At last, I managed to get this chapter up! I have been really busy lately with exams etc, so I am really sorry! Chapter 20 will probably be a while too. DX

Thanks as always to Delfina, Ily xoxo

Please, please, please reveiw!


Bella's POV


Like a thousand fires had been lit at my neck and begun to work through my body. Twisting, turning me to ash.

Damn this shit hurts!

Think of something else...


What was it Saff had said?


Oh, she thought of her family, mainly Jasper and Isobel.

That seemed to be one way to pass the time.

At least I could think of something other than the damned pain.

Ok, Ok, where to start...

Charlie, My father, who thought I was in Italy. I would never see him again. I wonder if they would let me at least call him, before they staged my death.

Renee, my air headed mother, we had grown apart in the last couple of years, but I still loved her.

Saffy, God I hated and loved her at the same time, she had become a sister to me in such a short time, but she could be manipulative, and I swear that she is hiding a lot more from me.

Char, she was as sweet as pie, yet you could see a wild streak in her as well, and she could be one feisty bitch!

Rose, she had hated and shunned me, but somewhere in between we had become close friends and indeed sisters.

Emmett, My goofy ridiculous brother, who I had loved from the beginning.

DumDum, There are no words to describe him, seriously.


I loved him, I don't know why I did, but I had to be near him, and that kiss before he bit me... Dammit I loved him so much.

Jasper... The last thought in my mind before the flames consumed me completely.

Saff's POV

I walked out of the door down the driveway. Edward was waiting for me, His new red eyes shining as he pulled me close and kissed me.

"Bella knows" I said breathlessly as I pulled away for air.

"You told her?"

"Yes well, girl code, I need her permission before I can date her ex" I shrugged

He kissed the top of my head

"Right" He murmured into my hair "I'm sure we can trust her"

"At least until we are ready to tell everyone"

"Mmmm, I'm going to have great pleasure telling a certain little Pixie" He smiled and kissed me again briefly, before freezing.

"What is it?" I asked

"Your brother and the rest of them are going to kill me aren't they" He groaned

"Probably, but don't worry about that now..."

"Mmmm, would you protect me?"

"With my life" I smiled up at him.

"Same" He bent down to kiss me again, but I put my finger to his lips

"You couldn't protect me from a wasp, let alone from an annoyed vampire or a newborn" I shook my head

"Hey! It is the thought that counts" He winked, and I kissed him, wrapping my arms around his neck. He ran his hand down my curves and cupped my ass, pulling me as close to him as he could.

Then the screaming began.

I broke apart from Edward, with a panicked look on my face.

"Bella..." I said quietly, clutching his arms.

"Come on... Quickly" Edward took my hand. I was shaking, if something had happened to Bella, I don't know what I would do. "It will be alright sweetheart"

I nodded mutely, and allowed him to pull me gently up the drive back to the house.

Letting go of his hand as I got to the door, I burst through and skidded to a stop in the living room. Peter and Char were already there. Char's hair was a mess, and Pete's shirt was buttoned up wrong, and there was a rip in the shoulder. It wasn't hard to guess what they had been up to.

Rose and Em ran into the room a split second later. Rose had leaved in her hair and Emmett...

"Psst Em, your fly is undone" I hissed. He zipped it up, embarrassed slightly.

Rose caught sight of Edward at that moment.

"What the hell is that bastard doing here?" She growled, and that set everyone else off too.

Believe me, 4 growling vamps can be terrifying, especially if it is all directed at one person.

"I'll tell you later...Bella?" I said, and they all changed into worried vamps. Jasper ran into the room.

"Ohhh God... I bit her"

"No Shit Sniffy" Char muttered.

"Jas?" I said, walking over to my brother.

"She is changing..." Jasper was shaking.

"Did you get enough venom in her?" I asked him

"I think so..." his eyes went wide "What if I haven't..."

"Shh, it's alright Jas... let's go check ok?" I led him out of the room and up the stairs.

Edward's POV

I watched Saff leave with Jasper, and turned to see 4 very pissed off Vampires.

There was an awkward silence while they shot me death glares, something that must have been hard, as they were thinking of Sex.

I tuned out of their thoughts, my gift sucked sometimes... Most of the time.

I decided to speak first.

"I know you all hate me..."

"Hate isn't a strong enough word" Rosalie spat.

"Believe me I know" I sighed. "What happened between me and Bella..."

"Was a lot of crap" Emmett interrupted "You left her in the middle of the forest"

Without listening to all he had to say I shouted


Saff then walked into the room, I immediately walked over to her, wrapping my arms around her waist.

"Jasper is protecting Bella" She said "You know how dangerous the change is, he is listening though. What were you screaming about?"

"We were just discussing how Pussy boy here left Bells in a forest after breaking up with her" Rose spat at me again. Hey blood red eyes flashing with hatred.

"What do you mean, Forest?"

Then their thoughts changed. One single though


Then everyone turned and fixed their gazes on Saffy

"What did you do to him?" Emmett yelled.

Saff looked shocked

"Nothing! I swear!"

"She is telling the truth" Peter piped up.

Just tell them Her thoughts read.

I nodded at her, knowing that she had read it in my memory.

"Listen to me" I said, calmly and quietly "I left Bella, but not in a forest... Alice convinced me that we were mates, something I know now isn't true£

"Carlisle didn't tell him any mate shit" Saffy butted in "I tried, but you didn't believe me" She jabbed me in the side.

"I know" I said "Alice convinced me that a clean break wouldn't be the best for Bella, she said that she saw Bella being happy, So I wrote her a letter and left for Denali, with everyone else. Alice said she would deliver the letter, and say good bye to her for the whole family. I never got a reply."

"That is because she never got the letter, genius" Rose said.


"Honestly, apparently the wolves found her half dead, in the forest" Saff frowned.

"I swear, it wasn't me!" I said, looking straight into her eyes.

"I believe you..." She said softly, kissing me quickly.

"So do I" Peter piped up. With Peter's conformation, the rest of them murmured there agreement.

"So let me get this straight, Edward never left Bella in the wood, but someone posing as Edward did" Char asked

"I guess" Saff replied and leant against me.

"I still want to know how you are with Edward though" Char shrugged.

"Umm... Well when Edward was changed, I was there, and I knew immediately that he was my mate." There were a few gasps at the word 'mate' "We were together, for about 3 years after he was changed"

"I don't remember" I interrupted her

"Of course you don't Ed"


" was too hard, to remember that you hated your mate, and it was too hard for me to see you hate me... So I erased your memory, so you wouldn't have the pain. Then I erased everyone else's so no one knew!"

Her eyes filled with venom tears.

"Why...Why would I go from loving you to hating you...?"

Everyone was silent, it felt like Saff and I were the only ones in the room.

"Amber. Her gift. You think it is that self-preservation thing, but it's not. She can change the dynamics of a Love/Hate relationship."

"If you love someone, she would make you hate them, and vice versa" Peter said quietly.

"I loved you Edward, and you loved me, but Amber found me and you in the forest. We got to close to her and she grabbed our wrists and after that we hated each other... It was too hard! Just too damned hard!" She bolted, smashing through the glass doors. As the glass shattered, I remembered everything. Like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders.

Then it all hit me.

Saff was my mate.

I loved her.

And God be damned if I let Victoria get between us again.

Everyone stared in shock.

"Go after her, quickly" Peter said.

I nodded and ran through the remains of the doors after her.

"SAFFRON!" I yelled, following her trail through the trees. Rain started crashing down, washing away her scent.

I was soaked through to the skin, but still I kept running, trying to find my mate. I could see her trail, even if her scent was being washed away. Bits of a bush lay in the path, while there were a few dented tree trunks, where she had lashed out.

Eventually the trail stopped and I saw her slumped against a tree.

"Saffy..." I said, dropping to my knees in front of her.

"Do you hate me now?" She said, hugging her knees to her chest.

"Why, in the world, would I hate you?"

"I hid the fact that we were mates for god knows how many years... Why wouldn't you hate me?"

"Because I love you Saff, You only had to go through that due to Victoria, she will never get that close to you again"

"I can't lose you again"

I took her face between my hands, she was wet through, her red hair plastered against her neck.

"You won't, Victoria has the power to make me hate you, but she could never keep me away. The pain in my chest grew and grew, until I could barely walk. And I think that was the reason I was so attracted to Bella"

"She was your singer..."

"I know that, but through her, I was connected to you"

"You're making no sense Edward"

"Bella is connected to Jasper, and you are connected to your brother. It is a small connection, but it eased the pain slightly. Probably why I followed Jasper around a lot"

Saff giggled slightly.

"I know, he got quite pissed at you for that"

"Not surprised" I smiled, kissing her lightly. "Loved you yesterday, love you still"

"Always have and always will" She said, completing the rhyme, one we used to say before all this crap started.

I kissed her softly, pouring all my love into that kiss. She responded and locked her arms around my neck.

And in the pouring rain. I continued to show my love for her.

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