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AN: There will be no such thing as imprinting in this story. And also Bella never heard Edward's voice in her head, cause that's just crazy. She only did those dangerous things to break the promise she made to Edward to not do anything stupid, because it was the only way she could get back at him for leaving her.
I was sitting on the plane between Edward and Alice, Edward's hand resting on my thigh. I shivered under his touch, I had forgotten how cold he was, the polar opposite of Jacob's warm, comforting touch. Jacob.I thought sadly. My mind drifted back to the last time I'd seen him.
I was sitting in the car waiting for Alice to see to some last second details for our flight.
"Bella, don't do this, don't go." He pleaded
"Jake I have to go." I said, imploring him with my eyes to understand.
"He left you! And now you're just gonna go running back to him? Risking your life for him?" He said getting angry now, his voice rising in desperation.
"If I don't he'll die."
"So?" He challenged.
"Jake..you don't mean that."
"Yes. I do." He said his voice cold and hard and devoid of emotion. This was not My Jacob.
At this moment Alice came running out the door towards the car.
"Jake I can't talk about this right now, I have to go. I'll call you when I get back."
He sneered. "You know what Bella, don't bother. Go save your bloodsucker."
Before I could say anything else he took off into the woods. Alice jumped into the car.
"Ready to go Bella?" she asked
No. I thought, watching Jacob disappear.
"Yes, let's go."
Edward's voice brought me back to the present.
"Hmm?" I said sleepily.
"Bella, we're home."
I was back at home lying on my bed, Edward sitting on a chair on the opposite side of the room, looking anywhere but at me. We had been silent the whole drive home.
"Why did you leave?" I asked abruptly.
"Bella.." He breathed, taken by surprise his eyes darting up to finally meet mine.
I stared back at him expectantly.
"Bella, you must understand that I only wanted what was best for you."
"What's best for me?" I said incredulously. "You think what was best for me was to be abandoned by the man I loved?"
His eyes were sad. "I was trying to keep you safe, to keep you from the constant danger that my presence seemed to always inflict upon you."
"That wasn't your decision to make! I'm a big girl I can take care of myself. It's what I've been doing for the past year." I said coldly. Well that wasn't entirely true. There was no way I would have made it through this year without Jacob.
He flinched at my words. "Bella I'm so sorry. Please tell me how I can make it up to you. I'll do any-" he trailed off. "Bella earlier you said you "loved" me. Does that mean I'm too late? That you have found someone else? That would be quite..fair."
I had said that hadn't I? I'd spent the last year convinced that I was completely in love with Edward. But I think finally seeing him again made me realize that he wasn't perfect and that I had been putting him up on a pedestal. I thought about his question. Had I found someone else? I know I loved Jacob but he was my family, I loved him like I loved Charlie. Liar.My subconscious said. "You know what Edward you don't get to just come back here after all this time and ask me questions like that."
"Bella.." Edward began.
But I wasn't listening. Edward's question had reminded me that I had not yet called Jacob. He didn't know that I had made it back and I was perfectly safe. I had to call him right know. I ran out of my room and down to the kitchen.
"Bella?" Edward questioned, confused by my sudden departure. "Where are you going?"
But I didn't slow down or answer. I grabbed the phone and dialed Jake's number. After the 4th ring Billy picked up.
"Hi Billy." I said breathlessly. "Can I talk to Jake?"
"He's not here right now Bella." I recognized this tone; it was the same tone Billy used with me when I would call after Jacob changed. He was lying to me.
"Okay. Well if you could just tell him I called?"
"I will." He said gruffly and then he hung up the phone. Wow. Jacob must be pretty mad at me if he turned his Dad against me.
"Bella who were you talking to?" Edward asked.
"Huh? Oh just Billy, Jacob's dad."
"Jacob? As in that dog Alice was telling me about?" He said with disgust.
"No, as in my best friend Jacob Black who just happens to be a werewolf!" I said angrily.
Edward looked at me quizzically. "Bella don't tell me that you're in love with this dog."
I looked at him in disbelieve. "Oh my God, Edward. I'm not listening to this anymore."
I turned on my heel and started walking towards the front door.
"Bella, where are you going?"
"I'm going to see Jake." Not that it's any of your business, I thought.
In a second he was standing in front of me.
"I'm afraid I can't allow that."
Oh hell no. "I'm afraid that's none of your fucking business." I retorted. I saw his eyes widen in surprise. I had never sworn at him before. "Let's get one thing straight, you are not my father you cannot tell me what to do. You're not even my boyfriend; no you gave up the right to have any say in my life when you left me. So let me be very clear when I say this. You are nothing to me." I said enunciating each word slowly. "You left and I moved on." As I said those words I finally realized how true they were. I had moved on, I had fallen in love with my best friend. My Jacob. "So I'll be going now, and don't you dare try and stop me." And with that I pushed Edward aside and went out the door and climbed into my truck.
I pulled into Jacob's driveway and hurriedly put my truck in park and jumped out. I ran up to the door and knocked. Momentarily Billy arrived at the door. He opened it and sounding slightly annoyed said.
"Bella I thought I told you Jacob isn't here."
"Billy I know he's here and he's just avoiding me. Please, I have to talk to him." I said shakily.
"Bella I don't think that's such a good idea.." he said beginning to close the door.
"Sorry Billy, but I need to talk to him." I said pushing the door open and brushing past him and I headed towards Jacob's room.
I threw the door open and my heart broke at the sight before me. Jacob sat on his bed his shoulders hunched and his head in his hands. He looked utterly defeated. He lifted his head at the sound of my entrance and I saw tears in his eyes.
"Jake." I gasped.
Jacob angrily wiped the tears away. "Fuck." He swore, embarrassed to be caught in such an intimate moment of despair. "What do you want Bella?" He asked his voice acidic.
"Jake..I…I had to come see you.."
"Why? Wanted to tell me all about your lovely vacation to Italy? Did you have a good time with your bloodsuckers." He taunted.
"It was hardly a vacation Jake." I replied getting angry myself now. "Anyways they're not my bloodsuckers."
"Oh yeah? What about your..Edward?" He said seeming to choke on the last word.
"He's not my Edward. And I am not his Bella." I said with conviction.
His eyes darted up to mine staring at me intently. "What?" He breathed, looking cautiously optimistic.
"I ended things with him."
"You..you what? Why?" He said still not seeming to believe me.
"Because he's controlling and overbearing, and he never treated me as his equal. He treated me like some fragile little girl who couldn't handle anything. I realized what we had was never love, it was infatuation. I was in love with the idea of being in love. And I loved the idea that someone as perfect as him could love someone as plain as me. But I've come to realize that he's not perfect and I am not plain."
"That leech never deserved you." Jacob growled.
I smiled down at him. "There was another important reason I ended things with him." I said walking over to sit next to Jake on his bed. I reached for his hand and entwined my fingers in his.
He looked at me curiously. "Oh yeah? What was that?"
He raised his eyebrows. "Me?" He asked incredulously.
I smiled. "Yeah, you. I'm in love with you Jacob Black, and if you'll let me I want to spend every day trying to make you as happy as you make me."
He looked at me in complete shock his mouth opening and closing as if he couldn't formulate an appropriate response. "Bella, do you really mean that?" He asked his eyes hopeful.
Did he think I was lying to him? "Of course I do Jake. I'm just sorry it took so long for me to figure it out."
"Bella you have no idea how happy it makes me to finally hear you say that! God, I love you so much." He said smiling from ear to ear.
I smiled lightly; I brought my free hand up to stroke his face. I pushed my hand higher to run it through his soft hair. He sighed contentedly. "I've wanted to do that for a while." I confessed. He raised an eyebrow an amused smirk on his face. I hit him lightly on the arm. "Don't let it go to your head." I teased. I got up so I was kneeling and I pulled his face so it was inches away from mine. He looked at me intensely, not smiling anymore. He was breathlessly anticipating my next move. Slowly I moved my head forward closing the distance between us as our lips met for the first time.