Song fic.
Song/Artist: "Goodbye to You" by Michelle Branch
Spoilers: Reckoning

At the End of All Things

The future is a bleak place indeed. I am lost, alone save for the Seeker—an enemy. This barren wasteland—is this what all my struggles have led to? How could you let this happen? You were the one I trusted—

tears form behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

Weeks will turn to months, before long. The Seeker shares my sorrow, but I know he can have no idea of what I've lost.

Or did I ever even have your love at all? My son—our son—is nowhere in this nightmare. You must have won—the Seeker was ever your only obstacle. So how could you not protect my baby?

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old

My Sisters are gone, too—I know you can't have intended that. The idea would be laughable, if tears didn't sting my eyes. The Seeker can't know—he's lost his love, I my whole life. As I stare into what remains of Triana's eyes, I know your betrayal is complete.

Did you ever listen to me? Ever realize that I—that you—

This isn't real; but if it is, I just can't—

Goodbye to you

I'm on my knees, my agiel to the Seeker's neck—I make sure to get it right, disregarding the wounds that may well mean my death—the exact spot that brought us into this mess.

And then all is darkness, and I have nothing to hold on to—even the Seeker's image blurs before my eyes, and I think I must be dying.

When we meet in the Underworld, you will suffer for what you've done to my world—to my son.

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

And we're back—my eyes open, I yank my arm backward, because I won't interfere in the Seeker's schemes anymore—I've seen what came of your choice to do so. Your pride, your folly—I won't bring myself back to that horrible future, where the Mother Confessor's son ruled.

I see my betrayal reflected in your eyes—your anguish makes me want to die.

Goodbye to everything that I knew

I shove my Sister aside, so the Seeker's Wizard won't doom himself by his own folly—it's a common failing, I know now.

I won't let myself look at you, lest you steal my resolve.

I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

You stare at me, and all unwilling, I'm dragged back into your insanity. You will destroy everything I've ever loved—

I would have given you my life, my honor, my soul.

But you take more than that.

I love you—but I won't let you destroy everything—

I won't drown in your eyes; the Seeker has thrown me a rope.

You were the one I loved

Your reckless fury—you snatch the Sword of Truth from the ground—no! my heart cries, for I am no novice to the unpredictability of magic.

Fire consumes you, and I want to scream—

But I am Mord'Sith, and my face is blank.

The one thing that I tried to hold onto

My Sisters doubt me—not for long. What right have they to judge my decision? You would have led them to their deaths—dishonorable, alone, with no one to avenge them.

Once I believed that you were the only light in my darkness—but I have seen true Light, in the Seeker's heart.

I hate it, it burns me—but he is like the sun to your candle.

And I'm not blind anymore.

When the stars fall and I lie awake
You're my shooting star

That night, we camp; my Sisters watch me. Are they hoping I have the answers?

I have nothing—no joy, and no regrets.

I stare at the sky, wondering where you are now. The Underworld?

It must be—you took my heart with you, and now all that remains of me is a cold, empty shell.

Are you listening, Darken Rahl?

You destroyed me—but my revenge is ash in my veins.