AN: Last one… I love these boys and I'm sad it's over. Now to focus on other projects! Hope you guys like it and thanks for all the amazing reviews.
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EPILOGUE PART 2
Jasper's eyes close and his lips part, releasing all the breath in his lungs. He breathes in slowly through his nose and when he opens up those striking blue eyes again I stop breathing. I've never seen so much passion in his gaze before. Jasper is so open and exposed that I can see straight to his soul. And it's beautiful.
"Are you sure you are ready E? Not just for making love, for us… for me?" His hands slide around my waist and he pulls my body flush against his. I know Jasper isn't perfect and he's still working on his issues. But, hell, I've got issues too. As long as we are together though, I know everything will be alright.
I know it will be because nothing has ever felt this right. Being in Jasper's arms is the safest I have ever felt, he is my home. And as long as I have him I'll be ready for anything.
I kiss the side of his neck and I feel him shiver slightly. My lips brush against his cheek, then his eye lids and finally reach home to his lips. They move languidly together for a few moments before I pull back with a smile on my face.
"I am so ready, Jazz." I lean in to whisper in his ear, "Make me yours."
He groans loudly and then bends down, grabs me by the back of my thighs and lifts me up. A pretty embarrassing noise escapes my lips in surprise before I wrap my legs around his waist and hold on. He takes me to our bed and lowers me down gently, hovering enough to assault me with kisses.
Then I notice he is chuckling a little. He pulls away and stands up straight with a goofy grin on his face. I quirk an eyebrow as a silent question and his grin only widens.
"You squealed… like a girl." I must have a horrified look on my face because he laughs harder.
"I did not!" Jasper's laughing subsides enough to give me a look that says really and I smile a little. "Ok maybe I squealed… but it was a manly squeal." He shakes his head and keeps laughing.
"Well, if you are going to laugh at me… can you at least do it naked?" That seems to have sobered him up. Jasper closes his mouth and his eyes lock on mine as he pulls his shirt off. He reaches for the hem to my shirt and I lift up so he can remove it, his fingers leaving trails of fire the whole way up.
I sit up and pull him towards by his belt loops. Keeping eye contact, I pop open the button to his jeans and lean forward to pull his zipper down with my teeth. His eyes close and he bites his lip, but I continue and drag his pants down his long legs. Jasper brushes them to the side with his foot and then he is standing before me with only his tight black boxer briefs left.
I run my nose along the outline of his cock and then blow my hot breath on it from base to tip. I reach up to pull down the underwear and he grabs my wrists to stop me. When I look up he pushes me back on the bed, pinning my wrists above my head and mumbling "so fucking sexy."
"Edward, if you touch my dick right now I am going to cum before we even get started and I want to be in that tight ass of yours when I do." All I can do is smirk. I love the effect I have on him. Jasper lets go of my wrists and trails his hands down my arms and chest, purposefully running his thumb over my nipples as he travels further. I arch into his touch, trying to feel more.
Then his fingers are popping the button on my jeans and pulling the zipper down. His fingers grip the waistband and my boxers and he pulls them both down at the same time, tossing them somewhere off to the side. He stands back up straight and gazes down at me with hunger in his eyes. I've never felt so desired in my life.
Jasper's voice is thick with want as he whispers, "Get in the middle of the bed." I scramble backwards and settle my head onto a pillow. Jasper crawls on top and devours me with a kiss. It's full of passion and want and need and I can't get enough. I wrap my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck and pull him down on to me, desperate to be as close to him as possible.
He pulls back and I whine. We are both panting as he brushes my cheek with his thumb and says, "Shh, baby, I know. I feel it too. I've got you… let me take care of you." He kisses me sweetly on the lips and then runs his fingers across my cheeks and jaw. He starts to kiss his way down my chest and stomach, his fingers following the path of his lips.
He's touching every inch of me, like he is worshipping my body. Jasper scoots back to continue down my hips to my legs and back up to repeat his ministrations on the other side. I'm so keyed up from his wet lips and feather light touches that I yell out "fuck" when he licks my dick from base to tip.
Jasper doesn't even give me a moment to catch up before his lips are engulfing me and his tongue is swirling around the head. I can't help but arch into him, trying to go deeper, but he holds me down with one hand. The other moves lazily up and down my thigh, trying to calm me down a bit.
When my breathing even out, his hand reaches up and pushes two into my mouth. I suck on them eagerly, wrapping my tongue around and in between them, wishing it was his cock. Jasper moans when I suck hard and removes them, bringing them down to circle my entrance.
I want him so badly that it doesn't take long to prepare me, especially with his perfect mouth still loving my cock. His fingers graze my prostate and I see stars. "Now Jasper, please. I'm ready." He stops and crawls back up my body to kiss me lazily before reaching over to the nightstand and grabbing the lube and a condom.
Jasper prepares himself and puts some extra lube on me, before lining his cock up with my entrance. He doesn't push in right away. Instead, he leans forward again and touches our foreheads together. "Are you sure Edward? There is no going back after this. I won't let you go, ever."
His eyes are closed and lips parted, his body trembling with his desire. So beautiful. And he still pushes his wants aside to take care of me. Who wouldn't want to be his?
"I'm positive, baby. I have always been yours and I don't plan on going anywhere. You're stuck with me forever."
He laughs lightly before lifting his head to look in my eyes. His smile is sweet and his eyes brighter than I have ever seen before. It makes him look younger, almost like the boy I grew up with.
Then he starts to push inside me and my breath catches and I close my eyes. "No Edward, open your eyes. Look at me." My lids fly open at his request and I concentrate on Jasper's face. He enters me slowly and it hurts a little, but with every inch Jasper's eyes get darker and his nose flares a little. The moment is so intimate I feel like more than just our bodies are connecting, that our souls are joining too.
When he is seated fully inside me, Jasper leans down and presses his lips to mine. I swipe my tongue out to taste his lips and his mouth opens granting me entrance. When my tongue touches his I groan and push back against him, urging him to move. He pulls out slightly and then pushes back in slowly. He keeps up a lazy pace for a few moments.
I wrap my legs around his waist and my hands get tangled in his long blonde hair. His body moves slowly against me, our tongues and breaths mingle together between our lips. I am completely surrounded by and filled by Jasper, and it's perfect.
Sooner than I prefer my stomach is tightening and the sliding of Jasper's stomach against my dick has me close to the edge. But I need more. Jasper must sense it because he lifts up off me and brings my legs up to rest on his shoulders. His long fingers wrap around the top of my thighs and then he pumps one time into me, long and hard.
I groan in appreciation and he does it again, grazing my prostate this time. He picks up speed after a few thrusts and I am a moaning mess underneath him. I know he is close when he starts to grunt every other time. I reach down to wrap my hand around my cock, pumping into my fist every time he pulls out.
"Fuck, Jasper. Feels so good." My words cause him to lock eyes with me and he bites his lip. He's so sexy like this, his muscles clenching with his effort and sweat dripping down his neck. His eyes are bright and his hair a mess.
I feel my balls tighten and I know I'm almost there. My eyes close and my head falls back into the pillow, my hand flying up and down my shaft. Jasper's fingers tighten and dig into my skin and he pants out, "Come with me, Edward."
I open my eyes just as his close. His brow crinkles and his mouth falls open before his hips lose their rhythm and pound against me. I can feel him twitch inside me as he releases and I finally fall over the edge. I throw my head back into the pillow and moan Jasper's name as I milk my release.
Jasper falls on top of me and I wrap my arms around him, ignoring his softening cock and the mess in between us. I run my fingers through his hair until our breathing evens out and he rolls off of me to clean us up.
He slides back in bed and pulls me close to him, my back to his chest. He rests his head against mine, wraps his arm around my waist and sighs contentedly. After a few minutes it sounds like he falls asleep, but he clears his throat and it startles me.
"Edward, do you want to get married?" I turn my head to look at him.
"What?" I don't mean to sound so shocked, but that question came from nowhere.
He chuckles lightly and continues. "I've just been thinking of the future lately and what I want. We've never talked about the future, other than that we wanted to be together. I think I would like to get married one day, and take your name if you'll let me. And I want to travel. I've always thought Italy would be a great place to visit."
I cut him off before he can continue. "You… You want to take my name? Why?" I turn in his arms so I can face him. He has a beautiful smile on his face and it warms my heart.
"Because you are my family, E, and I love you. I want to give you all of me. I've been so alone for so long that I want to feel like part of a family. We don't have to get married right now. Maybe after I get all my shit straight, when I'm good enough for you…"
I push him onto his back and straddle him, both my hands cupping his cheeks. "Stop that. You are good enough for me. I love you just the way you are, damaged and all. You are everything I want and more. And I would marry you tomorrow if you wanted too." I kiss his nose and then his lips. Jasper smiles up at me when I pull away and there is a sparkle in his eyes.
"You want to marry me?" He's grinning now and it's fucking beautiful.
"Of course. Laws be damned, you will be my husband someday… sooner than later I hope." Jasper laughs and pulls me down so he can wrap his arms around my back, hugging me to him.
"Fuck, E. I've never felt so happy in my life. Thank you for loving me. You've given me my life back and made it immensely better in the process. I can't imagine sharing it with anyone else." He rolls us back on our sides and I wrap my body around him, burying my face in his neck. He feels like home, safe and full of love.
"Me either baby." Jasper squeezes me tighter and my heart feels like it might burst out of my chest.
"What else do you want? What's your dream?" I hadn't really thought much about the future. I've just known that Jasper would always be in it.
"To be honest, you were always my dream. I haven't thought much past that. But thinking about it now, I think I would like to open my own my practice. I hate the hospital schedule and I'd like to be more one on one with my patients." Jasper nods his head in understanding.
"That sounds great baby. When you are almost done with your training we should look into a location and equipment. Between me and your father you should have no problem getting a place started." I just stare at him in shock. I know without a doubt my father can help me, but for Jasper to just put himself out there selfishly is amazing.
"You would really do that for me. Do you have any idea how much that…"
He cuts me off with a shush sound. "Don't worry about that. I had nothing better to do with my time, so a lot of the money that I got from those teeny bopper albums I invested. As long my business is kicking we will be set for life." He grins down at me and I realize we still have a lot to talk about, more parts of our lives to meld together.
"You are amazing, Jasper. I love you." He pulls me tighter into him, almost bone crunching but I never want to be free from it.
"So you never commented on my desire to travel." He chuckles and relaxes his arms, his thumb lightly stroking my shoulder.
"Oh, well I got distracted with premature marriage proposals and mentions of name changes. I would love to travel. Maybe we could do that before I open up my own practice. I know that is going to take a lot of time and energy, and I don't know when I would have that much time to go overseas. I would probably have to hire a second doctor to work with me before we could go again."
Jasper is quite for a moment, and then looks down at me. "When is your training complete?"
"I have about two more years before I am on my own. Why?" His face lights up and I find myself smiling back at him just from the happiness I can see in his eyes.
"Well, Italy would be a beautiful place to honeymoon." My breath catches. Earlier was more or less just talk, putting an idea out there. But this… this is setting a tentative date, making a plan.
"Really? I know it's still two years away, but you are sure enough to pick a time? You're not worried about whether you will be ready or not?"
His hand cups my cheek and caresses it softly. "I'm ready now, baby. I just think we should give ourselves some time. I don't want to rush into anything and we have forever to be together, but I've never wanted anything more in my life."
He sounds so sure and I know I wouldn't want anything else. "It sounds like a great idea, Jazz. A wedding, honeymoon, and opening my own doctor's office… spending forever with you. It's fucking perfect." I turn my head and kiss the inside of his palm. "I love you Jasper."
He leans down and presses his lips to mine. The kiss is full of love and promise, and I know I will be happy as long as he is by my side.
"I love you too E."
Life isn't going to be easy all the time, and we still have a lot to learn about each other, but together we can make it through anything. We've figured out the hard way what it is like to be without the other, and it was a dark part of our past that has forever shaped our future.
As I look into the eyes of the man I love, I know that I wouldn't change how things happened, because we needed to learn how much we meant to each other. And sometimes you have to hit rock bottom before you can truly appreciate what is in front of you. I have a beautiful man offering me a future better than I ever could have hoped for, and I will never take him for granted.
AN: Thanks to DreamingPoet1988 for beta-ing. Check out her page for some awesome stories!