Chapter 14: Toni
Something was wrong with Sam, I could feel it. It probably had to do with the fact that he was still getting over his girlfriend's death. I left him to deal with it. It was clear he didn't want my help and that hurt, but I let him be. We had been in Maine working the vengeful spirit case for about two weeks. We had just got rid of the creature so the three of us went out to celebrate with drinks. Sam seemed to be in his own mind.
"Sam, you okay?" I asked.
He turned to me and nodded.
"Don't worry, Toni. Sammy's always like that. He doesn't really like to celebrate afterwards," Dean said taking a swig of his beer.
"Am not, jerk."
"Are too, bitch."
I just rolled my eyes. I had gotten used to the way they tease each other.
"So now what?"
"I suggest that we get some sleep and we can head back to your place until we get another hunt," Dean answered.
I nodded, "Sounds good to me. Come on let's go back to the motel."
Dean and Sam followed me to the car. Once we got back to the motel I led Sam into our room as Dean went to his. Sam just sat on the bed staring into space. I sat next to him and cuddled into his side.
"Sam, what's wrong?"
Sam seemed to ignore me.
Still no answer. I smiled; I knew how to get his attention. I pulled off my shirt. When I didn't get the reaction I was hoping for, I kissed him.
"Toni, stop," Sam said pushing me away.
"Sam, what? Did I do something wrong? Look, if you're not in the mood, I understand," I said and went into the bathroom and got ready for bed.
I came out the bathroom and laid down waiting for Sam to join me. When he didn't, I pulled his arm till he got under the covers. I snuggled against him. He jerked and pushed me away from him. I looked shocked.
"Toni, I said stop."
"Sam, what did I do? What's wrong?"
"When we get back to your house, I want you to stay."
I laughed, "Of course I am gonna stay. I mean it's my house after all. Like Dean said, we'll stay there until we find another hunt."
Sam shook his head, "Not what I mean. I mean I don't want you to come with me when we leave."
I jerked, "What? I don't understand."
"When Dean and I leave, you are staying behind."
"You want me to wait for you? Is that what you're saying? You expect me to wait for you in between hunts? Sorry Sam, I am a hunter like you and I can't do that. If we are together, then we stay together."
"That's just it, Toni. We are not together!"
"Huh? Sam, you're not making sense. Why don't we get some sleep?"
"Damn it, Toni. I knew this was a mistake," Sam sighed.
"What was a mistake? Bringing me on the hunt?"
"No, this. You and me. This can't work. I am sorry."
"What are you saying? That you don't want to be with me anymore?"
Sam nodded. I felt like I had been hit. I tried not to cry, but I could already feel the tears start to come.
"So that was your plan? Fuck me twice and then bolt? I can't believe you would do this to me. You promised."
"I know and I am sorry."
"You keep saying you're sorry, but you know what, Sam? I don't think you really are," I argued.
"Toni, you're a great girl, but-…"
"Save it and go wake your brother. We should leave now," I said and went to the bathroom to change back to my clothes. When I came out, Dean was waiting by the car looking irritated. Great, now I had both Winchesters mad at me.
"What's the hurry, Toni," Dean grumbled.
"I want to get an early start."
"Yeah, at twelve thirty in the morning. Whatever," Dean said and got behind the wheel. Sam got in the passenger seat and I got in the back and we headed toward Queens.
The whole drive was silent and I was glad. I really didn't need any conversation. I was hurt. Toni, you stupid ass. How could you go and fall for that idiot? I sat back in my seat and I noticed Dean looking at me. He looked at Sam and then back to me. He looked like he was gonna say something, but he just shook his head and kept his mouth shut. When we reached the house, I grabbed my stuff and headed into the house.
"Toni, wait a minute."
"What do you want now?"
"Toni, I just-…"
"Save it, Sam. I get it. You're still in love with your dead girlfriend. But why did you have to treat me like that? What, am I not good enough for you?"
"Just get out," I said letting the tears finally fall.
"Get out!" I screamed and pushed him. He sighed and walked out the door.
I watched out the window till he got in the car and Dean drove away. Then I cried.