Authors Note: This is my what if in season two. Sam didn't die and Dean had didn't sell his soul but something else horrible had happened to the brothers more to Dean then Sam and left Dean with a HUGE responsibility…


Prologue

Dean shot Azazel in the head and he fell down with a quick thud. His body went through what looked like electrocution shaking and trembling and lighting up. Then there was silence. The gates were closed thanks to Bobby and Ellen and…

Dean looked around. She wasn't there. She wasn't anywhere to be found.

He looked right at Sam. "Sam! Where's Alex?"

Sam, Ellen and Bobby searched throughout the graveyard until Dean saw Sam stop a few feet away and lean on a tree with his hand over his mouth.

"Sam?"

Sam turned around and saw his oldest brother running up to him. Sam stopped him putting his hands on his shoulders. "No, no, Dean. I don't think…" But Sam was cut off when Dean pushed Sam away and walked slowly towards Alex.

Azazel had gotten her good. Throwing her against the trees and a small branch was going right through her back.

Dean's eyes teared up as he kneeled down and carefully, not to push the branch in farther into her, turned her to look at her. Her breathing was shallow and blood was everywhere.

"Alex?" He sniffed running his hand against her cheek and pushing the hair out the way. It started to rain as Alex opened her eyes half lidded and she smiled up at him which only made the tears fall out of his eyes even faster. "Alex, baby. We're gonna get you out of here. Ok?" He nodded putting his arms under her legs but she put her hands on his chest making him stop. He looked at her as she shook her head.

"Dean…" She coughed and blood splattered out.

Ellen put her hand to her mouth as Bobby put his arm around her. Sam was back against the tree. The three of them stared at the young couple on the ground.

"It's…it won't work…" She coughed again.

"What…what are you talking about? We can get you to the hospital and everything will…"

He stopped as she continued to shake her head. He knew he was just trying to convince himself about her being ok when he knew deep down inside she was going to die.

"Tell…tell Sam to see." Dean looked down at her confused and she smiled at him. "Just-just tell him and tell Dane," tears filled her eyes as she started to think of Dane, "tell him t-t-to n-not gr-r-row up so fast and…and tell Dean…"

She coughed up more blood and he lifted her head up to help her breath. "I'm right here. I'm right here. Tell me what?" He looked into her eyes that were slowly losing its color.

"Tell Dean to love."

Her eyes slowly left his as her head tilted back and she was gone. "Alex…" He shook her and she didn't move. "Alex! No, no, come on Alex don't leave me! I-I don't know what to do! I can't do this without you!" He put his forehead against hers and cradled her in his arms as he cried.

Dean pulled up to a small house and looked at it. The lights were still on and he looked at the clock knowing everyone should be asleep. He ran his hand through his hair and looked at the spot next to him that was empty.

He smiled to himself thinking of the past couple years when Sam and Alex would fight over shotgun.

He looked back at the house and shut off the engine. He sighed getting out of the car wondering how he was going to do this but he knew he had to. He had a responsibility even bigger now that Alex was gone but he had Sam and Bobby to help him out when he needed and Sam would be on the road with him.

He was lost in thought and he didn't even notice he was at the front door of that house. He ran a hand down his face then knocked a few times. It took a couple minutes for the door to open and there stood an older woman known as, Rebecca Thompson.

"Dean…everything alright? Where's Alex?"

Dean closed his eyes for a second and looked at her. Rebecca gasped putting her hands over her heart and ushered Dean in.

"I-I don't know what to say other than I'm sorry, Dean. If there's anything you need…"

He nodded knowing what she was going to say. She frowned staring at him knowing he was hurting badly. She had known Alex and Dean for the longest time, since they helped her with a ghost problem. She knew the love they had for each other and it was strong even stronger now than ever before.

"I just…I just came…"

She smiled at him and nodded as she walked to the back of the house. Dean waited looking around the room. He didn't know when he'd be back here but he knew he had to get away. This place just held too many memories of Alex for him.

He heard Rebecca coming out of the back room talking. Dean looked up and smiled tears filling his eyes but he quickly wiped them away.

There was his son…his beautiful son. He was about eight months old and his hair was a dirty blond like his but he had his mothers blue eyes.

"Dane, look who's here," said Rebecca. Dane continued to rub his tired eyes as he looked up to see his father and a small smile spread across Dane's face. She put him on the floor and he walked slowly over to his father.

Dean was kneeling down on the floor and when Dane reached him he scooped him up in his arms and held him tightly against him. Dane was the only thing he had close to him that was Alex's too. Dean closed his eyes taking in Dane's scent and kissing his forehead. He said a low thank you to Rebecca and walked out the door to the car.

Dane lifted his head looking around in the dark and cuddled up against his father's chest hiding his head from the shadows. Dean cracked a smile and put him in his car seat in the front right next to him.

As the two sat in the car Dane looked around and looked at Dean. "Mama?"

Dean's hands tightened around the wheel and looked at his son into his curious eyes. Dean ran his hand through the small amount of hair on his head and smiled softly down at his son. "Mama went away for a while. It's gonna be me, you and Uncle Sammy."

"Ammy!" He squealed and Dean smiled but it went away quickly.

"Don't worry Dane; I won't let anything happen to you. I promise. It'll be me and you till the end."


Authors Note: Ok you all don't have to review this chapter since you've read it before. So just go to the second chapter. The story is way different now :D