DISCLAIMER: ALL TWILIGHT REFERENCES BELONG TO STEPHENIE MEYER. EXCEPT FOR POE AND RAVYN, THEY'RE MY BABIES.
AN: So, my mental state seems to be okay for the most part. I'm still upset and they just found the evil bitch mentally unfit to stand trial. Other that, my boyfriend and I took his ex-wife to court after DCS was called because she hit their daughter on visitation. She didn't bother to show up. So, the court granted us supervised visitations. Yay! My daughter on the other hand has hit her teenage years with a vengeance, so imagine that. Anyways, this chapter was complicated at best to write. As my daughter does nothing but throw tantrums. So, onward.
Title Name: Falling In Reverse-The Drug In Me Is You
The first therapy session is coming up. I don't quite understand how this will work, but whatever. All three sessions are going to be consecutive. Starting with the family session, then the session with Jasper, and my solo will be last. I'm absolutely terrified that the family will think that I'm too fucked up to raise my children. I can't stand to be without my children. Or without Jasper.
"Well hello, Beautiful." Speak of the Devil.
"Hello, Jasper. I think you're getting senile in your old age."
"Ha, right. I'm cursed with the gift of photographic memory. One of my few flaws, of course."
"Baby, the truth shall set you free."
"I actually let the children around you? What the hell was I thinking?"
"You were probably thinking that Poe could use a role model like me and that Ravyn could use an example of what to look for when she starts dating 40 years from now."
"Wait, what?" Emmett said as he and Rose walked in. Rose cocked her eyebrow.
"I hope for your sake that you did not just say what I think you said," she stated.
"That depends on what you think he said," I said.
"Did he pretty much just say that Ravyn couldn't date till she was 40?"she asked.
"That's exactly what I said," he replied. Rose put her hands on her hips just as the rest of the family walked in.
"So, when does Poe get to date?" she asked.
"He can date when he gets his license."
"Excuse me, why the hell are there two sets of rules for a couple of children who are within a couple of months age of each other?"
"Because girls are deceived easily. Boys have ingrained street smarts. They know better than girls." he said simply. Oh, fuck that. I pulled my arm back and swung as hard as I could.
"Ow! What the fuck, Babe? What the hell was that for?"
"That was for being an egomaniacal inconsiderate, sexist asshole! Where the hell do you get off stating that boys are smarter? We all have the same damn brains. Some of just choose to use our brain cells to be higher grade than others. You think that a dick gives you extra brain cells? Not fucking likely. More often than not, guys can't think and have a hard on at the same time. I fucking swear. Carlisle! You fucking recommend me to best place for medical school. I'm gonna become a doctor so I can clone sperm cells because that's all we need men for, their sperm." I got in Jasper's face and poked his chest with each word. "Which is easily acquired after you...ARE...ALL...FUCKING...DEAD!"
He just stood there staring at me mouth gaping like a damned fish.
"Bella, why don't we take a walk?" Esme asked. I followed her outside. As soon as we were out of sight of the house I fell to the ground crying.
"I'm sorry. I don't know what's wrong with me."
"Sweetheart, you are stressed. You have school, two young children, new medications, and post-pregnancy hormones all at the same time. You are doing better than a lot of people would be all while accomplishing more."
"I guess that it's a good thing that I went to see Carmen when I did."
"Why do you think I sent you? I could see the pressure building in you. You were just waiting to explode. Might I suggest an avenue of meditation. Yoga helps me out, along with music."
"I didn't realize that you were stressed as well."
"I'm older and probably close to a mid-life crisis. Before you moved back here, all 5 of those teenagers in there were always here. I never had a break. One particular day, I had come home from a day of grocery shopping, to find all five of them completely wasted, broken furniture, the tv was destroyed. I was furious. I never felt such rage towards my children before. But they crossed a line. Carlisle came home shortly afterwards and after I told him what I had come home to, he shrugged and said that 'At least they were here when they did it and that we had plenty of money to replace the damages.' I snapped at him and then slapped him. I informed him that it wasn't the point, it was the principle of the matter. Not only were they minors and consuming enough to cause alcohol poisoning, but they destroyed our home. I felt like I was walked on and he had rubbed salt in my wounds. I went upstairs packed a bag and told him that I would be back in a week and not to try to contact me. I went to stay with Carmen. She helped me. I felt like I was being taken for granted and not cherished and loved. We started family counseling after that."
"Wow, Esme. I had no idea."
"It's typically not a topic of discussion. I just wanted to let you know that while I can't say that I've ever been in your exact position, I do have an inkling of where you are coming from. And if I do say so myself, it's best to remind the men that we control their zippers." We collapsed in giggles.
"Thank you, Esme."
"You're welcome, dear."
"If you do hit a mid-life crisis, what would you do?"
"I would definitely go shopping at Frederick's of Hollywood and go see strippers. I might even buy a Ducati." We giggled again.
"I wonder what Carlisle would do?" I mused.
"Oh, he already had a midlife crisis. He went a bought himself a Lamborghini Diablo, dyed his hair black and pierced his ear." Holy Fuck!
"Yes. He bleached his hair after he was out of it."
"What about the car and the piercing?"
"The car is in the garage under a cover and the he put a clear retainer to keep his piercing open."
"Holy shit! Carlisle's a DILF!"
"I know. Isn't it great?"
AN: Ha, Dr. DILF. What'd ya think? Counseling next update. Read and Review