I really like this Bella girl; she seemed really nice, like a mommy should be.
I hoped with all my heart she would be my mommy some day.
It just felt right.
Sliding off Bella's lap I got out of the car, watching my daddy walking to Bella smiling in a way I never saw him smile before.
It filled me with happiness seeing my daddy happy for once.
"Come on Bella, you gotta see my room," I grinned eagerly pulling at her arm.
She laughed smiling at me.
Jade, please be careful with Bella; remember she is a lot weaker then we are. My daddy's thoughts came to me.
I looked back up at him as he followed behind Bella and I.
Don't worry daddy. I thought with a smile, and ran slowly, pulling Bella with me.
I laughed giddy every time she seemed to trip over the little rocks and pebbles.
Humans aren't very graceful, but Uncle Emmett was right, it was funny to watch.
This was only the second time I've been around a human; the first time… my daddy had to hold me the whole time. But I'm better now.
When we made it inside I heard Bella gasp.
I quickly stopped looking up at her worried that I might have hurt her.
"Are you ok?" I asked my patting her hands.
She looked around, at the house, just looking amazed.
"You have a beautiful house Jade," Bella smiled stroking the top of my head.
I smiled in relief, and hugged her leg.
"It can be your home to," I said excitedly.
Bella looked down at me laughing.
Daddy looked at me embarrassed, chuckling slightly.
"Jade, why don't you go and play with your toys; while I give Bella a little tour of the house," My daddy suggested.
I shook my head, crawling up into Bella's arms.
"I want to stay with her," I pouted.
Bella smiled hugging me to her like a mommy would do.
I let my head rest on her shoulder, closing my eyes.
I have always wanted to be held like this, by a girl mommy who loved me, and loved my daddy.
It wasn't like when Auntie Alice and Rose held me, or even when Grandma Esme held me.
This was different.
"Jade," Daddy said looking a bit nervous between Bella and me.
"Edward its ok, I don't mind." Bella smiled, cradling me with a smile.
My daddy paused. "Are you sure?" He asked gently.
Bella nodded, and I smiled in joy.
She wanted to be with me to.
I felt little tears sliding down my cheeks.
Bella quickly was wiping them away, anxiously.
"Are you ok?" She cooed.
This only made me cry more.
She really cared about me.
Jade honey, what's wrong? Daddy thought to me, just as anxious.
I love her daddy; I want her to be my mommy. I thought.
Daddy sighed, and walked to Bella, holding his arms out to her to take me.
She handed me over, and I reluctantly let myself go. I curled into him, hiding my face in his shoulder, whimpering.
"What's wrong, did I do something wrong?" Bella asked watching us.
Daddy quickly shook his head.
"Not at all, it's just past Jade's nap," He said stroking the back of my head.
"I'll lay her down if you want," Auntie Rose's voice called from behind us.
I looked up at her, and then away.
I don't want Auntie Rose to do it, I want Bella to. I thought, my hands clutching my daddy closer to me.
He rubbed my back gently, which always calmed me down.
My eyes closed again, a bit more tiredly.
"It's alright Rose," I heard my daddy say, and for a second I could just register that we were walking up the stairs.
After a second I felt a different pair of arms.
I looked up to see Bella's big brown eyes.
I smiled up at her, clutching her close.
"Mommy," I whispered.
Bella's grip on me loosened, and set me down on the familiar warm, soft blanket I always napped on.
She slowly pulled the blanket over me, and I felt a kiss on my forehead, before I slowly drifted to sleep.
I watched Jade as she fell asleep before turning to Edward.
She had called me her mommy, and just for a second that's the only thing I wanted to think about.
Being the mother to this sweet girl. But I knew it was wrong to do so, this little girl belonged to someone else.
Besides, I never wanted to be a mother… children didn't matter that much to me… although this baby girl was precious.
I loved her already.
"She called me mommy," I said watching Edward.
He sighed, frowning, and rubbing his face.
"Yeah, it's a long story," He muttered, watching his daughter now.
Did this mean that her mother wasn't around any more?
"I have time," I pushed on farther.
Edward looked to me and sighed, taking a seat down on the black leather couch in the corner of the room.
I followed, sitting down beside him, and patiently waited.
"… A long time ago I met this woman; she had come by my house to help me care for my sick mother, and father. Her own mother was a nurse, and had a few helpful medicines left over. I had thought she was very nice, and she had grown very… attracted to me." He started, looking out the window.
I almost winced at his words.
I didn't know why, but the thought of Edward loving anyone was almost as painful as burning to death.
"I didn't share the feelings, but I felt that I should have because of all of the help she has done with my family, so one night she had asked to… become physically involved, I felt that this would repay her for what she had done. The experience was horrible; I had never felt so… filthy."
I looked at him sadly.
But I guess I could see his point of view.
"I was young, and stupid at that time, but after that experience I realized how stupid of an idea that was. And to top it off… afterwards… she feared me. For months she stayed away from me, but then she gave birth to Jade… she died giving birth to her." Edward said without even a tiny bit of sadness.
I stared forward, overwhelmed by what he had just said.
"So you took responsibility for her," I whispered watching him in awe.
Not many guys would do that. Edward truly was god's most perfect creation. I felt bad for him though, he had no life of his own for all his life now, now that he had to dedicate all of his life to this child.
"Yes, it was very hard in the beginning, but I fell in love with my baby, and it soon became easier, but I hated myself for me stupid mistake, I ruined her life in a way. She doesn't have a mother, and even worse was she was created to repay someone, not out of love."
"Edward, it was a mistake, we all make them, this one might be a bit big, but it's not your fault, like you said, you were young," I defended.
He shook his head sadly, looking back up at me.
Just at this look alone I had the biggest urge to just lean forward, and kiss away his sorrow.
I wanted to make this man smile; just being able to do that would make my life worth living.
God what was happening to me.