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I threw up into the toilette loudly, gasping for air as I steadied myself. Then I washed out my mouth with water and brushed my teeth.
"Are you alright?" Severus called from outside.
"Fine!" I called back before spitting into the sink and cleaning out my mouth again. I put my toothbrush back where it belonged and ripped the door open, where he stood a worried look on his face.
"See? I'm perfectly fine!"
He didn't answer and reached out to lay his hand against my forehead, "You've been throwing up for three days now."
"Yes, but only in the mornings, in case you haven't noticed. Otherwise I'm absolutely fine! I'm just nervous about Ginny and Draco coming around today, that's all."
He eyes me suspiciously, "You've been like this since we came back from France."
"Oh yes." My voice was full of sarcasm, "I'm sure I caught some kind of French infection that is incurable and I'm going to die of it, because I was in a lake for half an hour, the same lake you were in, if I may add that!"
For a moment he looked hurt and I regretted my snapping at him,
"Look." I put my hands on his chest, "I know you're scared, but you don't have to be. I'm fine. Once Ginny and Draco are gone I won't be throwing up any more, I promise!" When he still had that sullen look on his face, I rubbed my hands against his chest, "Stop worrying about me, please. After everything that has happened to us, you must understand that we can deal with every situation."
A sigh escaped his lips, "Most of that is mere luck."
I stood on my tiptoes to give him a quick kiss.
The doorbell rang and he went downstairs, I waited in the hallway first to make sure it really was Draco and Ginny and not some death-eater who had spontanouesly decided to drop by.
"Hermione, you can come down!"
I walked down the stairs trying with all my might to be happy for Ginny. Had she not been happy for me, too? That it was not I who was stuck in the Malfoy Manor, but that I was the one, who had a nice, yes loving, owner?
My, had the roles been reversed it would have been an entirely different story.
Yet it seemed unfair. She could run, she could hide. Her protector, the only one she could depend on for help, wouldn't be in contact with Voldemort constantly and therefore constantly in danger.
But I wasn't the only one who wasn't smiling or happy for them. Severus was pale and glaring at Draco.
"Don't…bl….blame h…him." Ginny looked terrible: She was very pale, very thin, her hair was no longer beautiful and she was shaking so hard she could barely speak, "Hi Her…Mione." She tried to smile.
"What on earth happened to you?!" I rushed to her side, putting my hand on her shoulder, looking up at Severus and Draco with worried eyes.
"Her last potion was two days ago." Draco explained, "It is difficult for her."
"I'm s…so c…cold!" She shuddered even more, "The p…p….potion made me so w…w….warm you see!"
"Come." I put my arm around her shaking shoulders and led her to the couch, where I wrapped a blanket around her.
Severus and Draco were the ones to go upstairs now and I could hear them arguing, but couldn't make out the words.
I held my arm around Ginny and had her wrapped up in a blanket tightly, trying to ease the shaking. It helped a little.
"Don't worry about it." I leaned my head against hers, "I'm sorry you're so weak."
"I had to come of it at some point…did you know it's a drug?"
"Severus explained after you had left the last time."
She grinned, looking like her normal-self for a spit second, "Severus, eh?"
I blushed, "Yeah. Thank you for your advice…from last time."
"I'm leaving you in good hands aren't I?" She whispered, "Because to be honest I feel terrible leaving you behind, I wish you could come with us, but then Snapes cover would be blown."
"Don't feel bad, Ginny!" I hugged her even tighter, "Just look after yourself, promise me that!"
"Of course! Don't worry about me. No man is ever raping me again, I can promise you that. I'll fight until the very end."
All of a sudden I felt like crying.
"So?" She grinned again, "What is the sex like?"
I blushed deeply, "Amazing. You wouldn't believe it."
"I'm glad. So…you got over…your fear?"
I nodded, "You will too, one day."
She scoffed, "Yeah, right. You mean when this is over? When we have our fairy tale happy endings and get married and have kids?"
I avoided her eyes.
"I don't believe in it Hermione, not anymore. The death-eaters, Voldemort and everyone, who agrees in his policy, they're just too strong. We won't ever have what is considered a normal life, the only thing we can do is try to make the best out of our situation. That's what I am doing by running away and that's what you are doing by falling in love. In the end we'll see which one of us made the stupid decision."
A door upstairs opened and Ginny smiled,
"I love you."
"I love you too."
"Will you tell my mum…tell her I've ran away and that I will be safe. That I love her." She paused, "Don't tell her about the drugs, you know how easily she is upset, she would have a huge fit about it."
"Oh Ginny!" I had to laugh and cry at the same time.
When Draco and Severus came downstairs I could see that Severus had grown even paler. He looked terribly worried, as if he were about to get sick himself.
I hugged Ginny for a long time and Draco hugged Severus just as long. He smiled at me and shook my head,
"Good luck Granger." He grinned and I grinned back,
"See you around, Malfoy."
They left and when the door closed I felt like breaking down in sobs, because I knew it was the last time we were going to see them and that was tearing me apart. My last bridge to my old life had just walked out of the door. My last memories of Hogwarts had just vanished.
"Hermione." Severus voice shook, "You've gained some weight."
I spun around to him, absolutely angered by his tactlessness,
"Yeah, I did!" I yelled, "Of course I did! Or do you see some way I can do sport in this situation, locked up in this house all day?!" My voice grew even louder, "And do you really think now is the place to bring this up?!"
Severus hadn't moved, hadn't flinched at all at my words,
"And you've been snapping at me. And throwing up in the mornings only."
Realization hit me then and me knees began to shake. If I fell now I wasn't sure if he were able to catch me, for he looked just as weak, as I felt.
"You…You're pregnant." He whispered.
I wanted to answer, say that was ridiculous. My mood and my weight were due to being locked up in the same house all the time. And I had been throwing up because Draco and Ginny had just left our lives forever. I had always thought Ginny and I would be parts of each others life, I always thought I was going to be part of her family and now I was never going to see her again. That bound to make somebody feel ill.
I never got around to say any of those things though, because I darted up the stairs and barely made it in time to get to the toilette and throw up once more.
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