost when I took him back.
My body was all I had left and I wasn't ready to give him that part of me.
I felt arms being wrapped around my waist and I smiled. I felt comfortable in his arms. That was a good thing right?
"Are you ok love?"
"Yes, Edward I'm fine."
"Are you sure?"
"Positive." I reassured him giving him a big smile.
"You look beautiful Bella I'm the luckiest man on earth for having you."
I blushed at his words I leaned further into him and let my head rest on his chest.
He loved me and I loved him…somehow this had to work out.
God, please let me forgive him.
"I love you."
"I love you too Edward."
And I meant it.
AN: First chap... ah. review!