"Well, this is awkward" Jacob whispered to himself.
The Cullens had gone out hunting in preparations for today's festivities. That left Bella with Jacob all day, but it was much worse than that. Since the graduation would take place in Forks, there was no point in dragging Bella all the way to La Push. That's why Jacob sat in Bella's room. His father and Charlie were watching TV downstairs and Charlie had insisted that him and Bella hang out in her room. They both gladly obliged and now they stood awkwardly staring at each other.
Well, they were avoiding eye contact.
"Look Jacob... Jake. We need to talk" She sighed
"Are you going to add the cherry on the icing?" Jacob said dryly.
"Okay, I deserve that. I don't expect you to be friendly to me when I haven't been friendly to you"
"No..." Jacob said sarcastically.
"I see this is going to be hard"
"Just spill it" Jacob said annoyed.
He was done stepping around her. That's why he turned and glared at her. She flinched at the intensity, but held her ground, biting her bottom lip.
"I'm sorry..." She said as her eyes began to water.
"I know, but it doesn't change anything. The damage has been done"
"You took him away from me! How can you not accept my apology? You have to do that at least!" She screamed as her face turned bright red.
"I have to?! I don't have to do anything. You don't tell me what to do!" Jacob said defensively.
"I'm trying to play nice here. Why aren't you?!" She accused
"Are you kidding? You expect everything to go back to normal after all the shit you have put me through? I felt like scum because of you! You thought I had some weird vendetta against you. I was your best-friend and you thought all these horrible things about me! For weeks I have been glared at and attacked by you. You have all your sweet words for Edward. How do you think that makes me feel? You openly drool all over him!" Jacob said out of breath.
His chest felt less heavy, but he was warm with anger.
"Oh! You think you're the only one here with things to say?! You drooled all over him even when he was with me. I saw the way you stared at him all the time! It was worse when he would turn your way. It almost felt like you guys were connecting on a whole different level. He was practically mentally cheating on me and I stood right next him! You didn't care about me at all! If you did, you would have kept your distance..."
"It wasn't about you!" Jacob screamed making Bella close her mouth, "Don't you think I tried for your sake? I did! But then I couldn't fight it anymore. It was killing me! And you didn't care!" He accused
"I didn't have time to care. I was desperately trying to still hold on to Edward! Don't you understand that? Edward was my priority"
"I do get that. Edward was and is my priority, too" Jacob said
They fell into an awkward silence. They had both been up close and screaming at each other. They sat down, Jacob taking a seat on her bed while she sat on her computer chair.
"Who could have imagined me and you fighting over Edward?" Bella said and laughed bitterly.
Jacob didn't find any humor in her words. He shifted uncomfortably on her bed.
"Months ago you guys were fighting over me" She continued
"I just don't get it. You were supposed to be my..." She starting saying, but stopped mid-sentence.
"Your what?" Jacob asked
"I don't know. I don't know what I'm trying to say!" She said frustrated and shot up to her feet in an attempt to run away.
"Hold up! What's going on? Just tell me" Jacob said worried as he held her back.
"It hurt... It hurt because" She began to say and started to sob, "I didn't just lose Edward. I lost you, too!" She said and pulled out of his grasp, running downstairs.
Jacob stood there, numbly. He wasn't sure what was going on, but once he heard the slamming of the front door, he ran after her.
"What's going on?" Charlie asked alarmed as Jacob ran past him.
"Later" Jacob simply said and closed the door behind him.
Bella was getting into her truck when Jacob reached her. She slammed her car door and walked the opposite side. Jacob jogged up to her as she walked along the side of the house to her back yard.
"Leave me alone" Bella said
"You can't just run out like that. What did you mean?" Jacob said as he turned her around.
"You loved me, despite my flaws. You were there for me. How are you going to do that without a girl falling for you" She said teary-eyed.
"What are you trying to say?" Jacob said in disbelief.
"That... That I... I love you, too" She whispered and hid her face in her hands.
Jacob took a couple steps back. He was either trying to get space between them or simply trying to run away. All the feelings he had for her came bursting to the top. His eyes watered and his heart warmed. He felt sad, but there was an underlining of happiness. Bella had loved him, too. All along he had thought that he had a one-sided love, but it hadn't been like that. Suddenly, he clenched his hands into fists.
This didn't change anything. This feeling that he felt didn't compare to what he felt for Edward.
"Why are you telling me this?" He asked through clenched teeth.
"Because... Now that you know my feelings, does it change anything?" She sniffled
"You don't feel anything for me anymore?" She said and took a couple of steps towards him.
"I do... But it doesn't change what I feel for Edward"
"How do you..."
"I imprinted" Jacob said as she pressed her body against his, "What are you doing?"
"Kiss me" She demanded and he looked at her surprised.
He took a step back, but it was too late. She got on her toes and hooked her arms around his neck. Her soft lips pressed against his frozen ones. It was different than with Leah. He had butterflies in his stomach and his heart thumped against his chest. His hands moved on their own and wrapped around her waist. He pressed her closer against him, if possible. Their lips moved against each other softly. He liked it, but there was something missing. It didn't feel right. He kissed her one more time knowing that it would be the last time. He pushed her back gently.
"Wow. How was that?" She said out of breath as she fell back on her feet.
"We shouldn't have done that" Jacob said
"But it felt so..."
"Wrong. It wasn't right" Jacob said
"I know you liked it. You pressed me against you" She said
"I'm not saying I didn't. It doesn't change that it was wrong. I can't do this. We crossed the line" Jacob said
"It was just a kiss..."
"I didn't see you taking it this lightly when I kissed Edward" Jacob spat
"That was... That was..."
"Different? I don't think so. Explain that to Edward" Jacob said as he shook his head.
"I don't have to explain anything to him. It's not like he explained anything to me" She scoffed and crossed her arms over her chest.
"Well, I do"
Bella simply huffed and stormed past him. Jacob followed silently until he saw her go back inside the house. He sighed and sat on her front steps. He didn't want to be near her. He was mad at her and at himself. He couldn't believe that he had kissed her back.
'How am I supposed to explain this to Edward?' Jacob thought
He cradled his head in his hands in defeat. Today was going to be a long day.
Heads turned their way when Jacob walked in with Bella. Obviously they were making their own conclusions as to why Jacob was coming in with her. Jacob only ignored the stares and whispers as they walked to the chairs. Jacob quickly spotted Edward and before he could control his thoughts, Edward glared at them.
"You... You kissed him" Edward said in disbelief as he stomped their way.
'This isn't happening' Jacob thought nervously as he looked around them.
"I'm sorry" Jacob said quickly, but Edward pushed past him.
"How dare you! Why? Why did you kiss him?" Edward growled and Bella physically shrank back.
"It's not like you haven't!" She spat as she began to blush.
"You kissed him in an attempt to try and convert him" He accused
"And didn't he kiss you in an attempt to convert you, too"
"And you were pissed at him about it. So don't act like I don't have anything to be mad about" He said
"Welcome to my freaking shoes!" She screamed and stormed past them.
"What just happened?" Jacob said in disbelief.
"I think you just had them fighting over you" Alice giggled and then quickly ran off after Bella.
"Don't. I don't want to do this here" Edward said and walked back to his seat.
'Really? Now he says that?' Jacob thought as people began to act like they hadn't heard anything.
Jacob took a seat next to Charlie and his father. He couldn't ignore the questioning stare that Charlie was giving him, but he refused to look his way. The whole thing was torturous. He only felt a little relieved when the music began to play and all eyes were on the ceremony.
Even he got distracted. He looked on as speeches were given. He wondered what kind of speech would have been said on his graduation. He let himself imagine for a bit more, when reality hit him. There would be no such thing as talk of the future and what not. He was destined to protect his land and even though it was sort of fulfilling, he wondered what kind of life he could have had without being a wolf. What kind of career would he have chased? He used to have big dreams. As big dreams could get, coming from a native. He wanted to own his own shop. He wanted to be someone's boss. He wanted to be the guy everyone had to go to if they wanted the job to be done. He wanted to dirty his hands every day.
Being a wolf wasn't all bad though. He liked the power. The fact that he had a family that expanded past his father and two sisters. He didn't have to worry about having a home or getting a job. The elders took care of him and his pack. Some would even call Jacob lucky.
'Yeah. I am lucky' Jacob thought
"Edward Cullen" They announced and Jacob was brought back from his thoughts.
He was the first one to stand up and cheer for Edward. His voice could be heard over the rest and even Edward turned to him. Jacob gave him a thumbs up that Edward was glad to return with a chuckle. Jacob continued clapping until Edward took a seat and so did he. Jacob didn't have to wait much longer when the whole thing was over.
"Are you coming back to our place?" Charlie asked as everyone began to move about.
"No. I have to take care of some things" Jacob lied as he tried to scout Edward in the crowd.
"Is it true?" He asked
"Charlie..." Billy said warningly.
"Is what true?" Jacob asked
"What Bella and Edward were saying. Are you... Are you with Edward?" He asked
"Jake, I've been looking for you. Let's go" Edward said as he appeared at Jacob's side.
He had his hand extended for him to take. Everything felt like it was in slow motion as his heart felt like it was going to burst right out of his chest. His cheeks warmed and his hand got clammy, but he placed his hand in Edward's.
'There's your answer...' Jacob thought as he looked at Charlie.
"See you" Jacob said and let Edward lead him out.
"You drove right?" Edward asked as he maneuvered them through the groups of people.
"Yeah. Alice said she would be spending the rest of the day with Bella until the party" Jacob answered
"Do you want to go over to my place?" He asked
"Yeah..." Jacob said a little too excitedly, but Edward only chuckled.
"You don't mind this, do you?" Edward asked as he pulled their joined hands up.
"N... No" Jacob said embarrassed.
"Okay. Good" Edward said and held his hand tighter.
"Not that I'm complaining, but why..."
"I don't know. I just want to make sure that everyone knows you're with me... not with Bella" He said
"Are we going to talk about that?" Jacob asked
"How? I mean, I know how, but why?" Edward asked as they got inside Jacob's car.
"I don't know. For months I loved her and I wanted her to feel the same way as me. You could say I was desperate, but when she made it clear she had chosen you, I knew I had to let her go. It was such a roller coaster ride and then when I imprinted on you... It just got crazier. Now, she tells me that she loved me, too? I guess a small part of me... was curious" Jacob admitted
"You love her"
"No!" Jacob said quickly and turned to look at him, "What I feel or felt for her doesn't compare to what I feel for you" Jacob said sternly.
"But you kissed her. You liked it"
"You've kissed her, too. Anyways, you're the one who's still in love with her" He accused
"That's different. I wanted to marry her. I thought she was my mate"
"So? You can't use that as an excuse forever!" Jacob growled and turned on his car.
"I'm not. It's... It's just how it is"
"Well she kissed me and I liked it. That just how it is" Jacob spat and peeled out of the school parking lot.
"Well... Whatever" Edward grumbled.
Jacob couldn't help but to smile at Edward.
"Whatever? That's all you have to say?" Jacob said
"What do you want me to say? That I'm jealous? That a part of me wanted to rip Bella from your side?"
"Well, that would be a start" Jacob sighed
"Feelings like jealousy are not good for a relationship"
"So... We're in a relationship?" Jacob asked sounding hopeful.
They hadn't quite gotten to labeling themselves. He knew that they wanted to start slow, but things had escalated quickly between them. They could hardly call themselves friends now.
"You thought we were friends?" Edward scoffed
"No... It's just that last time you weren't sure... And you wanted to take things slowly"
"It's not like we're taking things slow... And besides, I really like you. I've said that before. How could you possibly think we weren't in a relationship?" Edward asked
"You've never said anything. At the most, you've said that you have "romantic feelings" for me. You could have said something sooner"
"I thought it was pretty obvious. I just don't go messing around with random people. Do you?" He asked
"Yeah. Let me call up all my booty calls" Jacob said sarcastically and then shook his head, "You know I don't. You're my first... In everything" Jacob said blushing.
"I know I'm being an asshole right now. It's just that I still can't believe you kissed Bella... I think I understand now when you said that she gets under your skin" Edward sighed
"This is one fucked up love triangle" Jacob huffed and Edward chuckled.
"I'm sorry" Edward said after a while.
"I know, but I kind of liked seeing you all possessive" Jacob admitted
"I basically outed you in front of everyone; even your dad" Edward continued.
"It's whatever. I have more shit to worry about than caring about people knowing that I'm gay. Newborn army, Victoria and vampire boyfriend sort of beat being gay. And let's not forget I'm a wolf, so yeah; the least of my worries" Jacob laughed
"What about your dad?"
"He already knew we had something going on. He's already had time to get used to the idea" Jacob said as he shrugged his shoulders.
"So, are you ready for the party?" Jacob asked as they neared Edward's house.
"Not really. If it was up to me, I would lock myself in my room"
"I wouldn't mind that" Jacob said
"I bet you wouldn't" Edward teased him, "But I promised that I would at least show up for a bit and mingle" He said
"Lame..." Jacob sympathized with him.
"Jake..." Edward asked as they parked outside of his house.
"Hmm..." Jacob said as he turned off the car and turned to Edward.
Edward leaned forward and caught Jacob off guard. He was startled for a second, but quickly fell to pace with Edward as he kissed him. It was a soft kiss. Edward lifted his hand and placed it against Jacob's cheek. He caressed it softly with his thumb as Jacob sighed against the touch. There was no urgency, it was just nice and slow. They pulled away lazily with Edward smirking at Jacob, who was flushed.
"Jake, I like you... A lot"
"Uhuh" Jacob lamely replied.
He wasn't sure what to say. He thought it would have been worse to say that he loved him. But then he wondered if it was truly bad, wasn't Edward his boyfriend officially now?
A/N: Hey guys! So, I decided to be mean. I know. How could I do such a thing?! Sorry. This is one of the shortest chapters. I figured that I have kept you guys waiting long enough. Basically, I'm splitting up the day into two chapters. The next chapter will be as equally short. I guess it's my lame attempt at prolonging the end because it's coming!
Sadly, it is true. I want to say maybe 2-3 more chapters. I'm debating on a sequel, but I guess it all depends on how it ends and how you guys feel about it.
Once again, let me know what you think about the chapter. I'm pretty sure there are going to be a lot more Bella haters. Eek.