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Julia are you feeling better sweetheart? I adore you and want you to feel better! This chapter is for you!
One more thing for one of my reviewers playing Eli for me: You need to be on more! I hate saying this, but you really do need to be on at least for a little bit every two days. Do you think you can do that? I hope so! If we don't hear from you soon I'm getting worried…
Amanda Marie Rain, you don't need a boyfriend to make you great. You are not a dork by wearing glasses and age is not a problem. But seriously, don't use your boyfriend to make you amazing because you are awesome just the way you are. Okay? I hope you know that. I only say this because I did not know this and it got me in some bad stuff and some bad places.
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"Clare?" I asked as I walked closer to her hesitantly. Her face was stained with tears and she was curled up in my bed with my well I guess our blue blanket.
She looked at me, "Come here."
She was smiling weakly, so I took it as a good sign. I walked over to her and stood in front of her, "What's wrong?"
She shook her head, "Just get in bed with me."
I nodded and did my best to swiftly slide into bed. Clare instantly curled in my side, "How was therapy?"
I could not resist wrapping my arms around her and keeping her tight to me, "It was good. I honestly did not expect you to be here when I got back."
Clare looked sad, "Do you want me to leave?"
"No!" I tightened my grip on her.
She giggled, "Relax Eli, I'm not going to leave."
I nodded, "So you just waited here?"
"Yeah, I cried, but I just waited." She admitted.
I frowned. I hated the fact that Clare cried over me. I HATED it, "Why did you cry baby?" I kissed her forehead softly.
She sighed, "Eli, we are in a relationship right?"
I nodded, "Yes?"
Clare nodded, "Okay, so what do you think is important in a relationship?"
I felt like this was a test, "Um, I guess affection, trust, loyalty, kindness, caring, communication, honesty, l-"
Clare cut me off, "See! Honesty! Eli I need you to tell me something."
I nodded, "Okay?"
"Eli if we are going to continue dating and continue to grow together, you have to tell me about Julia."
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I wanted to know. I knew it would hurt but I wanted to know about Julia. Eli nodded, "O-okay."
I curled tighter into his side, "So…."
"I met her in 9th grade. I only knew her a couple months before she died." He confessed.
I nodded, "Okay."
Eli kept going, "Well…she was really beautiful but she was a lot shyer than me. We got paired up in a bio project and I just…well I fell for her."
"When did you guys start dating?" I asked.
"Maybe a month later." He said.
I waited as Eli continued, "Julia, well she had problems….her mom used t-to h-hit her…" He stuttered.
I bit my bottom lip, "Oh Eli…I'm sorry."
Eli caressed my cheek, "You have nothing to be sorry about my sweet blue eyes."
I reached up and wiped a stray tear from his cheek, "Will you tell me more…?"
Eli nodded, "The first time Julia and I….well she moved in with me. I didn't really want her around her mom if she was going to hit her so she moved in."
"That was sweet of you." I smiled.
Eli blushed, "Thanks, I would do the same for you, you know?"
I smiled wider, "Really?"
Eli kissed my cheek, "Of course."
He kept talking, "You see, Julia…well she wanted to try sex."
"Try sex?" I asked, it sounded weird.
Eli nodded, "She liked to try new things a lot, and she wanted to try sex."
"Oh." I said.
Eli frowned at me saddened response. He tucked his hand under my chin and brought it up to look at him, "Hey, look at me."
I shyly peeked up at Eli. He slid his fingers in my hair, "Don't be sad please, or if you must be, at least tell me."
I gently shut my eyes against his chest, "It's just weird."
Eli kissed my head, "I do love you Clare. Julia is a part of my past and that is where she will remain. But I need you to understand that I can't take back anything with her Clare, and I don't want to."
I frowned, but I knew I should not be sad. He did love Julia and she was a part of him. It's not that I'm jealous; it's just weird loving Eli so much and him being the only one I have ever loved and him having Julia.
Eli looks nervous by my silence. Eli leans down and whispers, "Clare…p-please….say something."
I don't. I bite my bottom lip and hold in words I would regret letting escape my mouth. I love Eli, but I just….
"Clare?" He croaked.
I looked up, a little stunned at the noise. Eli cupped my cheek, "….please?" He whispered.
I took in a breath, "I….never mind…."
Eli rolled on his side and scooted from me, taking all the warmth from my body.
I understood why he was mad. But he needed to understand why I was mad.
I scooted to Eli and hesitantly put an arm around his waist, "Eli…."
He clutched my hand so quickly I gasped!
Eli brought my hand up and placed it on what I assumed was his heart because I felt a pulse under my hand.
Eli kissed my hand three times, "I. Love. You."
I smiled, "And I love you Eli."
He turned back over and kissed me lightly, "I know it's hard for you, and I hate that, and though I have no right to, I'm asking you to bear with me. I love you Clare Edwards and I promise you I'm going to get better, but I need you, or I can't."
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Clare brought me home tonight. She brought me up to my room and helped me into my freshly clean bed.
"I'll be right back okay?" She whispered before pressing her precious lips on mine.
"Where are you going?" I asked.
"I'll be back." And she slipped out the door.
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"Cece?" I knocked on Eli's mom's bedroom door.
She looked up and smiled weakly, "Come on in baby girl."
I went in and sat next to her on the bed. We had not talked since the incident and I didn't want her to hate me.
Cece looked over at me, "So you two worked it out?"
I nodded, but stared at my hands, "I-I feel terrible. I really didn't want to hurt him Cece. I promise…."
Cece nodded, "Honey, no one blames you. Eli was not mad he was just….scarred. Clare Eli's my baby boy and I have to know that you won't hurt him."
"Cece I promise you, I won't leave him. I love Eli more than anything and if anything this little bump only made us more in love. Please….please don't hate me…." I trailed off.
Cece smiled and hugged me, "Oh baby girl I could never hate you. We love you. You have changed Eli. I can tell. But I need you to know he's a bit of a mess and if you can't handle it, you need to let him know what's wrong. Eli can communicate, he can adjust, just next time tell he needs to back off when you start feeling uncomfortable, tell him as soon as you feel it."
I nod, "I will. I promise."
Cece pressed a lipstick covered kiss on my cheek, "I love you baby girl."
I smiled, "I love you too Cece."
She giggled, "Okay, you can go see him now."
I hugged her once more, "Can I sleep over?"
Cece smiled wide, "Of course."
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Clare slipped back in the room and sat next to me on the bed, "Hey." She whispered.
I wrapped my arms around her neck, "Hey. Where did you go?" I asked her.
Clare nuzzled my neck with her adorable face, "I just went to go talk to Cece."
"About….?" I pushed.
She giggled, "Girl stuff baby."
I chuckled and nodded, "Alight."
"Do you have something I can wear?" She asks me.
"For what?" I asked as she plays with my bangs, I let her.
She giggled and kissed my nose, "To sleep in silly."
I rolled my eyes, "Don't you have pajamas?"
Clare kissed my lips, "I want to sleep in something of yours…." She trailed off.
"Do you want me to grab something for you?" I hoped she would just get it herself; my leg was really hurting….
Clare shook her head, "Just tell me what I can wear and where I can find it."
I shrugged, "You can wear whatever you want baby, but my more pajama like stuff is the drawers."
Clare nodded, "Alright, I'll be back."
She hopped up and started to look around me drawers. Clare grabbed something and scampered off to the bathroom.
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When Clare came back she was blushing, wearing one of my shorter Eyes Set To Kill tee shirts. She quickly dove under the covers and curled up to me.
I chuckled, "Clare?"
"Yes?" She whispered as she hid her face in my chest.
I kissed her hair, "Do you love me?"
Clare nodded, "Yeah?"
I chuckled, "Well then would you mind…..hopping out of this bed and letting me get a good look at you?"
Clare bit her bottom lip to hold in a giggle, "Baby you can't be serious…"
I poked out my bottom lip, "…."
Clare rolled her eyes, "Five seconds."
Clare hopped out of the bed and did a little spin for me, and…..I got a glimpse of her purple panties…..
Clare blushed as I smirked and she got back in bed.
I wrapped my arms around her and kissed both her pink cheeks, "You are so perfect and beautiful my dear."
Clare giggled, "I love you."
I turned over on my side, "Promise me something."
Clare turned and wrapped my long fingers around her tiny ones, "Okay."
"Promise me that you'll be here, always okay?" I asked.
Clare kissed my lips, "I'll make you a deal."
"Okay?" I said.
"You save me and I'll save you." She whispered.
I pressed a kiss to her lips and as we drew away I whispered, "I need you to save me tonight."
A/N: I know, sucky ending…..I couldn't figure out how to do it.