Hi, Valkerie here.

So this is one of my weird little poems. I wrote it, and then I watched the movie and decided that it fits Eli, when she is telling Oskar that she has to leave, pushing him away to keep him safe.

Anyways, I hope you like it! Enjoy, and review!

If I told you the reasons

I say what I do,

Would you hate me,

Would you hurt me,

Would you cry through your silence?

I'm alone in my silence,

In my aloofness,

In my transparency.

I'm see-through.

I'm opaque.

I'm only

The cold one,

Waiting for whiteness,

Pale skin,

Imagined snow

To wrap around me and keep me

From getting too cold.

And my darkness,

This coldness,

Is all that I have.

This emptiness,

This nothingness,

Is all I can give.

If I told you the reasons

I do what I do,

Would you love me,

Would you hurt me,

Would you stay close and hold me?

Or would you hate me,

Would you leave me,

Alone in the coldness,

The dark seeping in.

It's so bright inside my head,

So bright inside me,

It burns.

If I told you the reasons

That I never cry,

Would you still think me careless?

Would you let me have this one thing?

The walls of ice

I throw up around me,

To keep me,

To hold me,

To save me from knowing

I'm hurting,

I'm hurting.

I hurt you, you know,

To keep you safe,

To keep you from getting to close.

I burn you,

I freeze you,

I hit you,

I bruise you,

I don't want to love you.

To need you.

I don't want you to love me,

To want me.

But I need you to love me,

I want you to need me.

So I bruise you,

I hit you,

I freeze you,

I burn you,

To keep you from getting

Too cold.