The fresh tears stung my eyes as I watched them lower my boyfriend's coffin down into the earth. It seemed just like yesterday that my boyfriend, Jason Alexanders, died while protecting me from a gang.
"Jason, what are you doing?" I shouted as Jason stepped in front of me to protect me from the advancing group.
"Protecting you!" He shouted back to me.
"Don't be an idiot!" I cried.
"I will protect you, Adrianna!" He shouted.
"Just run away with me! You don't have to protect me!" I yelled.
"I'd rather die protecting my girlfriend than being a pussy and running away!" He shouted.
"And so you shall, idiot boy." The leader of the group said, stopping the advancing group and pulling out a gun.
"Jason, no!" I screamed as the leader pointed the gun at Jason and pulled the trigger. The bullet crossed several feet within a few seconds and struck my boyfriend in the chest. "Jason!" I screamed again as Jason fell forward, taking his final breath.
I blinked back the tears after the memory faded. I'd been seeing Jason's death over and over since he had died. And I had a feeling that his death was my fault. I sighed softly as the pallbearers' started burying Jason's coffin. I picked up a small pile of dirt and walked to the edge of the hole. I tossed the handful of dirt and the red rose, I had been holding on to since the beginning of the funeral, into the hole and I watched the rose get demolished by the rock and dirt.
"Adrianna." A voice said behind me.
"Yes?" I asked, turning around.
"Are you okay?" It was Jason's brother, Erick.
"I'm not sure." I replied.
"As expected by a lady attending her boyfriend's funeral." He said.
"I miss him." I muttered, on the verge of tears again.
"We all do." He replied, pulling me into his arms and hugging me tight.
Since the start of mine and Jason's relationship, I had considered Erick to be my big brother even though Erick wanted to be more.
Erick looked so much different than Jason. Erick was muscular and tall while Jason was average in height and muscle tone. Erick's dark complexion with his green eyes and brown hair to Jason's pale complexion with gray eyes and black hair. They even sounded different. Erick's voice was deep while Jason's voice was a bit higher. But all in all, I thought they were both very attractive.
"Will you be okay?" He asked after a few minutes of silence.
"I think so." I replied.