April 12th, 2012

I still remember meeting Edward, back when I was a sophomore. He was the handsome, fearless boy who everyone wanted to be associated with. Girls flocked themselves to him whenever they had the chance, and guys wanted to hang out with him, just because they knew how awesome he was.

I think I see more clearly who he is now, and I'm glad. While his impeccable looks and charm make me nervous, I can still rely on his flaws and imperfections to make sense of what I'm doing – of what we're doing.

We're going on a date in a few hours, and I just realized now that we've never been on a date before. Even if we've been through so many things, we've never been on a date, held hands in public and got to know each other's favorite colors and movies. I don't even know if he likes rap, or if he's just one of those guys who like every kind of music. That's just plain weird. It's like saying you don't have a favorite band.

Emmett has been kind of silent about this whole thing. I don't know what to think, but if I were in his position, I'd be worried, too. What if instead of me going on a date with Edward, it was him going on a date with Rosalie? I can't wrap my brain around that. Although I heard she was in California, in some kind of state college. I imagine her hanging out with more blonde people and even having a one-night stand with a famous actor.

Dad's better now. He's going to fight for Sue and for their relationship. But for the first time, I don't think he has a plan to follow through, and we're still trying to see if it's a good thing or not. I hope it is, and that he eventually finds what he's looking for. Even if it doesn't involve Sue, my borrowed mother, I just want him to be happy. That's all I want.

Speaking of happiness, it seems as if Kate has found hers with someone other than Jake, and the lucky guy's name is Garrett. I can say with certainty that he's crazier than her, but their feelings for each other are mutual. Jake broke up with her and is now dating a girl named Rachel. I don't know much about her, and he doesn't share either. One of these days I'll have to stop by and force him to talk to me.

And finally, the news I wanted to share. Alice is very much in love and engaged to someone named François (I assume he's French), and she has finally replied to my e-mail, telling me how much we need to catch up. It still feels to me like she hasn't changed – rather adjusted – her fierce and contagious personality, which is wonderful. It really is. If someone was ever destined for great things, that someone would certainly be Alice Cullen.

And I am, too. And while I might not know right now what I'm destined for, I know I'll have the right people by my side, and that's all that matters to me right now.

Bella


So... any thoughts? It's been pretty great to be able to write this and to have people actually read it. I will thank my betas again - Lisa and Rags - for being so wonderful and patient with me. I will also thank the readers who were rooting for Bella and for Edward, and those who judged him immensely. Hope you enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it.