Heyy, Guys…Umm, Idk Why I'm Writing This. This Could Possibly Become A New Story For Meh, Depending On Whoever Likes It And Wants Meh To Continue It. I Love The Night World Series, Especially Daughters of Darkness. So, I Decided To Give It A Shot, Seeing As It's Amazing…Anywho, Don't Forget To Check Out Meh Other Stories Goodbye I'm Sorry, The Tiniest Little Girl, And Do It Yourself Vampire Academy My Version ...Soo, Yeag. This Is Called Forever Yours
Disclaimer: I Do NOT Own Anything, Except The Storyline. Sadly, That Means I Must Give Ash Back To L.J. Smith :'( …Oh Well, I'll Steal Him When She's Asleep! Mwahahahahahaha
Chapter 1 – The Only One
1 year. The date struck through me like a thousand heartbreaks. Today, it is the one year anniversary that the love of my life, my soulmate, has been gone. He promised me he would return to me in a year…And he has yet to show. I've counted each and every day, literally.
"Hey, Mary-Linnette." Looking over, I see my sister-in-law, Jade. She and my brother married almost six months ago, and they've never been happier. I look at her and try to smile…but like always, it doesn't happen. I can't smile anymore, let alone laugh. She comes over and sits next to me on the porch swing. "You know, he's probably already on his way here. I know I would be too, if I was Ash." Painfully, my eyes close, letting a single tear escape. Jade hugs me. "He will come, Mary-Linnette. I promise you," and with that, she walked back into the house.
Sighing, I look down the old driveway once more, and knowing there is nothing to see, I turn away and walk into the house. As I open the door, I hear something that sounds like footsteps on gravel. Turning around, his name on my lips, I merely see Rowan. Biting back more tears, and taking a deep breath, I walk into the house. I am greeted by Kestrel, her golden eyes all-knowing. She just smiles sadly and hugs me.
"Hey, Kestrel," I say as I sit down at the table. She turns towards me. "Am I a moron for holding on as long as I have been?"
"What do you mean, Mary-Linnette?"
"I mean, do you think it is stupid for me to hold on for this long?" I look up at her, and like Jade, she sits down beside me.
"Well, how long has it been?" Looking away, I look at the last rays of light fading from the sky, and whisper to her.
"1 year, 12 months, 52 weeks, 365 days, 8736 hours, 524,160 minutes, and 3,144,960 seconds..Well, 524,161 minutes and 3,145,000 seconds…" My eyes moved from the clock to her face.
"I have counted every second of every day since he left, waiting for him to come back. Has this been stupid?" Tears form in my eyes at the thought.
"No, it is not stupid, Mary-Linnette. You have held onto him for this long because you're destined to be with him, because you love him. He is probably on his way, right now." She wipes the tears that fell off my face and turns it so I am forced to look at her. "You are not stupid for loving him, I promise you. He will come back."
"You sound like Jade, Kestrel. But, there's a part of me that says he won't come back, that he has moved on…Maybe I should as well."
"Oh, no!" Rowan's voice echoes through the kitchen and we look at her. "You are not giving up on my brother, not now! Do you know how stupid it would be to let go after holding on for this long?" Anger coursed through me at her words.
"It would be stupid to let go? Jesus, Rowan, It's stupid for me to hold on! He's not coming back! If he were, he would already be here! I would have woken up to his arms around me, his voice in my ear! But no! You wanna know what I woke up to? The wind brushing the hair out of my face because I left the window open last night! I wake up and find it's just me in my room…The same way it has been for the past year! I can't keep holding on to him…Oh God, Rowan, what if he really did move on?" The anger dissipated faster than I would have thought possible, and soon, I felt three pairs of arms wrap around me as I let out a sob.
After crying for the longest time, I am so tired that the last thing I see is Rowan carrying me to my bed, and the next thing I know, darkness is encasing me as I fall asleep.
"Noooooooo! Ash!" No, he can't be dead, he just can't be. "Ash, please! Don't leave me!"
"Mary-Linnette, wake up! You're dreaming!"
And just like that, my eyes snap open and I see Jade over me, shaking me. Swallowing, I look around and realize that it was just a dream. Sighing, a slight shake travels through me. Jade brushes the hair out of my face and I also notice that my body is covered in sweat.
"You wanna talk about it?" Her voice is ever so soft.
"No, I wanna take a shower," I say and get up and grab a tank top and jeans, along with a fresh pair of panties and a bra. I don't even care to notice if they match or not.
Once out of the shower, I ruffle-dry my hair, get dressed, and place my dirty clothes and towels in the hamper…And walk downstairs. I stop in my tracks when I get downstairs though. For when I got around the corner, I see my brother…With his tongue down Jade's throat. I can't move, I can't even breathe. Of their own accord, my hand travels to my lips where he kissed me.
As tears fill my eyes, I start to turn as if to go back to my room. On a second note, I decide to suck it up and just go to the kitchen, like I had planned. I slam the fridge door, though. Upon my slam, I hear two gasps, and just sigh. Stupid teenage love, I think bitterly as I look up from pouring my apple juice to see Jade and my brother walk into the kitchen.
"Don't mind me," I say mockingly as I walk past them, "I'm just a soulmateless teenager waiting for her long lost love." Scoffing, I brush past them both.
"Awh come on, Mary-Linnette! Get over yourself!" At my brother's voice, I stop and turn to face him. He takes a step towards me, not even looking at Jade's shocked face. "You act like you're the only one who has ever felt pain, like there is no one else in the world but you! How can you be so…so…selfish?" He spits the last word at me and it's like the world crashing down on me. Only instead of tears, anger shoots through.
"I'm selfish? I act like there's no one in the world but me? You have no idea, Mark! And why would you? You have Jade," I sneer. "Unlike me, you have your soulmate! I can't even go into the damned kitchen for a glass of apple juice without seeing you two have your tongues down each other's throats! And you call me selfish?" In anger, I throw the cup I'm holding against the wall, watching it shatter. "You are so oblivious to the whole damned world because you can't even fucking see anything or anyone besides your damned soulmate! How can you even…"
The force of Mark's slap sent me to the ground, and I press my hand to my cheek where he slapped me. Looking up at him, tears fill my eyes. Slowly coming back to reality, he sees what he did.
"Mare…" His voice sounds so sad. He tries to take a step towards me, but my body chose then to react. And so…I got up and ran out the front door, into the sunlight, tears streaming down my face. I pass Rowan and Kestrel, not even bothering to stop.
"Mary-Linnette, wait!" I hear Rowan calling me, but I pay no heed to her, only pushing my legs faster, the tears blurring my vision. I notice they don't follow me, and for that I am grateful. Taking all kinds of lefts and rights, crossing streams, and going through bushes, I try to get as lost as possible, something absolutely hard because for the past year I have ran a 20-mile radius around this town.
I only stop when I see that the sun is almost directly to my right, about to be sunset. Upon seeing that, I stop and slide down a tree, curling my legs underneath me. My tears had dried a while ago, but somehow my body is able to produce more. And for the next hour, all I do is cry.
(BACK AT THE HOUSE…AFTER ROWAN AND KESTREL SAW ML RUN AWAY)
"Okay, somebody better tell me what's up right now, because we just saw Mary-Linnette crying her eyes out, running down the road." My voice is firm and, to Mark, scary. I notice that he won't look at me. "Mark," I say, forcing him to look at me, "what did you do to her?" He sighs and I see sadness there, with a backing of anger.
"I hit her," he says, looking away to look outside the window. His jaw clenches as his eyes close and he looks down, before looking at me. "She made a remark about how not to mind her because she was just a 'soulmateless teenager only looking for her long lost love.'" He places quotation marks around that as he says it. "I told her to stop acting like she is the only one who ever felt pain, like there was no one else in the world…To stop being so selfish. And then," he stops to sigh and shake his head, looking out the window again, "she said that I had no idea what pain was because I had my soulmate, and that she couldn't even go into the kitchen without seeing us kissing, and that I see no one else except my soulmate. She was about to say something else, but I slapped her," by the end of his tirade, he sounds so tired.
"You stupid little…" Growling, I bite back my words, not wanting to upset my sister. "How could you even say that to her? How would you feel if Jade had to leave you for a year, and you couldn't contact each other or see each other that whole time? Wouldn't you draw into yourself? Wouldn't you?" I scream the last two words at him, seeing it hit home. His eyes close and a tear escapes each eye. "Oh save your damned tears. You don't deserve to cry! After all you said and did to her, you think you have the right to cry? No, no, no, no! You lost that right so long ago…Ugh! Whatever, I'm going to find Mary-Linnette and fix your mess! Don't even bother getting up!" I yell at him when he tries to stand up. Without turning back, I walk out the front door, picking up Mary-Linnette's scent.
Noticing it is fading fast, I curse myself mentally. Oh, Ash, where are you when I need you? Sighing, I clear my thoughts and focus on finding Mare.
When the last of the tears have dried, I wipe my face and sniffle. I overreacted…a little bit.
"Oh, Ash, where are you when I need you…?" My voice breaks at the end as hot tears prick at my already swollen eyes. (Started listening to SLIPPED AWAY By Avril Lavigne & started to cry) As the lyrics of a song I had heard on the radio earlier play through my head, sobs slowly take over my body. Still sobbing, I try to stand…And fall right back down. Trying to get a hold on my tears, I force myself to stand and look around. Night is slowly starting to fall and I know the chances of finding my way back aren't that good. To make matters worse, as I start walking, it starts to rain.
Knowing it will do no good, I start walking in the direction I had come from, hoping I didn't make too many wrong turns. If only my rock was here to lead me back home, to his waiting arms, where I belong.
After another hour of trying to find my way back, I realize that it's useless. The rain had already started falling harder, washing away any trail Rowan or Kestrel may have been following, and the rain made the ground muddy and like quicksand. I am officially at Nature's mercy. I keep trudging on, though, hoping against hope that I will find him…
Looking up, I see a light off in the distance. It looks like a flashlight, and a sliver of hope is rekindled in my freezing body.
"Hello?" My voice sounds so small and hoarse, I can't even hear it. Seeing it get fainter, I try again. "Hello? Please, help! I'm over here! Please…Help me!" It does no good. The light completely fades away and, with a cry of despair, I sink to my knees, crawling to a spot where the rain hasn't gotten too. There's a tent-like shape of the branches and leaves, so I lay down. Or try to until something jabs me in the ribs. Feeling around with numb fingers, I feel something hard. Opening my pocket, I pull out a cell phone. Crying out in joy, I press a button, seeing that I have just enough signal to send a text:
PLEASE HELP! I AM SO COLD…IDK WHERE I'M AT! TELL MARK I'M SRRY :/ , THAT I DIDN'T MEAN IT…THAT I FORGIVE HIM…
Pressing Send the only thing left is to wait…
My cell buzzed, and I pull it out and cry out. Three pairs of eyes look at me.
"Mary-Linnette just texted me!" Looking down I read it aloud to them:
PLEASE HELP! I AM SO COLD…IDK WHERE I'M AT! TELL MARK I'M SRRY :/ , THAT I DIDN'T MEAN IT…THAT I FORGIVE HIM…
Looking up, I see Mark's face become shameful. Good. Sighing, I text her right away:
CAN YOU SEE ANYTHING AROUND U? WE'LL KEEP LOOKING! DON'T GIVE UP ON US, MARE!
I waited for her to reply, and after three minutes with still no text, I sent it to her again, hoping nothing is wrong…
I faintly hear my phone buzzing, but my fingers can't even move. I sneeze again and fear the flu. Shakily, I press Dial and wait for Rowan to answer…
"Mary-Linnette! Are you okay? Is anything broken? I am going to kill you when we find you! Mare? Talk to me, Mare!" Rowan's frantic voice rings out on the other line and I try to speak.
"I…don't…know…where…I'm at. Please…help…" Suddenly, a round of coughing takes over, followed by a couple of sneezes.
"Don't worry, Mare! We'll find you. Do you remember anything you passed?"
"Okay, a stream! That's good! Anything else?"
"Okay, we think we know where you are! Stay there, okay? Okay, good! Hold on, Mare! We're coming!" I don't hear anything else she says because I start another coughing fit and start to shake.
"Please, hurry, Rowan…"
I didn't come to until I heard voices calling.
"Where are you, Mare?"
Rolling over, I open my eyes and see three figures, not four. I lift up my hand and say something. Seeing someone turn their head, I wave my hand.
"Oh, God! I found her! She's over here! Mary-Linnette!" Rowan's voice sings out in my ears, but the sound is muted. "Oh, God, she's got hypothermia and the flu. Come on, hurry! We have to get her back to the house now! Hold on, Mare…!" Feeling the wind rushing past, I give in to the dark and sleep.
Waking up, though, hurt. I woke up to a coughing fit that left my throat raw and fiery.
Someone held up a glass of something and I tried to swallow it, but couldn't.
"Come on, Mare. You have to drink it." Upon hearing his voice, I turn my head towards it and open my eyes…And see my brother, Mark.
"How long have I been out?" My voice is hoarse with the coughing, and just breathing is painful.
"Almost two weeks, sis," Mark looks so full of shame. "Look, I'm sorry for what I said, I didn't mean it. I shouldn't have…"
"You were right," Everything goes silent at my words.
"Mare, how can you say that?"
"Because," I whisper, sitting up, "you are right. I am selfish. I can't believe I didn't see it sooner. I am so selfish to hold on to…Ash for as long as I have. He's not coming back, and it's time I realize that," Ash's name is ripped from my throat and it hurts to say it, let alone think it. "So, I am going to move on, like he has."
"Mare, what makes you think he's moved on?" Taking my hand in Mark's, I look at him, my heart in my eyes.
"Because if he hadn't, he would be here right now, in the place that you're in. He would have come back. It's obvious that he has moved on, Mark. So, I'm going to as well. It's stupid for me to hold on to him, Mark."
"No, it's stupid to let go of my brother," both of our heads turn at the entrance of Kestrel. In her hands is a tray of soup and a spoon. "You don't know him like I do, Mary-Linnette. When he makes a promise, he keeps it."
"Then why isn't he here? Huh?" Tears fill my eyes as I glare at Kestrel. "If he did keep his promise to me, he would be here! Do you see him anywhere, Kestrel? I don't, and if you do, please point me in his direction, because I am sick and tired of waiting for something that won't come!" My hands fall limp in my lap as the tears fall. Kestrel hugs me, hard.
"I just want him back," I whisper sadly, hugging her back.
"I know you do, Mary-Linnette. I know you do." Taking in a shaky breath, a sob escapes my lips and I hold Kestrel harder, and soon I feel three other sets of arms around me.
"He's the only one I want…Why won't he come back to me? He promised me!" Simultaneously, three pairs of arms tightened around me, and I fell asleep on someone's shoulder.
I really ought to call around and find out where the hell my brother is so I can give him a piece of my mind. He has no right to be doing this to her. It's almost been a year and a month since he left. Mary-Linnette is falling apart at the seams, and I don't know what to do to keep her together. Damn my brother! Picking up my cell, I scroll through my contacts until I find Quinn. Hitting Call, I wait for him to pick up.
"Rowan, is that you?" His voice is so incredulous.
"Yeah, it's me. Hey, you wouldn't happen to know where my brother is, would you?"
"Well, I haven't seen him in about two months…"
"Do you have a number I can reach him at? His cell is disconnected."
"Actually, I do, but he told me not to give it to anyone."
"Oh, did he now? Well, do you know if he's seeing anybody?"
"You know, the last time I saw him he was with this really gorgeous brunette. I think she was a witch or something. But, they looked pretty cozy to me. Why, is something wrong?"
"No, absolutely nothing. Just tell him that I said way to go, another screw up, and that his soulmate is giving up on him."
"Uhhh, okay. I'll tell him, Rowan."
"Thanks, Quinn. Bye."
In a mad frenzy, I throw my phone against the wall, breaking it. My brother is an idiot!
Hanging up the phone, I walk back to the den where the others are…including my soulmate, Rashel. Smiling at me, she takes my hand as I sit down. Before I can speak, Ash Redfern walks through the door. Upon his entrance, I stand.
"Ash," I say and he stops and looks at me. "I have a message for you."
"Who is it from?" He sounds so lifeless, like he has nothing.
"Your sister…And your soulmate." His eyes go wide and he looks around before nudging his head. I nod and with a kiss to Rashel's cheek, I lead him to the terrace out back. Sitting down, he turns to me.
"What does she say?"
"Well, your sister says, and I quote way to go, another screw up."
"And…From my soulmate?"
"Well, your sister says that your soulmate is giving up, that it's been too long…" His gasp is filled with pain.
"No…No! I must get to her! I must!"
"Then why are you still here?" He looks at me as if I have three heads.
"Because I have not finished my mission."
"Forget the mission, Ash. If your Mary-Linnette was my Rashel, I would have never left…" And before I could say any more, he had already gone. Smiling softly to myself, I walk back to my Rashel, seeing her whole aura light up like fireworks at my entrance. "Now, where were we?"
Waking up, my throat feels like somebody poured acid down it. Getting up, I walk downstairs to get some apple juice from the fridge.
"Whoa, whoa, whoa! What do you think you are doing out of bed?" Turning around, I see Jade.
"Ummmm, getting some apple juice?" My voice is hoarse and sounds like 'urrrrmmm, geeeetin suome apple jooos.' Clearing my throat, I go and pour some juice in a cup. Before I can turn around, Jade has my wrist in her hand.
"No, orange juice."
"But I want apple!" I give her my best pouty face and she caves.
"Ugh! You know I hate it when you do the face!"
"Love you too, sister of mine," smiling softly, I sit at the table and drink my apple juice. After taking a sip, I sigh and look out the window.
"Hey," Jade says, making me look at her, "he will come back. You need more faith in my brother, I'm telling you."
"I don't have much faith left, Jade. It's been over a year since he left. I'm terrified he won't come back, that I'll get a letter in the mail saying I don't have to worry anymore, that I'll never see him again. I can't lose him…" Tears fill my eyes as I put my face in my hands. I feel Jade's arms go around me and I let them. The truth that I have been hiding from myself this whole time has finally made itself known.
"I promise you that you won't lose him. He will come back, even if I have to drag his ass here myself," she muttered to herself, making me laugh softly, followed by a groan of pain.
"Ugh," I say as I pull away, placing a hand around my throat, feeling the heat radiating off of it. Jade places one hand there, as well as one on my forehead.
"Damn, you've got a fever. Here, let me get a thermometer," she says whilst going to get one. I feel a trickle of fear go through me and it gets worse when Jade comes back, and places the thermometer in my mouth. When it beeps, she takes it out and looks at it, her eyes going slightly wide. She shakes it, shaking her head as well. "This thing hasn't been used before I bet. Let's see it again," and once more, she places it in my mouth. When it beeps again, she takes it out and instead of shaking it off, she looks at me. "Okay, off to bed with you! No getting up unless you have to go to the bathroom, and even then one of us will escort you, no eating any solids, no staying up late, no leaving the house at all, and no apple juice!" She says this while picking me up and carrying me up to my room.
"But, what's wrong?" I grimace, hating the sound of my voice. But Jade isn't listening to me.
"Rowan, Kestrel! We have a serious issue here!"
"Please, tell me what is wrong…!"
"What, what's wrong now?" Rowan's voice rings out as she and Kestrel come into my room.
"Yeah, we were just about to go hunting!" Kestrel.
"Umm, will someone please tell me what's going on?" They are completely ignoring me. "HEYY!" After screaming, my body goes into a coughing fit, and I can't get in a gulp of air because the mucus has blocked my air.
"Oh, shit! Get me some water or something, fast! Mary-Linnette, breathe! Come on, breathe!" I try to cough, but you can't cough without air. "She can't breathe! Give me something, now! Ugh, hold on M, this is guna hurt," and before I can try to ask, she sticks something down my throat, making me gag. "Sorry, Mare!" And then, my air way is unblocked and I gasp in air, coughing a couple of times, and spit out the mucus in my trashcan.
"Ugh…" I don't even want to speak anymore, my throat aches so badly. Looking around for a piece of paper and pen, and finding one, I write a note down:
WHAT WAS MY TEMPERATURE? WATS WRONG WITH ME? :(
I hand it to Jade who sighs.
"You have a fever of a 103, Mary-Linnette. You have the flu, I think. So, I'm going to get you some medicine so you can sleep, okay?" I just nod, too tired to care. She smiles and leaves, coming back a few minutes later. She holds up a cup for me to drink out of (one of those medicine cup thingies). I shake my head, but she makes me drink it, and after forcing it down, she gives me a sip of orange juice. "Now, this should kick in in a minute or two. I'll stay here with you until you fall asleep…" She must have kept talking but her words faded into a faint buzzing, and soon the medicine kicked in, closing me off from the world.
The next four days went like this: one of my sister-in-laws or my brother comes and wakes me up to drink something and use the bathroom, they give me my medicine, and I go back to sleep, only to repeat the cycle. I took a shower almost every day, although I was asleep at the time, apparently. The thought of someone seeing me naked other than myself, made me self-conscious, but since we're family, it's okay.
On the fifth day, I wake up and my throat feels amazing, but my body feels like it weighs a million pounds. Forcing myself into a sitting position, and then to a standing one, I make my way slowly to the bathroom. Once I'm done taking care of the necessities, I go back into my room dripping wet from my shower, and get dressed. Today I decide to wear black sweatpants with a red tank-top, throwing my hair up into a messy bun. Walking over to the mirror, I sigh. From being sick, my complexion is even paler, and I have dark circles under my eyes. I look to my right and see someone took the liberty of crossing off the past four days for me. It has now been 400 days since I last saw him. And like every time I hit another '100', I think of something dealing with 4.
Biting my lip I think about the possibilities. "Hmmm, what's something that has four letters in it?" Walking to the door and down the stairs, I list off. "Well, there is shit, damn, ouch, fuck, dead, lies, lock, lost, dark, hurt…" my voice fades as I walk into the kitchen, where I see my three sisters and my brother. They all look up when they see me.
"What were you rambling about?" I smile sheepishly at Kestrel.
"I was thinking of words that had four letters in it," I tell her honestly.
"Ooookay, can I ask why?" Shrugging, I answer her, walking over to the fridge for a drink.
"It's been 400 days." Her eyes grow die for a second before she understands.
"Oh, I see. So, found any good ones?" Smirking, I sit down next to her.
"Well, today, it is a tie between 'lies' and 'hurt.' Hmmm, what do you guys think?"
"Sis, what are you talking about?" Looking over, I see my brother Mark enter the room.
"Well, I don't really like either, but I guess I would say hurt would be better, Mare." Rowan smiles at me and I nod.
"I would say hurt as well," Jade says and Mark just shrugs.
"Kestrel? What do you think?" I love her answers.
"I'd go with lies. That seems the most fitting." Winking at me, I smirk.
"Okay, so today is lies. Hmmm, now what should I do to incorporate that into my day?" Standing up, I go and sit on the window sill to think.
After a good hour, I have my answer.
"Aha!" I tell them as I sit down at the table once more. "I am going to bake lies cookies!" I laugh as they each in turn look at me. "It's sheer genius, I tell you! Okay, so I pick a brand of cookie, like sugar or peanut butter, bake a whole bunch, and them decorate them with the word lies written on them." This time, they all have huge smiles on their faces and we all laugh and get busy.
When the cookies are baked, I take the four tubs of vanilla icing I bought, and add the colors red, blue, yellow, and green to them, mixing each of them. Mark and I bring all the stuff to the table where we begin making the lies cookies. Somehow, when half of the cookies are done, Rowan flings a chunk of icing at Kestrel, who thinks Mark did it and flings some at him, who in turn thinks I did it, so I fling some at Jade, who flings some at Rowan. Before I know it, we're having an icing fight.
"Ahahaha, okay, okay, I give!" Laughing, I drop my weapon. Rowan, Mark, Jade, and Kestrel drop theirs as well and we look at each other. We're all different colors of red, blue, yellow, and green. And we are covered in it as well. "Heyy, who wants to go for a swim?" I call to them as I head towards the woods. "Come on, I know this really cool spot!" A chorus of okay! Answers me.
"Wait, just let me leave note in case someone comes by the house," Mark says and we wait for him to come back out before we head off.
Once we get there, I don't hesitate to run and jump in. I hear four other splashes as well, and when I surface, we start a splash fight. Somehow, it ends up being me and Rowan on a team and Jade and Kestrel on another, with Mark reffing. And me and Rowan are killing Jade and Kestrel, and after 20 straight minutes of us pounding on them, they call a truce. Laughing, we all just swim around for a little bit. I swim to get out and Kestrel calls to me.
"Hey, where're you going?"
"Haha, I have to pee, is that fine with you?" Laughing, I turn to look at her and see her smile before going back to whatever game her and Rowan are playing.
Walking into the trees a little bit, I find a nice bush to do my business and on my way back I slip and almost fall. But, someone catches me around the waist before I do. I go to scream but a voice in my ear stops me.
"Sorry, love. I didn't mean to scare you," Ash whispers to me huskily. I shiver at his voice, not wanting this dream to end…
This isn't a dream, love. Opening my eyes, I gasp. Turning around, I see a black T-shirt, pale hands and arms, and looking further up, I see a pale neck, ashy blonde hair, and the most amazing blue/green/purple/brown eyes ever.
"Ash…" his voice comes out as a whisper and tears fill my eyes. Concern flashes through those beautiful eyes.
"What is wrong my love?" His voice is like honey, and my eyes close at the sensation. Feeling his hand caress my face makes me open them again and when I do, I know that he's really here.
"Oh, Ash…" I whisper, and launch myself into his arms. Not expecting me to practically pounce on him, he falls backwards, with me on top of him. Lifting up so I can look at him, I caress his face and smile. "How I have missed you," I whisper to him. He smiles that heart-stopping smile and I can't help it…I kiss him.
Our first kiss in over a year, I think to myself.
You can't imagine how sorry I am for making you wait this long, Ash replies. If I could, I would go back to that day and make sure I never leave you. Tears fall down my face at his words.
Wanting to show him, more than tell him, that I forgive him, I deepen our kiss, opening his mouth with mine and flicking my tongue out on the outer edge of his lips. His soft gasp is almost inaudible to me, and I take the opening. Using my tongue, something I've never done, I kiss him, and soon it's like a battle between them. The sensations are so sweet and forbidden, and yet so…so…
Right, he fills in for me. And he breaks our kiss, and I realize that I'm softly panting for breath.
"Guess I forgot to breathe," I say a little shaky to him. He laughs, and I close my eyes, loving the sound. "God, how I have missed you, Ash. Don't you ever do that to me again…I wouldn't be able to stand it," I say, my voice breaking. He tugs my face up to his and I notice that we're sitting up.
"Trust me, Mare, I have absolutely no intention of ever leaving you again. It nearly killed me the first time. I have been away on some mission for Circle Daybreak, and I had just got done not too long ago. I talked to Quinn, who talked to my sister apparently," an edge of bitterness is evident in his voice and I can see it in his eyes.
"Hey, whatever your sister said, it's okay. You're here now, that's all that matters. I love you, Ash, and no matter irritating you can be at some times, I will always love you. Surely you must see that." I have to make him see. "What did she say anyways?"
"She said that I made another screw up and way to go, and that you were giving up on me," Ash looks away from me and I see tears in his eyes.
"I will be honest, I was thinking about it. But only because I didn't know how much longer I could hold on to you without you being with me. I literally counted every second of every day that you were gone, Ash. All because I needed something to give me hope that you would return. Each day that you didn't return, made me one step closer to giving up. But as long as I have you here with me, I know I can make it through. Ash," I say, grabbing his face in my hands and making him look at me. "You are my reason for breathing, I know that now. You are the only one for me, and always will be the only one. I am so in love with you, it hurts. Please, say something my love," I beg him when he says nothing.
"How can you forgive me so easily after all that I have put you through?"
"Simple," I say and smile at the incredulous look on his face. "I love you."
"Oh, Mare. I don't deserve any part of you. Being away from you tortured me to no end. But, I have changed, and I hope that I will make you proud of me; because life without you is no life at all. I would rather die than even think about trying to live without you. I love you, Mary-Linnette. I love you with all my heart and soul. I would die for you. And if you chose, I would leave you if that would make you happy because your happiness comes first. I would do anything for you, as long as it meant you'd be mine…"
"Ash, I was yours that day you came to my house and I kicked you in the leg. And I have been ever since, and will be for the rest of our existence. I've thought about this for a long time and…"
"And…?" He prompted me.
"I want you to turn me. I'm ready this time, for real. I want to know that you'll always be with me, that you'll always be mine. I want to be with you forever…As long as you'll have me, that is."
"Of course I would be honored to have you with me, Mare. Are you positive that this is what you want?"
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