Hey everyone! So here goes a new story, it will only be about six chapters. I really hope you guys like it, ten reviews if you want more, I usually say ten for pilots, or assume you guys don't like it and I leave them as one shots.
Okay guys, I had a good long cry about Eclare, and I am ready to talk now. So they broke up. I don't hate Clare, and I don't hate Eli. I'm thinking and hoping he gets some mental help, and maybe they get back together! The important thing is to take our minds off it, with big chapters and know Justin Kelly is coming to Degrassi season 11 baby! I was so excited I screamed!
Let's just all keep Eclare spirit alive and be happy Eli is alive. They will work out, because they are meant to be. I know it.
This is for Julia, I just saw her review on That Summer, I love her!
I sat in my room in tears. I broke it off with Eli, but I didn't feel any better. He wasn't my problem. That's what I wanted. God, I was such a bitch. I can't believe I just left. He manipulated me. But he needed me. He went on a suicide mission. He's crazy. But he loves me. And I left him. Alone.
The look on his face when I left is going to haunt me. He looked terrified. I promised I wouldn't leave him, yet that's exactly what I did. I'm gone.
My phone rang and I recognized the number, Eli's home phone. I didn't think he would want to talk to me, or I him, but I answered, almost compulsively, "E-Eli?" I question.
"Clarabelle, its Bullfrog…" He trailed off.
Something was wrong, I could tell, "Is Eli o-okay?"
"That's why I'm calling. Clare, he got checked into a mental ward. He has issues Clare, but he's going to get help. I just wanted you to know." He sighed.
I hesitated, "Does he want me to go see him or something?"
"No, he said you didn't love him and he wouldn't force himself on you." He told me.
"Where is he?" I asked.
"Some hospital, Clare, don't come, please." He whispered.
"Don't Clare, I know you it wasn't your fault, Eli's problems, but he's hurt. He is my son Clare, and he needs his space like you do." He said.
I sighed, "I didn't want him to do this. You know that right?"
He replied, "I know, and some day Eli will get that, but I kindly ask you not to come, it will give him false hope he doesn't need."
Bullfrog hung up the phone before I could protest. I got what I wanted. I go space. I have an out, but strangely, I don't want it.
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It took me about and hour to decide I was coming. I ran all the way to the hospital and now the reception lady says Eli doesn't want to see me.
"Please! I just need to see him…" I begged.
She shook her head, "I have specific instructions from his mom, his father and Eli not to let you in."
I bit my bottom lip, "Please… I love that guy in there…"
"Y-you what?" Eli?
I turned around and Eli was standing behind me, holding a clipboard. He gave it to the lady and took my hand, pulling me into his room.
"Visiting hours end in five!" She yelled.
Eli sat down on his bed, "You l-love me?" He stuttered.
"Eli… I'm so sorry." His face was scratched and he had a broken leg from crashing his car.
I brushed my fingers across his scratches and for the first time in a week he actually smiled. I smiled a little too, "I had no idea you would do this, Eli you scared me."
He pushed my hand away, "Yeah, I got the memo."
"N-no Eli…" I sighed.
He closed his eyes and leaned his head back, "It was today…two years ago today…"
Julia. That's why he was acting like this. My eyes filled with water, "I-I didn't… Eli…"
"Damn it I know!" He shouted, "I know! But Clare…" He saw my eyes filling with tears. He bit his bottom lip too, "N-no, I didn't want you to cry…"
I wiped my tears with my sleeve, "Um its okay."
"Why are you here?" He asked.
I took a breath, "I'm here to say…Eli, you scare me…"
He cut me off, "I know! Did you come to rub it in!"
"Let me finish." I say, "You scare me Eli. This clingy impulsive behavior, you need help. But I know breaking up is not what I want."
I saw a glimmer of hope in his eye, "Really?"
I nod, "But you have to make me a promise okay?"
He smiles, "Anything! Anything Clare! Y-you just have to n-name it."
I smiled back at him, "You have to promise me, no more of this super clingy scary Eli okay? I want my witty sweet Romeo back okay?"
"I promise." He took both of my hands and locked them in his death grip.
I giggled as my tears fell from my eyes. Eli reached up and brushed them away, "Hey, don't cry. I need you to promise me something."
I nodded, "Anything."
"Stay with me okay? I need you here. I know I have problems Clare, but I want to deal with them. I-I just need you here. Please?" He sounded desperate.
I leaned up and pressed a kiss to his tear stained cheek, "I'm here. I promise."
Eli's emerald eyes beamed, "Thank you Clare! It means the world to me!"
I got up and Eli freak, "Where are you going!"
"To grab a chair." I said as I dragged one over his bed side. I sat down before taking one of his hands, "I'm here okay? I'll be here."
"I wish I could get you something more comfortable…" He trailed off.
I shook my head, "No, it's okay; it's just…how long are you here for?"
"Bullfrog said just a few days." He said.
"Do they hate me?" I asked.
"No, they love you Clare, I just scared them." He said.
I nod, "Okay…"
Eli looked around the room, "Um here…" He patted the space next to him, "Do you want to come sleep up with me?"
"Um…is that okay?" I ask.
He nods, "It's my bed. Unless you're uncomfortable….?"
His eyes showed that he was nervous, but I was too, I had never shared a bed with a guy, and a hospital bed seemed like an odd place to experience my first. This was about Eli though, not me, so I shook my head, "No, it's fine."
I climb onto the bed with him. He hesitantly puts his arms around me. I cling onto his arm to try to show him it's okay. I hate that he feels so on edge.
I cut him off, "I do love you Eli. But I wish you didn't do this."
"I'm going to miss my hearse." He whispered.
I pressed my head against his chest, "I don't hate Morty, I was just mad."
"So you won't freak out if I get another one?" He smiles.
I lean back against his chest. I don't say anything, I just smile. Eli reaches down for the thin blanket, but it's too hard for him. I grab them for him and pull them up to cover us, "Are you sure it's okay for me to be in here with you?"
"It's my bed, and I want you in it." He said.
"I meant what I said to that receptionist." I said.
Eli nodded, "I love you Clare."
"I love you too Eli, my Eli." I clarify.
He nuzzled his face in my hair, "I'll get better, I promise you, if it makes you stay."
I gripped his hand tightly, "I'm not going anywhere okay?"
I turned back and smiled at him. He smiled back at me and leaned down to kiss my lips. I gladly welcomed the kiss by wrapping my arms around his neck. He quickly stopped it though, "Okay, we should sleep, kiss later."
I pulled him down for one more peck. He kissed my nose before gently pushing my head to rest on his chest. I wrapped my nimble shaking fingers around his equally shaky bruised fingers. I never thought the first time I fell asleep with Eli he would be wearing a hospital gown, and I a formal dress, but I took it.
He kissed my hair, "Thank you, for coming."
"Always Eli." I say.
"Goodnight Clare, I love you."
I tightened my arms around him, "I love you too Eli."
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"Eli? Honey, you need to take your meds." Some women in a white dress was handing me pills and a glass of water.
I looked down at the little warm body around me and smiled at Clare. I took my pills, "Thanks."
"Eli?" Clare sat up and bumped the glass of water accidentally.
I chuckled as the nurse handed us a towel, "Eli honey, you have a therapy session in an hour okay?"
"A therapy s-session?" I asked.
She nodded, "Just a few questions."
I looked at Clare, "Can Clare come?"
She sighed, "Alright, but she has to go for a few hours afterwards okay? You need some self healing too."
I nodded, "Of course!"
The nurse left the room and I looked at Clare, "Please? I-I can't go alone…"
A/N: Will Clare come with him? Or will Eli break down by himself? Ten reviews to find out!